by Leah Adams
“Your eyes.” Nate yelled at me before he was out of my earshot.
After I shook my head at him I got up myself so I could go back to my car. I saw out the corner of my eyes that the woman who Nate was staring up at was walking over to me. I sighed to myself hoping that she didn’t want a number that I did not have.
I reached my car and had even gotten in it by the time she was near me. I smiled at her and she smiled back.
“Hi, I’m Jamie.” She said.
“Bonnie.”
“I was just wondering if you knew how old that guy was.” She asked I could see the blush start to form on her cheeks.
“He’s old enough.” I told her. I could just hear Nate saying to the same thing.
“Oh.” She said as if embarrassed. “Could you give him my number?” She asked and pulled out a piece of paper for me. My eyes stared at the paper and frowned. She wasn’t embarrassed enough I supposed.
It wasn’t like I cared. I took the paper from her and shook my head. Nate seemed to like her and if I saw him again I would give it to him. I didn’t like to be miss match maker, but I was just passing a number that’s it.
“I will.”
“Thank you.” She told me and backed away from my car.
My car pulled away from her and I began to go home. I was ready to take a hot shower or even bath. I had been at the park for a while now, so I would have to get something to eat and then take a hot shower.
By the time I got home I saw that my sister car was out front. When I pulled into the drive way I saw that Mary was now walking out of the house. Her dark hair was pulled up and away from her beautiful face. She looked over at me and shook her head.
I smiled at her and I got out of my car then locked the doors.
“What are you doing here?” I asked after I hugged her.
“I need you to help me go shopping.” She said lightly. “I will even treat you to something if you help me.”
I sighed. I guessed I could go shopping with her. As long as I was spending someone else’s money it wouldn’t be too bad. My sister had been away from home to long to know this, I supposed or she just preferred to think I was still that little preteen who didn’t care for shopping.
Shopping wasn’t on my too due list every weekend, but I did like to look nice. I liked when I had new cloths that looked nice, but I would never be the one who would beg to go out and get them.
“I need some new things for the house and some more things for the baby.” She said with moving her head lightly. “So will you come? I could use the company.”
“Sure, I don’t have too much homework.” I told her. “But could be hit the food court first, I am starved.”
Mary eyes blinked at me. “I thought that was why you where late.” I shook my head slightly confused. I guess she thought I was getting something to eat. “I thought you stopped for something to eat. You used to be home by now.” She said eyeing her watch. “Where were you?”
We walked over to her car that looked only slightly better than mine. It was a car that she and her husband shared. Our parents, manly mom, had taken away the car that they had given her for her sixteen birthday.
When we got into the car I tried to remember that day her car they had given her got taken away. She had told them she was going to get married and mom had told her if she did she would not help her with a thing. She had taken away the car that same day.
My sister had not cried in front of us, but I knew she did once she left with her now husband. His family had been more supportive, they had even let them stay in their basement while they got everything together.
Our mom had pretty much written her off and didn’t think twice about it. She didn’t let me see Mary until she had found out she was pregnant with Lurie. In the back of my heart I thought the only reason our mother had done that was so she could show me first handily why I should listen to her and not do what my sister did.
I always hoped what I thought was wrong. I hoped that she started to talk to Mary again at least to get to know Lurie but with our mother I highly believed that this wasn’t so.
There were times I just wanted to tell my mom to just stop being so mad at Mary, but I never did. I knew Mary was hurt by the way mom treated her, but I didn’t have the guts to say anything about it.
Mary had always told me that I had gotten all of mom in me. She said I was always strong even someone else in my shoes would cry, that I would say what was on my mind, and be could snap at anyone in a heartbeat when needed.
If I had all of mom, Mary had all of dad. Quiet, soft spoken, and easy to get along with. It was funny to me growing up when we were children and knowing that dad would let us get away with anything, but mom would make us do tons of chores if we acted up.
It was still like that today.
“Sarah.” Mary said as she drove to the mall.
I knew if she had said my first name she must have been worried. I hated my first name. I just never felt like Sarah should have been my name for some odd reason. I was even more upset every time I recalled how I had gotten Sarah to be my first name inside of Bonnie.
The thought could not help but come to my mind.
My dad had wanted to name me after his mother Sarah, but my mom had wanted to name me Bonnie, after her mother. So in the long run they named me Sarah because my mother had named Mary.
Growing up I had been called Sarah, until I was able to walk and get into things. It was so weird how everyone stated to call me Bonnie. It had been on a day when my father parents had come over to visit. I had been just four years old.
They had given me and Mary tons of presents. I opened each one of my presents quickly not playing with one for too long, I had even went after Mary toys as well. I just would not stay still.
I claimed that they all where mine.
My grandmother and joked saying “Are you sure Bonnie isn’t for Bonnie Blue Butler?”
Everyone had laughed and I hadn’t known what they had meant at the time, but by now I had long since read Gone with The Wind. Even though I and Bonnie acted nothing alike, for whatever reason the name stuck.
I shook just at the thought. I loved the name more than Sarah, but hated how it had come to be. I think the only reason why I hated Sarah was because it was a reminded me that the woman who I was named after was no longer here and the reason I hated the thought of how Bonnie came to be was because she was the reason that-that had happened as well.
My heart still missed my grandmother.
“Are you ok?” I heard my sister asked at the side of me. She pulled me away from my thoughts and I saw that she turned her eyes quickly to look at me and then back at the road. “You seemed out of it.”
“I’m fine.” I said.
“Okay.” She responded and shrugged her shoulders. “But you never did answer my question on where you were.”
“With some friends.” I lied. They weren’t really friends, but I didn’t want my sister to know about them.
“Luckily for you, mom and dad aren’t home yet. Dad had called and said he was working late, and then mom called seconds later to say the same thing.” She told me nodding.
“That’s good. She was ok that I was going with you?”
“She seemed to be, so I guess.” She shrugged. With mom you never knew. “We’re here.” Mary began to pull into the parking lot and she quickly found a spot. “Food court first then shopping.”
I shook my head smiling at her.
When I got out of the car it hit me. Jay was at the mall. This town only had one mall that was this close. All the others were more far out, so something told me he had come to this one.
I had remembered Nate saying I would see him today. I just hoped that he had already left by now. I didn’t want him to see me then go off and run his mouth to the other guys and have Nate laugh in my face the next time I saw him. But if I did see him I could just say my sister dragged me so maybe I won’t look too bad.
“Don’t worry, I wil
l treat you.” Mary said. She looked like she was studying my face.
“Oh thanks.” I told her not even thinking about the fact that I had no money on me.
“Well you ready to do this.” She asked trying to make her voice sound like me, and she was pretty good at it.
“As ready as I will ever be.” I laughed, partly because of her, but mostly because I was nervous about seeing Jay.
Chapter 7
Questions
I was so nervous having to walk into the mall with my sister that I almost fall as soon as my feet walked into the door.
Jay was making me nervous, with just the thought of seeing him. No I wanted to shake that thought from my head. That wasn’t why I was nervous. It was because if I saw him and he had talked to his brothers, then he would think I came here just to see him. I didn’t want to let him think that, even if I knew it wasn’t true.
It was just the thought that if Jay thought I had any feelings other then he was a jerk then I would be upset.
When we walked into the mall, my sister saw something she wanted. She stared at the item and I folded my arms. My eyes looked all around me. I didn’t want to run into him or have him run into me.
I felt like one of those girls on lookout for their ex-boyfriend. I didn’t want to see him even for a second. I could wait until school. There he wouldn’t think I came to the mall to see him. This would be better for me.
If Jay thought for even a second that I was following him he wouldn’t let it go. He would hold it over my head every time he saw me. I hadn’t really known him that long, but felt like I knew him enough that I knew what he would do if he saw me. I had always just seen him from afar at school or heard all about him from the mouths of students.
But now that I have been able to talk to him I see that he is just what I thought he was: arrogant. He also was the kind of guy that would tease me if he thought I liked him. I wanted nothing more than to not give him that chance.
Jay would try his hardest to make me look like an idiot if he could. I didn’t want anyone to think that he could do that to me. I didn’t like him at all and if he thought I did than that would make him try to hold it over me.
“This looks nice, don’t you think?” Mary asked holding up a small dress. I stared at the dress trying to forces on whatever my sister was trying to say. “If only that Lurie would wear dresses. Last year I got her a doll for her birthday and she said she hates dolls. She wanted a toy car or a ball.”
Mary started laughing and I smiled shaking my head.
Lurie was a true tomboy and a dress would kill her image of being one of the boys. The girl always tried to make sure everyone knew she wasn’t into dolls or playing dress up. I would have never guess that my sister daughter would be a tomboy.
My sister had always been into fashion and loved to wear the latest clothes. She could out do any diva in clothes without even trying.
“I don’t think she will like it.” I told her and looked away from the dress. My eyes started to wonder around the room hoping that they didn’t spot Jay.
“You’re not looking for someone are you?” Mary asked with a half-smile. “Boyfriend maybe?”
I rolled my eyes at her and then folded my arms. “I thought we were going to the food court first.”
My love life was really lacking and I didn’t want my sister to know about that. I didn’t want to talk about boys that I had crushes on or guys who I knew I would never be with.
Jay was high on that list, he was really number one, but unlike the others, I could care less about ever wanting to be with him.
He was not my type.
“Ok, ok.” My sister though her hands up and then put the dress back on the rack. “You don’t have to talk about it. But you can talk to me, I will be honest.”
“I know.” I said not looking at her. I knew she would be honest and easy to talk to, but I didn’t want to talk about something that wasn’t happening in my life. “I’m hungry.”
“Ok, let’s get something. Well will you be fine if you went to get something to eat without me. I can meet you over there.” Her voice took on a slight begging sound. “I really want to check some things out first ok.”
“Yeah, I will just go get a burger and some fries.” I told her.
Mary shook her head and gave me some money. I watched her walk off. She was far into the store when I closed my eyes then sighed.
I would just go get something to eat and then stay in the food court until my sister came to find me. Jay shouldn’t be there. Nate had said that he came there to get something to eat, but he should be gone by now.
My legs took me to the food court. When I got there I saw that Jay was nowhere in sight. I smiled at the fact that Jay wasn’t anywhere to be found. I wanted to just hurry up and find something to eat and sit in a corner where no one could see me.
Mary knew my number if she couldn’t find me.
I found a place that sold burgers and fries. I went to stand in line. I was behind a tall man with blonde hair who must have been behind four other people. I didn’t know why the mall was so crowded. It wasn’t like it was a weekend or something.
My eyes looked all around me. I began to search for other kinds of food that I would like. I didn’t feel like standing in line all day. When I thought I was going to get out of line, I saw him standing by a group of girls.
That was like a thing for him or something. He was always surrounded by girls. What did they see in him? He was all looks.
I shook my head. That was a clear lie. There was still something about him even without those good looks of his. He just had this way about him that just made you want to be around him. Like a light did to a fly. Then again didn’t a fly always get burned, because of said light?
I shook at the thought.
My eyes stayed on him. I just could not look away from him. He was laughing at something a girl with blonde hair had said, but it wasn’t the kind of laugh that meant what she had said was funny. It was a touchy laugh. The laugh made me wonder if he didn’t want to be around the two of them.
The other girl with brown hair began to touch his shoulder. A girl with dark red hair who I noticed was wearing high heels was touching his hair. He was smiling at them, only for his eyes to glow brightly. I could see it from all the way over where I was standing. His eyes they were gold.
I began to blink. There was no way.
He grabbed the girl with blonde hair and pulled her to him. The girl looked like she was ready to laugh at him. He only put a smirk on his face and whispered in her ear. That was when his eyes meant mine. He looked almost shocked and then the expression left his face.
Jay said something to the girls and they glared at him. They looked over to me only to put smiles on their faces.
I turned my eyes from them and saw that I needed to move up in line. I hoped that he would just leave and not say anything to me. Something told me he was going to say something to me. I just didn’t know when I was going to hear his voice.
“Hello, pet.” I heard him say, thinking of how I had spoken to soon.
“Don’t call me that.” I said and folded my arms. “Now leave me alone.”
I heard him laughed. “Now I will have to call you that if only to get you upset.” I turned to him and frowned. He was such a jerk. “Now I know you are here to see me.”
“I am not.” I said sounding like a child. I hadn’t meant to. I thought to myself. It had just come out like that. I bit my lip and shook my head. “So you can leave me alone.”
The line moved and I moved up with it. He followed as well. I had no idea why he found me to be so entertaining. Just because I said I didn’t like him didn’t mean I was playing hard to get.
I looked at him briefly and started to think that maybe if I acted like I liked him he would leave me alone. I put a smile on my lips and then I looked ahead of me. I wasn’t good at flirting but I could try.
“I know that you knew I was going to be here and you thought I wa
s going to be in the food court no less.” I could hear the smile in his voice even with my eyes looking forward. “I mean if you want to talk to me just say so.”
My eyes turned to him and I tried to make them look like I was being sweet. I tried to look like Angelica looked like when she would flirt with her victims.
“So I was trying to see you.” I lied and moved closer to him. “So what.”
I touched his chest and felt the firm yet softness of it. It was different from Leon in the way that it felt like Jay had the body of a fighter were Leon did not. Leon was probably more of let’s talk about this before we fight and Jay was more of the fight first ask questions later.
My hand wanted to drag across his chest. I wanted to explore it and learn every point of him until there was nothing more to know. I forced myself to pull away.
I thought that maybe I was letting myself get too far into the flirting than I should have. I seemed to have him where I needed him to be, interested. It just seemed that I wasn’t sure if I wanted this anymore. I think I want him to think I hated him.
Jay blue eyes flickered gold at me and I choose to say nothing about it this time. I would figure that one out later.
He moved closer to me and bended down so he could look me in the eyes. His lips were very close to mine. If I moved just a slight bit his lips would be on mine.
Maybe my flirting with him had work even better than I thought.
“So are you really sure you wanted to see me?” He questioned his eyes on my lips. I saw that he licked his lips as if he was envisioning what my lips would be like on his. That might have been just my imagination, but how his eyes were on my lips made me think twice about that.
“You tell me.” I said back to him, hoping that it was flirting.
I saw a smirk go on his face and he felt his hand on my hair. He pushed my hair that was over my eyes and moved back from me. His blue eyes flicked gold and he closed his eyes briefly.
“Maybe next time.” He said then opened his eyes. “Why are you really here Bonnie?”
