TRITON: A Navy SEAL Romance (Heroes Ever After Book 2)

by Alana Albertson

  I’d snap. I’d break. I’d humiliate myself. I thrived on routine—one of the only suggestions my therapist had made that I actually implemented. Get up, go to the hospital for forced therapy and medical appointments, return home, get drunk, get laid.

  But I hadn’t been with anyone since Isa. She’d been different than the other girls I’d fucked. I wanted to claim her as mine.

  I was almost crazy enough to embarrass myself on national television to find a way back to her.

  Almost.

  But that was a stupid fucking idea. For so many reasons. The most important being that if I had fifteen weeks alone with Isa, I’d become addicted to her. And then she’d leave me.

  As a Medal of Honor recipient, I was held to a higher standard. I would not humiliate the Corps. And having a flashback on national television would be unavoidable.

  Then again, blowing my brains out would’ve clearly brought shame to the Marines, but at least the publicity might’ve shed some light on the suicide rates of veterans. What the fuck was wrong with me to even be thinking that? Man, I needed help.

  I ripped up the producer’s number and threw the card into the trash.

  Maybe someday Isa and I would cross paths again, and I’d be able to show her the kind of man I was.

  A beast.

  14

  Isa

  After a silent breakfast, where I spent most of my time internally debating whether or not I should contact Grady, my father turned on the television and found a football game. Once he was distracted, I told my dad I had some errands to run.

  I needed to talk to Benny Brooks, the executive producer of Dancing under the Stars.

  I jumped in my car and headed to the freeway, but I didn’t have the guts to show up on Grady’s doorstep—instead I was going back to LA.

  I hadn’t been back to Hollywood since my mom killed herself not wanting to be in the city where she’d taken her life. But I was desperate now. I had to finish school. I’d do whatever it took. And this option was infinitely preferable to making an ass out of myself groveling to Grady.

  And the truth was, I missed dancing.

  My foot pressed on the gas pedal. It was Monday in the middle of summer. Dancing under the Stars was not filming nor was the show on tour. And it was only three weeks until United States Dancesport Championships—which meant all the dancers should be training. I no longer had Benny’s phone number and no one ever answered the studio phone, but he was usually coaching Pasha at his ballroom.

  I checked Pasha’s Instagram. At least he was there—he had endorsed a workout shake from the ballroom less than an hour ago.

  Two hours, an iced coffee, and a caramel apple empanada later, I parked in the studio’s parking lot. This studio had been my home for many years. I’d done rumba walks until my toenails popped off, jive kicks until my knees gave out, and samba rolls until my back ached. But no matter how much physical pain I’d endured, I’d enjoyed every second of it.

  My mouth became dry. I exited the car and placed my hand on the door. Before I could change my mind, I forced myself to walk inside.

  But the second I stepped into the studio, I immediately regretted it. I didn’t belong here—I was an outsider, a quitter.

  Pasha whirled around the floor with his new professional partner, a stunning Russian blonde who also just happened to be his new girlfriend. I couldn’t help but stare at her toes, the effortless way they rolled off the ground.

  A bunch of younger dancers practiced their cha cha locks in the mirror. Luckily, no one had noticed me. I contemplated dashing back to my car, but a familiar voice stopped me.

  “Bellichka?” Pasha had ditched his partner in the middle of the floor and walked over to me.

  Bellichka, Pasha’s pet name for me. “Privet, Pasha.”

  The man who stood before me hadn’t aged a day since the last time I’d seen him four years ago. Pasha’s blonde hair was slicked with gel, his eyes were a pale blue, and his body was lean and tan. I was pretty sure that his flawless skin was the result of Botox.

  I expected him to hug me or at least give me one of those fake kisses on the cheek. But instead, his gaze traveled my body. I felt naked in his presence. He’d never looked at me like that, ever. All the years we danced together he’d treated me like his little sister. I had yearned for him to want me, see me as a woman and not as a little girl. I’d been so jealous of his girlfriends.

  But now, when I looked at him, I felt nothing.

  He took me in his arms and hugged me, attempting to kiss me on the lips, but I turned my cheek. He seemed startled and quickly released me.

  “What it is you doing here?”

  Well, his accent was still strong, despite being on television. “I was looking for Benny.”

  “He is not here. He went to Australia to take care of something.”

  Dammit. There went my plan.

  “But I can help you. . .”

  Doubtful. But I hadn’t come all this way to give up so easily.

  Pasha said something in Russian to his partner, who had come over to investigate. Years of immersing myself in Pasha’s language and culture allowed me to loosely decipher what he had said. “Go practice. It won’t be long. She isn’t of your concern.”

  Ouch. Well, it was true. I hated the way he talked to her, the way he had talked to me. But he wasn’t my problem anymore.

  He took me to the office and I sat down on the loveseat in the corner. There were old pictures of us hung on the walls, a trophy in a case behind a desk. “Why you come to Benny?”

  “I was wondering . . . my dad has run into some trouble, and the truth is I’m tight on cash. Do you think he could get me back on Dancing under the Stars?” I cringed with shame the second the request left my lips. Here I sat, in my jean shorts and T-shirt, begging my ex-partner to help me out. I’d left the show and our partnership. Why would he ever help me?

  “I wish I could help with you on show, but I cannot. Do you need the money? How much it is that you need, I write you check.” He reached into his desk drawer and pulled out a checkbook.

  “No, no, I don’t want your money. I want to work.”

  “Work? Let me be honest together with you. You will not get back on show.” He stood up from the desk and joined me on the loveseat. His hand pushed a lock of hair out of my face and I resisted the urge to recoil. “You are now beautiful to me. What we had, I will never have again. Oksana, she is incredible dancer, but you, Bellichka, when you danced, you were like magic.”

  I steadied my breath. “Okay. Then if I’m so incredible, why can’t I get on the show? Aren’t you a co-producer now? You can help me.”

  He laughed. “I am not head producer of show. Benny is. And he wants young dancers, more young than you. You are now twenty-three. The waitlist it is long. Unless celebrity requests to you, you will not be picked.” He inched into my dance space, and this time, I retreated. “But you can come back to me, work at studio, compete together with me, I can take care of you, like you always wanted. If you work very hard, we can win again.”

  What? Was he serious? I didn’t want to date him now. Back then, I’d idolized him and that life. But now, I saw it as shallow. We had devoted our lives to dancing, not ever thinking about anyone other than ourselves. After meeting Grady, a man that had sacrificed so much for something he believed in, I wanted to be with someone inspiring. Someone who inspired me to be a better person.

  “That is a kind offer, Pash, but I’m not interested. Nice to see you again. Good luck at Nationals.” I stood up, and he mirrored me. I turned to leave, and he pulled me to him, kissing me on the cheek. But I felt nothing. Once there had been electricity between us, but the spark had extinguished. Until I met Grady, I’d wondered if I would ever feel that radiance from a man again.

  I wanted to feel that heat again.

  By the time I returned home, my father was passed out on the sofa. I crept by him and went to my room.

  My bedroom was stuck in time, high
school blaring from every corner. Trophies and pictures from my dance competitions adorned the walls, pictures of me winning Nationals with Pasha.

  My stomach fluttered, and I opened my laptop. Now I had an excuse to contact Grady.

  But it wasn’t even a good excuse. Hey, I know I ran off after we had sex, but will you let my alcoholic dad, who stole my tuition funds, write your war memoir so I can pay for college? I’d be just another one of the people in his life who wanted to use him.

  But it was more than that. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I had to see him again. Even if he just laughed in my face.

  The worst he could say was no or ignore me. But maybe, just maybe, we could reconnect.

  I moved the cursor over to the message tab on his page. “Grady Williams: Public Figure.” It even had one of those blue checkmarks next to his name so I knew it was legit.

  Did he even manage his own page? Maybe I would send him a message and some assistant would respond? I was sure he received hundreds of emails daily from women in love with him.

  I scrolled down his page. Mostly motivational quotes, very few pictures. One of him sharing a beer with the President outside the Oval Office, another one of him with his battalion before the grenade. And a final picture of him and his buddy off-roading. I stared at that last picture longer than I should have. The inscription read “R.I.P. Rafael.”

  Damn, I’d learned from reading reports of his attack that Rafael was Grady’s friend who died next to Grady.

  I clicked the message button, my heart palpitating, and started typing.

  Hi Grady, it’s Isa. I was wondering if we could meet for coffee.

  Once I hit Send, my insides begin to quiver. Then I saw that check mark. Grady had read my message, or someone maintaining his page had. Grady was typing.

  Come by my place tomorrow night at ten.

  Whoa. He didn’t even ask me when I was free, or where I wanted to meet. Going to a man’s place at ten at night was definitely a booty call. Maybe he thought I wanted another round. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t crave him. Though I’d contacted him, he was in control of the situation. I didn’t know if I should be turned on or pissed off.

  Okay. I’ll be there.

  I sat in my bedroom, my stomach fluttering. What had I just done? A few days ago I’d been a sexually frustrated college coed eager to finish school. Now unless I could come up with tuition, I’d end up being a college dropout who couldn’t stop thinking about her epic one-night stand with Grady the sex god. I kept replaying every moment of our night in my head. The way he touched me, the way he made me feel, the way he focused on my pleasure.

  But now I had a second chance to see if there was something more between us than just red-hot chemistry, to apologize for running off, to figure out if I had been wrong about being scared of him.

  15

  Grady

  Time had passed slowly since I’d received Isa’s message yesterday. I was driving myself crazy trying to figure out why she’d contacted me, secretly hoping that she wanted another round. Ever since learning about her mother’s death, I’d been almost certain that she’d taken my bullet because she was concerned. I was excited for another chance with her.

  After a quick workout, I took a hot shower and dabbed on some cologne. The steam from the shower cleared from my mirror, and I caught a glimpse of my face.

  I would never get used to my reflection. The droopy eye, the non-existent ear, the skin that looked like it had been slashed by a serial killer. A lump grew in my throat, and I closed my eye.

  I threw on a black T-shirt and some cargo shorts and paced around my place.

  A chime rang out—Isa was downstairs. Adrenaline rushed through my body, the same feeling I had when I stepped out on the battlefield.

  I buzzed her in and stood by the door.

  Before I saw her, I heard her steps. Heels for sure, delicate little taps coming down the hallway. Her scent filled the air—fresh, fruity, fascinating.

  Damn, she was beautiful.

  She wore one of those loose T-shirts and tight skinny jeans that showed off her juicy ass. Her hair cascaded past her shoulders, and I wanted to run my fingers through it while she screamed my name.

  “Hey, beautiful.” I pulled her to me and gave her a hug, my cock pressing against her crotch.

  “Hey. It’s good to see you. How are you?” Her voice was cautious yet soothing.

  “Good.” I didn’t have any tolerance for small talk. I wanted to know why she wrote me. I wanted to know exactly why she ran out the other night. I wanted to know why she stole my bullet.

  After I released her, she headed to the sofa. My mind flashed to remembering her perfect naked ass perched up as I took her from behind.

  She rubbed her hands down her jeans and every inch of me desired her.

  I stared at her chest. “Do you want a drink?”

  “No, I’m good.” She ran her tongue over her teeth, and her gaze darted across the room.

  My gut gnarled. Something was up. She wasn’t making eye contact with me, and I suspected that it wasn’t just because of my face. “What’s up?”

  “I just wanted to see you.”

  Nice non-answer. “Well, now you’ve seen me.”

  She pulled on her hair. “Well, I don’t want you to think I only came over here to ask you for a favor.”

  A favor? I clenched my fists. My heart felt like it was literally shrinking. Of course she wanted something from me—these days everyone did. A woman that beautiful could never be interested in dating a man as grotesque as me. I hated myself for believing for a second that I had a chance with her. For believing that if someone could fall in love with me, then maybe I could love myself.

  She pursed her lips. “Are you okay?”

  “I’m fine.” What did this bitch want? I nodded toward her. “What do you want?”

  Her hands kept twirling her hair. “Can we talk first?”

  I shot her an irritated glance. “Talk about what? We aren’t friends. We just fucked once. What the fuck do you want from me?”

  The color drained from her face and she shook her head at me. “My father, he’s a bestselling biographer. He’s really talented, a complete perfectionist, and like I already told you, he’s a Marine. I was wondering . . . if there was any way you would consider letting him write your war memoir?”

  Yup, the bitch was no different than the other women I’d met since I’d been injured. I was a novelty, a charity, a commodity. God, and I honestly believed for a second she wanted me. “The answer is no. Why don’t you get the fuck out of here? You’re just like every other fake-ass bitch I’ve met, Bella. And you washed up reality stars are the worst—using anyone to stay relevant.”

  Her chin trembled. “Bella? I guess you found out I was on Dancing under the Stars?”

  “Yes, ma’am. I may only have one eye, but I told you that I’d seen you before. I never forget a face.”

  “I . . . I’m sorry. I didn’t want to tell you because once I tell a guy about the show, he treats me differently. I like you, Grady, I honest to God do. But I figured if I told you I’d been on a television show, you’d judge me, like you’re doing right now. That show destroyed my life. That’s why I quit. I wasn’t asked to leave, I ran away.”

  Just like she had that night. Her lip trembled and I knew there was more to her story for leaving. But I was too pissed to keep interrogating her. “You saw my gun, didn’t you? Did you take my bullet?”

  Her face turned white. “I . . . I mean—”

  “I’ll take that as a yes. Why? Did you think I was going to kill you? Who the fuck do you think you are? I’m a Marine. This is America. I have a right to have a loaded gun in my house without some bitch stealing my goddamn bullet.” Here I was yelling at this girl, my body bursting with rage when she’d saved my life. She probably thought I was a psycho. I just wanted her to leave.

  But instead of cowering, she glared right at me. “I didn’t know you—I still don’t.
I saw you have a flashback at that party, and yes, I thought it was a possibility that you could be violent or even suicidal. So yes, I did take it, and no, I’m not sorry. And you know what? I’d do it again!”

  Whoa. As pissed off as I was at her, I was impressed that she was standing up to me. No one ever told me off anymore. Even my own friends pussyfooted around me ever since I was awarded my medal.

  My eye darted around her face. She seemed sincere, hurt, even scared. Whatever, it was too late now to even try to turn this around.

  I lowered my voice. “It’s fine. I don’t want to write a book, but thanks for asking. And if I did, I could pick any author I wanted. I definitely wouldn’t pick the father of some random girl I fucked. It’s time for you to go.”

  But the bitch kept talking, her voice laced with desperation. “No, wait. Listen to me—my dad’s an excellent writer. He will do a great job. I know you don’t want to tell your story, but if you don’t, I’m sure someone will write an unauthorized account of the attack. This is your way of controlling the information, honoring your friend’s memory.”

  She had a point. I’d already read some bullshit accounts in the press. Most were exaggerated, made me look like I was lying. Yes, I threw myself on a grenade—no, I wasn’t the bionic man who withstood gunfire and killed a bunch of people.

  I studied Isa—her chest heaved as she talked and I spied a pink bra strap. My rage began to melt away, replaced by lust.

  I wanted her. Again. However I could have her.

  “Why is this so important to you? If your dad is such a great writer, he can write some other guy’s story. Why mine?”

  She cast a downward glance. “He’s having some financial trouble now. The bank will foreclose on our home, and—” she sighed, “well, he stole my tuition money to try to save the house. It was my money I had earned when I was on the show. So, yeah, I won’t be able to finish my last year of college unless I can come up with the cash.”