Falling for Change

by KC Lee

  Walking back out to the kitchen I started to put the salad together. Just as I was getting ready to cut up the cucumber I heard a knock on the door. It was five minutes to six Blue must be early. Not realizing I still had the cucumber in hand I went to open the door. I loosened my robe so my cleavage was visible. I flung open the door, one of my hands on my hip with the cucumber still in it and the other leaning against the now open door.

  “My God Anita,” my mother stood in the open doorway mouth hanging open as she gasped. One hand on her hip the other covering her wide-open mouth. Her dishwater hair pulled up in a clasp pieces hanging down and curled around her face. She had on a sparkling black, sleeveless, floor length gown. A white fur shawl and dangly diamond earrings with a matching diamond necklace. The diamonds on the necklace were so large I’m surprised she could walk wearing the thing. But my mother has always cared more for appearances than comfort. Which is why it was strange that she’d just show up at my door. I don’t remember making plans with her and it’s not like she could already know about Blue. We’ve only been seen in public together a couple times and we weren’t kissing or holding hands. All anyone could possibly think seeing us is that we are friends. I’m being paranoid. Just ask her Anita.

  “Mother what are you doing here? We didn’t have plans.” I tried to hide the cucumber behind my back.

  Still in shock it took her a minute to close her mouth and respond. “I was supposed to be attending the NRA Fundraising gala with you’re father this evening but he got called in to do an emergency surgery and since I’d already bought the dress and the tickets I decided to pop over and see if you would accompany me. The more appropriate question is why would you answer you’re door wearing that?”

  She tried to push her way in but I stood firm in the doorway. There was no way I was letting her in when Blue was supposed to be here any minute. I needed to get rid of her. It seemed as though she still hadn’t realized I was expecting company, just not hers.

  “Sherry, my assistant told me about the gala. She’ll be attending tonight. I’m sure you’ll have a lovely evening. And you look wonderful. It starts soon. I don’t have anything to wear you should just go with out me. Thank you for the invitation. Have a lovely evening.”

  I said this all in one breath and tried to shut the door. Unfortunately, one black high-heeled shoe got in between freedom and me and that heel was connected to my mother’s foot.

  “Not so fast young lady. It occurs to me that you wouldn’t be answering the door like this and apparently making something with a cucumber unless you were expecting company. So who is this new gentleman you are seeing and really Anita it’s a little trashy you opening your home up to a man wearing barely anything at all.” She’d gotten the door open wide again and was trying to push her way in.

  I winced. Shit. I thought the shock of seeing me would be enough to confuse her and send her on her way. I assumed she’d call tomorrow with all sorts of questions and I’d have more time to think of a logical explanation. Racking my brain for that logical explanation now I said the only thing that came to mind.

  “I wasn’t expecting anyone. I was making myself a salad for dinner and sometimes I like to feel sexy so I wear this around the house when I know I’ll be alone and and…” my eyes grew wide as I saw Blue who was now standing behind my mother in the foyer, “and I need you to go now because you’ve embarrassed me and…” I was rambling and nodding my head towards Phoebe’s door next door.

  “Well get it out dear. What’s wrong with you anyways? Why is your head doing that? Do you have a twitch?”

  “Mother, you should go before you’re late. It looks like Phoebe has company coming over. You’re blocking the woman’s way to get next door. I’m standing here in the hall for the entire world to see and you’ve already said it isn’t appropriate what I’m wearing. I’ll call you tomorrow. Have a lovely evening.”

  My mother turned and saw Blue standing behind her with flowers and red wine in hand. “Excuse me dear, I didn’t realize anyone was behind me. Go ahead now you can get through to the neighbors.”

  My eyes wide I shook my head yes rapidly and shooed my hands towards Phoebe’s again. “My apologies for blocking the entrance. My mother was just leaving.” I gave her a pointed stare and shut my door. With my ear on the door I waited to here my mother’s footsteps. Instead I heard my mother talking to Blue.

  “I’m quite sure Phoebe is not psychic dear.” She chuckled, “You have to knock on the door if you expect her to know you’re here.”

  Blue’s voice came through a little shocked, “Oh yes. Ya you’re right.”

  Then I heard a knock and finally my mother’s steps. I ran to the balcony and saw her getting into her pink Cadillac and driving away. Cucumber still in hand I ran back to the door swung it open and looked to my right. Blue was still standing at Phoebe’s door looking very confused, wine and flowers still in hand. “So ya. What was that? If it was some elaborate way to get rid of me you could have just said you didn’t feel like doing anything tonight.” Blue looked around nervously.

  “Quick get in here before she gets back.” Both of us safely inside my apartment now, I started to calm down. Checking myself I realized I still had that damn cucumber and I needed to fix my robe.

  “That was terribly close. It’s not as if I have no intention of ever telling my mother I’m gay I just would rather tell her after I know and not before.”

  “Huh?” Blue was fidgeting. She had on faded jeans with a few strategically placed rips that showed off her strong thighs. A tight, royal blue tank top that clung to her breasts and flat tummy. She ran her hand through her short raven locks.

  “Crap. I didn’t mean to say that out loud. I seem to have become very neurotic since I’ve met you. Anyways. Sorry about that. My mother just showed up. Which is completely unlike her. I didn’t mean to confuse you. I just really did not want her to see you coming into my apartment; me dressed like this” I gestured down my front, “you with flowers and wine. They’re beautiful by the way. Let’s go to the kitchen and put them in water.” I walked away.

  “What do you mean you don’t know if you’re gay? You are clearly preparing a romantic dinner for another woman and yourself, in clothing that barely covers your personal bits no less. Why is that by the way? Why were you going to greet me for our date with nothing to be left to the imagination?” She had put the wine and flowers down and was gesturing animatedly with her hands.

  “Truth?” I fidgeted.

  “That would be good to start with.” She was shaking her head up and down.

  “I’ve never dated a woman before. But I really like you. We have fun together. You make me laugh. But I’m a little nervous.” I got out the ice bucket and looked up at Blue.

  “Keep going. I guessed you’d probably never dated women already. I’m OK with that. But why are you wearing naughty lingerie?” She nodded her head at my lack of clothing.

  “I, I. Well the thing is. See. I. OK fine truth,” Blue was nodding, “I thought it would just be easier if I got it over with and slept with you tonight. That way I’d kind of know ya know. If I’m a lesbian.” I put my hands down at my sides my shoulders drooped and I exhaled loudly. This was so not what I had in mind.

  “Let me get this straight.” Blue chuckled walking towards me, “You wanted to sleep with me tonight and you figured if you just opened the door wearing practically nothing.” She grabbed my wrists, “I’d just jump you. That I have so little self control.” She backed me up against the kitchen counter, my heart racing. “That I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from ravaging you.” Her breasts were rubbing against mine. The lace bra was scratching at my nipples. I nodded yes then no. Confused and out of breath. “Tell me one last thing. What were you planning to do with the cucumber?” She laughed, letting go of my wrists and took a step back effectively breaking the sexual tension I’d been feeling since she grabbed my wrists.

  I looked down at the cucumber still in my hands. What wa
s with this stupid thing anyways? I poked her in the chest with it and turned back to the counter to gather myself. Starting to peel the cucumber I said “Put it in the salad of course.”

  Blue chuckled, “Of course. Would you like me to help with anything?”

  “You can throw the steaks on the grill. It’s out on the balcony. As soon as they’re done we can eat.”

  I finished the salad. Put the flowers in a vase on the table. Then I got out wine glasses and poured the wine. Lit the candles on the table and dimmed the lights slightly. Blue came back out from the balcony and asked, “Do you have a plate to bring the steaks back in on? Are you planning on wearing that the rest of the night?” Her cheeks colored slightly.

  Looking down I realized the robe had come completely undone. I looked up at her with a sly grin on my face. She was staring at my chest. Clearing my throat I said, “Up here.” Chuckling, “I can change if it’s distracting or bothering you.” I put my finger under her chin and lifted her head to eye level. Well more like my forehead her eyes, but at least I made my point about the distraction. Blue cleared her throat.

  “I kind of chickened out before you got here and intended to throw clothes on over this after I finished the food prep. I’m a bit of a klutz sometimes and didn’t want to have to change again if I got anything on me. But honestly I thought I’d be way more uncomfortable with my personal bits, as you say,” I gestured down the front of myself, “out in front of you than I am.”

  She shook her head like a dog coming out of the rain. “Hmm ya no. It’s not a bother just wondered if you were comfortable is all. I’ll grab those steaks.” She turned tail and ran to the grill.

  All throughout dinner I caught Blue looking at me like she’d rather be eating me than the steak. Regardless we had a good time. I only embarrassed her for ogling me once and we laughed and got to know more about it each other. Turns out, Blue comes from a large extended family and has an older sister who is also a lesbian. She does whatever she can to embarrass her and get a laugh. I decided I should probably meet this sister soon. She’s clearly a powerhouse of information about Blue.

  After dinner I suggested we go out to the balcony. I have a nice view of the park and the sun would be setting soon. I grabbed a small blanket and we sat on the couch getting ready for the sunset. Just as the show was about to begin, Blue went for the tried and true yawn and arm behind my back. I giggled and put my feet up to the side leaning my head in the crook of her arm.

  “In case I hadn’t made it clear already I’m pretty much a sure thing. No need to use corny moves to get closer to me.”

  I could feel Blue’s nervousness but not my own. Which was weird considering how knew I am at this. She really does make me feel comfortable. I’ve clearly thrown out all of my rules tonight.

  “I appreciate you being up front. And I appreciate the spectacular view all night. Honest. But I’m kinda nervous now. I’ve never had a woman be so forward with me. Usually I spend all night being sweet and doing romantic gestures and then go in for the kill at the end of the date.” Moving her arm she turned to face me and I fell kind of awkwardly face first into her lap. “See what I mean.” She laughed helping me back up right.

  Wiping my hair out of my face I sputtered, “Look. You already know I’ve never dated a woman before. Which means I’ve never slept with one. So my expectations are not terribly high. Besides you’ve been sweet all night. Check. You brought flowers and wine and now you’re holding me in your arms while we watch the sunset. Romantic. Check. Put the moves on me dam…”

  Blue leaned over took my face in her hands and kissed me. Her lips were soft and her tongue was sweet from the wine as it traced my lips and pushed through gliding along my own. I’d been kissed before but never like this. Her lips were soft and plush. She didn’t try to force her tongue down my throat and there was definitely no stubble scratching my face. I could get used to kissing a woman.

  As she nibbled on my bottom lip my skin tingled and my nipples hardened. I could feel Blue’s whole body relax as she lightly traced my jaw with her fingertips. Kissing her felt like the most natural thing in the world and I suddenly wondered why I hadn’t been kissing her my whole life. But I planned to make sure I’d be kissing her again and for a long time. When we finally broke from the kiss Blue was panting and I was a little light headed. The sun had just set and the sky was full of oranges, reds, and purples. I threw one leg over Blue’s lap and straddled her. I needed more of that kiss. It was, “Wow”, I said aloud.

  Blue chuckled and I leaned in for another kiss. I couldn’t get enough of her lips. I kissed her mouth and her jaw moving towards her ear. I nibbled on her ear lobe and moved down her neck. She wrapped her arms around me and scooted forward on the balcony couch. I tipped my head back and she sucked on my neck sending tingles down my spine. She stood up and carried me into the house my arms and legs wrapped around her. I kept my body pressed against hers. I couldn’t seem to get close enough and my skin was warm and tingled everywhere it touched hers.

  “Go to your right, through this door, here.” I said a little breathlessly flinging out my arm to grab onto the doorframe.

  Blue walked me towards the bed and gently laid me down on my back. She kissed my forehead and the tip of my nose slowly untying my robe and spreading it open. I sat upright taking the robe off and reaching for her mouth with mine. She pulled back “Anita, are you sure about this? Because if you’re not we could stop right now.”

  I looked into her eyes. She looked so incredibly sincere and gentle. Her eyes were so vibrant they almost glowed blue. “Your eyes, they’re so blue it’s like they’re glowing.” I was in awe of how beautiful she looked. Her lips were puffy and pink and she had a fine sheen of sweat glistening on her. I reached out to touch her face and she looked away. When she turned back her eyes didn’t seem to glow but were still a deep blue.

  “I’m sure Blue, my heart is pounding, I have butterflies in my belly and I think I may be more turned on from just kissing you than I have ever been in my life. I’m so sure.”

  She got down on her knees and pulled off one garter then the other very slowly making sure to touch every bit of my skin with her hands as she went down my legs. I shivered involuntarily. She crawled back up my body planting kisses along the way. I grabbed her face pulling her up to mine. I needed to kiss her again. My heart was racing and I could hardly breath. I pulled up on Blue’s tank running the tips of my fingers up her back and across her hard tummy. Breaking away from the kiss to pull her shirt completely off. She had a purple lace bra on. I ran my hands across her shoulders pulling her straps down as I continued down her muscular arms. Her olive colored skin was warm and smooth like silk. Goosebumps appeared on her skin where I lightly touched it with my fingertips. I kissed her neck and moved my hands to her back trying to unclasp her bra. She sat up straddling my waste and unclasped her bra setting her breasts free. I grabbed them; each one fit in my hand perfectly, her taught nipples rubbing against the palm of my hands. Blue grabbed my hands throwing me back down on the bed and holding my arms above my head.

  She lifted my chemise and planted tiny kisses up my stomach. I sucked in a deep breath, “Off, take it off me.”

  Sitting up I let her unclasp me and pulled the chemise off. She just stared at my breasts eyes wide, mouth open, a look of awe in her eyes.

  “Touch them, touch me, something please anything. I need you to touch me.” I breathed heavily.

  Blue kissed my mouth. Our tongues battled against each other, her hands squeezing my breasts. She pinched my nipple, and then pulled on it running her other hand down my side ending at my center. I moaned and arched my back pushing more of my breast into her hand. She bent down and took my other nipple in her mouth, sucking and tugging with her teeth. I jumped and screamed out, “Oh my god, Blue.”

  I could hear her humming and feel her heart beating against my own. She was on top of me our breasts touching. I drug my nails up her back and she moaned and squirmed. Lifting he
rself up she kissed my mouth, then my neck, and worked her way down to my breasts. Sucking and nipping, I was shaking with want underneath her. She looked into my eyes and moaned, “I want to taste you.”

  I couldn’t speak so I just shook my head yes and watched as she began to kiss her way down to my center. She placed one kiss on my underwear and licked me once through the black lace.

  “Yes, please.” I moaned and thrust up not wanting her to stop.

  She shook her head, grinning she chuckled, “Patience is a virtue dear.”

  She nipped the inside of my thigh and ran her tongue across my panties before she nipped the inside of my other thigh. I heard her moan a deep husky moan and I looked back down searching for her eyes. She looked back at me and I shivered her eyes seemed to be glowing again.

  “I can’t take any more Blue. Please make me cum. Please.” Begging I started to pull my panties down.

  “No.” She swatted my hands away, “Let me.”

  Painstakingly slow, she pulled my panties down causing goose bumps down my legs. My toes curled as she blew across my clit. She licked down one side and up the other. Swirling her tongue around my clit. Then her tongue was inside me. I could feel her pulling it out and putting it back in.

  “Oh god” I moaned grabbing her head and pushing her mouth back down on my clit.

  She started sucking and nibbled with her teeth and lips. “God Blue, Blue I’m coming. I’m coming.” I moaned.

  My belly tightened and I moaned. Panting I pulled her head up and kissed her mouth. I could taste myself on her tongue. She lay down on her back next to me. I realized a few things after I had my breath back. We were crooked on the bed, legs hanging over the side. Blue still had her pants on and I was completely naked. Lastly, I really really want to do that again, but more importantly, I want to taste Blue.