Never Mine: A Second Chance Bad Boy Romance

by Lauren Wood

  I was stammering and blabbing again, I could hear it in my voice, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it. I wanted everything to be okay and for my son to stop looking at me like that. I had never felt so bad in my life and I was still off kilter a little bit because of Greg’s kiss that morning.

  “Why don’t you get us something to drink Mandy and I will finish up breakfast?”

  Nodding my head, I could tell that he was letting me off the hook. I knew that it was going to be harder with Alfie who was still staring at Greg like he was going to vanish at any moment. What had I done and why had it been so long for me to figure it all out?

  I went to the refrigerator and let the two men continue to stare at each other. The tension in the room was thick enough to cut with a knife. It was hard to act like I wasn’t in the middle of it, but I was trying to do as Greg suggested. He started to talk to Alfie, asking him questions and I could tell that my son was feeling him out. It didn’t take long for the two of them to realize that there was a lot that the two of them had in common.

  When I got a couple of glasses filled with juice, I realized I needed to add another one and it was a pang in my heart for a moment. I was just full of emotions and I was trying my best to hold it all together.

  Setting the table, I was relieved to hear the conversation between the two of them. It was clear that it was going to be an easy transition and before long it was like they were two peas in a pod. I knew that it wasn’t always going to be this way, but there was a part of me that was okay with it. Alfie had a reason to be mad at me and I knew that he would forgive me eventually. I wasn’t sure about Greg, but it didn’t matter then, he had really saved my ass, even though I didn’t deserve it.

  ***

  “I want to thank you for making everything so easy for me Greg. I know you didn’t have to, but you made this so much easier than it should have been.”

  Alfie had gone upstairs to his room and was getting his stuff together because the two of them were going to go play catch at the park. It was kind of cliché, especially considering Alfie had only used his mitt and ball once since I bought it for him a couple of years before, but it was cute. I was thankful that Greg was willing to do such things and I could already see that Alfie was over the moon about everything that was going on.

  “Don’t worry about it. I know that it is going to be awkward, so there is no point in making it any harder. We have a lot to talk about later, but for now, I think me and Alfie are going to go out. Are you sure you don’t want to come?”

  I shook my head and told him that I didn’t. Alfie was still acting a little strange about everything and I knew that he was mad at me. He had every right to be mad at me and I didn’t want to push it. He was the type, like Greg, that needed space when he was upset and I wasn’t going to make it any harder on him. He needed time and that was the least I could do.

  When he got back downstairs, I was nervous to see him and waited for him to tell me good bye. It was a strange way to feel, like I was an outsider all of a sudden. But I had to accept it and hope that like everything else in life, that would change too. If nothing else, Alfie was going to have the father that he always wanted and Greg was sliding into the role rather quickly. He wasn’t the running type and it made me realize that I was going to have to figure things out with him as well. I didn’t know what that was going to look like, but there was a part of me that knew it was going to be okay. I shouldn’t have felt that way, there was surely nothing that was pointing into the direction of everything being okay, but I was convinced nonetheless that it was so.

  CHAPTER 14

  GREG

  Alfie told me good night and I told him that I would see him the next day. I wanted to take him by to meet his great aunt. Dawn had seen him from afar for a long time, but she had never talked to him in person and I wanted to change that. She was getting old and though I would never admit it, she wasn’t going to be around forever.

  My mind left me the next day when Mandy came into view as I went down the stairs. She was wearing some jeans and a T shirt like she had before. Some things about her hadn’t changed at all and it was good to see. She reminded me that I had falling in love with her a long time ago and all of the feelings that I had then, were coming back full tilt.

  Mandy didn’t see me yet, so I was able to study her without her seeing me. It gave me time to admire everything about her, every curve and everything that I remembered from before. It made me want her even more and when she finally turned my way and smiled, I was lost once again. She had always had that effect on me and it was hard for me to deny it anymore.

  I didn’t say a word. I was never good at words and I wasn’t ready to start polishing my craft now. All I wanted to do now was show her. I knew that she was worried about me forgiving her, but I already had. I loved her and there was nothing that she could do that would ever make me want to not be with her. Alfie was just another reason that made me want to be with her more. It was meant to be and we already had a child together. It was time to start thinking about making some more. I knew that I was ready to try if nothing else. I wanted to see what all had changed.

  “Wait Greg, I don’t think this is a good idea. I thought we needed to talk.”

  I was not going to talk to her. There was literally nothing that I wanted to say to her that didn’t involve my tongue in her mouth and my cock inside of her. I had waited too long for her and after all of these years, I wasn’t going to wait anymore. I was still kicking myself for leaving angry the night before. She was in my arms and willing to do what I wanted. I should have let her show me how sorry she was in that way, instead of leaving all mad and going to bed wanting her more than anything else.

  “I don’t want to talk anymore about it, okay? I know what I need to know, but what I don’t know is how I can go another minute without you in my arms. There is nothing that I want to do more than to be with you Mandy.”

  She kind of giggled and told me that it wasn’t the first time that I had said that before. I didn’t doubt it. Mandy had always made me say things that I didn’t necessarily mean to say and now was one of those times. I was pouring my heart out to her, my need so high that I was sure there was a lack of blood to my big brain, but I pressed on, I had to.

  “Just tell me that you want me as much as I want you Mandy and that will be enough.” I will give her a little time to get used to desire before I went down the route of love. I remembered from before that she wasn’t into the gushy stuff like most women were. Mandy like action and that is what I was dying to give her. All she had to do was say yes and I would have everything that I needed.

  “I do want you Greg. It has been a long time, but I still remember what it was like with you. I know that you were the one that got away for me, but I don’t want to pretend like nothing has happened between us. A lot has and Alfie is mad. I don’t know.”

  I shushed her and pulled her down to me for a kiss. I told her that she was just thinking too much and she was going to have to calm down. “Our past is a good thing considering that we already have a son together. It is meant to be, but for now Mandy, I need you. Please don’t deny me.”

  She wasn’t going to be able to. When my lips moved down to hers, I felt her melt a little bit against me and I knew she was mine again. The soft moan that escaped from her was enough to make me a little crazy and I asked her where her room was. I didn’t want to speak, the clarity going back into her darkened eyes, but I didn’t have a choice. I couldn’t take her right there, not with our son upstairs. We needed privacy and I needed some time with her.

  Pulling me behind her, Mandy wasn’t thinking about the reasons why anymore. She seemed to be as needy as I was and I knew that I was going to have to slow it down before I made it something that wasn’t very memorable. When we got into her room and the door was shut, Mandy moved to her knees and I had to pull her up to her feet. There was no way that I was going to be able to be pressed in between her sweet lips and not come in he
r mouth. I just couldn’t and I didn’t want our first time after so long to be like that. I wanted it to be special and that meant me showing a little control.

  “Why don’t you want me to Greg? I have learned a lot since we were together last.”

  There was a surge in my pants and I couldn’t believe that she had just said that. Mandy had always been a little naughty, but she was more so than I remembered from before and it was hard to deal with her. I couldn’t let her touch me like that. If she put me in her mouth, there was no way that I was going to be able to give her the memories that I wanted to. I wanted her to never forget me again and never think about leaving me again in my life.

  “I can’t take it right now Mandy. I just want you so much and I want everything to be perfect for you.”

  She whined and her fingers covered up the length of my cock and I groaned. She just didn’t get how hard I was trying to hold it altogether, but it was almost impossible. I moved her hand away and stood her up and away from her a little bit so that she wouldn’t be able to touch me. Mandy was needy and I could see that she wanted more, but I needed to slow down because I was ready to end it right then and there. It would have been a waste.

  Instead of letting her get her hands on me again, I distracted her with a kiss and then my hands roaming over her body a little bit. She moaned into my mouth and the sound was muffled by my lips. It was such a sweet noise that it was as damaging to my senses as the feel of her hand on me was.

  I wanted to see her, knowing that she had changed and wanting to see all of the changes for myself. Pulling her shirt off, her tits took my attention away and I could definitely see the difference. They seemed bigger or I hadn’t seen her in a long time and it was just the way they looked then.

  “God you are beautiful Mandy. I have missed you so much.”

  Her jeans were a little harder to get off because my hands were shaking a little bit, but I managed to get them off and then I was ready for more. Everything about her was the same, but a little different. Her hips were a little wider and there was softness in her belly that hadn’t been there before. It just made her look more like a woman and less like a girl that I had known before. I couldn’t tell her no and I couldn’t get her off of my mind. She was just going to have to be mine whether she liked it or not. I just had to convince her of that.

  Moving to kiss her, I moved her body to the bed and rubbed the front of my thickness into her. As I climbed over her, I kissed and licked my way to her neck, stopping only to tease at the places that her bra and panties covered.

  “Greg.”

  She was saying it as a question and I didn’t know what it was that she wanted. Kissing her on the lips, I asked her what it was that she wanted, but Mandy was never good at communicating when she was horny and that hadn’t changed as well.

  “Tell me what it is that you want Mandy. I will give you anything that you want. All you have to do is ask. Do you know how long it is that I have been waiting for you? Anything you want that I can give you, I will.”

  Mandy was still not saying anything, but her hand went to my length and pulled it towards her. It was clear what she wanted, but there was something about wanting to hear her say it that was driving me to wait her out.

  Her eyes opened and she whimpered at me. It was just my name a couple of times in the sweetest voice that I had ever heard in my life. Finally she added please and I could no longer pretend that I didn’t know what it was that she wanted. What kind of man would I be if I didn’t give her what it was that she needed?

  CHAPTER 15

  MANDY

  “Please Greg. I need you.”

  It was all that I could manage with his fingers pulling my bra down and then his hot mouth on my nipples. I couldn’t think when he was touching me like that. It was when his mouth and hands got down to my panties that I really started to get nervous. There was one thing that Greg did better than anyone else I had ever been with after him and I couldn’t get him down there fast enough.

  My hand went to the thick brown hair on his head and I whined when he resisted me. “Tell me what it is that you want Mandy. I want to hear you say it.”

  His patience and control had always been the bane of my existence. I think that he took pleasure in making me go a little crazy and it was one of those times that I found myself in. I wanted to be clear of my needs, but it was embarrassing to even think about saying such a thing out loud. It was unheard of to say the least.

  “Please Greg. You know what I want.”

  The man knew my body better than I knew it myself. I knew that there was no way that he wasn’t taking the hint. Why did he have to torture me in such a way?

  He chuckled and seemed to take it into consideration before he shook his head. “I want you to kiss her baby.”

  He gave me another grin and chortling sound before he leaned down and stripped the panties off and pulled them off of my legs. “All you wanted was a kiss? You should have said something sooner.”

  Leaning down, he kissed the slippery button of my desires quickly and I groaned at the feeling. He knew that he was driving me crazy and when he pulled back up without doing anymore, I was ready to force him to do my bidding, the need so great inside of me. “Greg, you know what it is that I want. Please.”

  Moving down he licked her again and instead of messing with me, he finally grabbed me around the waist and pulled me to him. I whimpered and then called out when I felt the soft flick of his tongue. It felt so good and I closed my eyes to the pleasure. Greg always knew exactly what it was that I needed. It didn’t take long for my completion to come over me so swiftly that I was finding it hard to breathe.

  Greg stopped and looked down at me. When I opened my eyes, my body was shaking. “Promise me that you won’t leave me again Mandy. I can’t go on without you anymore.”

  I didn’t know what to say. He knew that I couldn’t think like this and I didn’t know why he was making it so hard on me. “Please Greg.”

  “Promise me.”

  Closing my eyes, I tried to calm my mind that was racing and trying to figure out the words that he kept asking. All I could come up with was his name and a whine telling him that I needed him to finish me off. Instead of giving me what I wanted though, Greg got off of the bed and started to undress. He was full and ready, my eyes taking it all in and I was lost with the look on his face. I wasn’t the only one in need and I hoped that over the years his determination had waned some. He had always had quite a bit of self-control, far more than I ever had.

  “Just tell me that you won’t leave me again Mandy. You don’t know what that did to me.”

  I wanted to say what it was that he wanted to hear, because I knew that there was nowhere else that I would want to be but in bed with him. I shook my head that I wouldn’t leave him, hopeful that it would be enough. My eyes were glued between our two bodies and his own hard length rubbing against me.

  Maybe the movement was enough or he was sick of waiting as well because Greg surged forward in one sure movement and I was left gasping for breath. It had been too long since I had been with anyone, but there was always something about the way that Greg had felt inside of me. It was like I was personally made just for him or him for me. Nothing had changed in that sense and he was pulling out and sliding back in quickly seconds from starting. Everything with Greg had been overwhelming and this time was no different. From waiting so long and being pulled from the edge moments before, it didn’t take long before I was wrapping my arms around his neck and crying out in his ear.

  “I’ve missed the way you sounded when you came and the way it feels.”

  I was wetter and he started to slip into me quicker and deeper than before. It was enough to make me go right into the next orgasm quicker than the first one. One was never enough for Greg. He would give me one after another and I don’t really know if he tried to do that or if it was just what happened.

  He said dirty things in my ear as he pulled away from my lips, telling me
how good I felt and how long it had been since he had felt something so perfect. The words themselves were as damaging to my senses as he continuous pounding. Closing my eyes, I concentrated on the feel of him going in and out of me at a quickened pace. It was better than I could have imagined and before too long, I was ready to lose myself once more.

  “I’m going to come, Mandy. I can’t take it anymore.”

  My mind went to the fact that we didn’t have a condom on and I panicked a little bit. I didn’t want to have another worry, but Greg was not having anything other than what he wanted. Before I could say anything, he was pressing deeper and then I could feel his hot need shoot inside of me. It was final and there was nothing that I could do about it. I was about to explode myself and the added heat only made it worse.

  I met his gaze for the first time in a while and again the green depths were seconds from consuming me as his body just had. But with Greg that was never enough. I knew now that he wanted all of me, not just my body. He wanted my soul and my mind and I knew then that he was more worried about those last two, then the first one. It was relieving to see that even after all of that stress and drama, he was still able to forgive me and find a place in his life for me and for Alfie. I knew that the latter deserved it more than I did.

  “Why won’t you promise me that Mandy? Take me out of my misery and promise me that this is permanent.”

  There wasn’t much to know what he meant by this and permanent. I wasn’t sure what this was that was happening between us. He was out of my life for all of those years and now that he was back, I didn’t know what was going to happen next. We had just slept together, the man literally still inside of me and he was asking about permanence. I wasn’t sure that I knew what it was that I was doing, let alone putting we in front of it. I was confused and way more overwhelmed than I was willing to admit. I needed time to think, but I knew that it wasn’t going to happen with him throbbing inside of me, starting to get hard again before I had had one moment to actually think about anything.