Golden

by Leah Adams

  He was so two faced. One moment he acted like he liked me the next he didn’t even want to kiss me. I hated how he was acting.

  After what seemed like forever I felt his car stop. I was about to open my eyes when I heard his voice.

  “Not yet.” He said. I could hear a smile in his voice.

  “Fine, but I’m so not going to listen to you soon.” I joked slowly regaining myself.

  He helped me out of the car. I felt the warm air hit my skin and smiled. He led me up what I thought was a path way and I heard the door open to where ever he was taking me.

  I felt him pick me up and that made me open my eyes. I looked around and saw I was in a room.

  How fast had he moved? I wondered.

  “Where are we?” I asked when he sat me down.

  “You opened your eyes.” He frowned and I glared at him. “My room.”

  I looked around and the first thing I saw was his bed. I turned my eyes back at him and fouled my arms.

  “Do not think I am going to do anything with you just because of what you did for me today.” I said. He was stupid if he thought I was going to do anything with him.

  Then again he didn’t even want to kiss me, so why should I worry about that.

  “No, I want to show you something.” He said and walked over to a door.

  I watched as he opened the door and saw that it was a walk in closet. I watched as he moved all of the cloths he had in there out of the way. I looked inside of it and saw nothing.

  It looked like the regular inside of a closet.

  “Nice cloths.” I stated.

  “You’re human so you can’t see it.” Jay said, and then turned to me. “Give me your hand.”

  His hand was out for me to take and I stared at it. Part me felt if I took his hand I was agreeing to something I wasn’t too sure I was ready for. Then another part of me screamed to take his hand and find out just what Leon said about the rabbit hole.

  I took his hand and he pulled me into the closet, taking me right through a wall.

  My eyes closed as I felt the warm air hit my face. Soon I felt like warm sunlight hit my skin and I slowly opened my eyes.

  What I saw blew my mind. I had never seen such a beautiful place.

  The sun was up in the sky shining down in the middle of the place where we stood. The huge greenest trees I had every saw were all around us and golden dust shine in the sun light.

  I saw small blue like pixies flying all around us, dancing off of the sun light. I laughed when one came right in front of me and smiled.

  When I turned to my side I saw a water fall. I walked over to it and I could feel the misty smoke the water fall created when it hit the water creating a small lake. I smiled when the golden dust started to fall against my skin.

  It tinkled and made me laughed loudly. I felt so weird yet so at place standing in a place that seemed right out of a fairy tale.

  “This is so beautiful.” I whispered not believing my eyes. “All of this looks so nice. Why….why am I here?”

  I wasn’t looking at him. I just couldn’t take my eyes off of my beautiful surroundings.

  “I wanted to show you part of my home.” He said, his voice sounding very close to me.

  I turned to him and saw that his hand was out. I stared at his hand and didn’t know what to do.

  “Dance with me.” He said. I looked up at him and I don’t know what he saw on my face, but whatever it was it made him sigh. “Come on Bonnie, have some fun.”

  I don’t know why, but I took his hand. I felt us lift in the air and watched as all of the golden dust looked as if it was dancing around us. I felt alive all of a sudden.

  It felt as if a blast of energy was spilling through me. I started to feel as if I was to fall right now I wouldn’t even die. I watched as all of the blue like pixies with wings flow around us and the dust started to sprinkle around me.

  My eyes looked up at Jay and I saw that his eyes were golden. The dust danced around him almost as if was being pulled to him. He looked just like the pixy he was claiming to be.

  So perfect, so dazzling, so beautiful, so….not human…

  It was almost as if that fact had just hit me. Jay was not human. I had known this before, he had told me this himself. But yet right at this moment I knew it was all so very real. He was not human and there was nothing more to it.

  “Jay.” I whispered as he looked down at me. I didn’t know what to say to him at this very moment. But I didn’t need to think of anything, because he spoke.

  “I did want to kiss you. I still want to kiss you.” He whispered keeping one of his hands wrapped firmly around my waist while the other one played around with my hair. “With one kiss, you could die.”

  I stared at him not understanding. Hadn’t he kissed girls before…..I mean even Damon kissed Angelica before, but she was still alive.

  “If I kissed you for too long, I would start to steal your soul and I won’t do that to you. If we went too far and had sex part of your life would be taken off.” He said almost regretfully. I gasped hoping that Angelica hadn’t done anything with Damon.

  “You don’t know how bad I’ve wanted to kiss you before.” Jay continued, even with me wondering if I would ever be willing to do such a thing. “At first I didn’t care about if I took it from you or not. I just wanted to kiss you because well I was upset that you talked to me the way you did. I was mad also because you seemed like you didn’t even care that I was talking to you. I hated that. So I wanted to kiss you and show you I could make you care, that I could make you beg me to kiss you.”

  I shivered against him, not being able to think straight. I should have been mad, but I wasn’t. I just wanted to hear him out before I started to speak or make my emotions take me.

  “Then I got to know you more.” He smiled down at me letting his hands slide down my neck. “And I loved how you spoke. Your mind and never acted like others girls that I had meant before. I loved that you was just yourself. It was so refreshing. It felt nice that when I talked to you-you wouldn’t hold back and you treated me the way you treated everyone else. I started to think about what it would be like to kiss that mouth of yours that had me liking you. I mean really kiss you without the soul stealing or what not.”

  I soon felt my flats touched the ground and he let me go. I still didn’t know what to say to him.

  “I always was with different girls all the time, because I knew I could never be honest with them nor did I really want to. I would take their life force from them and be done with it.” He sighed and shook his head. “Why get to know anyone when my parents already had my life set out for me and I always knew what I was going to be because of them.”

  He paused and stared closely into my eyes.

  “Honestly Bonnie, before I was even able to truly understand what was around me I knew who I was. So when it came to pixy girls I had fun with them, some even thought we could have something more, but I never wanted to let anyone in. But the pixy girls always only wanted one thing from me, but then there were human girls. I used them for food, nothing more nothing less. It was only food.” He turned his head from me and looked up at the sky. “Humans always made me feel different. Like you all have it all yet really you have nothing at all. Being around humans reminded me every day what I forgot. I didn’t remember who I was when I was human like Damon, Nate, or Leon. I don’t remember anything.”

  He looked at me his eyes focused. “But I want to remember. I kind of felt like if I remember who I was when I was human it would bring me a step closer to being with you.”

  I took in a breath and looked down at the ground.

  Why was he doing this to me? I asked myself. I had always liked Leon. He was the sweet one; he was the one that saved my life, and was there when I needed him to be.

  Not Jay.

  He wasn’t supposed to be beyond face value. He was supposed to be what you see is what you get. Not this guy who was talking to me right now.

  “J
ay, I have hated you for I don’t know how long. I’ve always been mad at you for how you acted and how you treated people.” I said slowly looking up at him. “And now I don’t know, I still don’t like you but I think maybe in time we could at least be friends.”

  When my eyes finally meant his I could see that he was reading. It seemed like he was trying to see if I was lying or not.

  I wasn’t lying. I felt like me and he could be friends. But part of me still felt like it would be wrong to lie and say I felt like we could be more.

  He wasn’t human. I and he could have no life together and I knew that was the same thing when it came to Leon.

  But with Leon, I felt I would at least try. With Leon I saw so much more, but with Jay….my feelings were tied.

  I wasn’t going to tell him I liked his brother that would be wrong, so I would try to move passed those feelings so I could be friends with Jay.

  “I’ll accept that,” He said and I smiled. “For now.”

  I then frowned, seeing that the Jay I knew was starting to show himself again.

  “Jay, I don’t know why you can surprise me at times.” I laughed when he reached for my hand.

  He just shook his head at me. “You ready to go.”

  I shook my head, yes.

  Jay led me out of the beautiful place he called home and for what whatever reason I felt like I couldn’t wait until I came back to this place.

  Chapter 16

  Dates can be Killer

  By the time we got back to the car it was dark and it felt cold. I wasn’t sure about my true feelings at the moment, but I knew soon I would have to be.

  I didn’t even know what he was thinking about when it came to us. I was sure that on some kind of level he seemed to like me, but I wasn’t sure why.

  Was it because he felt I was some kind of challenge or was it because he did really like me?

  The ride back to my house had been so quiet, yet my thoughts were very loud. It felt like someone was screaming in my ears.

  “I’ll see you later.” He stated once his car pulled up to my house. It was the very first words he had said to me since we got into the car.

  I wasn’t sure what had changed between the two of us, but whatever it was it felt kind of nice.

  When I looked over at him I saw that the moon light was caught into his hair. The light made the gold in his hair shine, but the moon shine still kept the darker pieces the same. His eyes even glowed brightly in the star light. He looked so beautiful so perfect so inviting….

  What was wrong with me? I screamed in my head. I shouldn’t be acting like this. I need to just keep Jay at arm’s reach where he belongs.

  “Yeah, whatever,” I told him nonchalant. I pushed the door of the car opened and got out. As soon as I turned around and closed the door I felt my body being pushed up against the car door.

  “Jay, what are you doing?” I asked him, as his eyes turned a beautiful shade of gold.

  He began to lean into me very slowly. I wasn’t sure if I should pull away or allow him to continue.

  My mind screamed idiot.

  I knew with one little kiss he could hurt me…..with one little kiss I would fall….but as his lips came closer to mine I didn’t care.

  So, what if he wasn’t human….so what that because of him Jennifer wanted me dead. At that moment I didn’t want to think about all the things that were wrong about this.

  I was so tired of thinking about doing the right thing. I was beyond tired of doing what others thought was good for me. I wanted to have a little fun.

  Just as his lips were about to touch mine, he moved his lips to my neck and bit down.

  I felt a rush of pure bliss come over me. My voiced moaned out words I had never heard before. I didn’t know what had come over me as I felt his hand go around my waist and pull me closer to him.

  As he kissed, licked, and did things only he could do my inside was screaming for more. I wanted so much more. And from what I could feel, so did he.

  Just as he moaned out my name, he quickly pulled away from me and stepped to the side of me.

  I turned my head to the side to stare at him, not understanding….until I heard my mothers’ voice.

  “Bonnie,” My eyes turned to my mom. I wasn’t sure how I looked to her, but she did looked slightly stunned when she looked at Jay standing by me. “Where have you been?”

  Before I could get my words out right Jay answered for me.

  “I’m sorry, Mrs. White.” Jay began and gave her a winning smile. “I kept her out too long.”

  “Well you’re lucky there’s no school tomorrow.” She said staring at him hardly. She looked like she was trying to figure him out. “Do I know your parents Mr.…?”

  “Jay Brad Sinclair.” He grinned holding out his hand for my mother to take. She took it briefly, looking as if she didn’t really want to hold his hand. “I don’t think you would know them. They are always away on business. So, they haven’t had any time to introduce their shelves.”

  “Most decent parents would, if they wanted their son to be around my daughter, but it seems you have taken after them.” My mother told him staring hardly at him.

  “Mom,” I said.

  “You’re right Mrs. White.” Jay kept smiling. “The next time I come over I’ll be sure to say hello to you.”

  “If there’s a next time,” She responded. “Bonnie, isn’t going to be involved with just anyone. Now goodnight.”

  My mother grabbed my shoulder and pulled me into the house.

  I felt like a child. I turned to look at Jay and saw he was just smiling at my mom. I slightly wondered what he was thinking.

  Once she closed the door she turned to me and folded her arms.

  “What is the matter with you?” She asked me and then shook her head. “You are going out with Keith tomorrow and here you are talking to some hoodlum.”

  Just because she said I could go out with Keith she thought I would do it and soon. I wanted to laugh at that thought.

  “Good choice of words mom.” I said starting to walk up the stairs.

  “I am trying to help you.” She said when I reached the top of the stairs. “I don’t want you to end up like your sister. Can’t you understand that?”

  “Yes, I understand.” I said then walked to my room.

  I understood perfectly. She didn’t want to lose her control on me, like she did her.

  That night I didn’t get much sleep, but it wasn’t because of nightmares of Jennifer trying to kill me. It was because I couldn’t shake Jay from my mind.

  And I knew this couldn’t be a good thing.

  The next day, as I got ready for Keith to pick me up, I felt like I needed to talk to Jay. I needed to tell him I was sorry for how everything had ended the other night.

  I wasn’t too sure why, but I didn’t really feel up to this date with Keith. But I had said I would go out with him, so I had to just deal with it.

  “Why are you dressed up like that?” I heard Luria asked standing in my doorway.

  I looked at her, looking over her pants and basketball shirt. I wondered how my sister, the queen of all things girls, had given birth to a little girl who knew nothing about Disney Princess, but everything about comic books.

  “Dressed like what?” I questioned looking at myself in the mirror. I knew I looked nicer then I would normally look, but I still only had on the kind of cloths I would normally wear.

  Or at least I thought I did.

  “Dressed like that or maybe your hair is different.” She said looking me over. Her blue eyes narrowed at me then suddenly a huge smile went across her lips. “What’s that on your neck?”

  “Were?” I asked looking in the mirror and trying to see what she was talking about.

  “You don’t see it.” She said with a sigh. But before I could ask were again, she jumped up and asked, “Are you going out with that guy, with the Maserati?!”

  I laughed slightly hating her good memory and the fact she
was too smart for her own good.

  My eyes looked her over and I for whatever reason began to wonder why my sister had even come over here today.

  “No, not Leon,” I sighed, after I could find nothing wrong with my neck. I had almost thought Jay had left a mark on me. That was all I needed, for my mom to see and get angry. I went to sit down on my bed. “My friend Keith is coming to pick me up.”

  “I like Leon.” She told me as if she felt her opinion mattered a lot. “He has pretty sparkles around him.”

  “Pretty sparkles?” I asked shaking my head.

  “Yeah, like Fairy dust.” She smiled.

  Or pixy dust. I thought then stared at Luria hardly. How in the world had she seen the dust? I couldn’t even see it unless I was in that place Jay took me. So how…..

  “Bonnie,” I turned my head and saw my sister standing by the door. “Keith is here.”

  “I like the blonde!” Lurie yelled folding her arms.

  “Jay really isn’t blonde.” Mary said staring hardly at her daughter. “Maybe dirty blonde, but that’s more brunette to me.”

  I sighed and wondered how she was really having this discussion with her four, almost five, year old child.

  “No, Leon!”

  “Who is that?” Mary asked and looked at me with wide beautiful dark eyes.

  “He’s a friend that she meant at the park.” I shrugged, sighing.

  “Why aren’t you a Ms. Casanova…..but let me help you with your hair a bit more.” She said.

  “It’s fine.” I said shaking my head no.

  I began to walk to the steps. I stopped at the end of the hall right before I got to the first step and sighed. I really was about to go on a date with one of my friends.

  Pushing the thought to the side, for a moment, I began to walk down the stairs and stopped when I saw Keith.

  He was sitting down talking to my parents. I could plainly see that my mom loved him and my dad I really couldn’t tell. But knowing him if mom and me where happy, so would he.

  I wasn’t too sure if I liked the fact that my mother liked Keith for all of the reasons she hated Mary’s husband.