Rockstar Untamed: A Single Dad Virgin Romance

by Michelle Love

  Maybe it’s time for a complete change, he thought. Maybe things should slow down. It wasn’t as if he didn’t have enough money, just three months ago, Forbes had placed his net worth just shy of a billion dollars.

  But some things were worth more than wealth, hell, a lot of things, Bodhi told himself. His son, first and foremost. He had to try and find a way to get through to Tim. Whether Tim realized it or not, Bodhi had grown to love him, it was just, at this moment, he didn’t know whether he liked him.

  A new life. A new assistant. A new friend. Sailor. Bodhi laughed and shook his head. How quickly life changes. Of course, he was a man, and her fragile beauty hadn’t passed him by. The long waves of her dark brown hair that almost reached her waist, those big dark eyes, the pink flush of her cheeks, and her smile was breathtaking. Finally, after the trauma of her near-rape, he’d made her laugh at lunch, and her smile had made his day. It lit up her face. She was young, too young for that sort of crap to happen to her.

  And she’s probably too young for you, buddy, so keep your thoughts pure. With a sigh, Bodhi knew the truth of that. If he wanted to keep Sailor in his life, he would have to be professional, keep his more erotic thoughts to himself. She deserved that much from him.

  At dinner, he told Tim about his new assistant, but Tim just shrugged and said “Okay.” Bodhi wondered if the kid cared less about who was in his life.

  “Hey, how about we go to the beach this weekend? Have you ever been to Venice Beach?”

  “Evan used to take me all the time.”

  Of courseOf course, Bodhi was really starting to dislike this ‘Evan.’ “Okay then, how about to the Caribbean? I have a friend with a place on an island down there.”

  Tim’s eyes opened wide, and Bodhi felt a rush of joy. Finally, Tim was impressed. “For reals?”

  “For reals. We can go on Friday after school, come back Sunday. What do you say?”

  Tim studied his father and Bodhi, for the millionth time, wondered what was going on in his head. “Okay.”

  Bodhi smiled. He wanted to say more, suggest other things they could do, but he didn’t want to push his luck. This was enough…for now.

  “The Caribbean?” Sailor gaped at him as Bodhi laughed at her expression, the next morning.

  “That’s right. Want to come? All expenses paid, of course.”

  Sailor sat back in the passenger seat, shaking her head in disbelief. “Twenty-four hours ago, we didn’t even know each other, and you saved me from being raped, or murdered, hired me at a wildly generous salary, and offered me a dream vacation to a tropical island? This isn’t real.”

  Bodhi grinned. “Listen, if it freaks you out, just think of it as a working trip. I need to figure out what to do going forward and I need you to help me.”

  “On a tropical island.” She repeated, then laughed. “Well…I’d love to, but I don’t have a passport.”

  Bodhi’s eyebrows shot up. “You don’t?”

  “Uh-ah.” Sailor shook her head, her smile fading. Bodhi studied her for a long moment then turned back to the road.

  “Okay…well, we could get that arranged by Friday, no problem. You have a birth certificate, right?”

  Sailor nodded. She’d stolen it from Bart’s cabinet the day he’d left her alone in his office, along with anything she could find with her name on. When she’d arrived in L.A., she’d gone to City Hall to legally change her name from the near unique-sounding Sailor King to the more generic Sarah Halls. At least then, she could use that name legally, but finding it hard to call herself ‘Sarah,' she told people her nickname was Sailor, figuring it was safe enough to do so.

  “Have you never traveled, Sailor?”

  She blinked back in the present and shook her head. “No, never. Never been on a plane, never gone anywhere.”

  Bodhi looked amazed but then smiled. “Then it’s decided. It’s outrageous you’ve never traveled. Particularly with a name like Sailor. We’ll get your passport arranged and you can come with us. Okay?”

  Sailor hesitated then nodded. “Okay…thank you, Bodhi.” She gave a short laugh. “I am dreaming, I’m sure.”

  Later that day, after they’d spent all day talking about what Bodhi would be looking for in an assistant, and Sailor getting very excited for the challenge, she rode in the car with him as Bodhi picked Tim up from school and introduced him to Sailor. Sailor grinned at the young boy.

  “Hey, it’s good to meet you.” She indicated a patch on his jacket of a rooster spewing fire. “Hey, you like Rhett and Link?”

  Tim looked amazed that a grown-up would know who Rhett and Link were and nodded, half smiling at her. “Today we’re going to eat hair gel flavored ice cream.”

  Sailor grinned, knowing he wanted her to give the catchphrase of the two Internet comedians. “Let’s talk about that,” she quipped back, and Tim laughed delightedly.

  Bodhi looked between them. “I have no idea what either of you is talking about.”

  Sailor rolled her eyes and winked at Tim. “Granddad,” she said in a stage whisper, making Tim giggle. Bodhi grinned at the sound, and then looked gratefully at Sailor.

  “Sailor’s just agreed to come to the island with us on Friday, that okay with you, buddy?”

  Tim actually smiled at his father, a rare occurrence, and nodded eagerly. Bodhi held his hands up to Sailor. “See? Now you have to come.”

  When Tim had finally been persuaded to go to bed, Bodhi poured Sailor and himself some wine. “Girl, how the hell did you do that? He’s talked more this evening than in the last six months.”

  He sat down, shaking his head in amazement and a little sadness and Sailor’s heart went out to him. All day, she had been finding out that this megastar, this world-famous billionaire, was nothing more than a simple man at heart. His glorious face, his hard body, his rough velvet voice had made his fortune, but she could see that he craved a simpler life, one out of the spotlight. He’d shown her around his home, and she’d noticed the rooms he got most excited about were the ones where he created things, his recording studio, his workshop where he made beautiful hand-turned furniture ‘to relax.' He told her about the olive groves in Tuscany where he loved to spend summers, away from public view, with his friends, his best friend Claudio, and Bodhi’s artist mom. She looked through some pencil sketches, and her heart hurt when she saw the preliminary drawings he’d made of his son.

  “These are gorgeous, Bodhi.”

  He looked pleased, giving her a shy grin. “You draw?”

  She nodded. “Some. Not as good as this, and I haven’t done anything for a while. Out of practice.”

  “You are more than welcome to come in here, use anything you want, anytime.” Bodhi leaned back against the wall, studying her. “Sailor, I’ve been talking about myself all day, all ego. What about you, what’s your story?”

  Sailor felt panicky, and she looked away from his gaze. “Not much to tell. Left a bad situation at home, come to Hollywood six months ago. Don’t even know why I chose to settle here…it just seemed…far enough away.”

  Bodhi nodded. “Family stuff? Or boyfriend?”

  Sailor chewed her lip. “Just…stuff.” God, she should have figured out a story by now. It was just, in this town, people rarely cared about who you were or had been. They just needed to know if you could be useful to them. She decided to go with a potted version of the truth. “I was raised in a commune of sorts…I never knew who my father was. I was with my mom as a newborn, but she died soon after. I was alone. So, when I got older and decided the commune’s rules and regulations were no longer for me, I left and came here.”

  Bodhi seemed satisfied with that answer. “Shame you never knew your parents. No wonder you can relate to Tim.”

  Sailor smiled gently. “Tim knows both his parents, they’re just apart. Can I ask? Why did things with Gemma never work out?”

  Bodhi sat down next to her. “Sailor, I was in my late twenties, and my career was maybe at its peak. Temptation was everywhe
re. I cheated, is the truth of it. A lot. Gemma deserved better. That’s why I can’t be mad that she never told me about Tim. I just can’t be mad.”

  “But you are?”

  Bodhi nodded slowly. “A little. Mostly at myself for being a loser.”

  Sailor was silent for a moment, studying him. He looked tired, his beautiful eyes had dark circles underneath, his whole body slumped. Sailor resisted the temptation to hug him or to smooth his dark curls away from his face. He was her boss after all, no matter how friendly and inclusive he was.

  “What do you want, Bodhi? Out of life, I mean. You have every material thing a person could need; you have your son back in your life. What else is there?”

  Bodhi met her gaze and smiled sadly. “I don’t know, Sailor, is the honest truth. There’s something missing, and I don’t know what it is. I know I’m glad I found a new friend if that means anything.”

  Sailor grinned, flushing slightly. “Right back at you, boss.”

  “Gah, don’t call me that. We’re…collaborators in life.”

  Sailor laughed. “I like that.” She glanced at her watch. “God, it’s late. I’d better go.”

  Bodhi got up, and she followed him into the kitchen. He opened a small cabinet and took out a set of keys. “Here you go. You know how to drive right?”

  Sailor nodded, taking the keys. Bodhi’s fingers brushed hers, and a small thrill went through her. “Will you be okay driving home?”

  She nodded. “Of course.”

  He walked her out to the car, and she couldn’t help but gasp. It was a mint green Thunderbird, in spotless condition. Sailor shook her head. “I can’t, Bodhi, this is too much.”

  “Sailor, this car was made for you. It’s classy, classic and beautiful. Just like you.”

  There were tears in Sailor’s eyes now, and she turned away from him. “Bodhi…you just met me, and already you’ve given me so much. I can’t take it, I’m sorry.”

  “Then think of it as a loaner until you find one you like.” He dumped the keys in her hand and steered her towards the car. His hands on her bare shoulders were soft, caressing and Sailor shivered. Nope, do not get a crush.

  Bodhi would take no further argument. He kissed her cheek and waved as she started down the long driveway to the road out.

  As she drove home, Sailor’s thoughts were in turmoil. Bodhi was kind, generous, funny and smart, but there was certainly a little control freak in him. Did she really want that in her life again? As she opened the door to her tiny apartment, she sighed. She didn’t really have a choice, did she?

  And besides, she was excited about the job, as well as spending time with Bodhi and Tim. She’d seen the pain in the little boy’s eyes, reflected in his fathers who was unable to reach him. If she could help bring them together…

  What? What’s in it for you? She closed her eyes. I just want to feel useful. That I’ve made a difference, however small. Her mind flitted back to when Bodhi’s hands were on her bare shoulders. The feelings that had flooded through her were unexpected and scary. Desire. Sailor tried to push the thoughts away as she stripped down and stepped into her shower, but she couldn’t help but fantasize that Bodhi was in the shower with her, stroking her clit, kissing her mouth, his big arms around her, holding, protecting, loving. Her own hand snaked down and began to caress herself, masturbation had been a sin back in the commune, especially for the ‘chosen bride’, who was meant to save herself for Bartholomew. Which was why, at twenty-four, Sailor was still a virgin. A goddamned virgin, she thought angrily.

  Sailor gritted her teeth for a second then returned to her fantasy. She would stroke Bodhi’s cock until it was rigid and proud against his belly and then he would take her, impaling her on his cock, and fucking her hard until she was screaming his name.

  Sailor’s body was trembling all over as she stroked herself into an orgasm, picturing Bodhi’s beautiful face smiling down at her and whispering her name again and again.

  A few miles away, Bodhi lay naked on his bed, staring up at the ceiling, his own mind whirling with desire, doubt, temptation. Sailor was his responsibility now, and he could not, would not take advantage of her, no matter how much he couldn’t stop thinking about her smooth caramel skin, her dark eyes, that wave of soft hair almost to her waist. He could not compromise their working relationship; Sailor needed this job. It didn’t matter how much he pictured her slowly stripping her clothes off, her large firm breasts, the curve of her waist, the deep hollow of her navel and that place between her legs that he so much wanted to taste.

  No. There was a fragility to Sailor that he did not quite understand, and he would not be that guy anymore, the one who fucked around and didn’t think of the other person. No. Sailor was his employee and, more than that, his friend. Whatever damage she had, he would help her heal from, as much as she would let him. He got the impression that she hated to be told what to do. Maybe he had pushed it a little far with the car, tonight. But he had been thinking about ways to thank her all evening, and when he thought of the Thunderbird, it fitted her aesthetic so well, it seemed natural.

  Bodhi rolled over on his side and tried to fall asleep. Stop thinking about her…

  Stop.

  He didn’t fall asleep until it was nearly dawn – and he didn’t stop dreaming about Sailor.

  Sailor felt her heart in her mouth as she drove excitedly up the driveway in the Thunderbird. First day of work. She and Bodhi were going to figure out a schedule for the next six months and then she could finally get started on her new career.

  She pulled up to the door and got out. It was hot today and a fine sheen of sweat covered her as she left the air-conditioned car and knocked on the door.

  A few seconds later, the door swung open and Bodhi grinned at her. “I forgot to give you a key, didn’t I? Hey there, kiddo, first day.” He kissed her cheek, and she blushed, grinning back. “Come have some coffee before we start.”

  He led her into the kitchen and Sailor felt her heart sink as she saw there was someone else there. A beautiful woman, no, strike that, a Goddess, stood chatting with Tim and sipping a mug of tea. She looked up and smiled at Sailor as they entered the room. She had long chestnut hair, straight down past her shoulders, and big friendly hazel eyes, almond-shaped. Sailor half-smiled back, unsure of what to feel. Jealous. That’s what you are, admit it. She pushed the thought to the back of her mind.

  Bodhi introduced them. “Sailor, this is Soleil, now that’s not going to get confusing, is it?” He laughed. “Soleil is an old friend, my best friend, Claudio’s sister.”

  Soleil put down her mug and came to give Sailor a hug. Her smile was genuine, her manner relaxed. “Ciao, Bella Sailor,” she said in her broken English accent. “I’ve heard good things about you from these two. I’m very glad to meet you.”

  Sailor, warming to her, hugged her back. “And I, you. Hey, Tim,” she said over Soleil’s shoulder, and Tim waved his cereal spoon at her, his mouth full.

  Soleil released her, but stood with her arm around Sailor’s waist. “Now, before you start your job, let me warn you. Bodhi is an inveterate flirt. Don’t let him run rings around you.” She said it in a jokey tone, but Sailor knew she was telling her the truth and grinned at her boss. “I figured.”

  Soleil squeezed her. “Good girl. I’ll get you some coffee.”

  “Thanks.”

  Bodhi waved her towards a seat then glared at his old friend in mock-anger. “Don’t put her off me on her first day, Solly. Besides I don’t flirt with everyone.”

  Solly snorted as she handed Sailor a mug of coffee. “You even flirt with me, and I’m practically your sister.”

  “Never worked though, did it?”

  “I have taste. Besides, my heart belongs to another.”

  “Beyonce?”

  “That’s the one.”

  Sailor watched their playful banter, still a little envious of how easily they could joke with each other, but also seeing how platonic their relationship was. T
im was watching them too, even smiling at the teasing Soleil was giving his father.

  Soleil left soon after, giving Sailor another hug. “Despite everything I tease him about, he’s a good man,” she said to Sailor, “I’m sure you’ll love working for him. Sailor, do you know many people in L.A.? Bodhi said you’ve only been here for six months.”

  Sailor shook her head. “No-one. Unless you could call the clerk at the Seven Eleven a friend.”

  Soleil dug a pristine business card out from her purse. “Well, now you know someone new. Anytime you need some girl time, call me.”

  Sailor smiled shyly. “Thanks, I will.”

  Bodhi grinned at her. “She’s great, huh?”

  Sailor nodded. “Lovely, really lovely.”

  women of Florence with abandonment. Soleil herself didn’t have time for relationships. At thirty-one, she was one of the most successful art dealers in the world and traveled constantly. Bodhi had harbored a crush on his friend’s younger sister when he was younger, but Soleil, who had known about the attraction, had made it clear that it would never happen between them. Now they had cultivated a friendship, which was as important to Bodhi as his relationship with Claudio.

  He grinned at Sailor. “So, I just have to take Tim to school then we can get started. Why don’t you explore the house and grounds while we’re gone? I’ll be a half hour, tops.”

  “Okay.”

  Sailor wandered around the vast grounds of the mansion as she waited for Bodhi to return. The pool, which glittered blue in the morning sun, was huge and she wondered if Bodhi would mind if she, on occasion, did some laps in it on her lunch break. She felt her body was becoming untoned lately. She hated to go to the gym, but swimming was her thing, letting the water stream past her body. She loved it. She crouched down and dangled her fingers in the cool water. Bliss on a hot June morning in L.A. There was a small guesthouse across the other side of the pool, and she went over, trying the door and finding it unlocked, she went in. It was lite, open and airy inside, constructed to look like a beach house, all white painted wood, hurricane lamps and white furniture. A whole wall with solid bookcases and Sailor gave a silent ‘yay’ as she saw the books were a mix of fiction, non-fiction, and others. She picked out a Stephen King novel and scooched down on the couch to start reading. She missed this, having books on hand to bury herself in.