Montana Dreaming

by Judy Duarte

  “Yeah, well that was just another thing we argued about. And even though I think my mother agreed with me, she didn’t press him about it.”

  “And so you’re holding all that over his head now?”

  Mark tensed. “That and a few other things.”

  “Like what?”

  He fiddled with the keyboard of his computer, as though he hadn’t heard her. And she wondered if the discussion was over on his part.

  Then, as if her question wasn’t still lingering in the air, he signed off the Internet and shut down the computer. “I’m starving. Are you ready for a bowl of cereal?”

  “I guess so.”

  “Good. Once I fix your breakfast, I’ll do the laundry. I’m running out of clothes, and I figure you are, too.”

  “You’re not going to do my laundry,” she said without thinking. If Mark didn’t help her with it, who would? She was supposed to stay off her feet, and she didn’t think the doctor would approve of even a simple activity like throwing her clothes into a washer and dryer.

  “What are you going to do?” he asked. “Wait until your clothes are all dirty and buy new ones?”

  She couldn’t do that. But she felt funny about him washing her things, especially her bras and panties. Maybe she could set her undies aside and wash them in the bathroom sink. That wouldn’t be any more strenuous than washing her hands, would it?

  “Now that we’ve got that settled,” he said, “do you want cornflakes again? Or the granola stuff?”

  Apparently, he’d decided not to try and cook again. And she got the feeling he wasn’t comfortable in a kitchen. He probably ate all of his meals out. But she was getting tired of cereal every morning.

  “A toasted bagel and cream cheese sounds good for a change.”

  “Okay.”

  She watched as he puttered around the kitchen, preparing breakfast.

  He’d been so good to her. Just like Manny or her father would have been.

  When the baby was here and life was back to normal, she’d cook for him. That is, if he was still in Thunder Canyon.

  Maybe she shouldn’t hold back her thanks. “I appreciate what you’ve done for me, Mark.”

  “No problem.” He pulled the jug of milk from the fridge. “You don’t have anyone else to look after you.”

  And neither did he, which was sad, especially since his parents were still alive and nearby.

  She realized he was avoiding them, something that didn’t feel right to her. She opened her mouth to quiz him again, but thought better of it. For now anyway.

  In a day or so, she’d bring it up again, because she intended to learn more about that falling-out they’d had. And given the chance, she would encourage him to mend that rift.

  Mark might balk at her interference, but she was only looking out for his own good.

  Juliet and Manny might have loved each other and been close, but they hadn’t always seen eye to eye. But it was love that held a family together, in spite of the differences of opinion.

  If anyone knew how to handle stubborn men when they were wrong, Juliet did. And she knew how to get her point across.

  Especially when it was in a man’s best interests.

  For the next couple of days, Juliet let the subject of Mark’s family ride. But on Saturday afternoon, after he’d gone across the street to the inn to check for telephone messages, she realized she couldn’t avoid it any longer.

  When he entered the apartment, he wore a blue flannel shirt under a brown leather jacket, which he peeled off and hung on the coat tree by the door. “I never could get used to this unpredictable Montana weather. It’s supposed to be spring. But I swear we’re in for another storm.”

  “Did you get what you needed at the inn?”

  “Yeah.” He kicked off his shoes, then checked the thermostat.

  “You know,” she began. “Something is puzzling me.”

  “What’s that?”

  “You told me that after that falling-out you’d made peace with your family.”

  “We talk.” He strode toward the window and peered outside.

  “Then why, if your folks own the Big Sky Motel, are you patronizing the Wander-On Inn?”

  He turned and crossed his arms. “Because the inn is more convenient. It’s in the middle of town.”

  That might be true. But she knew there was more to it than that. “Have you seen your parents yet?”

  His movements slowed; his expression tensed. “No. I haven’t had time.”

  But why had he been able to find time to come into The Hitching Post each evening and chill out at the bar first?

  “Have you called them?” she asked.

  He shrugged and headed for the kitchen. “I talked to my mother a week or so ago.”

  “Maybe you ought to drop by the motel for a visit.”

  “They’re pretty busy.” He opened the refrigerator and pulled out a can of soda.

  “Do you know what I think? That the falling-out isn’t over at all.”

  “So what if it’s not?” He pulled the tab and took a long, steady swig before setting the can on the countertop. “Not every family is close, Juliet. And some of us prefer it that way.”

  “How about your sister? Do you talk to her?”

  He stiffened, then touched the hole on the top on the aluminum can, his index finger circling the sharp edge. “My sister is dead.”

  “I’m sorry. How did it happen?”

  He caught her gaze, but didn’t speak. His eyes swept down to her lap, where her hands rested around the bulge of her tummy.

  He finally said, “It doesn’t matter.”

  “Why not?”

  The muscles in his cheek twitched, and his jaw tensed, as though he was holding back.

  “Were the two of you close?”

  He shrugged again, but the tension didn’t leave his face. “I guess so.”

  Juliet had told him about Manny’s death. Her dad’s, too. So it seemed only fair to ask. “Was it an accident?”

  The question hung in the air, making it hard for Mark to breathe. “Yeah. It was an accident.”

  And it had been. Sort of. Mark hadn’t meant to screw up. But he wasn’t going to go there, wasn’t going to discuss it with Juliet.

  “That’s too bad,” she said.

  Yeah. It was.

  She probably figured it was a car accident or something like that. But Mark wouldn’t correct her. Hell, even if he felt like opening up, revealing his guilt and pain, an expectant mother sure as hell didn’t need to hear how his sister and her unborn baby died during labor.

  “If you’re the only child your parents have left, I imagine they would welcome a reconciliation.”

  How could she be so damn optimistic all the time? So naive?

  “Things are more complicated than that,” he explained. “More complex. And I’d rather not talk about it.”

  “Families are a blessing, Mark.”

  Oh, for cripes sake. Why couldn’t she just let it go? Quit nagging at him?

  He didn’t need a ration of guilt to upset his lunch. To ruin a quiet afternoon.

  “Why don’t you approach them first? Maybe ask them out to dinner?”

  Mark bristled. He’d kept his guilty secret bottled up inside for so long that he wasn’t going to relive it, not even in dialogue.

  “You know what?” he asked her. “I’ve got cabin fever. Maybe I ought to take a walk before it starts snowing.” As he made his way to the door, she followed, grabbing him by the sleeve of his flannel shirt.

  “I’m sorry, Mark. I’m just trying to help.”

  “Well, don’t.” He raked a hand through his hair. “I need some fresh air.”

  As he reached the doorknob, she sucked in a breath. His feet slowed, but he kept a forward motion.

  “Oh, my God,” she said. “Wait.”

  He turned to acknowledge her voice—not her command—but she was looking down, her lips parted, her eyes fixed on a dribble of water running down
her legs.

  A gush splattered on the floor, and she looked up at him, eyes wide and frightened. “My water broke.”

  Chapter Six

  Mark wasn’t exactly sure what “my water broke” meant, especially when a woman had a good month or so to go. But it couldn’t be good.

  A jolt of fear shot through him, reminding him of his sister’s death, of how he’d failed her. Reminding him of his recklessness. His guilt. “I’ll call 9-1-1.”

  “Doc Emerson told me to call his office if something like this happened.”

  “Isn’t he the guy who had the heart attack?”

  She nodded, her eyes transfixed on the floor, on the wet puddle.

  “If your doctor is still in ICU, he’s not going to be any help. Isn’t there someone on call for him?”

  “Yes,” she said. “But I don’t know him very well. Maybe if I go to Thunder Canyon General, Doctor Hart will be working. I’d feel better if she were in charge.”

  “I don’t care who we see, as long as he or she has a medical degree. Come on.” He grabbed her jacket from the coat tree and held it open as she slipped her arms inside. He wanted to bundle her up, even though it wasn’t that cold outside, but there was no way he would be able to button it around her stomach.

  As he reached for the doorknob, she asked him to wait. “I’d better get some towels to sit on. And the overnight bag. It’s already packed and in the closet.”

  “I’ll get them.” He wasn’t going to waste any time getting her to the hospital. Wasn’t going to risk something going wrong before he placed her under a doctor’s care.

  When Mark had the towels and the gray canvas bag, he opened the door, then paused on the stoop. “Should I carry you down?”

  “No. That’s okay. The stairs aren’t going to be too strenuous for me. The baby is coming now. Let me walk.”

  He wasn’t sure what to do, but at this point, she sounded kind of confident. And since he was scared spitless, he thought it best to defer to her—as long as they were hospital-bound.

  Mark followed her down the creaking stairs, his feet hitting the steps like he had on a pair of ski boots. The afternoon sun had broken through the clouds, melting whatever snow had been left the night before. Maybe spring was really on its way. He was ready for green buds, warmer days and the kind of sunshine that made a guy want to be outdoors.

  As she reached the white sedan, he opened the passenger door and waited for her to adjust the towels. So far, so good.

  “Are you sure the baby’s coming?” he asked.

  “Yes. Once the water breaks, contractions are more or less imminent. And according to the pregnancy book I’ve been reading, they won’t try to stop labor this time.”

  A million fears hit him in the gut, nearly knocking him breathless, and all he could think of was getting her to the hospital, of passing the baton to medical professionals. Yet at the same time, he wanted to protect her, keep her safe—not an easy task for a man who meant to remain detached.

  He circled the car to get in on the driver’s side, his heart pounding in his ears, stirring his fear, as well as his reluctance to be involved. He stole a glance at her, saw her pursed lips, her furrowed brow. She had to be more frightened than he was.

  As they pulled out onto Main, her breath caught and she rubbed her stomach.

  “What’s the matter?” he asked, hoping she hadn’t heard the panicky edge to his voice.

  “I’m having a contraction.”

  Oh, no. He’d read horror stories of kids being born in taxis and cars. But surely they didn’t just pop out. Didn’t the labor process take a while?

  He glanced at his wristwatch, then stepped on the gas, trying his best to zip through the lazy Saturday afternoon traffic. A lady honked at him, and he had half a notion to flip her off, shake a fist and swear at her. But he had to admit he hadn’t seen her vehicle, hadn’t realized he’d cut her off.

  Damn. He’d better slow down and get his head out of his ass. A car accident wouldn’t do Juliet or the baby any good. But he didn’t want to waste precious time and found it hard not to speed.

  As they turned onto White Water Drive, his pulse seemed to settle into a steady rush, rather than a frantic race. He stole a look at her, saw the apprehension in her eyes.

  Do something, he told himself. Make her feel better.

  Hell, he had to do something to make them both feel better. But he didn’t have a clue what.

  He gripped the steering wheel as though he could control the situation as well as he maneuvered the rented sedan.

  Up ahead, he spotted the colorful flags that lined the entrance of Ranch View Estates, the development that she’d pointed out to him the last time they’d traveled this road.

  “How big are those homes?” he asked, hoping to stir up a conversation that might take her mind off her worries. Off his, too.

  She looked out the window, but her face didn’t light up. Not like it had when she’d first made a fuss over the housing development and mentioned that she’d gone to see the models. “I’m not sure. I think the smallest one is about twenty-eight hundred square feet.”

  “How many bedrooms?” he asked, trying his damnedest to keep the casual conversation going.

  “Three to four, I think. The biggest model has a den that can be used as an office or another bedroom.”

  “Those sure are nice-size lots. I guess a guy would have to buy a good mower.”

  She nodded, her eyes fixed on something he couldn’t see.

  But Mark continued to keep up the lame conversation. “And I like the ranch-style architecture.”

  “Uh-huh.”

  “It sure would be nice living in a gated community.” That is, if he ever got the urge to put down roots. Then it would be nice.

  She started rubbing her belly with her hand and breathing weird. Was that normal?

  He glanced at his watch again. They’d been on the road for about five minutes. Only three or four more miles to go. Then he could pass the responsibility on to someone else. He tried to think up something else to say, but what was the use? He had a feeling she didn’t appreciate his efforts to chat, and they were almost at the hospital.

  Moments later, they pulled into the entrance of Thunder Canyon General. By this time, Mark knew the drill, but that didn’t make him feel any less nervous. Any less afraid.

  As he parked the idling car under the covered portico, Juliet reached a hand across the seat and tugged at the sleeve of his leather jacket. “Thanks for bringing me here.”

  “No problem.”

  Had voicing her appreciation been her way of letting him off the hook? Of telling him he could just leave her here?

  He hoped so. But he’d wait until he got her settled, until the doctor stepped in and took over. Then he could walk out the door and get on with his life, knowing he’d done his good deed. That he’d made sure at least one pregnant woman had gotten to the hospital safely.

  Moments later, Mark brought a nurse and a wheelchair to the car. And for the first time in what felt like forever, he was able to hand over Juliet to someone medically trained. Someone competent.

  Still, he followed her and the nurse through the double glass doors, past the security guard. Mark acknowledged the uniformed man, and the guy nodded in return.

  While the E.R. clerk handled the paperwork and phoned the maternity ward to give them a heads-up, Mark continued to hang out, to make sure the admission process was complete and that Juliet didn’t need him anymore.

  “Who’s the head of the department?” Mark asked, wanting the best for Juliet.

  “Dr. Chester is the head of Ob-Gyn,” the clerk responded. “She’s out of town on a speaking engagement at the Montana Women’s Health Fair. But Dr. Hart is here.”

  “Oh, good,” Juliet said. “I was hoping Dr. Hart would be working.”

  As long as she was comfortable with the resident, Mark supposed it was okay. But he’d have felt better with the head obstetrician.

 
Before long, a heavyset man dressed in hospital greens stepped behind Juliet’s wheelchair to take her to the elevator and up to the second floor.

  She glanced at Mark. “Are you going with us?”

  It was just a question, he told himself. Not a request. He could tell her he’d take a rain check this time around. Besides, it was a perfect time to cut whatever flimsy connection they’d built over the past few days, a perfect chance to escape before she expected something from him. Something he couldn’t—or wouldn’t—provide.

  But what if she wasn’t out of the woods yet? What if she needed him—or rather someone—to be with her for a little while?

  “Yeah,” he told her. “I’ll stay for a bit.”

  She nodded, as the orderly pushed her down the hall, and Mark fell into step behind them.

  When they reached the heavy double doors that required someone to buzz them in, the orderly pulled the wheelchair to a stop.

  “What’s the deal with the password and the locked door?” Mark asked.

  “A year or so ago, a woman tried to kidnap one of the newborns. She didn’t get away with it, but we tightened our security, hoping to prevent something like that from ever happening again.” The orderly punched in a code, and the doors swung open.

  Mark glanced at Juliet and saw the wide-eyed expression. Was she concerned that someone might try to take her little one?

  “You and the baby will be just fine,” Mark told her.

  Then he forced a smile, hoping to high heaven that what he’d told her was true.

  When Dr. Hart donned a pair of gloves, Mark slipped out of the birthing room. Juliet wondered whether he’d say goodbye before leaving. There wasn’t any reason for him to stay, she supposed.

  She held her breath, waiting as Dr. Hart examined her.

  “You’re about two to three centimeters dilated already,” the doctor said. “And the head has dropped down nicely.”

  “But it’s too soon for me to deliver.” Nervous fear shot through her. “Is the baby going to be all right?”

  “I think everything is going to be fine, even though it’s more than four weeks early. When you were here last Sunday, we gave you medication to help the lungs develop. And we’ve managed to keep the baby in the womb for nearly a week. At this stage, every day helps.” The doctor placed a hand on Juliet’s shoulder. “Don’t worry, Mom. We’ll do our best to get that baby delivered safely and in your arms.”