Celestial Inventories
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Now and then he would take out his one container of TRASH and study it. Assorted debris filled his hands, fell between his fingers. With each new study the pieces became a bit less recognizable. Eventually, all the trash, human and nonhuman alike, would be so reduced as to be unrecognizable.
Then we would all be as one, he thought. All of it undifferentiated trash. There seemed no escaping it.
And all of it beyond the powers of inventory.
*
TOUCHES
After he’d lived in the apartment for so many years, not surprisingly his touches were everywhere. Certainly on every square inch of his furniture—except perhaps on backs or other obscure regions. Oil and dust with the trademark of his fingertips had layered until they had become almost a paste recording his arrivals and departures, his retrievals and his releasings.
Counting such touches was purely theoretical, of course. He finally determined a figure for the probable number of touches per square inch of surface, then assigned a multiplier figure for each surface based on his estimate of how many layers of touches had adhered to that particular place.
Some touches were more surreptitious, stealing through the air and kissing his belongings absentmindedly and leaving no mark to indicate that they’d been there. But he did not think he would have wanted to count such special, ephemeral events, even if an estimation had been possible.
Sometimes the shape of these prints, or the amount of oil they contained, seemed far removed from anything his fingers might have produced.
Sometimes he found prints on surfaces he could not possibly have touched, such as the bottoms of lamps.
Such anomalies disturbed him, and he might even spend a few nights awake attempting to catch in the act the source of these alien touches. A long time ago he’d decided he needed to know everything about his environment.
He liked to imagine sometimes that the objects were altered by his touches, at least in the most minute, chemical way.
He liked to think that, whatever happened to him, at least this much might remain: the ghosts of his fingertips searching, finding, soothing, departing, driven by his very human need to touch everything he saw, and thereby make it his own.
*
CANDLES
Old and yellow, the four candles had come to resemble his skin. He couldn’t quite remember who had given them to him—although he should have, having received only a few presents in his lifetime—but he knew the giver could not have been a friend. The candles reminded him of the weaknesses of his own flesh, how the more he lived, the sooner his death might come.
And yet there were still events which inspired him to light the candles: the birth of a child to a friend or relative, the death of an acquaintance, some national or international event which he considered to have enormous impact upon a great number of people.
As life went on, the candles burned; they melted down to nothing.
Eventually he discovered, however, that many people weren’t like candles at all. They were lumps of grey clay or they were splintered pieces of stone. They would not melt, whatever the heat or fuel applied.
His skin might be yellow, but at least during the night his head burned bright, so brightly his pillow had grown brittle as ash.
Melting was something you naturally did every day, if you were doing anything more than sleepwalking with your time. Age melted the youth from your face. Feelings melted, as well, and ideas. If you generated feelings and ideas of enough strength, you always left a residue behind on those you came into contact with.
At this point in his life he was mostly brittle, blackened wick that sparked and sputtered but gave no steady flame. His skinny hands had an antique waxy sheen.
But at night, on the edge of sleep, the room still danced with molten light.
*
CEILING
So finally it all came down to this: an old man on his back in bed, staring at the ceiling. He could not move his head, could not turn to see his things scattered across the rug. But all his things did not matter anyway. His inventory at last complete, all that was important now was the ceiling.
Even in the dark the ceiling was soft and luminous, all one thing, all one ceiling. In fact it looked as if the walls were capped by the sky itself, a dim milk sky going on forever.
The old man chose one area of ceiling for study, then another, and another. There it was—it was all the same thing, the same patch of world, and yet it was everything.
At last all the clocks chimed, the fasteners fastened, hair and teeth returned to their heads, and ashes built back into flesh. The old man found a proper pair of shoes and chose some well-fitting gloves. He stood on his bed and raised his gloved hands to the ceiling, where they searched slowly for the edges of an opening.
At last finding the door in his ceiling, the old man opened it and pulled himself up and out of his apartment. He closed the door firmly behind him. He stood up in the darkness and waited for the lights to come on, for someone to arrive and guide him. Waiting there he began counting all the things left in his head: the one hundred twelve things he might have done with his child, the fourteen secrets he’d never told his mother, the twenty-two good wishes he reserved for perfect strangers.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Steve Rasnic Tem was born in Lee County, Virginia in the heart of Appalachia. He currently lives in Centennial, Colorado with his wife, the writer Melanie Tem. His novels include Excavation, The Book of Days, the recent Deadfall Hotel and, co-written with wife Melanie Tem, Daughters and The Man On the Ceiling. He is the author of over 350 published short stories, and is a past winner of the Bram Stoker, International Horror Guild, British Fantasy, and World Fantasy Awards. He was also a finalist for the Philip K. Dick, Shirley Jackson, and Theodore Sturgeon awards. His other story collections include City Fishing, The Far Side of the Lake, In Concert (collaborations with Melanie Tem), Ugly Behavior, and Onion Songs.
You may visit the Tem home on the web at www.m-s-tem.com.
PUBLICATION HISTORY
“The World Recalled” originally published as a chapbook by Wormhole Books, 2004
“The Disease Artist” originally appeared in Dark Arts, John Pelan editor, IHG nominee, 2006
“Halloween Street” originally appeared in F&SF, nominated for IHG and the Bram Stoker (reprinted Year’s Best Fantasy & Horror and Best New Horror), 1999
“When We Moved On” originally appeared in Clockwork Phoenix 2, Mike Allen editor, 2009
“The Woodcarver’s Son” originally appeared in Offworld, Winter 1993
“Invisible” originally appeared in Sci Fiction, IHG and Bram Stoker nominee (reprinted Best Fantasy of the Year, Rich Horton) 2005
“Head Explosions” originally appeared in Bust Down the Door and Eat All the Chickens #5, 2007
“Chain Reaction” originally appeared in Black Static #19, 2010
“The Secret Flesh” originally appeared in Pulphouse: The Hardback Magazine Issue 11, Kristine Kathryn Rusch editor, 1991/a>
“Origami Bird” originally published as an Independence Day greeting card by Wormhole Books, 2002
“In These Final Days of Sales” originally appeared as a chapbook from Wormhole Books, winner of the Bram Stoker Award (reprinted Year’s Best Fantasy & Horror), 2001
“Little Poucet” originally appeared in Snow White, Blood Red, Ellen Datlow & Terri Windling editors, 1993
“The Bereavement Photographer” originally appeared in 13 Horrors, Brian A. Hopkins editor, IHG nominee, 2003
“Firestorm” originally appeared in Perpetual Light, Alan Ryan editor, World Fantasy Award nominee, 1982
“The Mouse’s Bedtime Story” originally appeared in Bedtime Stories to Darken Your Dreams, Bruce Holland Rogers editor, 1999
“Last Dragon” originally appeared in Amazing Stories, Sept. 1987
“The Monster in the Field” is original to this volume
“The High Chair” originally appeared in Flytrap #6, 2006
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p; “Dinosaur” originally appeared in Asimov’s, May 1987
“Giant Killers” originally appeared in The Pedestal Magazine (online), issue #61
“The Company You Keep” originally appeared in Outsiders, Nancy Holder & Nancy Kilpatrick editors, 2005
“Celestial Inventory” originally appeared as a chapbook from Chris Drumm Books, 1991
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