The Collected Stories of Carol Emshwiller, Vol. 1
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But I’m not as sad as you might think. I knew she would die pretty soon anyway, and this is a better way than in bed looking at the ceiling, maybe in pain. If that had happened, she wouldn’t have complained. She’d not have said a word, trying not to be a bother. Nobody would have known about the pain except me. I would have had to grit my teeth against her pain the whole time.
I haven’t told anybody partly because I’m waiting to figure things out. I’m here all by myself, but I’m good at looking after things. There are those who check on us every weekend—people who are paid to do it. I wave at them. “All okay.” I mouth it. The president of the Town and Country Bank came out once. I told him Grandma wasn’t feeling well. It wasn’t exactly a lie. How long can this go on? He’ll be the one who finds out first—if anybody does. Maybe they won’t.
I’m nursing my jackrabbit. We’re friends now. He’s getting better fast. Pretty soon I’ll let him go off to be a rabbit. But he might rather stay here with me.
I’m wearing Grandma’s costume most of the time now. I sleep in it. It makes me feel safe. I’m doing my own little rescues as usual. (The vegetable garden is full of happy weeds. I keep the bird feeder going. I leave scraps out for the skunk.) Those count—almost as much as Grandma’s rescues did. Anyway, I know the weeds think so.
The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction, March 2002
Notes On Stories
“Built For Pleasure” was sold to Long Island Suburban in November 1954, but the publication collapsed before the story saw print. This is its first publication.
“This Thing Called Love” in its appearance in Future Science Fiction, No. 28, 1955, had header line art by CE’s husband Ed “Emsh” Emshwiller.
“Love Me Again” in its appearance in Science Fiction Quarterly, February 1956, was illustrated by “Emsh” .
“Two-Step For Six Legs” in its appearance in Science Fiction Quarterly, May 1956, was illustrated by “Emsh”
“Bingo and Bongo” in its appearance in Future Science Fiction, No. 31, Winter 1956-1957, was illustrated by “Emsh” .
“Hunting Machine” in its appearance in The Original Science Fiction, vol. 7, no. 6, May 1957, was illustrated by “Emsh” .
“The Piece Thing” in its appearance in Science Fiction Quarterly, August 1957, was illustrated by “Emsh” .
“Baby” in its first publication in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction had a cover painting, illustrating the story, by “Emsh” .
“Day at the Beach” in its first publication in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction had a cover painting, illustrating the story, by “Emsh” .
“Chicken Icarus” was first published as “A Dream of Flying” in Cavalier October 1966.
“But Soft What Light…” CE’s original title for this story was “Word Engine”.
“White Dove” has been revised from its first publication in New Worlds.
“Destinations, Premonitions and the Nature of Anxiety,” “Eohippus,” and “Expecting Sunshine and Getting It,” black and white line art by CE.
“Creature” won the Nebula Award for best story in 2002.
About The Author
Carol Emshwiller was born in 1921 in Ann Arbor, Michigan. Her Father was a linguistic professor at the University of Michigan. She Graduated from that college in 1949, after serving in the Red Cross during World War II, and spent a year studying fine art at the Ecole des Beaux-Arts in France under a Fulbright scholarship. In 1950 she toured post-war Europe on a motorcycle with her husband Ed Emshwiller, who she first met in a life drawing class. She sold her first story in 1954. In 2002 she won the Nebula Award and Philip K. Dick Award. She received a second Nebula and the World Fantasy Award for Life Achievement in 2005. The mother of two daughters and one son, she has lived since 1981 in New York City.
The dust jacket portrait is an oil painting done by Ed Emshwiller in 1957. Carol was the primary female model for his artwork on books and magazines. To learn more about the Emshwillers see Infinity x Two: The Art & Life of Ed and Carol Emshwiller, also from Nonstop Press.
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