Eight Second Angel: The Ballad of Lily Grace (Lonesome Point, Texas Book 7)

by Jessie Evans

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  All Rights Reserved

  About the Book

  Dedication

  PROLOGUE

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  EPILOGUE

  A Letter from the Author

  Please enjoy this excerpt

  EIGHT SECOND ANGEL

  The Ballad of Lily Grace

  A Lonesome Point Novel

  By Jessie Evans

  All Rights Reserved

  Copyright Eight Second Angel © 2015 Jessie D. Evans www.jessieevansauthor.com

  All rights reserved. Without limiting the rights under copyright reserved above, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise) without the prior written permission of the copyright owner. This contemporary western romance is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, brands, media, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners. This e-book is licensed for your personal use only. This e-book may not be re-sold or given away to other people. If you would like to share this book with another person, please purchase an additional copy for each person you share it with, especially if you enjoy hot, sexy, emotional novels featuring alpha cowboys. If you are reading this book and did not purchase it, or it was not purchased for your use only, then you should return it and purchase your own copy. Thank you for respecting the author’s work. Cover image by Rob Lang c. Rob Lang/Roblangimages.com 2014. Cover design by Bootstrap Designs. Edited by Robin Leone Editorial.

  About the Book

  Love is heaven that hurts like hell…

  Rodeo cowboy Canyon O’Donnell is a champion with more national titles than any pro bull rider in history. He’s also one week away from ending his own life. Haunted by mistakes from his past, Canyon isn’t looking for redemption, let alone love. But when a beautiful girl with her own tragic past practically falls into his lap, he can’t resist taking her under his wing. He can’t promise her forever, but maybe he can help ease her pain.

  A little over a year ago, Lily Lawson was murdered. Now she’s back on earth in a new body, sent to redeem a lost soul before it’s too late. But her first good will mission is complicated by a powerful attraction to the tortured cowboy she’s been sent to save. Soon she wishes she could promise Canyon forever, but she only has a few days and time is running out.

  Lily’s willing to do whatever it takes to save Canyon’s life. But what if the one thing he needs—her love—is the one thing she can never give?

  Dedication

  To all the Lonesome Point readers

  who encouraged me to break the rules and write the

  story of the woman who was lost.

  Thank you so much for your

  open minds and big hearts.

  PROLOGUE

  Canyon

  He was fine to drive. He’d only had two beers.

  Canyon O’Donnell grabbed the truck keys from the hook near the door and headed out to pick Aaron up at school. He wasn’t worried about the joint he’d smoked during his lunch break—sweating in the shade of the tractor in the middle of the ryegrass field, wishing he were back on the road—or the two Adderall he’d downed with his first beer after quitting time.

  Since he’d been riding the circuit, his body had grown accustomed to riding hard and partying harder. He could handle an upper mixed with a couple of Bud Lights and stay on a bull for eight seconds, let alone navigate the two-mile drive to his son’s elementary school and back.

  And even if he’d been a little tipsy, he sure as hell wasn’t going to ask Reilly to pick Aaron up.

  Reilly was the one who had wanted him home, insisting he needed to come back to the farm for a few weeks to help her and her dad bring in the hay. But from the moment he’d shown up on the porch last Friday, his wife had made it clear his name was at the top of her shit list. She wrinkled her nose at the championship belt buckle he’d won at the Wrangler National Finals like he was wearing a cow patty to hold up his jeans, criticized him for being too rough when he and Aaron played bucking bronco in the living room, and shied away every time he reached out to her in the darkness.

  She’d redone the bedroom since he’d been home last time, filling it with lace, ten thousand fluffy pillows, and four tiny tables holding African violets he’d knocked over in the night when he got up to take a piss. Every doily and potted flower felt like an act of aggression, a reminder that his wife was doing everything she could to push him away.

  It wasn’t just redecorating the bedroom to eliminate any sign that a man slept there, it was the way she rolled her eyes when he talked about his chances of qualifying for the NFR or the new training methods he and his buddies had been trying out. Reilly had no trouble spending the prize money he won, but she acted like he’d done something stupid and shameful to earn it.

  She said she hated seeing him run his body into the ground riding bulls, but if she had her way, he’d still be running his body into the ground. He’d just be doing it at the farm, sweating his balls off in the sun for barely enough money to scrape by. He would live and die on the same two-hundred acres Reilly’s grandfather and great-grandfather had lived and died on and never see anything new.

  He would never feel the rush of a monster coiled between his thighs about to leap out of the chute, or hear the roar of the crowd as he held on long enough to prove he has what it takes to be champion. And he needed that rush, craved it more than just about anything aside from the cold six-pack waiting in his cooler in the truck when the ride was through.

  But did he need the rush more than he needed Reilly?

  His wife was the most beautiful woman he’d ever known. Once upon a time, she’d also been his best friend. He remembered when they would stay up until midnight dreaming out loud and when Reilly could make him laugh like nobody else ever had. He’d fallen for his brown-eyed girl when they were sixteen and still loved her so much it made his chest ache like he’d taken a hoof to the ribs every time she rolled to the other side of the bed, getting as far away from him as she could without falling to the floor.

  But he was beginning to think giving up rodeo was the only way to save their marriage and it felt like being forced to choose between his heart and his soul. One he needed to keep moving blood through his body, the other he needed to give his heart something worth beating for.

  Just thinking about the impending decision was enough to make Canyon sick to his stomach. He couldn’t imagine life without Reilly, but life with her had become so damned hard.

  He pulled into the pickup line at the school with his guts churning and by the time he reached the low brick wall where the kindergarten class sat in a row, waiting for their rides with their backpacks by their feet, he had broken out in a sweat beneath his dusty tee shirt and jeans.

 
“Hi, Daddy,” Aaron said, grinning up at him from the sidewalk as the monitor opened the door.

  His son was the spitting image of Reilly, from his thick dark hair to his soft brown eyes and heart-shaped face. But unlike his mother, Aaron always had a smile for his dad. He made Canyon feel like a hero just for waking up in the morning and he’d die for his little man in a heartbeat. There was nothing complicated about his relationship with his son, it was just love between them, pure and simple.

  “You want to see what I drew?” Aaron climbed up into his booster seat and buckled up, fumbling with the seat belt as he clung to the bulky poster board in his other hand. “It’s me as a superhero! I’ve got a mask and a jet pack and a super banana.”

  “A super banana.” Despite the nausea spreading through his mid-section, making his palms sweat as he pulled back out onto the street, Canyon laughed. “What do you do with a super banana, buddy?”

  “You shoot the bad guys with it,” Aaron said. “But it’s a banana so it doesn’t hurt them too bad. It just knocks ’em down and makes them dizzy long enough for the police to come put them in jail.”

  “Well, that sounds pretty good,” Canyon said, his pulse beginning to thud unhealthily in his ears. “Don’t want to hurt people if you don’t have to. Even bad guys.”

  “That’s what I said.” Aaron frowned as he let his poster slide down to the floorboard beside his backpack. “But Chris said I was a baby and that a super banana was stupid, even though I told him the banana was magic so it came right back to its peel every time you fired it and never got black or squishy.”

  “You’re not a baby. You’ve got a good heart. That’s something…” He broke off, clenching his jaw as a wave of bile pushed up the back of his throat and fresh sweat broke out across his forehead and upper lip.

  He swallowed hard, fighting to keep his distress from showing. “Something to be proud of.”

  While Aaron chattered on about his classroom nemesis, Canyon silently cursed himself, realizing it wasn’t stress about his marriage that was making him sick. He was having a bad reaction to the Adderall. It had happened once before when he’d taken a pill on an empty stomach and ended up puking his guts out the night before the last go-round at the Houston finals.

  The next afternoon, he’d barely managed to keep his seat for eight seconds and his dismount had been for shit. But he’d made it out of the ring with nothing worse than a few bruises and a strained shoulder muscle, nothing to keep him from competing at the Boulder Rodeo three days later.

  He’d powered through that miserable day and he’d power through this, too.

  Still, he’d be smart to empty his stomach before he got home. Reilly was already eyeballing the bottles in the recycling bin every morning with that tight-lipped look of hers, the look that made it clear he was being judged and found lacking. He didn’t need her listening to him vomit through the bathroom door and coming to all kinds of crazy conclusions.

  Swallowing against the wave of nausea making his tongue curdle in his mouth, Canyon pulled to the side of the two-lane highway and shoved the truck into park.

  “What’s wrong, Daddy?” Aaron asked. “You okay? Your face is sweaty.”

  “Just feeling a little sick to my stomach, buddy,” Canyon said, forcing a weak smile. “I think I ate something bad for lunch. I’m going to step outside for a minute, okay? I’ll be right back.”

  “Okay,” Aaron said, watching as Canyon slipped out of the cab and trotted around the front of the truck.

  He barely made it to the tall weeds at the edge of the road before he was violently sick, heaving up the sandwich he’d eaten for lunch, warm beer, and something vile that could be the rotted lining of his stomach.

  He hadn’t been eating right for months. It was too easy to eat junk on the road or to get to drinking and forget to eat altogether. He was going to have to step it up. He wasn’t going to be twenty-six forever. If he wanted a career into his thirties, he had to start taking better care of himself.

  As Canyon’s gut convulsed with another wave of sickness, he started making promises. He promised to drink less, eat more vegetables, and give the pills a rest. The pills were a bad habit, and the only reason he’d taken one today was because he was a coward.

  He’d wanted to get high, get above it all before he walked into the house to clean up for supper. He hadn’t wanted to face Reilly sober or to suffer the weight of her disapproval without something to numb the pain. But that was bullshit and so was this. He shouldn’t be puking his guts out in front of his son.

  But he was. He was so fucked up that he didn’t hear the dog barking or the passenger door of the truck open behind him. He didn’t hear anything except the sound of his own pitiful retching until it was too late.

  Screeching brakes squealed through the warm afternoon. Canyon turned toward the road in time to see Aaron bounce off the front of a giant SUV. He watched his son’s limp body fly, silhouetted for a terrible moment against the blue, blue sky while the dog Aaron had tried to save disappeared into the weeds on the other side of the road.

  Canyon sprinted toward the highway, sickness forgotten in the surge of terror electrifying his skin. He fell to his knees and pulled Aaron’s tiny body into his arms, a howl of grief rising in his throat as he got a look at his baby’s face. The driver of the SUV shouted that he was calling 911, but Canyon only shook his head, tears beginning to stream from his eyes.

  There was nothing the paramedics could do. His son was already gone.

  Later, the coroner would say that Aaron had been killed on impact and hadn’t suffered for more than a second or two. Later, the minister who came to the house to sit with the family would say that it wasn’t Canyon’s fault that he’d been sick or that Aaron had jumped out of the truck to save a stray dog wandering down the road. Later, Reilly would cling to him while she cried, reaching out to him in her grief in a way she had refused to do before.

  A day ago, getting close to his wife was all he’d wanted, but not like this. Not because his son was dead and it was his fault.

  Because it was his fault. If he’d been sober, Aaron would still be alive. If he hadn’t washed pills down with a couple of beers and gotten into the truck, that sweet boy would still be walking around the world, making people fall in love with his big imagination and bigger heart.

  The truth was inescapable, and finally, the day after the funeral, Canyon stopped trying to escape it. He told Reilly he was to blame for their son’s death and she told him to go to hell.

  So he did.

  He went to hell and he stayed there, knowing it was the only thing a monster like him deserved.

  CHAPTER ONE

  Four Years Later

  Lily Grace

  After so many months wandering the world in-between, light and weightless as a feather, coming back into a human body hurt like hell.

  Lily Grace Lawson felt like she was being poured through a strainer, split into thousands of razor-sharp pieces that flowed across this foreign skin to burrow into foreign bones. The stranger’s lips parted in a silent scream and Lily rushed in through her mouth, stealing the air from her lungs and the will from her flesh and blood.

  At that moment, Grace Heller, twenty-two-year-old waitress at a San Antonio truck stop, gave up her claim to the body she had been about to throw away, and the soul that had been Lily Lawson took her place.

  Lily’s new head fell back and a low moan escaped her throat. Tears streamed down her face and her breath came in ragged gasps that made her chest feel bruised. The pain that had been Grace’s was so fresh that it felt like her own. She didn’t know why the girl had been so sad, but she could feel despair heavy in her every cell, making drawing a full breath an exercise in misery.

  This bottomless suffering…it was hell. This must be what hell was like because Lily couldn’t imagine anything worse.

  She couldn’t blame the girl for giving up. Who would have the strength to hang on when there was so much pain and so little left to
live for? Grace had no parents, no family, no friends she could trust, and six months ago she had been cast out by the only boy she’d ever loved.

  Lily wasn’t sure what had happened, only that Grace had made a mistake Eddie couldn’t forgive and that had been the beginning of the end. Grace hadn’t known how to get on without him. Growing up in the foster system she had learned to survive, but she had never learned to be good to herself. Eddie had cared for her enough to make up for it, but without his love she had wandered too far from the light to find her way back.

  It was no wonder the spirit sent to help her had failed.

  Maybe Lily would fail, too. Maybe she would fail the man she’d been sent to earth to save and this good will mission was doomed before it began. Back in the world in-between, when she’d been offered this chance, it had seemed like a gift to be of service.

  But now…

  What was the point of saving one soul? What did one person lost to darkness matter, more or less? She would just be shoveling shit against the tide in a world filled with endless hurt and pain.

  “Not me,” she whispered, flinching at the sound of the higher, sweeter voice coming out of her borrowed mouth. “These thoughts aren’t mine.”

  Curling her hands into fists at her sides, Lily forced her new body to open its eyes. She had to ground herself in something other than the remnants of Grace’s darkly swirling emotions or she’d be no good to anyone.

  Lily blinked, taking in the muddy sky, where starlight battled the neon glow of the restaurants and gas stations below. The air was thick and humid, smelling of diesel fuel, charbroiled burgers, and something sad and dirty that made her wish she was anywhere but here.