Rogue Highlander: Surrendered Love

by Sondra Grey

  The men were all sitting at the table busy shoveling food into their mouths. Lydia was circling the tables passing around platters of food, bread, and fruit. Then he saw her, and it was like a vision from a dream. She was standing at the stove, clad in a drab cotton dress that made her look like a princess and a mob cap that covered her hair that he now knew was not brown but auburn.

  She was busy at the stove, her long slender hands and her thin waist moved with the rhythm of her exercise. Then she turned and saw him watching and gave him a big happy smile. Her eyes lit up when she saw him, and her lips parted just a little. The impact of the gesture hit him hard in this midsection, and he felt the air whoosh out of his lungs. How was he ever going to keep things uncomplicated with her?

  Suddenly he realized that they had stopped eating and were watching him with fear. What kind of animal did they think he was, to stop midway through their breakfast as he walked in. And what would Elizabeth think of him and his hold over his men? He decided to give them all a picture of conjugal normalcy so they could be assured that all was well.

  He strode up to his wife, pulled her into his arms and gave her a sound kiss on the lips.

  “Good morning my dear,” he said pulling a mug from a shelf above, scraping against the entire length of her body in the bargain. Then he went to take his place at the table.

  “I need coffee,” he said to Lydia who was pouring it from the pot down the table. It looked and smelled strange.

  “Er…Boss we don’t have coffee today.” Jim put in.

  “But we have tea, and it's equally good,” Xavier said from the foot of the table. It was for the first time Elizabeth heard him speak and she was surprised by the quiet authority in it.

  “Yes, it’s very good.” put in Larry. Nic looked around the table as if they had said they were leaving ranching and joining a circus. His men were content without their morning cup of coffee, they were having tea beside and praising it to heavens? Tea, for god’s sake! He looked around the table as Jim and Larry looked at him pleadingly, and Greg, Xavier, and Vincent glowered and dared him to contradict.

  They did not want to hurt his wife’s sentiments by telling her that they did not drink tea but hot mugs full of thick coffee in the mornings. A few forkfuls of eggs had turned their loyalties around so drastically. Besides Elizabeth gave off that aura of such good-natured innocence that they had all been enamored with it. A few days with her and they would all be crocheting and ball dancing.

  He would have to keep them away from his wife. She was a natural charmer, and they were already smitten. He would indulge them this once. But going forward he had no intention of making his wife into a sensitive fine lady. She was a rancher’s wife and on a ranch, hardwork came before sentiments. If she made a mistake, she must be told about it. For the time being, he decided to let it go.

  “You have had a long and tiring journey. You must rest some more. Don’t cook lunch today. Greg will do it.” he declared in general to the room, and everyone including Gregory groaned out loud.

  “I am quite recovered now. And I will rest after I have finished cooking. What time will you all be in for lunch?

  Nicholas liked that. She was not a ninny. She was ready to take on her duties from day one, and it made him feel better. Besides a few forkfuls of scrambled eggs and a few morsels of hot fresh bread had now gone into his tummy and he felt more human. After he had tasted the bacon and eaten the perfectly cut melon, even he was ready to drink tea for just this once.

  As Lydia came around to fill his cup, he decided to take care of that small detail too. It was important.

  “What I told you yesterday at the station Lydia was absolutely right. I will not look kindly on any girl trying to seduce my men. I will not tolerate sad love stories, broken hearts and secret babies on my ranch. But at the same time, I assure that if you are ever mistreated in the slightest by any of my men, you only have to come to me, and I will not deal with the miscreant lightly. You may take all your loyalties to your mistress Lydia, but you will bring your troubles to me. Is that clear?”

  The girl looked around the table in awe then bobbed a curtsy and moved away. The men all groaned, but no one said anything as they kept eating.

  Was it disappointed he saw in their faces? And in hers? Lord, what was the world coming to. He wondered which one of them had already marked her and which one among them she had chosen. It was too much to think about, and so he rose from his place indicating to them all that the happy meal was over and they all filled out of the back door and dispersed.

  As the men filled out, he gave them another of his shows of authority. This is my woman and my house, and I have rights here. He pulled her to him holding her loosely in his arms. Lydia quickly picked up the stack of dirty dishes and went out the back door after his men, leaving them alone.

  Waves of sensations unknown to her up until now were coursing through Elizabeth’s body, but even through that, she was not unmindful of her husband looking at the people filing out of the kitchen. And while his proximity was playing havoc with her senses, he was just putting up a show for them

  “Where could I wash these Jim? Could you tell me, please?

  “Here, let me give you a hand,” Jim said, and Nicholas rolled his eyes. So, it was him. But he was so young he complained to himself.

  “Don’t worry about Lydia. She won’t lead him along. She likes Jim because the only brother she left back in Cleveland is just his age and looks so much like him.” Nicholas was surprised at his wife’s perceptiveness.

  “Breakfast was delicious. Thank you, he said letting go of her as there was no one to watch now. Elizabeth suddenly felt cold and abandoned, and he groaned at the disappointment he saw in her eyes. He had not meant to grab her like that in the first place, but she had felt so good, so sweet and warm and soft against his hard body. How was he ever going to keep this clean and uncomplicated?

  “So, what did I do wrong?” she asked going around the table cleaning it.

  Once again Nic was surprised at her perceptiveness. He looked tentatively at the back door from where the men had just exited. They had warned him pretty strongly about hurting her sentiments.

  “Don’t worry they are all gone now.” So she had noticed that little byplay too, how his men had all bullied him into being nice to her.

  “They are my men, and I am usually not this accommodating for their whims and fancies.”

  “But you did it this time because you thought they deserved it and so did I? she asked with laughter in her voice as she moved around him busy at her work.

  “We don’t drink tea.”

  “Never?”

  “Nope. Only hot steaming strong coffee.”

  Chapter Eleven

  E lizabeth had just finished her cooking for the evening meal. For lunch, she had made sandwiches, baked potatoes, and salad. She was now aware of exactly how much she had to cook for the lot of them. It was still late afternoon, and she had decided to work a little in the small patch of garden behind the kitchen.

  She had found a cupboard full of gardening tools and some essential seeds earlier as she was rummaging through the little shed just outside the kitchen.

  She had sent Lydia off for a wash before settling in for an hour of gardening. Elizabeth was strict about maintaining hygiene and expected Lydia to be always clean and orderly. The girl had always obeyed her and had never shown any reluctance with the salts and soap her mistress insisted she use. She even made regular use of the little tin of talc Mistress Rutherford had given her as a parting gift.

  Elizabeth worked for a solid one hour in the garden, weeding the place and watering it making it ready for sowing. She had then made neat rows and put in a couple of different types of seeds. She had just been thinking of taking a break when she heard the horse coming down. It was Caroline

  “It actually smells clean and ….” she stopped in her tracks as she entered the clean and spotless kitchen. Elizabeth had liked her kitchen. It was huge and we
ll lit, and the cook top was large and comfortable. There was lots of space to move around and lots of fresh air.

  ‘What have you done to this place. It really looks spic and span. No offense to you but I cannot imagine this place clean.” she said looking around.

  “None taken,” Elizabeth said laughing merrily, and she realized suddenly how much he missed the company of Elinore.

  “So how many months are you gone?” Elizabeth asked smiling as Caroline followed her into the kitchen.

  “Take a guess.” Caroline was saying pulling off her riding gloves and sitting at the kitchen table.

  “Nic tells us your father was a doctor and you studied medicine, though you don’t have a degree really.”

  “He said that?” Elizabeth asked as she washed the mud off her hands at the huge kitchen sink.

  “He said not to talk to you about it as it might make you feel sad. He said it was complicated.” Caroline prattled on innocently.

  “Yes, it was” Elizabeth drawled, pulling down a tin of tea and putting the kettle on.

  “So, what do you say?” Caroline asked her hands spread out.

  “Five at the most six months.”

  “Six and a half,” Caroline said smiling widely thinking that she was after all not a good doctor. But when Elizabeth suddenly stopped in her tracks, put down the tin of tea and turned to look at her in disapproval, Caroline’s smile faltered.

  “What?”

  “Have you gained enough weight?”

  “Of course, I have gained weight. Look,” she said indicating her tummy, but the confidence had gone out of her voice.

  “Martha keeps saying I don’t eat enough. But sometimes I am so sick all day that I just cannot gulp down a morsel. Martha helps women here around with…you know…when the time comes.” she said

  “Have you been seeing a physician?” Elizabeth asked

  “I have a feeling I am seeing one now,” Caroline said uncertainly. “Have you delivered babies before Lizzie?” Elizabeth was shocked at the use of the name her father and Elinore had used for her.

  “Yes,” she said turning her back to Caroline and busying herself with the tea. She did not want Caroline to see in her face the emotions she had stirred by reminding her of her profession.

  “How many?” the young girl asked quietly and Elizabeth clutched the sides of the cooktop harder than necessary. She did not answer right away. Instead, she filled the cups and brought them around to the table. She placed one in front of Caroline then went to cut her a large piece of cherry pie from among three large ones that sat cooling on the counter. She put some cream on the side and put the plate in front of the girl. Caroline was still looking at her as if waiting for her answer. Elizabeth sat across from her and let out a shaky breath.

  “Three hundred and seven,” Elizabeth said with a sad smile that nearly threatened to tumble into a hysterical laugh.

  Caroline grabbed her hand over the top of the table and leaned forward shocked.

  “Why Lizzie? Why did you not get that degree?”

  “Because I topped my class.”

  “You know you are not making sense, right?”

  “My teachers were all men, so were all my fellow students. They did not appreciate that a girl should be at the top of the class. They refused on the grounds that I was a woman and women did not have the right temperament for being doctors.” she said giving Caroline the official reason that had been given to her. The real reason was much darker, and she did not wish to dwell on it.

  “So do you think I am…underweight or something…Do you think something is wrong with the baby.” she looked outright alarmed now.

  “Caroline, don’t fret. I believe we can wait and watch for another couple of weeks. But I will draw you a chart for your meals. You must follow that strictly.”

  “But I cannot eat. Nothing stays inside.” Caroline complained.

  “I will prepare some gruel for you. It will make you feel better.” Elizabeth said, doing exactly what her husband had forbidden her from doing. Playing doctor around his ranch. Well, she had not gone around looking for patients. This was just Caroline, and it was clear that if she did not intervene the girl would become anemic. She might even deliver prematurely and lose the baby. Elizabeth shook herself out of the reverie just in time to hear Caroline say.

  “Lizzie, you will be with me when the time comes, won’t you?” there was fear of the unknown lurking in the girl’s eyes and Elizabeth only knew it too well.

  “Of course, sweetie. You called me Lizzie. My father used to call me that. And so, does my best friend in Cleveland, Elinore. I already consider you special.”

  “That reminds me, you have a letter. It is from your best friend, Elinore Rutherford. I didn’t mean to pry, but she has written the return address and her name right below yours, see?” Caroline said handing the letter to Elizabeth. She remembered Nic having mentioned it in one of his letters that since the nearest post office was several miles away, the mail for the people around the ranch was mostly delivered at the Mercantile shop from where they picked it up.

  “Oh, and here is one for Nic. It’s from the Association. And here is one for Greg. And this one for Jim.”

  “Jim’s packet is the largest.”

  “Oh, it’s going to be some law journals or case files or some other kind of manual. Our Jim has big dreams. He wants to hit it big someday.” Caroline said fondly making fun of Jim’s aspirations. And Elizabeth pondered over the men and women from this corner of the world. They were so self-satisfied in their little eggshell that anyone even thinking of leaving this world was, in their eyes, not to be taken seriously.

  Elizabeth thanked Caroline, and at the wistful expression that came into her eyes, Caroline got up to leave saying she would leave her to read her letter. Elizabeth assured her she was in no hurry to read, though she couldn’t wait to read the news from back home.

  “Umm…Caroline…there is something I wanted to ask you.” Caroline suddenly stopped in her tracks. A look of fear crossed her eyes. Then she quickly replaced it with good-natured curiosity.

  “Of course, ask away.”

  “Caroline, will you teach me how to make coffee?”

  Chapter Twelve

  A fter dinner that night, Elizabeth made coffee the way Caroline had taught her. She had just finished cleaning the kitchen while Lydia had done the dishes and put them away. The girl had looked dog-tired, and she had dismissed her to her room behind the pantry.

  Lydia had taken up her place and her responsibilities in her new home seriously, genuinely grateful to Elizabeth and Nicholas for having offered her a safe home. She would be up hours before dawn and would have the fire going by the time Elizabeth came down to make breakfast.

  The men would come in just before dawn for their food, and before the sun was really up, they would all be gone off for their work. Lydia would help make breakfast, serve the men and clean afterward. What was more, she did her duties quietly and always kept a pleasant disposition.

  “What is that smell?” Nic asked coming down from the bedroom where he had gone right after dinner leaving his men behind to finish their meal. They had later told Elizabeth that the boss had had a rough day with the people from the association who were pestering him to sell his land to them.

  “Elizabeth, what are you doing?” he asked and his voice was laced with slight irritation.

  “I was making coffee,” she said pouring him a cup as he came towards her. Though the moon had not yet waxed fully, the night was cloudy. The only light came from the mild fire in the hearth. In that light, Nicholas Rhymer looked forbidding and intimidating. As he approached her Elizabeth’s heart beat faster, and her knees went weak.

  His features were hard and handsome, a broad forehead, a long sharp nose, high cheekbones and blue, blue eyes. The day’s stubble had grown over his face and made him look scruffy and somehow more attractive. Elizabeth could not believe for a moment that this tall, powerful man with a strapping figure, wa
s her husband.

  As protection, she held the coffee mug out to him before he could come any closer. “I wanted you to have the first cup I made.” Now, where had that come from? Elizabeth berated herself for her brazen remark and stood to wait for his reaction. He did not move to take the offered mug, and she felt like a fool standing there her hands outstretched.

  Then he held his sides and let out a loud guffaw. His laugh made her feel more uncomfortable, and she glared back at him.

  “I am happy that I amuse you.” she said tersely.

  Still shaking with laughter, Nicholas took the offered mug then shaking his head vigorously he said.

  “You never cease to surprise me, Liz Rhymer.” Hearing her name like that filled her with a vain delight, and coming from him it sounded all the more gratifying. It filled her with a sense of belonging.

  “Liz, people don’t drink coffee before they go to bed. It’s actually supposed to wake you up.” She scowled at that.

  “Well, back in Cleveland, we drank tea at any hour of the day. Even before going to bed. It would sooth the body and act as a mild soporific. Coffee essentially has the same composition. It should also…” she stopped suddenly as the jovial expression had left his face and he looked at her sharply.

  “A soporific is a …” She began, but his expression made her stop as she gulped down the fear that was now rising in her chest. She had displeased him.

  “I know what a soporific is Liz…point is why do you know about it…oh yes, your medical training…did we not say we were going to put that behind us?” he glowered, holding the coffee mug in one hand and holding her upper arm with the other. The grip was a bit too tight and making her squirm. But he did not relent and finally, Elizabeth stood there quietly, bearing the pain that was now searing through her arm and looking up at him pleadingly.