The Business Of Dying

by Simon Kernick

  Matthew turned and ran towards the door, shouting at me to stay where I was in tones laced with panic. Inexplicably, he left the MAC 10 where it was but continued to clutch the iron bar for dear life, as if the one offered him more protection than the other. I heard him curse as he reached the front entrance. More shots followed, and there was the sound of glass shattering.

  Slowly, I forced myself to my feet, shaking my head to try to rid it of the grogginess I felt. I stumbled slightly but kept my balance. The back of my head felt as though it was on fire, but at least I was alive. For now.

  I took the gun from my pocket. I’d already released the safety and it was cocked and ready to fire. The car screeched to a halt right outside the front door, kicking up gravel, then there was the sound of another car stopping right behind it. I heard Raymond’s voice, panic-stricken now, then Matthew disappeared from view, screaming his brother’s name. Raymond yelled at him to get back inside and there was the sound of running feet. There were more shots, and from somewhere a scream of pain.

  I stopped and took aim at the hall door. A split second later, Matthew came running through it, followed immediately by Raymond. Raymond’s face was covered in tiny cuts. There was no sign of Luke. I didn’t hesitate but opened fire in rapid succession. My first bullet hit Matthew in the face and he flailed backwards, temporarily blocking Raymond as a target. I hit him again in the stomach and upper body, and he and Raymond fell to the floor together.

  Almost immediately, a hooded gunman came charging through the doorway, holding a pistol. He turned and swung it in my direction so I kept firing, not knowing what else to do. I hit him in the shoulder, and I think the chest. He whirled round in a ferocious pirouette before banging into the doorframe then momentarily disappearing from view.

  The gun was empty. On the floor, neither Raymond nor Matthew moved. I took a step backwards and suddenly a second gunman burst in. Knowing where my shots had come from, he crouched down and unloaded a volley of fire in my direction. Dropping the gun, I dived for cover and rolled round the other side of the staircase and temporarily out of range. I heard him running towards me and with every last bit of strength I had left I wriggled over to the MAC 10, grabbed it, and rolled round.

  He was coming round the side of the staircase, gun outstretched in front of him. He fired as soon as he saw me, the first bullet ricocheting off the expensive cream carpet, not far from my head. Two more bullets flew past me, equally close, and I pulled the trigger of the MAC 10.

  The whole world seemed to explode in noise. A hail of bullets ripped through my attacker, sending him dancing in a manic jig as his body seemed to burst open. Ornaments, furnishings, glass . . . everything seemed to shatter as the bullets tore apart their target and flew off in all directions, stitching an angry blood-splattered pattern right across the wall. A dozen small wounds blended together and became a gaping hole in his midriff, exposing pale lumps of fat and the first writhing coils of intestine.

  The magazine emptied in the space of a couple of seconds, the spent shells forming a pile on the carpet. For a moment, the gunman kept his feet, stumbling awkwardly about like a blind man, both hands clasping his guts and trying to put them back where they belonged. But I think it must have dawned on him that it was a futile exercise, and he fell to the floor and lay there moaning weakly.

  For a couple of seconds, I didn’t move. My head was pounding and I felt an intense tiredness. But I knew it was nearly over. All I had to do now was make sure Raymond was beyond help and make my getaway. Then I would have done what I’d set out to do, and I could sleep for as long as I wanted.

  I got to my feet and looked over at Raymond and Matthew. Both were lying motionless in a heap by the door, their faces red with blood. Out in the porch I could hear the sound of someone moaning, presumably the other gunman. At the same time, the other car – the one that had been carrying Illan’s assassins – reversed and turned round in the drive, before pulling away.

  I approached the door and gingerly put my head round it. The gunman was lying on his front and a pool of blood had spread out below him. He still had hold of the gun, but his grip looked weak. He was trying to crawl towards the front door but didn’t seem to have the strength to make it. I stepped towards him, leaning down to pick up the gun.

  And then, for the second time that night, I heard a noise behind me. I swung round, eager not to get caught out again, just as Raymond, bellowing like an angry bull, charged me. He threw a punch, but I managed to read his intentions and dodged it, although I was unable to get out of his way as he ran into me head on, and I toppled over backwards under his weight.

  I landed heavily on the back of the gunman, who let out a weird high-pitched squeal as the air was forced out of him. The gun fell from his fingers with a clatter. Winded myself, I desperately tried to parry the blows Raymond rained down on me. I managed to catch him on the chin with a punch of my own, but it wasn’t enough to cause any real damage. He hit me back in the spot where Kover had caught me the previous night, my already tender right cheek, and I felt something break.

  Sensing that I was fading, he reached across me and went for the gun. And that was when I thought of Molly Hagger and the anonymous, gruesome death she must have suffered. Only thirteen years old. Still a fucking kid. And I knew I couldn’t die without making Raymond Keen pay for his crimes.

  With a strength born of pure rage, I shot upwards, knocking him off balance, and headbutted him bang on the bridge of the nose. I heard the bone snap with a hideous crack and he screamed in agony. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him bring up the gun, but his grip had loosened with the shock of my blow and I ripped it out of his hand, smacking him on the side of the head with the butt at just the moment he punched me again, knocking me backwards.

  But this time I kept hold of the gun, and swung it round so it was pointed straight at him. His eyes widened and he froze. I sat back up, and this time he made no effort to resist. With one hand, I grabbed him by his thick mane of hair; with the other, I pushed the barrel against his eye.

  ‘Now, now, Raymond. Easy does it.’

  I pushed him backwards and got to my feet, still holding the gun tight against him. When we were both standing up, I gave him a shove and walked back into the inner hallway with him retreating in front of me. Blood poured liberally out of his damaged nose.

  ‘Look, Dennis, I’ve got money. Plenty of it. We can come to some arrangement.’ This time there was no mistaking the fear in his voice.

  I stopped in front of him, keeping the gun trained on his face. Five feet separated us. ‘I know everything that’s been happening with Kover and Roberts and those kids.’

  Raymond shook his head, then looked at me. ‘Shit, Dennis, I never meant to get involved in it all, I really didn’t.’

  ‘That’s what Kover said. I didn’t believe him, and I don’t believe you. Now, while you’re here, there are a few questions I need answering.’

  ‘OK.’ He was playing for time.

  ‘Every time you give me a wrong answer, or one I don’t believe, I’m going to shoot you in either a foot or a kneecap.’

  ‘Easy, Dennis. Come on.’

  ‘How the hell did you and Roberts ever get involved together?’

  ‘I’ve known him for years.’

  ‘How?’

  ‘I met him at a charity function once.’ I snorted at the irony, but didn’t say anything. ‘We got friendly. I found out he had something of a coke habit so I started supplying him with the stuff – for a nice low cost, of course, which he appreciated. I liked him, you know, even though it didn’t take me too long to find out about his little perversions.’

  ‘Go on.’

  ‘He had money troubles. Big money troubles. And not a lot in the way of scruples. Like most of them kiddy fiddlers.’ He sighed. ‘You know how it is, Dennis. Sometimes you can just see the evil in people. I saw it in him.’

  I wondered then if he’d ever seen it in me.

  ‘And what happened to
the kids? Where are they now?’

  ‘Dead. All dead.’

  ‘Why? What did you do with them?’

  ‘If it’s any consolation, Dennis, I didn’t kill them. I had a client, a bloke who was very, very sick. He got off on torturing children. Liked to suffocate them while he was, you know, doing his thing.’

  ‘Jesus.’

  ‘I wouldn’t have got involved, I really wouldn’t have done, but he was – is – an important man. We needed him for the business. If there was any other way—’

  ‘Raymond, there’s always another way. And what the fuck did you get out of letting him do that sort of—’ I couldn’t say it. ‘What did you get out of it anyway?’

  ‘We filmed him. He used to do the deed in this house I rent up near Ipswich, and we put a hidden camera in there to record him at it. We kept the tapes to make sure he told us everything that was going on.’

  ‘And who is this sick bastard?’

  ‘His name’s Nigel Grayley.’

  ‘And what’s his use?’

  ‘He’s third in command at Customs and Excise.’

  In the far distance, through the sound of the rain, I could hear the first sirens. It felt like a long time had passed since the first shots had been fired, but in reality I doubted if it was much over three minutes.

  ‘So that’s how you found out about where they were taking the accountant?’

  He nodded, and I thought I detected shame in his manner. His shoulders were stooped and it looked like a lot of the joie de vivre had disappeared, probably for ever.

  ‘What was the accountant going to expose about you and your associates?’

  ‘We’ve got a big illegal immigrant racket going. Have done for years. It was going so fucking well too. We had the infrastructure, the inside contacts. Everything was going fine, no one was getting hurt, and then that prick decided to blow the whistle.’

  ‘Where are the tapes? The ones you made of this Grayley guy?’

  Raymond exhaled slowly. ‘You don’t want to see them, Dennis. You really don’t.’

  ‘I know I don’t. But I know people who will.’

  ‘Fucking hell, Dennis, I really wish it hadn’t all ended like this.’

  ‘The tapes.’

  ‘There’s one in the boot of the Bentley. Down by the spare tyre.’

  ‘What the hell’s it doing there?’

  ‘I was going to drop it in a safety deposit box on the way to the airport. I didn’t like leaving them all here while I go away, just in case the house burned down.’

  The sirens were getting nearer. Now it was my turn to sigh. ‘You know, Raymond, this is one of the most horrendous fucking stories I’ve ever heard.’

  ‘I know, Dennis, I know.’ He looked down at his shoes.

  I knew it was time to kill him, but even now, for some reason, it seemed difficult.

  ‘And what about Danny? My driver? What happened to him?’

  He came at me fast, almost too fast, his bulk moving at an unnerving speed, and he was almost on me by the time I pulled the trigger, the bullet snapping his head back. I fired again, hitting him in the throat, but his forward momentum drove his body into me and knocked me back into the doorframe. I pushed him out of the way and regained my footing, watching as he writhed on the carpet. He rolled round on to his back, making horrendous gurgling noises. He tried to say something, but the only thing that came out of his mouth was blood, huge torrents of it. His head was bleeding severely, and I knew the end was near for him.

  I lifted the gun and went to deliver the killing shot, but decided against it. Why let him go quickly? Better that he died with time to consider the terrible wrongs he’d done.

  And so, leaving him choking his last breaths, I walked out of the house to the Bentley, stepping over Luke’s bullet-ridden corpse as I made my way round to the driver’s seat. The keys were still in the ignition and the engine was still running. There wasn’t a windscreen, but I felt that for the time being I could live with that.

  I put the car into gear and pulled away.

  39

  The following afternoon, at a hotel in Somerset, I put the tape from Raymond’s car into the video recorder in my room, and watched for thirty seconds. It was enough. I have seen many dreadful things in my time. I’ve been an inner-city copper for close to twenty years so there aren’t that many sights that can shock me. But this one did.

  Molly Hagger was on the tape. She was sitting on a bed in a sparsely furnished room, her hands tied behind her back. She was naked but for a pair of black frilly knickers but she still looked thirteen, maybe even younger, and she was in great distress, sobbing fearfully. A naked man appeared in front of her, side-on to the camera. He was balding, middle-aged, and worryingly thin. I vaguely recognized his face. I think, perhaps, that I’d seen him before on the television. He had a hungry look in his eyes and an angry erection. As I watched he struck Molly round the face and called her a dirty little whore. There was an intense pleasure in his voice. He grabbed her by her curly hair and pulled her towards him, slapping her again. She cried out in pain as he forced her to her knees and thrust himself roughly into her mouth.

  I switched off then. There was no point in watching any more. It was too distressing. And I knew, without a doubt, that he had ended up killing little Molly Hagger, and that Raymond had filmed it all in glorious technicolour. The hardest part was realizing that outwardly here was a respectable man who had probably shaken hands with royalty before now; the sort of person who appeared on television to give his weighty opinion on events in the world of Customs and Excise. The sort of man who underneath the façade is a foul, deceitful monster who can keep that fact hidden from almost everyone who knows him.

  An hour later I posted the tape, along with a detailed report on what I believed had gone on, to DS Asif Malik. As promised, I also posted a briefer version of the report, careful to take out any mention of Nigel Grayley so as not to prejudice any future trial, to Roy Shelley at the North London Echo. In neither report did I mention my own part in the affair, although I had little doubt that that would become common knowledge soon enough.

  An hour after that, I paid my bill and continued my drive westwards in the rental car I’d hired in the name of Mr Marcus Baxter, a travelling salesman from Swindon.

  Epilogue

  I approach the Philippine Airlines desk with a smile, and get a smile in return from the Oriental girl. She’s older than her colleagues, somewhere in her thirties, and I expect she’s the one in charge. She greets me happily as if it really is genuinely good to see me, and asks me the usual questions about whether it was me who packed my suitcases or not, and all the rest of it. I answer everything correctly, and we have a quick banter about what the Philippines are like at this time of year. ‘I’ve never been there, you know,’ I say, and she tells me that I won’t be disappointed. ‘No,’ I reply, thinking that it’s been years since I sat on a palm-fringed beach, ‘I know I won’t.’ She briefly checks my ticket, sees that it’s all in order, and flashes me another smile as the cases begin their journey along the conveyor belt. ‘Have an enjoyable trip, Señor Baxter.’

  ‘Thanks very much. I will.’

  I move away from the desk and head towards passport control and my new life. I’m not nervous. There’s no need to be. Three months have passed since that night at Raymond Keen’s house and, in a land of constantly changing images and an ever-shrinking attention span, I am already yesterday’s man. I look different, too. I wear a full beard now and glasses, and my face looks fatter. I’ve put on weight elsewhere too, mainly round the waist, the result of country cooking and quitting the cigarettes. You wouldn’t recognize me from the photos they showed in the papers. No one would.

  And I feel better too, like a new man; a man who’s put the past behind him. There are regrets, of course. That Carla went to her death so soon after I’d called her a liar is something that will stay with me for a long time. But, in the end, the past is the past, and at least I can sa
fely say that I have achieved far more as an individual than I ever achieved as a police officer. Thanks to evidence found on Raymond’s premises and my reports to Malik and Shelley, Mehmet Illan and at least half a dozen of his associates are behind bars awaiting trial for their involvement in one of the largest people-smuggling operations in British history. Nigel Grayley, a married father of four, will never go on trial for his crimes, however. Four days after his arrest he slashed his wrists with a smuggled razor blade and bled to death in his cell. An inquiry is now under way to ascertain how he got hold of the blade, but no one’s shedding any tears, and the tabloids celebrated the news, which was fair enough. The world is a better place without him.

  The remains of Molly Hagger and the other girls have not been found. Most people accept that the secret of their whereabouts died with Raymond, but there are others, myself included, who think that maybe Illan could shed some light on the mystery. But he isn’t talking, and neither is anyone else who might know. In the end, you can’t really blame them. No one wants to be associated with that particular crime. Predictably, Danny hadn’t made it to Jamaica. A week after Raymond’s death his body was discovered with gunshot wounds in the boot of a stolen car in the Heathrow Airport long-stay car park after a security guard had detected a particularly repulsive stench coming from it. I was sad but not surprised when I read about it in the papers.

  One piece of good news that has come out of all this, though, is that Anne Taylor is alive and well. I’d mentioned in my report that she’d gone missing too, even though Kover had denied abducting her, but a few days later she turned up in one piece, having gone on a jaunt to Southend with another, older girl in search of a new market for their services. She’s still heading down a rocky road, one that could yet put her in an early grave, but at least for the moment she continues to breathe the same air as you and I.