A Complicated Summer of Love (Complicated Love Series #3)

by Midgley, D M

  I’m so frustrated that I can’t tell him how I feel.

  I feel so stupid that this amazing guy standing in front of me has changed his ways and wants to commit to me and only me. This guy before me was a player once upon a time that used to bed every woman possible, and I’m annoyed with myself for not taking the bull by the horns and telling him that he’s mine and I’m his…forever.

  “Beautiful?” I jerk back from my thoughts to find Karl looking slightly concerned. “Are you okay?”

  “Um…yeah, I’m fine.” I take a deep breath and decide that now is the time to tell him.

  “I…um…” I have a huge lump in my throat and I’m finding it hard to swallow.

  Why is this so hard?

  “I…want…um…” I’m starting to piss myself off. I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I take another deep breath and go to speak again, but before I get a chance, Karl crushes his lips to mine in a bruising, punishing kiss. It’s a really possessive kiss, so much so that my heart starts skipping beats and is beating erratically. He moves a hand and places it behind my head and pulls me closer. I run my hands up his bare chest and I can feel every muscle I touch, flexing and twitching. I love his smooth skin beneath my fingers. Since being here, he has tanned a lot and it really suits him. I trail my fingers up and wrap them around his neck while he glides his other hand down onto my ass. I love when he squeezes my ass cheeks, and he doesn’t disappoint me.

  I moan when he slips his tongue into my mouth. It feels fantastic and he doesn’t leave any part of my mouth untouched. My head feels fuzzy and I feel so lightheaded when he massages my tongue with his. I’m so swept up in the kiss and the feelings that he’s evoking in me that it takes me a second to realize that Karl has broken the kiss. He’s smiling that charming smile I love so much and still has me wrapped up in his arms. Then I hear them. I glance to my right and spot Annabelle, Joshua, and Brandon whistling and making cat calls while watching us. I blush ten shades of red and bury my head in Karl’s chest. I hear Karl chuckling.

  “Beautiful, I think we’re creating quite a show out here.” He chuckles again. “Why don’t we go back to my bungalow?” I look up and see the desire and longing in his eyes. It’s been ages since we were together and I’m slightly nervous, thinking about being with him again. I notice that everyone seems to be walking back to the bungalows because it’s getting late.

  “Uh…what about Brandon?” He seems to think for a second before looking over toward our friends who are still standing there with giant smiles on their faces. I see Brandon nod his head and that seems to be the answer that Karl is waiting for. I gasp when I realize that they know where we’re going and what we’re going to be doing, and I’m really embarrassed right about now.

  “I can’t believe you just did that!” He looks at me and laughs.

  “What? I don’t know what you are talking about?” I slap him in the chest and he pretends that I have hurt him.

  “Oh, stop being a baby, and you know what I’m talking about. You have basically just asked Brandon if we can go back to your bungalow and…and—”

  “Fuck?” I blush when he says that out loud and he chuckles. “I was just making sure that he won’t be walking in on us, anytime tonight.”

  I step out of his arms and glare, but it doesn’t affect Karl. Before I know it, he lifts me up in his arms and starts carrying me toward his bungalow. I can hear Annabelle, Joshua, and Brandon carrying on behind us, whistling and making crude noises. I can’t help but laugh at their comments as I’m here, in the arms of the man I love and cherish with all my heart. I start feeling those nervous butterflies in my stomach and I can’t decide if I’m more nervous or more excited for what’s about to happen tonight.

  Karl lets me down just inside the door and closes it behind him. He stands there, looking at me and I can’t help but shift my weight from foot to foot under his stare. I try not to look away from his eyes. I can still see the desire, the longing and I’m pretty sure that I see love and adoration there too, which is making me feel all giddy inside.

  I wish I could just tell him how I feel.

  He licks his lips seductively and I can’t help but look and watch. I see the slight smirk on his face and I know he’s done it deliberately. He slowly walks to me and I feel my heart beating rapidly.

  “You’re so beautiful, Tracy.” He stands just in front of me without touching me. I want him to touch me so badly that I seem to be leaning forward, trying to get close to him. “I want to see that incredible body that I’ve been dreaming about. Strip for me?” The way he says it has me wanting him badly. I feel a tingle between my thighs and all I want to do is cross my legs to relieve this deep-seated need for him to be buried inside me. I take a breath before taking my bikini bottoms and top off. I’m so glad we’re at the beach in our bathing suits because it’s not long before I’m standing before him, naked.

  “Fuck, beautiful…I…” He seems to be rendered speechless, and I take that opportunity to step toward him so I’m a breath away from him. I can’t help but look down and see his cock, rock hard. I glide my fingers along the seam of his trunks and I hear a low groan emanating from him. I grab the waistband and pull them down until they fall to the floor. I stare wide-eyed at his thick, hard cock standing proud against his belly. I look up and see Karl smirking at me.

  “You like what you see, beautiful?”

  I can’t talk, but I lick my lips while I keep glancing at his cock. I decide to do something that we haven’t done before. I drop to my knees and I notice Karl’s large intake of breath. I look up and his smirk has vanished and all I see is the fire in his eyes. I gently stroke his cock, up and down, and it feels so silky and smooth. Karl moans loudly and it spurs me on to go a bit faster. I’m dying to get my mouth around him, so I swipe my tongue over the tip and make swirling patterns up and down. He seems to like it because he’s groaning and panting. It makes me feel powerful, so I take him into my mouth. I start off slowly by swirling my tongue around and pumping him in and out of my mouth. He surprises me by grabbing my head and before I know it, he’s pumping his cock in and out of my mouth. I can feel myself getting wet and I can’t wait for him to be buried inside me, but I want to do something for him and try and express how I feel. It’s so intense, and he seems to be enjoying it until he abruptly pulls out and helps me up of the floor. He crashes his lips back to mine and proceeds to devour my mouth. He pulls back.

  “That was too good. I wasn’t going to be able to hold on much longer and I want to be inside you for that.” He smiles and gives me a peck on the lips. “Get on the bed, beautiful.”

  I don’t argue getting on the bed on my hands and knees and crawling up the bed. I hear a groan behind me and I know I’m getting the reaction I wanted, so I wiggle my ass a bit more.

  “You look so good, beautiful.”

  I smile and turn over so I’m lying on my back. I lean up on my elbows and watch as Karl crawls up the bed toward me. He settles between my legs and I’m quivering with need, so much so that I feel like I’m going to combust. He grabs a condom from the top of the bedside table and rips the packet open rolling the condom over his cock. He looks at me and rests his forehead against mine. We just stare into each other’s eyes, and I’m kind of confused as to why he’s stopped. His eyes are sparkling, and I see all the love he has for me shining in his eyes. It makes me feel warm inside.

  “Beautiful, before we do anything more, I just want to know something?”

  I frown because I’m confused, but I nod my head for him to go on.

  “I need to know that this is more than sex to you. I know you love me and God knows I fucking love you so much that I can’t be without you anymore. I hate being apart from you, so I need to know what you want from me? I know we don’t know what’s going to happen in the future, but I promise here and now that I will try my very hardest to make you happy.” I smile and my heart melts at his heartfelt words.

  “I love you so much too, and I’
m sorry for making this hard. I was stupid and stubborn and I thought I knew what I wanted. I tried fighting this between us, but I can’t anymore, Karl. I want to be with you, and see how it goes between us. Deep down I know that we’re nothing like my parents. But I was so scared to take a chance on us and being with you is what I desperately want. I hate being apart from you, and I hated when you left Los Angeles. I felt like a part of me had been ripped apart and I can’t do that again.” It’s so hard to say what I want to, but I watch the broad smile on Karl’s face. He looks so happy and it makes me grin as well. He kisses me passionately, and it doesn’t take long for it to heat up again. I feel his tip poised at my entrance and with one thrust, he’s buried inside me. He stills while my body adjusts to him then he slowly withdraws out and back in again, and I can feel him showing me the love he feels for me. This sensation is taking over me, and I feel it everywhere throughout my body.

  “My God, beautiful, you feel so good.” His thrusts pick up a different rhythm and I feel my heart pounding in my chest. He’s building me up, and I’m on the brink of an orgasm. I feel like I’m in a different world, floating in the clouds. We lock eyes as he thrusts into me and his eyes are my undoing. I scream and shout his name as my orgasm hits. It’s so intense that I see stars before my eyes. Karl thrusts a couple more times before he is following me over into the sated, orgasmic tunnel I’m currently traveling in. He pulls out and rolls over onto his back beside me. We both lay there, trying to regulate our breathing. I turn over to him and rest my head on his chest. He wraps his arm around me, and it feels so right being here together. He kisses the top of my head and I can’t help but smile. I now know that this is right. We are supposed to be together, and I’m not going to deny it any longer.

  “I love you, Karl…so much.”

  He kisses me again on my head.

  “I love you too, beautiful.”

  TUESDAY

  Peace and quiet that’s what I need right now. Everyone is off doing their own thing. Tracy and Karl still haven’t made it out of the bungalow after a couple of days. Poor Brandon has been dozing on the cane sofa on the decking. Luckily enough the weather has been amazing as I knew it would be. Otherwise, it would have been worse for him. I have no idea where Lily, Brandon, or Maddison are located. Maybe having a threesome, by the way Lily and Maddison have been all over him. I really hope he realizes that Lily is the one for him because I have no idea what’s going on there.

  Annabelle told me that she’s going to the market again, she seems to like it there. We seem to be okay again. The meal she cooked me was brilliant, but it only brought on more of a sense of guilt and I hate that feeling. But I can’t seem to stop the thoughts rushing through my head. I’m glad we’re on good terms now, and I know I absolutely cannot tell her what happened. She will lose her shit if I do, and if I’m being honest, it’s my guilt to bare so I shouldn’t place that on Annabelle. She’s happy and that’s all that matters to me.

  I’m outside the bungalow eating my breakfast. I enjoy sitting out here in the mornings because the weather is perfect. I just need to chill out for five minutes. I feel exhausted already and I’m not sure if it’s anything to do with this situation I’ve gotten myself into. I could really do with a beer right now even though it’s early morning.

  “Hey, baby!” My head snaps up and I see Maddison walking toward me. She’s swaying her hips in a seductive gesture. I sigh and hope that she just goes away, but she’s like a leech.

  “What do you want Maddison?” She pouts and sits in the chair beside me.

  “Oh, baby. Why do you have to be so mean?”

  “I’m not being mean and don’t call me baby. Someone might hear you.” I try to ignore her while consuming the rest of my cereal. She places her elbow on the table and lays her head in her hand. She bats her eyelashes, but I’m not playing this game with her.

  “I haven’t spoken to you much since being here.”

  “Well, I’ve been spending all my time with my wife. You know her? Her name would be Annabelle.”

  She frowns and looks annoyed. “You don’t have to be so mean to me.”

  “Will you stop saying that? I haven’t been mean to you and, to be honest, I don’t care if you feel like that…just leave me alone.” I sip my coffee hoping that she’ll disappear.

  “Okay…fine. Why can’t we just be civil? I’m moving on with Brandon, and I think it’s time that you move on too.”

  Do I hear this correctly? I stare at her, not understanding what she’s going on about.

  “Look…” She places her hands, palm down on the table. “It was just a kiss, Joshua. I know you want more, but I can’t see how it will work. Brandon is kind, caring, and really likes me, so I have to at least give it a go with him. I love you, Joshua…I do, but it isn’t going to work.” She looks at me and I think I see sympathy in her eyes.

  “Whoa. Wait. Me? You don’t seem to understand that I’m married! You were the one who laid naked across my desk and waited for me. You kissed me, but I never kissed you back! I wouldn’t do that because I love Annabelle.” She laughs an unattractive nasally laugh.

  “I knew you wanted me, baby. I did those things because you sent out so many hints of your attraction to me.”

  I stare at her open mouthed. “What the hell are you talking about?”

  “You were so nice to me, and you loved the work I was doing for you. You flirted with me constantly. I knew it was wrong, but I had wanted you for a long time. Ever since Tammy used to tell me about you, and she even showed me a picture of you and her together.”

  That name causes a shiver to run down my spine, and not in a good way. Tammy was my ex-girlfriend, she ended up committing suicide. She had many psychological issues, and she ended up going after Annabelle when we first got together. I knew Tammy and Maddison were friends, but I thought Maddison was a lovely woman and Annabelle liked her straight away. Maddison came on as my PA when Tammy died, and everything was going fine. I treated her like any other employee, but thinking back now, there were times where her conduct at work was maybe a bit friendlier than it should have been.

  She was friends with Annabelle, so she was always at our house, and I thought she was a good friend. However, I was utterly shocked when the desk incident occurred. I never thought she liked me like that, and when she kissed me, I didn’t pull away straight away. It wasn’t because I wanted to kiss her, I was just taken aback. When I finally reacted and realized what she was doing, I pushed her away. I feel guilty for not pulling away sooner. Since then, she thinks that we had something between us. I told her that I wasn’t interested, and she seemed fine with it at the time. I hated it when Annabelle invited her on this holiday. I feel guilty because it happened, and I’m scared to tell Annabelle. Her friendship with Maddison would be over, and I don’t want to hurt her even though I didn’t do anything wrong. I’m scared of how it will look to her and how she might react.

  “Earth to Joshua.” I come back to the present and see Maddison snapping her fingers in front of my face. “Wow…you were miles away there.” She giggles and places her hand on top of mine. I stare at her hand for a few seconds before I rip my hand away from hers, my lip turning up in disgust.

  “Maddison, you have to stop this. I don’t want you, and I never have. This is all in your head.”

  “Oh yeah? Then why haven’t you told Annabelle if it’s so innocent?” She leans back in her chair and crosses her legs, a smug look appears on her face. “I’ll tell you why! It’s because you want me. It’s a secret between you and me and you like it…your wife not knowing.”

  Oh my God, she is batshit crazy! It makes perfect sense now knowing she was Tammy’s friend. I’ve never encouraged her, and I can’t believe she thinks that I want her.

  “I’ve not told Annabelle for one simple reason because she considers you her friend. What you did, will hurt her, Maddison.”

  “Hurt her? She’ll have to get over it when we go public.” She laughs.

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nbsp; “Okay, you are crazy. We aren’t going public about anything.” I stand up and place my hands flat on the table while I loom over her. “Get this through your thick skull. I don’t want you, and never will. When we get back from this holiday, you will get your stuff and get the hell out of my life. You can leave Brandon alone while you’re at it. He deserves a lot better than you.”

  “Wait…are you firing me?” She frowns, and I feel happy that I have wiped the smile from her stupid mouth.

  “Yeah…yeah, I am. I don’t want you anywhere near Annabelle or me.”

  “You can’t do this!” Her nostrils flare and her face reddens.

  “I can, and I will.”

  She gets up to walk away, but before she can get very far, I grab her elbow.

  “Don’t you dare say anything to, Annabelle. Otherwise, you will regret it. Stay away from the pair of us for the rest of this holiday, because I will not have you ruining my marriage.” She shrugs me off and flips her hair over her shoulder before glaring at me with a high chin.

  “Whatever, Joshua…You’re a prick!” She storms off toward the beach, and I can’t help but feel annoyed that this has happened. I slump down in the chair and put my head in my hands. This could end up getting out of control if I don’t tell Annabelle. It’s going to hurt her, and I’m not sure I can do that to her, but I’m confident that Maddison won’t keep her mouth shut for long. I’m screwed if I tell her, but I’m even more screwed if I don’t tell her, I have to tell her and soon.

  The market was fun and I love going there. I never buy a lot, but all the locals are friendly and I do love their fresh fruit. It makes a change from lying on the beach and topping up my tan, and the bonus is some exercise. Usually, I don’t tan easily but I have a great one at the moment and it’s coming along nicely. I decided to walk along the beach on the way back, it’s beautiful and hot as usual. I want to find Joshua so we can have some time together this afternoon. I’m thinking about having a get together with everyone too, as we haven’t really spent much time together as a group. I want to know how everything’s going with Lily and Brandon. I wish they’d both admit that they like each other, but they’re so stubborn and I’m not sure how Maddison fits into the equation either. It’s a weird situation all round.