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Tied Down

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by Bliss, Chelle


  He’s at least stopped calling you THAT GIRL.

  I lowered my shoulders, dropping into my desk chair with my phone between my fingers as I typed.

  Nice. That gives me so much hope. Thanks.

  Johnny returned a quick What did you expect? followed by a quicker It’ll all work out before I threw my phone onto the desk, reclining a little in my padded leather office chair.

  “Ms. Carelli?” my assistant, Sarah, called through the phone, her voice clipped but professional.

  “Yes?” I answered.

  “You wanted me to remind you of the new inventory at the FH. You said you’d take a look during your lunch, and it’s almost one.”

  “Thanks, Sarah. I’ll be a couple of hours.”

  It would take me at least fifteen minutes with lunch hour traffic. I wasn’t in a hurry to get to the gallery or see the obnoxious snob who ran the place.

  Carelli money was old.

  It was vast, but to some of New York’s elite, like Mitsi Wallace-Carmichael, Finnegan Holden’s curator, it was still not worthy.

  We were thugs, plain and simple. It didn’t matter that we hosted multimillion-dollar fund raisers and charitable galas. Didn’t matter one lick to her that we’d discovered three MacArthur Fellows. To her, to the people like her, we were criminals throwing money around to win respectability.

  We were.

  That was the whole damn point of my job at the museum. Legitimacy. And I did my best to earn it.

  For the most part, we had. But there were still people like Mitsi who never saw beyond the gossip that swirled around our name.

  I pulled on my coat, buttoning it as I left my office, intent on wearing it and the bullshit gossip I knew was thick in the air like a cape.

  Let them talk.

  Page Six, I was sure, had a lot to say about Vinnie and me. We were seen together once, a month or so ago, and we’d been followed ever since. Even more aggressively because Vinnie hadn’t hidden his long-term girlfriend from the paparazzi. If the news broke that whatever was happening between us was off because I was already married, the attention we’d get would be relentless. Especially if they put two and two together and linked Kiel with his famous brother and the cable show he co-hosted with his equally famous girlfriend, Kit Carlyle.

  Arturo, my driver, waited at the front of the museum, ready to hold open the door for me as I moved toward the lobby. At least it was him and not the other guards my father insisted I hire. With Arturo there waiting for me and my father’s anger still thick and raging, I’d figured Dante and Giovanni wouldn’t be necessary. They’d just scare patrons from coming inside the museum.

  Arturo, though, was a professional, less intimidating than my guards, and it was his plain, dispassionate face I focused on as I walked toward him. He had to be pushing fifty and looked like some exaggerated cartoon version of what a mafia goon would look like—no neck, too-wide shoulders, jaw cut into lines and sharp edges. The thought made my top lip quirk, but I pressed my mouth tight and focused on the rich smell of cinnamon wafting through the rooms as Beth, the front desk receptionist, sipped on the white hot chocolate she seemed to think she successfully hid from me behind her desk.

  Kiel had loved cinnamon in his hot chocolate, and I’d never been able to fight back the memory of him sprinkling the spice into his cup as we huddled together waiting for a cab that would take us from NYU and back to my apartment on the Upper West Side.

  He’d wrap his massive arm around me, pulling me against his chest as we shared the cocoa, and that sweet spice would move into my sinuses. “This is good, right? Making our own heat?” he’d joked, kissing my forehead when I’d nodded a reply.

  We made our own heat, always.

  We had two nights ago in his hotel room.

  “Signora,” Arturo greeted, opening the door for me, and I hurried through it, trying to push away the memory of that frigid winter afternoon and Kiel’s warm body. I didn’t need to be reminded of what he felt like when he took me. Not then, not two nights ago either. It was pointless. Especially now that I’d been relegated to a body he’d used.

  I took what I wanted just like you always do.

  The car was parked twenty feet from the front of the museum, and I cleared my throat, wishing the knot in it would vanish. It hadn’t left me since I’d hightailed it away from Kiel’s hotel. My body aching, my heart a shredded mess as I sank down in the back seat of my car, letting the tears collect on my lashes before I wiped them away.

  Damn Kiel for making me feel this guilt.

  Damn him for reminding me I was nothing to him and wouldn’t ever be again.

  Hand on the open car door, I tossed in my bag and was about to slide inside when I heard my name being called in a deep and kind tone behind me. I exhaled, eyes squinted tight, wanting half a second to rein in my anger and embarrassment before I turned to face him.

  “If you’re curious about the job,” I started, figuring the position I’d promised him was the only reason Kiel would bother to track me down. “I told you, Raquel is still interested.”

  “That’s not why I’m here,” Kiel said, glancing at Arturo when the driver stepped in front of me.

  “It’s fine,” I told my guard before I tapped his arm to move him back. “Kiel’s wounds are always inflicted in private.”

  Kiel jerked his gaze from Arturo’s face to mine at my small dig. I repressed the instant urge to roll my eyes at him when he gritted his teeth, jaw moving like he needed to remind himself not to yell. If he was insulted, he kept it to himself.

  “I need to say something to you,” he told me, his features tightening when I only stared back at him. Kiel stepped forward, taking one hand out of his jacket to rest his palm on the open door at my side. “Please.”

  He wasn’t a man who liked to wait. Before, when we were together, he’d been gentler. Kinder. He’d been worried about my opinions, my thoughts, and he always wanted me happy. But Kiel had never liked waiting for anything. The things he wanted, he wanted instantly, and by the way he gripped the door and narrowed his black eyes, it told me that hadn’t changed much.

  When he moved another step closer and Arturo followed him, I shot a glance between the two men, figuring it would be bad for business to have Kiel and my driver tussling outside the museum.

  “Fine,” I said finally, nodding to the driver so he’d step back. “I have to go to the FH—”

  “The FH?”

  “Yes. The Finnegan Holden Gallery.” Kiel gave me a blank stare, reminding me of a kid trying to sort out a complicated geometry problem, and I shook my head, turning to slide into the car. “Follow or don’t. Either way, I need to be there.”

  The interior was warm, but my fingers were still cold since I’d forgotten my gloves at my place. I took to rubbing my hands together, blowing hot air into my palms as Kiel climbed inside next to me.

  He looked at my face, then down at my cupped hands before he sighed, stretching a gloved hand toward me to pull my fingers between his massive palms. “You always forget your gloves,” he said, rubbing our fingers together, trying to generate some heat.

  “I was in a hurry.”

  “Takes literally three minutes to tug them on and get out of your place.” His hot breath tickled my cold skin when he blew across my knuckles, his attention on me and whatever expression was trapped on my face. Kiel shook his head, keeping whatever he thought to himself. “You still keep your gloves in that entry table of your grandmother’s?” I nodded but didn’t speak. “You still run at least five minutes late every day?” Another nod and Kiel smiled, but the grin left his mouth almost as soon as it got there. “Keep your cell in the same table so you won’t forget.”

  He finished his little doling out of Kiel wisdom, but he didn’t look away from me. Did he want more of the same treatment we’d given each other that night in his hotel, or was this visit meant to serve a specific purpose? When Kiel went on watching me, his hot breath moving over my cold fingers, I extracted them,
returning his heavy stare.

  “I’m good,” I told him, folding my arms over my chest. I didn’t want the temptation of touching him to be so accessible. “Now, what do you want?”

  The warm smirk that had moved his lips left his mouth completely, and Kiel leaned back, resting his hands in his lap as he watched me again. He looked good today in a charcoal gray pea coat and thick black scarf with no frills or embellishments. He wasn’t a man who went in for glitz in his wardrobe. He always dressed well, but he dressed like a man with no intention of impressing anyone.

  It annoyed me that he looked so damn good. Especially after he’d promised I was nothing to him.

  “The other night…” he started, voice like liquid fire, as though just the reminder of it did something to his body that he tried and failed to control. “It was…”

  “Insulting,” I offered, grinning to myself when Kiel’s nostrils flared.

  “No,” he asserted, not holding back the smile now. “It was fierce, hot, and fucking incredible, but then, it always is when I’m inside you, Cara.”

  “It…” I tried again, staring out the window as Arturo moved us through the city. “It was good. You, on the other hand, were insulting.”

  “Hmm,” Kiel mused, resting against the seat, his focus on my face. I swore I could feel him watching me, like he wanted to soak up every ounce of my skin.

  “Does any of that matter?” I asked, focusing on the traffic Arturo weaved through with ease as I unfolded my arms and tried to relax. The streets weren’t nearly as busy as I’d suspected they would be, and my driver took advantage.

  “Any of what?”

  His scent was thick, rich, some obscure cologne I couldn’t place. From the look and smell of him, Kiel had done a little shopping. No way that coat or the tailored suit I spotted underneath could have been stuffed in the duffle he’d had with him at the airport. My mouth watered, my senses overloaded in just the few minutes we’d been together in the car.

  “You and me and whatever fierce ‘fucking incredible’ thing that happened.” My hand was on the seat between us, and I curled my fingers into a ball when Kiel brushed my palm. “I…mean nothing,” I told him, gradually turning to watch the slow, careful way he brushed the skin of my wrist.

  “That’s what brought me here.” His admission came out slowly. Like a whisper he wanted only me to hear. I frowned, watching him move closer. When I didn’t respond, gave him only a look, my eyes narrowed and nothing more, Kiel sighed, the bottom lid of his right eye twitching. “What, Cara?”

  “You’re full of shit.”

  “Why do you say that?”

  “Two nights ago, I was treated like a whore.” My voice was loud, biting. I spotted the swift movement of Kiel’s gaze to Arturo and back again to my face. Was he embarrassed that I spoke so freely? “You bent me over your sofa and fucked me hard while I fingered my clit. It was hot. Fierce, like you said, and not two minutes after you fucked me, you told me I was nothing. So, yeah. You’re full of shit.” I turned, head tilted as I watched him, curious why he looked so uneasy.

  Then something occurred to me.

  Something that seemed so familiar because it was motivation I used myself. Kiel wasn’t smiling. He didn’t do anything but watch how I twisted on the seat, hands back in my lap as I shot my eyebrows up, taken aback that he’d stoop to my very obvious level. “Uh-huh, full of shit or you want something.”

  Kiel controlled his features, keeping his expression even. Not daring to give away even the smallest emotion for nearly an entire minute. The look was stern, a little infuriated, but I didn’t back down. I only blinked twice, less than he had, and kept my composure as well. Finally, with his mouth twitching and that lower lid still pulsing, Kiel leaned back, elbow on the door, finger at his temple as he shook his head.

  “My brother doesn’t like you,” he told me.

  “Ah. Okay. That makes everything so clear, stronzo.”

  He held up a hand, keeping me silent as he continued. “I went back to Seattle busted and bruised, a fact that I’ve repeated several times since I’ve been in the city, I know. No need for the eye roll.” He released a breathy grunt when I made a face, then he dismissed my attitude with a slipup.

  “And that has what to do with your brother not…” I frowned then, realizing at least some of what he meant. Of course, Kane Kaino didn’t like me. It was my fault his kid brother had landed back home injured and hurt. I looked down, fiddling with the hem of my skirt while he waited for me to continue. “Fine. He hates me.”

  “I never said he hates you. I said he doesn’t like you.”

  “There’s a difference?”

  The small noise he released must have been a laugh. It at least came with a grin. A dangerous-looking smirk I couldn’t decide whether should turn me on or make me worry. Then Kiel’s smile deepened, just one dimple denting his right cheek.

  “You’d know if a Kaino really hated you. Trust me.” His features relaxed. The sharp edge of his jaw didn’t make him seem fierce or intimidating when he smiled like that. For just a second, no more than a half-held breath that lodged in my chest, Kiel looked like that easygoing, sweet kid I’d fallen for five years ago.

  “He didn’t want me coming here because he figured you weren’t done with me. He’s rarely wrong.” His large shoulder moved with his shrug, and Kiel glanced out the window as though he didn’t want to see my reaction when he admitted what had changed his attitude. “So last night when he called, I filled him in.”

  “Let me guess, he still doesn’t like me?”

  “Couldn’t say.” He moved his head toward me, shifting one glance at my face before his attention went back to the street and the slow journey we made toward Fifth Avenue. “Kane is so wrapped up in his feelings for Kit, there isn’t much drama that can get under his skin.” One last scan of the sidewalk then Kiel gave me his attention again. “He gave me the usual advice. ‘Watch your back. Don’t trust anyone.’ Shit I knew, but then he asked if I’d fucked you.” Kiel’s mouth twitched when I shot my eyebrows up. “I admitted I had, and he gave me the heavy, disappointed sigh. But when I told him you meant nothing, that I’d told you as much, that sigh got kinda growly, and my brother yelled at me for twenty minutes.”

  The door handle bit into my back when I shifted against it, looking up into the bemused expression that shifted the tension from Kiel’s face. “Because you insulted a woman he doesn’t like?”

  “Because I used you. Because…I lied to you.” Kiel dropped his voice and scooted closer, elbows on his knees, his careful cool slipping a fraction. “Kane doesn’t like liars. He especially doesn’t like liars who use those lies to get what they want.”

  “And you wanted…?”

  It was three long seconds before he spoke. Three thousand milliseconds of Kiel watching me, looking like he wasn’t sure how much of an apology I deserved. Then he pressed his palms into his eyes, and the twitching lid stopped. “I wanted you. I’m not such a bastard that I won’t admit that.”

  “But—”

  He interrupted me with a slow headshake, and he stretched his hand out to mine. “No buts. No howevers. No caveats. My brother reminded me that I’m not a liar. We aren’t wired that way. When I say something, I generally meant it. Kane does too, but that night in my room, I was so pissed off about the entire situation—your father, Vinnie’s threats, and being thrown in the mix again that I…” He inhaled, threading our fingers together as though he needed my touch to give him strength. “I just wanted to be away from it all. I was pissed that I couldn’t be. More than that, I was pissed I couldn’t stop wanting you.”

  “Wanting someone who means…”

  “I told you,” he started, tightening his grip against my fingers. “I lied. I don’t want this life. The violence. The mafia bullshit. Not any of it. But I can’t lie to you anymore, Cara. I hate what you did to me. I hate how badly you hurt me. I hate that you manipulated me to get me back into your life.” He turned, tugging on my ha
nd until it rested against his thigh. “But I don’t hate you.”

  “You took me even when you didn’t—”

  “I’ll never stop wanting you. No matter what you do. There will always be something between us.” Kiel lifted my knuckles to his chest, holding my hand there as he rubbed his thumb over my skin. “Call it heat. Call it need. I don’t care, but I want you. That won’t stop. I may not like it, but there’s the truth of it all.” Jaw tightening as he watched me, Kiel lowered my hand, replacing it on his knee but not holding it anymore. “I want to hate you, but I don’t. I want to not want you, but I can’t. Fucking pathetic, but that’s my truth.”

  It took a lot for Kiel to admit the truth.

  I had hurt him.

  I had betrayed him worse than anyone else in his life.

  He wasn’t a man who took his licks in stride.

  He always wanted retribution.

  He wanted his enemies to know he never forgot.

  In a lot of ways, he was like me.

  Like my family.

  Once a wrong had been done to us, it was kept locked tight in a vault of thick memory, never to be dismissed. Never to be pardoned.

  Maybe that’s what had drawn Kiel to me.

  Maybe it was the same need for justice I saw in him that set us in each other’s orbits.

  But Kiel also had a heart. He understood.

  If you wounded him, he wanted to know why.

  Then he’d get his justice if you deserved it.

  I did.

  I knew I did.

  This reversal of his feelings from two nights ago made my chest tighten.

  It gave me hope that one day he could forgive me.

  Still, not for nothing, I was a Carelli and, technically, also a Kaino. I’d let him pretend with the peace he offered, but I wasn’t going to forget.

  I knew he wouldn’t either.

  “So,” I started, head to the side, eyes downcast to watch how close he’d put my hand to his thigh. “What do we do about this?”

 

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