Dark Visions

by L. J. Smith

  "No, it doesn't," Rob said, his voice strong. "It sounds right. I believe you."

  Gabriel looked at him, just a look. But after that he held his head up, and the startled, furtive expression was gone.

  Kaitlyn felt something like carbonated water begin to bubble in her veins. "We did it," she said. She looked at each of her mind-mates, and at Lydia, and suddenly she needed to shout. "You guys, we did it!" "I said that already," Lewis said with force. And then it was like a roller coaster gathering speed.

  Everybody seemed to feel the need to say it, and then to yell it, and then to yell louder to be heard over the other yells. People began to tell one another and then to hug one another or pound one another on the back to drive the point home. Kaitlyn found herself shaking Lydia and kissing Gabriel. Rob, somehow unchained, was wringing Anna's long braids.

  Bri and Renny were part of the celebration, punching each other and whooping with gathering intensity.

  Joyce was crying, clutching with one hand at Kaitlyn's back and whispering something Kait couldn't hear.

  Lydia was a full member of the winning team, being socked in the arm over and over by Lewis.

  But three people weren't. Tamsin knelt by the two dead boys on the floor. Her tilted eyes were wet as she gently closed their eyelids.

  And Frost and Jackal Mac were stiff as statues, watching the wild release of energy around them with frightened, hostile eyes. Kaitlyn saw them and raised her arms to Frost.

  "Come on," she said. "Don't worry; be happy. Let's all try to deal with each other, okay?"

  It wasn't the warmest invitation, maybe, but Kaitlyn thought that under the circumstances it was pretty generous. But Frost's pale blue eyes flashed. Jackal Mac's face turned ugly.

  They looked at each other, then with one accord they rushed for the door. Kaitlyn was too surprised to try to stop them, and by the time she recovered, she wasn't sure she wanted to. The yelling and cheering had died out, and she looked at Rob, who had taken half a step toward the door.

  "I think we should just let them go," she said.

  He glanced back, then nodded slowly. Gabriel and Lewis settled back reluctantly. Kaitlyn could hear running footsteps up above, then the bang of a door.

  Then, silence. In the stillness, Joyce's whispering could be heard.

  "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for everything."

  Kaitlyn turned.

  Joyce's aquamarine eyes were red-rimmed. Her face was shiny with tears and perspiration, her normally sleek blond hair ruffled like a baby chick's. Her pink sweat clothes looked damp and bedraggled.

  She also looked like a sleepwalker who has just woken up.

  "I'm so sorry," she whispered. "The things I've done. The terrible things. I... I..."

  Kaitlyn looked at her helplessly. Then she said, "Tamsin!"

  The head with the clustered yellow curls lifted. Tamsin saw Joyce and got up. She looked into Joyce's face, then she took Joyce by the elbow and led her toward the open door.

  "The firestones can cast a powerful spell," Kait heard her saying softly. "Their influence can be very strong-and recovery can take a long time. . . ."

  Kaitlyn was satisfied. Although Tamsin looked younger than Joyce, there was a sort of ageless wisdom and understanding about her. Joyce was listening as they disappeared.

  Kait turned back to find her mind-mates grinning at her.

  Good job, Lewis said, and Anna said, I hope she's okay.

  Bri and Renny were smiling, too. The atmosphere of wild jubilation had quieted, but a kind of dizzy glow remained.

  "Let's go upstairs," Rob said, taking Kaitlyn's hand.

  "Yes, I'd better change." Kaitlyn glanced down at the bathing suit and grinned wryly. "And I'm sure there are things to take care of-God, the police, I guess. We're going to have to explain all this somehow."

  "I wanna get out of here before that," Bri said.

  Kaitlyn looked behind her, held out her free hand to Gabriel. "Come on, you . . . hero. I want to tell you what I think of you."

  "So do I," Rob said, golden eyes warm.

  Gabriel looked at Kaitlyn's fingers intertwined with Rob's. He smiled, but Kaitlyn couldn't feel his happiness in the web anymore.

  "I'm glad you have her back safe again," he said to Rob. He was saying two things with that, Kaitlyn realized.

  Suddenly, some of the dizzy glow faded. "Please come up with us," she said to Gabriel, and he nodded, smiling politely, like a stranger.

  CHAPTER 16

  So you're not a psychic vampire anymore," Lewis said to Gabriel as they reached the dining room. "I mean, nobody is anymore, right? The Fellowship said if the crystal was destroyed, you'd be cured."

  Kaitlyn realized that he was chattering deliberately, filling the silence, trying to help in the only way he could. Gabriel smiled at him, wanly grateful, but Kaitlyn could see the pain behind those gray eyes.

  She herself knew that she should be going upstairs, but she couldn't seem to make herself leave. She had never imagined that a person could go from feeling so gloriously happy to so wretchedly miserable in such an appallingly short time.

  Wretched, and frightened, and sick with pain. I'm being torn in two, she thought, standing in the sunlit dining room and holding Rob's hand even tighter. I'll never be whole again; I'll never be all right. Oh, God, please, please tell me what to do.

  She pulled her hand away from Rob, because even her shields couldn't contain the pain. She didn't want him to know.

  Anna slipped a jacket over her shoulders and gave Kaitlyn's hand a squeeze. Kaitlyn looked at her gratefully, unable to speak.

  Rob was looking a bit lost. "Well-is anybody hurt?" he said, glancing around. "Kaitlyn-?"

  "I'm fine. Gabriel's hand, though . . ."

  Gabriel, who had just sat down, looked up sharply. "It's all right. Just a little burn." He had been pushing his sweater sleeve off his forearm, scratching under it absently, but now he pulled it down again.

  "Let me see. No, I said, let me see." Rob clamped Gabriel's left arm with an unbreakable grip.

  "No, leave it alone. It's the other hand!" Gabriel's tone was almost as harsh as it had been in the old days, but Kaitlyn detected a note almost of panic underneath.

  "But I feel something here. Stop fighting and hold still!" Rob's voice was equally annoyed. He wrestled the sleeve up by main force-and then stared.

  Gabriel's pale forearm was covered with ghastly marks. Angry red cuts, their lips curling open and beginning to bleed again with the rough handling. Burns that were turning brown at the edges and still blistered in the middle. They ran all the way from wrist to elbow.

  Kaitlyn felt giddy.

  "What happened?" Rob said, with terrible quietness. "Who did this to you?" He lifted clear golden eyes to Gabriel's face, waiting.

  "Nobody." Gabriel looked angry, but somehow relieved, too. "It just-happened. It happened when the crystal broke."

  There was a silence, a heaviness in the web. Lewis frowned, Anna's lips pulled in at the corners. Bri and Renny had backed off, as if recognizing somehow this wasn't their business. Rob was looking at Gabriel hard.

  Kaitlyn was trying to blink dancing spots away. She felt she should know what had happened to Gabriel.

  She should know, if she could only think. . . .

  "Well, relax," Rob said finally, evenly. "I can make it stop hurting so much. Make it heal faster."

  He put one hand on Gabriel's arm above the elbow and held Gabriel's palm with the other. Kaitlyn could see him feeling with his fingers for transfer points. Gabriel sat, uncharacteristically docile and obedient.

  Rob's thumb pressed into Gabriel's palm and he shut his eyes. Through the web, Kaitlyn could feel what he was doing. Sending healing energy through the wounded limb, stimulating Gabriel's own energy to flow, as well. Golden sparks traveling down Gabriel's veins, golden mist enveloping the forearm. Kaitlyn felt warmth, and felt Gabriel relaxing as the pain eased, his muscles unclenching.

  With relaxation, barrier
s go down. Kaitlyn knew that, and she knew that Rob's healing brought him closer to people. In a minute, she knew that he was doing something else to Gabriel. Probing his mind, looking for something.

  Hey! Gabriel tried to jerk his arm out of the steely grip, head lifting, face furious. But it was too late.

  They stared at each other a long moment, gray eyes and gold locked as they always had been when the two of them did battle. Locked for endless, time-stretching seconds.

  Then Rob's face changed and he settled back on his heels.

  Gabriel held his hurt arm to his chest protectively, his own expression defensive and defiant.

  "You did those to your own self," Rob said flatly, calmly. Still looking Gabriel in the eyes. "To . . . stay in contact with Kaitlyn." He said the words as if he weren't exactly sure of their meaning. "They were doing something to her and you had to talk to her over a long range. So you thought pain would help you call louder."

  Gabriel said nothing, but Kaitlyn felt the truth of it. That was what he'd been concealing when he talked to her in the isolation tank. When he gave her his best memories. She'd felt fatigue and some kind of pain, but he'd shielded most of it from her.

  "You used somebody's cigar and a piece of broken glass," Rob said, with growing confidence. "And then later you poked at the sores some more to keep awake."

  Yes, Kaitlyn thought, feeling it with Rob in the web. She could tell he didn't exactly understand what the situation was, but that he was sure about one thing.

  "You love her, don't you?" he said to Gabriel.

  Gabriel finally seemed able to break their locked stare. He looked away, at the carpet. His face was bleak.

  "Yes," he said.

  "More than anything," Rob persisted. "You'd crawl on your belly over broken glass for her. Easy."

  "Yes, damn you," Gabriel said. "Happy now?"

  Rob looked at Kaitlyn.

  Kaitlyn's head was swimming, her body racked in so many different directions that she stood still. She couldn't seem to put a coherent thought together. But on top of everything else, holding her precariously in one niece, was the thought that she mustn't hurt Rob.

  She loved him too much to hurt him. And she knew that Gabriel's eyes on her were saying the same thing.

  She now knew that it was possible to love two people at once-because you could love them in different ways. The love she felt for Rob now was a burning tenderness, a knowledge that he was the one who'd taught her it was possible to love, who had melted the ice of her heart. It was strong and gentle and steady, full of admiration and the intimacy of shared likes and dislikes. It was golden and warm like a summer afternoon.

  And if it wasn't the passion and desperate depth of feeling she had for Gabriel, she never wanted Rob to know.

  But as Rob looked at her, gazing with those clear eyes full of light, she realized that her shields were in tatters around her. She had been awake for two days and in agony or terror for nearly as long. She didn't have anything left to shield with.

  And she could see, she could feel, that he was seeing right inside her. Rob knew.

  "Why didn't you tell me?" he asked her after a small eternity.

  "I didn't-I didn't feel that way-until-so many-things have happened . . ." Kaitlyn faltered. Of all things, she wanted to make Rob all right. Although now she saw that her love for him must have been changing for a long time, gradually, she didn't know how to explain that. "It's probably just-I'll get over it. In a little while..."

  "Not that, you won't," Rob said. "Neither of you. I mean, I sure hope you don't." He sounded as incoherent as Kaitlyn felt, and he kept swallowing. But he went on doggedly, "Kait, I love you. You know I do. But this isn't something I can compete with." He stepped back. "I'm not blind. You two belong together."

  He looked . . . distressed, Kaitlyn realized vaguely. Distressed, but not devastated. Not ruined for life.

  There was so much more to Rob.

  And, as she watched, Anna moved up and put her hand on his back from behind. Kaitlyn looked at her over Rob's shoulder.

  Anna smiled tremulously. Her dark eyes were wet but glowing somewhere down inside.

  Suddenly a vast, rushing lightness filled Kaitlyn. As if a huge and heavy weight had been taken off her chest. She stared at Anna, and at the way Rob unconsciously was leaning back against Anna's arm. And the effervescent bubbles lifted her skyward.

  I just had a precognition, she told Anna silently, a stream of unspoken love and joy. You will be very happy. Your best friend says to go for it.

  Anna's face was bright, as if someone had set a candle behind it. You're giving me permission?

  I'm giving you an order!

  Lewis laughed out loud. Then he said, "Didn't somebody say something about cleaning up? And how about some food?"

  Bri and Renny and Lydia seemed to recognize that as a signal. They followed him as he started for the kitchen. Anna tugged at Rob's arm, gently, to bring him, too.

  Rob looked back, once.

  I'm glad, he told Gabriel, and Kaitlyn could hear the truth in it. I mean, it hurts, but I'm glad for you. Take care of her.

  Then he was gone.

  Slowly, Kaitlyn turned to Gabriel.

  It had occured to her at the last minute that nobody had really asked him. Maybe, even if he loved her, he'd prefer that the feeling go away. Maybe he didn't want her now that everybody had had a hand in the procedure.

  But Gabriel was looking at her now, and she could see his eyes.

  She had seen those eyes dark with brooding anger and cold as ice, she'd seen his gaze veiled like a spiderweb and shattering like agate under pressure. But she'd never seen them as they were now. Full of wondering joy and disbelief, and an almost frightened awe.

  Gabriel was trying to smile, but the expression kept breaking apart. He was looking at her as if he hadn't seen her for years and years of searching, and had just now walked into a room and come upon her unexpectedly. As if he wanted to look at every part of her, now that he could do it honestly.

  Kaitlyn remembered the things he'd given her, the sun-flooded afternoons, and the cool healing ocean waves, and the music he'd written. He'd given her everything that was best in him, everything he was.

  She wanted to give him the same back again.

  I don't know how you can love me. The words came softly, as if he were thinking them to himself.

  You've seen what I am.

  That's why I do love you, Kaitlyn told him. I hope you'll still love me when you see what I am.

  "I know what you are, Kait. Everything beautiful and brave and gallant and . . ." He stopped as if his throat had closed. "Everything that makes me want to be better for you. That makes me sorry I'm such a stupid mess. ..."

  You looked like a knight with the shard, Kaitlyn said,

  moving toward him.

  "Really?" He laughed shakily.

  My knight. And I never said thank you.

  She was almost touching him, now. Looking up into his eyes. What she could feel in him was something she'd only felt before when she gave him her life energy. Childlike, marveling joy. Trust and vulnerability.

  And such love . . .

  Then she was in his arms and they weren't separate beings any longer. Their minds were together, sharing thoughts, sharing a happiness beyond thought. Sharing everything.

  She never even knew whether he kissed her.

  It seemed a very long time later, but the sunbeams falling across the dining room had hardly moved.

  Kaitlyn had her head on Gabriel's shoulder. She was so full of peace-peace and light and hope for everything. Even the nagging hole in the universe where LeShan had been was filled with light. She hoped that, somehow, he knew what had happened today and was satisfied.

  "God make me worthy of you. Fast," Gabriel said. It was something like a command.

  Kaitlyn smiled. His arms were tight around her, a feeling she never wanted to lose. But they were no longer outside time, and she could hear banging and shouting
laughter from upstairs.

  "I guess we'd better see what's going on," she said.

  Very slowly, most reluctantly, he let her go, only keeping her hand in his. They walked around the corner to the stairs.

  Lydia, though, was just coming down. Bri and Renny were behind her. They'd obviously been going through closets; each had a full cardboard box and at

  least one bag or suitcase.

  "We don't know exactly what we'll need there," Lydia told Kaitlyn. Her green eyes looked out almost shyly from behind her heavy shock of dark hair.

  "Go where?" Kaitlyn asked.

  "You didn't hear? Oh, I guess not." Lydia headed for the front lab, with Bri and Renny following. Kaitlyn and Gabriel followed them.

  "Joyce is going with Tamsin back to the Fellowship," Lydia said, dumping her box on a desk. "Ouch.

  That was heavy."

  "Going back with Tamsin?"

  "Yup," Bri said. "And we're going with her."

  Kaitlyn stared. Renny was nodding, pushing up his glasses with an index finger.

  "Tamsin says it'll help Joyce heal from the influence of the crystal," Lydia said. "And Bri and Renny, too.

  Oh, here they are."

  Joyce and Tamsin came in from the kitchen. Joyce's hair was smoothed again, and her lips had stopped trembling. She seemed to be hanging on Tamsin's every word.

  "We'd be glad to have you," Tamsin was saying. "And we can help the children develop and control their powers. Even Lydia . . ."

  "I don't have any powers," Lydia said.

  Tamsin smiled at her. "You're of the old race. We'll see."

  Kaitlyn noticed the sunlight change and realized that Rob was in the kitchen doorway. Lewis and Anna were right behind him, but Anna was closer.

  Rob smiled at her, and it was a real smile, with his own gladness and optimism behind it. "Tamsin's been telling us about their place on the new island," he said. "They've got it pretty rough, but they're working on it. It's been hard with Mereniang gone, and now