Take My Hand: BWWM Romance

by Shanade White

  “I just…I think we should wait. We still don’t really know each other yet,” Virginia said. She didn’t want to admit it, but she was scared. At any point in time one of them could stop wanting this, and it was too soon for them to be thinking about sex. She didn’t want to be rejected later down the line because of a misunderstanding they could have avoided if they hadn’t taken such a bold leap of faith.

  “I understand,” Dmitri said. He immediately moved his hand away from her, and helped her to pull down her dress. He now felt too awkward to look at her directly in the eye. He was ashamed that he had moved too quickly. “I should have asked first. I’m sorry.”

  “No, it’s not that. I liked it. I would just like to get to know you a bit more before I know how well you can finger me,” Virginia said with a weak laugh. She hadn’t looked him directly in the eye either.

  They had more awkward silences on their wedding day than any other time they had spent together. The rings they had on their fingers solidified their bond, but brought something else.

  Virginia was getting nervous to talk to her husband. And this was something that Virginia couldn’t shake.

  Chapter 6

  Virginia had stolen away into her office the following Monday morning. She was too embarrassed to face Dmitri. If he was in one room, she’d sneak off into another. Her laughter became awkward, and she’d dance from one foot to another. It was an uncomfortable motion to show that she wanted to leave the space at any time. She couldn’t bring herself to talk it out either. She didn’t think this was a mistake, but she did think she needed to set up boundaries. She wanted to do little things like dates and trips away, and the natural order of things. She didn’t want to just jump into bed with a man because he put a ring on her finger. One week of marriage and almost everything about being close to her husband made her afraid.

  The phone ringing made Virginia almost jump out of her skin. She pushed a button and let the phone get on speaker.

  “V, it’s Dmitri,” Nancy said. The sound of her voice floated through her office. Virginia hesitated. She didn’t know what to say. She just wanted to go back to how it was with him. She wanted things to be normal.

  “Ok, I got it,” Virginia said. She waited a few seconds before the sound of her new husband’s voice came on the line.

  “Good morning, beautiful. I didn’t see you leave for work this morning. I wanted to know if you’re having a good day,” Dmitri said. He was so sweet. She hadn’t forgotten that. The corners of Virginia’s mouth curled up in a smile.

  “I’m ok. It’s just a very hectic time of year,” Virginia said back to him. “How are you?”

  “I’m doing fine. I’ve set up my easel and am working on a painting. It’s almost finished.”

  There was silence over the line.

  “Look, Virginia. I wanted to apologize.”

  “Apologize for what?” Virginia was bemused. He had nothing to be sorry for. If anything, she was the one who should be sorry for sneaking off and not being able to let one man she felt understood her in on how she was feeling.

  “For last week. I feel I overstepped a boundary. I should have asked you.”

  “What? No! Oh my goodness, Dmitri please don’t apologize for that. It felt…wow, it was amazing what you were doing. I just wanted to take it slow. I freaked out because now the man of my dreams is something real, and I’m not sure how long it’ll last,” Virginia said. She felt utterly exposed. Dmitri had cast a spell on her that made it impossible to hide any of her true feelings from him. In a way, she was grateful to be out with it and say how she felt, but on the other hand she wasn’t sure how he would take it.

  “It would only not last if we stop communicating with each other. This is very new and very scary for both of us. I don’t want to run from this or run from you. And if it doesn’t work out, it would be that way because we both tried and both fought to keep us together. No matter what happens, Virginia, I’m going to always want to be in your life.”

  Virginia was close to tears. He was right. She couldn’t help but realize that it was because of all the pain from her family and the other men in her life that brought this new surge of terror in her heart. She could handle any situation if she was in control, and she could handle any man because she knew they were vapid and she knew in the deepest part of her heart that there would be an expiration date to those relationships. This was different, and she didn’t want to let it go because she was afraid. It was time to face her fears and really welcome love into her life.

  “I’m very happy that I’m here with you Virginia. And this is only the beginning,” he said. “Are you coming home tonight? I can order something for you, or perhaps make you some dinner.”

  Virginia laughed silently through her tears. She didn’t want him to know that he had made her cry with his words. The most powerful woman on the East Coast and all she needed was someone to tell her that he cared about her as a person for her to turn into mush. It was too much.

  “We can order something when I come home,” she said. She was planning to make an excuse to stay at work late like she had been doing last week, but now she couldn’t wait for it to be 6 o’clock so that she could get home to her adoring husband.

  *****

  Virginia came home to find white rose petals at her feet. There was a trail leading from the doorway and into the open kitchen, and moved across the floor like a sea of petals into the living room and up the stairs. She smiled and followed the trail. No one had done anything like this for her before.

  She walked into the kitchen where a platter of chocolate was kept. There was a folded note written on it.

  “Moy Milyy,

  Welcome home. These are special chocolates I arranged to be made for you. I know you say you like coconuts and almonds. Enjoy them and follow the roses upstairs.”

  Virginia almost squealed with delight. She picked up a chocolate and put the whole piece into her mouth. It melted the moment it touched her tongue, and she could feel the flakes of chocolate and what could have been a hint of lime. She let out a moan of satisfaction as she took another one. They were a mix of milk chocolate and dark chocolate. They tasted homemade because she was sure she’d never had chocolate like this before. She had taken up three before she stopped herself and decided to keep following the trail.

  When she got to the foot of the stairs the music started. The lights had dimmed as well. That meant he was watching her from somewhere in the house. She looked up at the security cameras that were discreetly placed around her open planned first floor and smiled at them. Virginia made a little heart with her fingers at the camera and ascended the spiral stairs.

  Billie Holiday’s voice was heard throughout the house. Virginia hummed along to The Very Thought of You. She wondered if he had chosen it from her collection, or a song that he himself liked and picked out.

  At the top of the stairs, the rose petals split. There was a trail leading left, a trail leading right, and a trail in front where her bedroom was. Even after their nuptials, Dmitri opted to stay in the guest room on the left. There was another guest room and a study to the right. Beyond that was another balcony of sorts that acted as a home gym. She didn’t know which trail to take first until she saw another note on a console table near the landing.

  “Zvezda Moya,

  Please go to your right first.”

  Virginia did as the note instructed and went towards the second guest room. She opened the door and was surprised to see the room completely altered. Her usual furniture had been pushed along the walls. In the center of the room was a large easel and a stool. The easel was facing the other way, but Virginia could see that someone had been painting in there.

  She didn’t know what to expect, and so she took tentative steps towards the painting. She held her breath, as if whatever was on the easel was sleeping and she didn’t want to wake it. She walked around the stool and turned to face the painting and her jaw dropped.

  Before her was a large magn
ificent piece. It was so expertly done that she didn’t know where to start looking. What caught her eye was the figure. It was a painting of her. It looked so different, but she knew it could only have been her. The dark brown skin with the curly hair cascading along the figure’s shoulders. It was a close up view of Virginia from her head down to about her waist. The figure was dressed in what looked like Victorian era clothes; her neck was adorned with all sorts of pearls and jewels. The figure in the painting representing her was holding a single white rose and looking longingly to her right outside a window. The waves of the sea crashed below. There was something mournful about the figure, but Virginia could tell she wasn’t sad. No, the figure was hopeful.

  Virginia was completely numb that she almost felt her knees buckle beneath her. It was gorgeous, and it would have still been just as beautiful to her even if it were not meant to be her. There was a note on the stool that she didn’t even notice. Her eyes kept going back towards the painting even as she opened the note.

  The song had changed. It was still Billie Holiday, but now it was I’ll Be Seeing You.

  The song was from a completely different time from the painting, but that brought out Virginia’s emotions. Dmitri had made her cry tears of joy twice already today, and she had no idea what was in her room or the guest room across the hall that he was staying in.

  “Goddess,

  I hope you like it. I wanted to capture how beautiful you are. Please go to your bedroom.”

  This had become so fun to Virginia. She was holding all of the notes in her hand, and she practically skipped back out into the hall and towards her bedroom.

  She opened the doors and saw that her bed was covered in pink and red rose petals in the shape of a giant heart. There was a note right in front of it. Virginia looked about the room to see if there were any other surprises for her, but there was nothing else that she could see. She picked up the note on the bed and unfolded it.

  “Lyubov Moya,

  I will be in my room if you would like to see me. Enjoy the chocolates and the roses.”

  Dmitri was giving her the option to simply enjoy time to herself or to go and see him. She swallowed. She could feel every part of her body tingling with alertness now. She didn’t stop to think. Virginia was out the door of her bedroom and back down the hallway. She made a right to the only room she had not yet visited. Billie Holiday’s Blue Moon echoed through the walls softly.

  Virginia knocked on the door. She was nervous, and she could feel herself getting shy, but she knew now that this was what she wanted. He was what she wanted. Whether he was her husband or her friend, she wanted him in any way that she could have him.

  Dmitri opened the door with what looked like a sheepish grin on his face. It was no surprise that he was in all black. The button up shirt he was wearing was unbuttoned, and he had on a white under shirt. His hair was slicked back in the way Virginia liked.

  “Did you like the paint-“ Dmitri’s words had been cut short. Virginia had taken a hold of his face and tiptoed to give him a kiss. She could feel the spark ignite within her. This kiss felt just as curious and wondrous as the first kiss they shared in Moscow. The only difference was now he was hers, and she was his.

  Dmitri pressed his large body up against hers. He felt the suppleness of her breasts through her blouse, and the way her body rose and fell as she tried to catch her breath in between their kisses. He listened for the sound of her sweet moans whenever their lips pulled away from one another. He was so taken with her that he didn’t ever want to stop being in her embrace.

  “I hope that means that yes you like it,” Dmitri said jokingly. Virginia laughed and gave him a quick peck on the tip of his nose. She took both of his hands in hers and walked backwards down the hall.

  “Would you like to come into my room?” Virginia asked. Her body was aching for him now. She was curious about how he looked without clothes, and the ways he could possibly taste and hold her. Dmitri nodded and let her lead him into her bedroom.

  The rose petals were still a perfect heart on the bed, and Billie Holiday cooed on from every room in the house. Virginia didn’t even bother to close the door. She brought Dmitri close to her once again to feel all the parts of him that she could, and still craving more. She wanted to feel so much more of him that she could hardly stand it. From being totally afraid of being left, to feeling totally consumed by someone; it was a feeling of bliss that she didn’t want to let go of. And now she was sure she wouldn’t.

  She walked backwards until she bumped the bed with the back of her leg. Dmitri was hungry for her and their lips and tongues did not separate for too long. Virginia sat down on the bed. Dmitri followed by bending forward to match her height. Virginia scooted backwards onto the bed. A few of the petals fell on the floor, and she knew they were no longer a perfect heart. She could smell the sweet scent of the pink and red roses around her. The smell was as alluring as the voice of Billie Holiday.

  Virginia urged Dmitri forward by enticing him with her lips. When she moved backwards, she teased him and had him move forward so that he was now on his hands and knees on her bed. Her king size bed was soft and inviting, just like her lips. She stroked Dmitri’s cheek. She enjoyed running her hands along his stubble. It was a sexy and rugged look that made him seem even more like an artist.

  Their kisses continued to be tender until Virginia was practically leaning against the headboard. Dmitri moved an arm underneath her and scooped her up. He did a quick maneuver with his arm that made him collapse on the bed on his back and now had Virginia straddling him. It turned her on more to know that he was so strong, and he positioned her the way he wanted. She was used to being the dominant one in the bedroom, and that was due to her partners either being intimidated by her, or just wanting to do anything she wanted in order to get their way later on. Dmitri wanted her pleasure, but he was so bold about it.

  Virginia used her finger to beckon Dmitri. He went from lying down to sitting up to her level. He kissed her neck and her shoulders with a bit more force. She didn’t know if she wanted to admit that she liked a bit of the pain mixed with the pleasure. She removed the button up that he had on, and tugged at the undershirt. Dmitri raised his arms over his head and waited as Virginia took the shirt off of him. She paused for a moment to admire how sexy his body was. His stomach was flat and firm and you could see the imprints of a six pack forming.

  He was thin, but he was strong too. Virginia felt his muscles and his power when she ran her fingers across his arms and his chest.

  Dmitri started to unbutton Virginia’s blouse, pausing to look up at her to see if it was alright for him to go further. She nodded and when he slid the blouse off of her, she undid the clasp of her bra from the back and pulled it lower on her body. Her breasts were large, but they weren’t yet defeated by gravity. They were round and supple. Her chocolate areolas had hardened nipples on the tip. Her body gave her away and revealed her true anticipation.

  “Wait,” she said. Dmitri was about to kiss her breasts, but she stopped him. He paused and looked up at her face.

  “There’s something that I want to do first.”

  Virginia moved backwards and got on her hands and knees in front of Dmitri. She unbuckled his belt with ease. Her hands traveled along his pelvis and onto his pubic region. She wanted to feel his length. She took a hold of his erect cock. She could feel how large it was even with his pants still on. An excited moan escaped her lips, and Dmitri matched her moan with one of his own as she teased him through his clothes.

  He lifted his body up so that he could remove the rest of his clothes. He sat on the bed, completely hard, and completely turned on by Virginia. She took off the pencil skirt and silk thong that she was still wearing. Virginia bit down on her lip and admired Dmitri’s body for a while.

  “Wow,” she said. Dmitri smiled and licked his lips at her. His cock throbbed once when he scoped her body with his dark brown eyes. It was obvious that he liked what he saw.

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p; Virginia got on all fours again and arched her back so that Dmitri could take a good look at her perfect round ass. She wrapped her hand around the base of his cock and kissed the tip softly. She put her lips around the tip and softly sucked on the head of his large head. He leaked just a bit of precum, and Virginia took in the salty flavor of it hungrily.

  She continued to lick and suck only the tip. Dmitri sucked in some air and his body grew more and more tense. That was when Virginia slowly ran her hand up along his shaft. She used her other hand to come to the base. She stroked him, moving up and twisting her hands in the opposite direction. Her wet tongue tasted the head of him. She was going to taste more. She was determined to taste all of him.

  Dmitri let out some air, his breath staggering whenever Virginia had found a spot of pleasure for him. His moans turned her on; her pussy was getting wet from how good he tasted and how she imagined he would fuck her.

  She moved one hand away and lowered her face. Her lips were around his length now. Not only was Dmitri big, but he was a nice thickness too. His veins were prominent now as Virginia got to work with pleasing him. He gathered a clump of her hair in his hands. He needed to hold onto something. He could feel an orgasm building up inside him while his wife stroked and sucked him.

  Harder and faster she went. Dmitri’s toes curled and his body went completely rigid.

  “You’re gonna make me cum,” Dmitri managed to moan. He groaned and took Virginia’s head in both of his hands. He guided her movements and watched her ass in the air. “Oh fuck. Ohhhh fuck…”

  Dmitri pushed more of his length inside Virginia’s mouth as he came. His head rolled back and he released his hot liquid into her. He filled up her mouth more and more with every thrust. He shook a little as he let out the last drop.

  Virginia swallowed her prize and kissed up Dmitri’s body. He brought her face close to his and playfully bit her bottom lip. He slowly clawed down her back until he was grabbing her ass. He squeezed.