by Leah Adams
I shivered at how his voice came out. It was like he had known I hadn’t been honest when I said I had come here to see him. His eyes stared at me so blue unlike the gold that they would flicker to.
My eyes stared back at him and I had no idea what I was going to say to him. I wanted to tell him the truth. It seemed easy to just ask him about Brenda and get it over with. But he was looking at me so strangely. He looked like he was trying to read me, like he was trying to see past what I was showing him.
I sighed and deicide to just ask him about why he didn’t come to lunch at school like he said he would and then go on to Brenda.
“You didn’t come back at lunch.” I stated lightly to him as I tried to keep the way I had felt earlier about him out of my voice. I saw that he smiled and then laughed shaking his head.
“Fine.” He whispered.
“What?” I said then moved up in line and saw that I was now second in line. This made me happy. I was starting to get very hunger. I looked around me for a bit trying to see if I could find my sister, but I didn’t see her anywhere.
I didn’t want her to see me with Jay. She would ask tons of questions and try to see if I liked him or something. If I told her no she wouldn’t believe I and she would try to tell me how I should have a boyfriend by now.
My head shook at that thought. I wasn’t sure she would say that, but I knew that she would at least say not to worry about mom.
“I had better things to do.” He told me and folded his arms. He stared ahead of us at the lady who was taking orders. Her eyes were on the person in front of me and then they looked over at Jay.
She was smiling too much for my liking. I didn’t like how she looked at Jay. Her eyes had this kind of knowing look. She had even smiled at him. I wanted to knock that smile off of her pretty little face. Honestly for all she knew Jay was my boyfriend.
I turned my head from her and rolled my eyes. He wasn’t my boyfriend so I shouldn’t care. I told myself, but the nerve that she didn’t know that made me think she was very rude.
A hand went around my waist and I felt myself hint Jay chest. It was funny that I knew it was his chest with not even looking at him. I knew it wasn’t because of the fact that he was standing right beside me. It was really because of the fact that his chest was so nice and perfect.
My head shook off that thought. I needed to stop letting him draw me in. He wasn’t any good and if I let myself become like the girls in school I would end up with a broken heart.
“You’re the only one that matters.” I heard him whisper in my ear. His voice was so soft so seductive it made me shiver against him. “Always know that.”
I bit my lip blushing and tried to get him to let me go. “Whatever.” I said and felt his hands let me go. I don’t think my ‘whatever’ came out the way I wanted it to, like I didn’t care one bit. It came out more like I did care.
I didn’t want to give him the wrong idea. I really didn’t care what he thought about me. I kept telling myself, but here I was blushing at the thought of his words.
The person in front of me left and I walked up. I felt Jay hand go back around my waist but I didn’t say anything about it.
“I want a chicken sandwich, fries, and chocolate shake.” I told her. I was going to get a burger but I didn’t feel like it anymore. I looked up at the menu and then laughed when I saw that I could have just order a number four.
“Okay, you want anything?” She said looking right a Jay with her green eyes glowing brightly. She had even run a hand though her beautiful thick light-brown hair. Her hand was twisting a piece of her hair and I just wanted to let out a deep breath. She was just too much for me.
“I’m fine.” Jay voice sounded soft and great. He sounded like a beautiful medley. I turned to look at him. His eyes were staring at me and I felt a blush start to come on my cheeks at the way he was looking at me, like he liked me or something.
I turned back at the girl and saw that she was glaring at me. She typed in my order then I went into my pocket to get some money only for Jay to hand her the money.
She was about to give him his change but he shook his head. I glared at him and folded my arms. I didn’t need him to buy me things. I knew that my meal wasn’t that much money, but I didn’t like that he had spent even a cent on me.
It wasn’t like he was my boyfriend or even a friend. So him spending money on me didn’t feel right.
The girl handed me my food and I walked off feeling Jay right behind me. I had wanted to sit somewhere no one would see me, but now that Jay had seen me it didn’t really matter anymore.
I found a seat right by the fountain and decided to sit there. Jay turned the other chair that was opposite from mine around and sat in it. I placed my food on the table then started to take it out.
My eyes stared at the food for a moment then I frowned. I didn’t feel right eating in front of him when he wasn’t eating anything. I bit my lip then looked up at him.
“You want some?” I asked looking at him.
His eyes smiled at me and he shook his hand. “I ate earlier.”
“Oh.” I said and then looked back at the food. I was really hunger but it felt so wrong to eat and just have him watch me eat. “Thanks for buying this, but you didn’t have to.”
“I did a lovely lady should never pay for things.” He smiled.
“Well next time it’s my treat.” I said as I tried to ignore his comment, but at the same time angry with myself for even saying there would be a next time.
My eyes watched him shake his head at me. “Eat it’ll get cold.”
I was happy that he didn’t say anything about my last comment. My eyes stared at him briefly then I frowned. I was hungry and he wanted me to eat. I had offered him some. I shrugged my shoulders and begun to eat.
After I took a bite out of my chicken sandwich I noticed that Jay eyes were watching me very thoughtfully. He seemed very amused at me eating.
I drank some of my shake and then put it down.
“Why are you staring at me like that?” I asked staring hardly at him.
“It’s just nice to see a girl eat. Most girls don’t like to even take a bite in front of me.” He said as his eyes stared at my lips.
“Well I eat.” I said then ate one of my fries. He laughed at me and I shook my head. I loved to eat. I wasn’t the kind of girl who always thought I needed to worry over how much I ate.
True I had my moments when I didn’t feel beautiful, but I didn’t let that rule my life. I had gone through that when I was in middle school. I knew I wasn’t Miss Teen or anything, but I knew there were nice things about me.
“So how was class?” He asked suddenly.
“Are we really going to talk about school?” I asked after I finished taking a bite out of my sandwich.
He smiled at me and grabbed a napkin only to then wrap something away from my lips. I wasn’t too sure if I really had something on my lips or if he was just trying to be cute, but for some odd reason I thought he was doing it to annoy me.
“I guess not.” He said his eyes flickering gold at me again. “I think you should ask me what you want to know.”
I lowered my eyes at him. I drunk more of my shake and played with the fries that were in front of me. My eyes stayed on my fries and I placed the drink down. I took a deep breath and told myself to stop acting like I was afraid or something. I knew I had a snappy attitude so I just needed to ask him what I wanted to know. I would just ask if he heard about Brenda and just see where it goes from there.
“Have you heard about Brenda?” I asked and looked up trying to see if I could read him at all.
His eyes smiled at me. “I heard about her. It’s too bad; she just went missing like that. I was going to call her to.”
I glared at the smile on his lips. He was acting like this was a joke, but what I was really upset at was that part of me was jealous that he was going to call her. I mean honestly I thought he had something to do with this girl going missi
ng. I also thought he and his brothers had something to do with why their dates always came back looking lifeless.
Yet here I was starting to like him. I didn’t even know him yet it felt like I was starting to fall under some kind of spell and I wasn’t too sure that I liked that.
“You know I think you were the last person to see her.” I said lightly biting one of my fries. I was trying my hardest not to make him think I thought he had something to do with it. If he did have something to do with it and he thought I knew he could really hurt me.
“Oh really.” He said off handily. “I guess she must have had one hell of a day.”
“Why do you say that?” I asked then looked into his eyes. He looked like he really didn’t want to talk about this with me. He looked away from me and to a bunch of girls who started to giggle when he turned their way.
I hated how people acted when he was around. It made me feel so ugly. They would look at him then look at me like we didn’t match or something. I might not be a princess, but I wasn’t an ugly toad either. Or so I thought to myself.
“Well after you left us I didn’t really feel like kissing her anymore.” He let out lightly as if what he had just said meant nothing to him at all. But I was sure Brenda hadn’t like that.
She had acted like I was a stupid little girl for even making their make-out section stop. I partly wished I could have seen her face when Jay told her he didn’t want to make out with her anymore.
The small part of me that was jealous of him making out with her wanted to know why he didn’t want to anymore. I wanted to think it was because of the fact that he wanted me more, but knew that was pushing it. Jay had been out with girls who could make even the prettiest of girls green with envy.
“So you didn’t want to kiss her anymore. That’s shocking.” I said choosing to make a joke out of his statement.
“Why have snacks when you really want dinner?” He asked, but I didn’t think it was really a question. The way he started to look at me made my face turn red, but I didn’t care too much. “But yes, she wasn’t too happy, but I was able to get her to stop yelling.”
“How?”
“You ask a lot of question you know?” He said with a grin on his lips.
“So I’ve been told.” I said recalling that Nate had told me the same thing.
“Ever heard of the saying curiosity killed the cat.” He asked moving his chair closer to mine. My eyes went wide with shock. I couldn’t believe he said that to me. I felt slightly scared at his words. Where there another meaning to them? He started to laugh at me and shook his head. “Pet you can be very funny when you want to be. You look almost scared.”
I partly was. I thought. I began to stare into his and I thought that maybe I had been reading too much into what he had said.
“I’ve heard that saying before.” I said frowning.
“Bonnie, you are very different and I can say that is one of the things I like about you.” He said and then moved even closer to me. “Are you done?”
Jay moved his head towards my food. I stared at it and saw I was almost done with it. How had that happened? I wondered as I stared at the food. I must have been eating more than I realized.
I turned back to him to say no but when I turned my head I saw that he was really close to me now. His arm was now on my chair and his lips were only inches from mine.
How many times since I have gotten to know him had I found myself in this very scene with him? I couldn’t remember but I knew it was a lot.
“We have to stop meeting like this?” He whispered making his lips hover over mine.
My eyes started at his lips and I hated myself for wondering what they would feel like. I hated even more that I wanted to know if what the girls at school said about forbidden four being great kisser was true or not.
I didn’t want to be just one of the many faces of girls who he and his brothers didn’t even remember the name of. I didn’t want to be his girlfriend, but I didn’t want to be the girl who he made out with then forgot all about.
His lips where coming close to mine. I wasn’t sure. I didn’t know if I should just give into this temptation and worry about the problems I would have to face later because of the kiss or if I should move my head away and tell him off for even thinking I would kiss.
Whatever I was going to do I needed to do it fast because the more he went in for the kiss the more I did want him to kiss. I couldn’t, but I wanted to.
“Jay I-” I trailed off getting ready to say Jay I can’t do this. Just when his lips were about to touch mine he moved away from my quickly and I blinked at him, not understanding. I hadn’t told him what I wanted to say.
“Bonnie there you are.” I heard my sister say as she walked over to us.
I stared into my sister dark eyes and she smiled at me then smiled at Jay. Mary did a double take when she looked at Jay. Her eyes stared at him as she could not believe she was looking at him.
She must have thought she was really handsome to. I thought and frowned.
Mary was beautiful herself, so she must have thought maybe she had finally meant her match in the looks department.
“Hi I am Jay.” He told her standing up and moving his chair from mine. He did that so smoothly that I almost didn’t even notice. I wondered if Mary did.
“Ma-ry.” My sister shook out. She seemed nervous. I wasn’t sure why. The only person that made her nervous was our mom. “I’m Bonnie sister.”
“It’s nice to meet you?” Jay smiled. He was acting so fake that I wanted to kick him. But part of me was happy that he wasn’t being a jerk to my sister. “Why haven’t I seen you in school? Do you attend another high school?”
Give me a break. I wanted to yell.
My sister blushed at his words and moved her hair behind her ear. “No, I finished high school some time ago. Married with children now.” She looked at me then looked back at Jay her eyes starting to fill with this knowing look. “My sister didn’t tell me she had such a nice friend.”
I rolled my eyes and got up from my chair. I went into my pocket so I could give her-her money back. I thought that maybe if I gave her-her money back she would move pass the ‘are you her boyfriend’ question that was coming.
“Here’s your money.” I said to her and handed her the money.
She looked at the money then frowned. “I told you I was treating you.”
I was going to just say that I didn’t need it but Jay opened his mouth.
“I wanted to buy her lunch; I’ve been a jerk these past few days.”
Mary smiled and shook her head. “I’m sure you haven’t been too bad.”
“Well I think you have other things to do, right?” I said to Jay becoming upset at the fact he and my sister seemed to be hitting it off. I wanted her not to like him just like how I didn’t.
“Don’t be….” Mary began.
“It’s ok, she’s right. My brothers are waiting for me to get home. We are supposed to talk to are parents.” He said then looked at me. I wanted to glare at him, but I saw how my sister was looking at him. Her eyes read ‘oh my goodness there’s more of you’. She didn’t even know the half of it. “Bye Bonnie.” He told me softly then looked back at my sister. “It was nice meeting you.”
“You to.” My sister said and then he walked off.
I didn’t open my mouth until I couldn’t see him anymore. I frowned when he was no longer in sight. I turned to look at my sister only to see my sister eyes look right at me widely full of questions.
“What were you doing?” I asked her. “I hate him and you were like getting along with him.”
My sister put a smirk on her face and folded her arms. “It’s didn’t look like you hated him. In fact I think if I hadn’t come over here when I did, you two would have been making out. Not that I blame you. My goodness, when I went to that school, there wasn’t anyone that good looking there.”
“You’re married.” I said suddenly.
My sister m
ust have taken that for jealously because she put her hands up in the air in defense.
“I know and happily at that. I was just saying he was very handsome. I didn’t know you had it in you.” My sister smiled. “I always thought you would end up with that guy friend of yours.”
I ignored her last comment. “I’m not dating him and I never will date him.” I told her and grabbed my food on the table. I was no longer hunger for some odd reason.
“Ok, whatever you say I will believe you.” She said shaking her head like she didn’t believe me for one moment. “I knew you were looking for someone earlier.”
“Mary if you don’t stop.” I said throwing away my food.
“Okay, fine, let’s get back to what we came here to do.” She suggested. “We can always talk boys later.”
I opened my mouth to tell I her I didn’t want to talk boys. Really not the boy she had in mind to talk about, but choose not to. I just shook my head at her and followed her off into a store.
Even as I followed her, I began to wonder more about Jay and just if he was hiding something or if it was just my mind playing tricks on me.
Chapter 8
Clueless
Shopping with my sister hadn’t been real eventful after Jay had left. She had got some clothes and some other small things for her kitchen. She had even got me a new pair of shoes and a new looking outfit that was on sale.
By the time we got back home my parents where home. Their cars were parked in the drive way and my car was moved in front of the house. I frowned as I looked at my car. I thought that my mom may have been the one to move it. I should have brought my keys with me.
My sister stopped the car in front of another house and she smiled at me. I smiled back and started to get out of the car.
“Wait.” She said before I was able to get out of the car. The door was wide open and one of my legs was on the ground. I turned my head to her and waited for her to say something. “Look if you like Jay you should tell dad and mom about him.”
“I don’t like him.” I told her and folded my arms. “So there is nothing to tell them.” I then eyed her when I thought about how I would have thought she wouldn’t want me to tell our parents, mostly our mom, about him. “Why do you want me to tell them? I mean they will tell me not to date him or anyone for that matter. School is more important.” I said as if quoting our mother.
