Wounds,Book1

by Ilsa J. Bick

  “Well, then if I die, I won’t have to worry much about what you report, will I?” Then Kahayn snorted. “You know something, Blate? I can’t figure out if you’re mad because he didn’t die, or because I didn’t keel right over and kick off from some phantom virus.”

  “Perhaps you will.”

  She was tempted to point out that then he’d likely dance a jig but quashed that as unhelpful and downright dumb. “Blate, there’s nothing there. I sent off blood for culture. We’ll see if anything grows. But I doubt it. As for the patient, I’ll tell you what. I’ll keep him in isolation. In a couple of days, I’ll move him to the research wing. How about that? The wing’s got no systems that feed back to this complex, and I’ll be the only doctor, okay? Me and a couple of nurses, and that’s it. Arin to take over in a pinch. We’ll take full precautions.”

  Blate’s eyes clicked from her to Arin and then back again. “I’m still making my report. And I expect updates and all your data, Colonel. All of it.”

  “Of course,” Kahayn said and managed to sound like she’d expected that. “It’s standard procedure for a potential security risk, right?”

  “Yes,” said Blate, and then his lips thinned to a smile. It didn’t improve his looks. “Because I have eyes, Colonel, I have eyes.”

  “Of course you do.” She paused. “And I should know; I put them in myself, and just like you wanted them, too. But you really ought to come in and let me adjust the tracking on that leftie, Blate. It’s downright scary.”

  “No, thank you. I like my eyes the way they are. But I have eyes, Colonel. I can see as well as the next man, and I saw that patient.” Blate waited a beat. “No scars, Colonel. He doesn’t have any scars.”

  Her pulse ramped up. She swallowed back a flutter in her throat. “Except the one on his forehead.”

  “Which he got today. Which you gave him. But nowhere else.” Blate breathed in, pulled himself up. “Not one. That’s interesting for a…native, don’t you think?”

  She said nothing.

  Blate nodded as if she had. “This isn’t over, Colonel. This is far from over.”

  Arin waited until Blate was gone. Then he sighed, stabbed at his glasses and looked over them at Kahayn. “That’s not good.”

  “Don’t start.” Weary to the bone, Kahayn slumped, washed her face with her hands. “One disaster at a time.”

  “Mmmm.” Arin hesitated and then said, “How did you know? Without my having to say anything?”

  “I didn’t.” Her eyes were still closed and she cocked her head to one side. “I…heard it. Or I didn’t hear it. That’s what it was.” She opened her eyes and gave Arin a tired smile. “No click. So, no periatrium. It seemed the only explanation.”

  “And the defibrillator? That was one-fifty above the recommended charge.”

  She hunched her left shoulder, let it fall. “Without the periatrium to kick in at the PA node, I figured there’d be more resistance. So I jacked it up. Lucky guess.”

  “Yah,” said Arin. “Lucky.” Then he brought up the 3-D VR they’d been studying just before Blate approached. The heart was outlined in green; the lungs were gray and air-filled spaces were black. Arin pointed. “A heart with four chambers instead of five. That’s amazing. And look at that left lung. Two lobes.”

  “And not three, yah. You’d expect that, the heart shifted over to the left. No room for another lobe. How the hell does he get enough oxygen without the extra surface area?”

  “That’s a damn good question. And that organ on the left wedged under the diaphragm, what is that? Too small for a spleen, and his thymus is a third the normal size.”

  “Beats me. For that matter, why is the blood ferrous? Like it’s much more deoxygenated and he requires way more oxygen, a higher partial pressure than we do.”

  “I don’t know. But he’s different, that’s for sure.” Arin massaged the bridge of his nose between his thumb and right index finger, then blinked and resettled his glasses. “Weird, but I’m not getting that creepy-crawly feeling you get when you know some guy’s a mutant. Know what I mean?”

  “Yah. I know. I’ll bet when he’s tuned up, his system’s going to work just fine. That kind of throws out mutant right there.”

  “So, if he’s not a mutant…”

  They were silent. Kahayn thought of that weird suit. Then she said, “Don’t go there. Not yet. Give it some time.”

  Arin nodded. “Okay. I can do that. I’d do anything for you; you know that?”

  “Yah.” She squeezed the back of his hand with her good one, her right. “I know. Would have fallen apart a long time ago without you.”

  Arin’s eyes roamed her face, and his lips parted as if he were going to say something. But then he seemed to change his mind and, instead, said something else. “Idit, you won’t be able to hold off Blate forever. Sooner or later, he’ll be back and he’s going to ask for this stuff, and we’re going to have to turn this stuff over.”

  “I know that.” Then she gave her friend a narrow, sidelong glance. “But that guy’s pretty sick. I mean, really sick…”

  “Very sick.”

  “And we wouldn’t want a relapse.”

  “No. We wouldn’t.”

  “Because he’s very sick, and I think we both know what will happen if we act too soon.”

  “He’ll relapse.”

  “Right. So how about we make sure that we turn these over much later?”

  “How much later?”

  “Say…a month. Six weeks?”

  “That’s a long time,” said Arin. “I think it’s too long. Remember, Blate’s got the suit and that helmet. That piece of jewelry, or that pin, or whatever it was. And that uniform…I have to tell you, I agree with Blate on that one. That patient? He’s military in someone’s army, and it’s sure not ours. So Blate’s going to be back long before that month’s up. I give him a week. Then he’s going to want some answers.”

  “We’ll give him answers.”

  Arin shook his head. “It’s one thing not to volunteer information; but it’s another to lie. We got away with it today because we didn’t lie, not technically. We simply—”

  “Didn’t mention a few pertinent details. Like that heart, his left lung, and the iron in his blood.”

  “Right. And you’re going to be seeing this guy every day. You’ll have more data, right? So when Blate asks, how are you going to hide things? There are records, you know. Lab values in the computer any person with two neurons on a T-connector could pull up.”

  She thought. “I can keep two records. One here. The other on the computer in the lockout room of the research wing. That’s an isolated system, doesn’t tie in here at all by design. So it’ll just be a sin by omission. Things that I was just kind of storing. For study, you know?”

  “Might work for a little while.” Arin laced his fingers in his lap in thought. “Either way you look at it: We do this, there’s no going back. This is like being a policeman or a detective and not handing over evidence. You know?”

  “I know that. In a way, we are the detectives, aren’t we? The police? We’re all part of the same military, and the military runs things.”

  “Runs everything.”

  “Yah.” She paused. “You like that?”

  “I don’t know any different.”

  “But I can imagine different. I can imagine a time when the military serves the people, not the other way around.”

  Arin poked at his glasses. “Careful. Now you’re talking like a Jabari. An Outlier.”

  Like Janel. A talon of grief snagged her heart. “I can’t…cooperate with that kind of thing. Not now.”

  Arin was silent. Kahayn said, “I think a lot of the work we do is important. Otherwise people die. I’m a doctor; I don’t like that. But what I also don’t like is using what I do to take away a person’s freedom. That’s not right.”

  “But you’re doing it anyway, Idit,” said Arin. “With the primates. That neural implant.” He didn’t have to
add: and those test subjects. She knew that was there, by implication.

  “That’s,” she searched for the word, “different. You know it is. I don’t have a choice about that.”

  “No,” said Arin. “You do. You could choose to give it up. I really don’t know why you haven’t. But you don’t like the consequences of giving that thing up, whatever you think they are. There are no test subjects anymore. Just the primates. So I don’t get that. Anyway, let’s just say that you aren’t wild about the choices you do have.”

  She wanted to argue, but he was right and she told him so. Then she said, “So, this guy…They don’t ask, we don’t tell. Okay?”

  They stared at each other without speaking. Then Arin nodded, sighed. “Okay. Let me ask you something, though. Why are we doing this?”

  In reply, Kahayn tapped a command into the computer, and the image of that strange heart vanished. Not forever. Nothing, Kahayn knew, was forever except, maybe, love. Or its ghost. And Arin was right because Blate would be back, and then, maybe, there’d be more hell to pay. But she did it anyway.

  She looked up at Arin. “Because it’s the right thing to do.”

  “Right or wrong, there’s no going back,” Arin said again.

  “Yeah,” she said. “You got that. No going back.”

  Chapter

  13

  H e came to himself in bits and pieces, and in tremendous pain. Everything hurt. Pain knifed his brain; his throat was raw and felt bloody. His lungs burned. There was something hard in his mouth and down his throat and when he tried to swallow, he couldn’t.

  Then he heard a weird gasping groan like the wheeze of an old bellows. There was a gabble of voices, all overlapping, like the conversation of too many people in too small a space—or maybe that was a memory. He couldn’t tell. But there was someone, a woman, telling him not to fight the tube: Don’t fight, try not to fight, try to relax, let us help you…

  His eyelids peeled apart, slowly. Light, too bright, out of the corner of his right eye. The light hurt. Felt like a red-hot poker jammed into his eyes. Bed. Pillow under his head. Bars to either side. Linens and something scratchy on his right arm. Blanket, maybe. Something in his mouth. That queer grunt of air, pulling in, pushing out. His chest rising. Falling…

  Falling. He remembered falling. And he remembered blood in his eyes, the iron taste of it in his mouth. The crawl of blood on his neck, dripping from his fingers. He also remembered the moment the runabout shattered in an agonized squall of metal shear that spiked his brain at the same time that a steely vice of panic squeezed his chest. He remembered the way his lungs exploded with pain as superheated air and gases scorched his throat and boiled away his voice so there was no sound when he screamed.

  Runabout…gone…Elizabeth…

  He must’ve moved because something stirred in the darkness. Movement to his left. He tracked it with his eyes, and then he saw the opaque white of a tube attached to a machine.

  Ventilator. Tube down my throat; what’s wrong with my lungs? He realized now that he was hooked to a machine that breathed for him. He didn’t like it; he wanted that tube out; except when he tried to raise his arms, he couldn’t move.

  And then he panicked. Maybe he didn’t have arms anymore; he couldn’t feel them, and he was so cold, and there was the machine breathing for him. Fear clutched his chest, and suddenly he couldn’t breathe at all, despite the machine. He was back in the runabout, superheated air scorching his throat and he couldn’t even scream…

  “Easy, easy. Relax.” A woman’s voice, and then she materialized out of the shadows: a shoulder-length fall of dark-brown hair framing a square chin, full lips, and brown eyes, but her skin was dark, an odd shade of blue, and there was something about her eyes, something not right…

  “Listen to me.” She put a hand on his shoulder, and that slight touch made him feel better. “My name is Dr. Kahayn. You’re in a hospital. You were very badly hurt. We had to put in a tube to help you breathe. I kept you sedated because you kept trying to pull the tube out. You’re in restraints. That’s why you can’t move, but I didn’t want you to panic and pull out the tube before I could explain. Your lungs are better now, and that’s why I let the sedative wear off so you’d wake up and I could take out the tube. Do you understand? Nod if you understand.”

  He nodded.

  “Good.” She gently tugged tape free from his mouth. “This is going to be unpleasant. You’re going to feel like you can’t breathe for a second. But I’m right here. I won’t let anything happen to you, so just relax and then it will be better, I promise.”

  It was more than unpleasant. It was awful. A sensation of plastic slithering at the back of his throat, like a long, rigid snake and he gagged, tried to pull away, but then the tube was gone.

  “Take it easy,” she said. Turning aside, she flicked a switch and the ventilator wheezed to a halt. “Deep, regular breaths. That’s better. But your throat probably hurts. Would you like some ice chips? You’ll feel better.”

  She fed him ice chips on a spoon, one at a time; told him to take it slow and suck the chips not chew them. The melting ice eased the pain in his throat, and he thought he’d never tasted anything more wonderful. When he nodded that he’d had enough, she put aside the cup of chips and then unbuckled the leather restraints tethering his wrists to the bed.

  Then she said, “What’s your name?”

  It took him a few seconds to get the words out, his throat was that raw; it felt like knives cutting him to pieces in there, and it hurt to talk. “Bashir,” he managed, finally, and he was shocked at how weak he sounded. “Julian…Bashir.” He swallowed to wet his throat. “How…how long…have…”

  “Three weeks,” she said, and then as his shock must’ve spread to his face, she added, “You would’ve regained consciousness much sooner, but I had to keep you under sedation because of the tube.”

  “Tube…how bad?”

  She explained his injuries: parenchymal damage and pulmonary congestion from breathing in smoke and superheated gases; a concussion; a broken nose. “And that cut on your forehead was pretty bad. Went way up into your scalp, like you’d smashed into something.”

  “My…” He raised his fingers to his scalp, felt a ridge of stippled flesh jutting from bristles because they’d shaved part of his head to cut at the gash. Then he saw that a tube snaked along his left forearm and was attached to a bag of clear fluid hanging from a metal pole next to his bed. “What…what’s . . ?”

  “An intravenous line. You have another one running in under your collarbone on the right, under all those bandages. You keep down fluids today, and I’ll pull the central line tonight. If you’re still doing well tomorrow and can keep down soft foods, I’ll pull the other IV.” She paused. “You lost a lot of blood. You’ve been very sick. You’re lucky you’re not dead. But you’re bound to feel pretty weak and awful for a while, and you’ll be short of breath for a bit because of the damage to your lungs, even though they’re much better. So take it easy and go slow.” She paused. “Your scalp wound was very bad. You’re lucky you didn’t bleed to death.”

  His head was whirling. Intubation…ventilator and intravenous lines…like being in a museum…Then, another thought, this one much worse, and he felt a sudden clench of dread: She’s a doctor. I’m in a hospital and she’s a doctor. She saved my life, but that mean’s she examined me; she’s given me replacement fluids and drugs, so she must know…

  She cut into his thoughts. “What happened? Do you remember?”

  “I…” He paused, as much to gather his thoughts as form the words. “Accident. My vehicle…crashed. A fire. I don’t remember much.” Then he thought of something. “Did you…I was with…a woman. A friend. Did you…?”

  “No. You were the only one brought in.”

  Elizabeth. He wasn’t prepared for how he felt: an emptiness in his chest, a feeling of grief. Guilt, too. My fault; I should’ve listened to her. My fault we were separated…

 
“Do you know where you are? That is, do you know the name of this hospital?” When Bashir shook his head, she said, “You’re in Rangdron Medical Complex of the Kornak Armed Forces.” She paused as if that should mean something, but he didn’t know what. So he didn’t say anything.

  Instead, he studied her face again. That blue skin. Very familiar. Not Andorian, though, or Bolian. But familiar. And there was something wrong with her left eye…

  “This is a secured facility,” she said. “There are guards on the perimeter, and you need to have built up enough credits to be let in at the main gate. The underground trams are monitored.”

  “Yes,” he wheezed. He didn’t know what else to say. That left eye. Not tracking as well with the right. No blood vessels. That eye’s artificial, some kind of prosthetic…

  “You’re quite different,” she said. “For a Kornak, I mean. You don’t have any prosthetics.”

  “Been…been lucky.” It was the only thing he could think to say.

  She shook her head. “I don’t think so. You’re not from around here.”

  Even whispering hurt. “No, you’re right. I’m from…from very far away. North.” He tried to remember what Elizabeth had said about the planet. Was there one northern continent, or two? He risked it. “From the northern continent. This is the first time I’ve…I’ve been here.”

  But she gave a regretful shake of her head. “That’s not true and that’s not what I meant. You know that. Now, I know that you’re not Kornak, or Jabari, or any of the Outlier tribes. You’re…different. Then there’s the matter of your suit. And that uniform you were wearing.”

  “My…?” he began, then stopped. She meant his environmental suit. He tried thinking of something that would explain the suit away and his uniform but couldn’t. So he said nothing.

  She waited for a moment, maybe to give him time to think of some new lie. Then she nodded as if confirming something for herself. “Right. Thanks for not insulting my intelligence.” She paused. “You’re not…from here.”