BOMAW 4-6

by Mercedes Keyes

  "Son... when they get you, you come back here with them, you hear me? Come back here... don't go home!"

  "We'll see." Jake hung up. He walked back across the hall and sat on the wood bench and waited. Nodding off and hearing the gunshot blast as he did, waking him back up. He was struggling not to cry again, feeling even more alone than ever before. Nodding on and off, he finally heard Shawn's voice calling him.

  "Jake! We're here man, we're here!"

  Jake looked up and saw him standing over him, immediately he crumbled into tears, "Man... I fucked up the worst ever this time Shawn... the worst ever... and... ain't shit can be done to undo it! Nothing Shawn... you can't fix this!"

  Shawn knelt before him, "You listen to me... look at me!"

  Jake was back to rocking and shaking his head, trying to focus through his tears.

  "We've been through some real shit... haven't we?"

  Jake nodded, but then said, "Nothing like this Shawn... nothing like this. I wish she'd shot me instead... she should have shot my ass! I've never been good for shit anyway... you know that!"

  "Aye Jake... that's not true!" Shawn felt his eyes fill with tears as Derrick sat down next to Jake and pulled him in under his arm. "That's bullshit Jake... that's bullshit! We're here for you... all of us." Derrick backed Shawn.

  Mundo stood back trying to fight his own emotions to see him this way.

  "Jake... you're gonna get up from here. We're going to take you by your place and get you some clothes, then you're coming home with me... understand?" Shawn ordered.

  "I just... I just wanna be alone."

  "Sorry... not this time. Let's go!" Shawn stood. "Come on." Jake came to his feet and walked out with his brothers and Mundo around him. They climbed in the SUV and headed for his place as he told them bits and pieces of reflections leading up to that day. They quietly listened to him, touched him when he needed it, and talked him out of the crazy talk leading to a horrible depression. They could see it coming, right on the doorstep of his 40th birthday. Soon they pulled up to his lot where he lived, and around the curves that brought them up on his mobile home and Shawn stopped and stared and could not believe his eyes.

  There was nothing but a burned out shell. Someone had burned his place down.

  Jake sat back and started laughing, "Well... let's go find my truck next... it was left at Doris'."

  Solemnly, they made the short journey to Doris' home and there Jake's truck sat, totally destroyed. All the windows broken out, and it too had been set on fire.

  Shawn and Derrick looked at him as he sat aware that right then, he had nothing. Everything of his possessions had been destroyed, he was now homeless.

  "Ah well... finally... my true worth stands before me."

  "Stop it Jake... your life is not over... in fact, I think it's just beginning. You can look at this two ways, and you should. All that you had and was, has now been erased, and on this shinning new slate... you get to control what's written there from now on." Shawn said, backing away from the truck.

  "That's easy for you to say Shawn... people like you. And those that don't, have the good sense to stay out of your way. You have a beautiful wife, a baby on the way, and a daughter who adores you, and two others that might as well be yours, Mundo and Crystal... all blue skies for you brother... all blue skies for you. Look at you Derrick... mom and dads perfect son... married with children... high school football coach. Here I sit, their third son... nothing to show... nothing to say.... nothing." He looked out the passenger window and wished for once he didn't have brothers, sisters and family... because he'd just like to wonder off and finish off the rest of his life as it stood now... no where.

  Chapter 92

  Wednesday Morning In Chicago...

  Sheila was still in her nightgown and robe, closing the door behind Dennis as he set off with the boys to drop them at school on his way to work. Cleaning up with Good Morning America playing on the t.v. in the background. She sulked a bit because Dennis reminded her again this morning to stay out of Jake's affairs, and not to be running to Vivian now that all would be out of the house. She made a face.

  "I do what I wanna do! If I want to! But - I ain't... not because you said I couldn't... but... because I don't want no shit!" She grumbled to herself, stacking the dishwasher and then the phone rang. She stood upright and turned to look at it, wondering who could it be? Sheila whimpered. "Leave me alone... I don't wanna know." She whined walking slowly to the phone, staring at it and finally picked it up on the fourth ring, reluctantly answering.

  "Hello?"

  "Sheila... everybody gone?"

  "Who is this?"

  "Edwina fool!"

  "Oh shit - I thought you was somebody important." Sheila sighed in relief.

  "Well excu-u-use the hell out of me! Now... I ain't tellin' yo' ass what I know!"

  "Ah shit! I ain't mean it that way girl! I meant, something else! What ... what you know? First... is it something I wanna to know? Or is it more bullshit!"

  "This baby girl... ain't no bullshit! This some sho'nuff real live crazy shit! That's why I need to know if you alone!"

  "Yeah... everybody gone."

  "I'm on my way there... I'll be there in about 30 minutes!"

  "I'll be here." Sheila sighed shaking her head hanging up the phone. "See Dennis you think I be going to look for shit to get into! Not! I just stay my ass at home, try to mind my own goddamn business...and shit... come to me. People must think I'm the Oprah Winfrey of shit! Bring the shit to me... if you got any shit to sort out! Don't matter what kind of shit it is... but the deeper the shit... the better. Don't like no boring shit... gotta be some exciting shit! Shit that make your eyes - get big! Shit that make you go hmmm? Shit that make you go... UH SHIT! What kind'ah shit is that? That's the shit I wanna hear about, she can keep the bullshit!" Sheila talked to herself finishing up the kitchen and leaving it to go upstairs, wash up and get dressed. Once she was dressed, she turned on all the t.v.'s in every room so the same thing was playing as she went from room to room cleaning. Her soaps would be on in a couple of hours... had to get the house cleaned first, and what she was cooking for dinner out of the freezer. She heard the trailer for Oprah's show, and couldn't help saying out, "Oprah girl - you ain't got shit on me! All yo' shit is lifestyle shit! I be dealing wit' real life shit!" Shaking her head, she made plans to check out her cook books and make something new. Before she finished cleaning the upstairs bathroom, the one the boys shared, the doorbell rang. "Mo' shit has arrived! I'm comin'!" She called out.

  Heading down the stairs to it, she opened the door to see a dancing with excitement Edwina, she had a brown paper bag, and walked in grinning like the Cheshire cat.

  "This shit better be important... and worth my goddamn time!"

  "Oh girlfriend... believe me ... it is. Follow me to your biggest t.v. with a DVD connected... which one?"

  "What? Why? What you got to show me?"

  "Something that's - gone - blow - your - ass away! Wait 'til you see this shit!"

  "Well what is it?" Sheila asked leading her to the basement where Dennis had his 32inch set up to watch his games. It was the largest t.v. in the house with a DVD connected.

  "You ain't expecting no body this morning are you? You bes' go lock the front and back doors... put the chain on'em ... 'cause we don't want nobody just walkin' in on this shit here."

  "Ah hell... what the hell is it? You got my ass curious as hell now."

  "Just go check the doors... you'll see why in a few... hurry up... I'mo set it up for you."

  Sheila ran up the steps breathless with excitement, rushing to the front door, making sure all the locks were on and the chain in place, she ran to the back and did the same. Her excitement growing as the seconds ticked by with her imagination going crazy over what it could be. She made it back down to the basement in record time. Sitting down in Dennis' favorite chair, she blew to catch her breath.

  "Okay... okay... all locked up. What is it?"

/>   "First... I got to set things up." Edwina dramatized with the remote in hand to the DVD, she already had the t.v. on as well the DVD - she just needed to prepare Sheila. "Do you recall, me telling you - me telling all of you at Sylvia's wedding, that I'd seen her ol'man before? Do you remember that? Do you remember - me sayin' - that I - I said I..." She dramatized her gestures as if she were in church preaching. "...never... never ever ever - forget... a motha'fucka's face... do you remember that?"

  "Dai - amn! Yeah I remember... you got on my nerves with that shit!"

  "Em hm, thought so. Well let me take you back... oh a little over twenty years or so back... back in the early 80's! You remember the 80's don't you?"

  "Girl - will you get on with it already!" Sheila snarled impatiently.

  "Hold on a minute goddammit! You stealing my thunder - shit! I'm proud of this goddamn discovery, you ain't robbin' me of this one - hold on goddammit - its worth the wait!"

  "Tell me something'... why do Negro's always got to drag shit out!? Make shit into a big ass production!? Just get on with the shit! Lose the drama already... just get to the point!"

  "Fine then! Feast your goddamn eyes on this shit here!" Edwina clicked the play button.

  "Wha - wait - what the - is this some goddamn porn?!"

  "Yes it is... now shet yo' ass up and watch!" Edwina instructed, then began a bit of narrating the scene being played out on the screen. "Girlfriend feelin' a little hot! Copin' a lil'feel! Ding dong... yeah baby... its the door... go answer it... that's right, open up the door, and let your visitors in... call down girlfriend from up stairs... you gone need some help with them two... yeah baby-..."

  "I don't wanna watch no goddamn porn Edwina... I ain't into that shit! I don't know what you bring this to me to watch for!"

  "Just take a closer look at the dudes... mainly speaking, the white boy... not the fine ass black man with him, but him... look at his young ass... and I do stress young! Notice anything - familiar about him?"

  "He cute and shit... hang on... what you trying to say?!" Sheila looked from the movie to Edwina.

  "Don't look at me, look at his ass! Look real close at his ass... tell me who you see!"

  Sheila looked back at the young man in the movie. He had shoulder length black hair, nice slender build, tone - fit.

  "I can't hear shit... why you got it turned down." Sheila asked staring at him.

  "You see it don't you?" Edwina asked.

  "I'on know... I ain't sure what I see... what are you trying to say?"

  "That - is Sylvia's husband Shawn! The man she just married!"

  "No way."

  "What you mean no way!? That's him... I'm telling you that is him!"

  "So this how you spend yo' goddamn time?! Watchin' porn!? You aught'ah be ashamed of yo' goddamn self - get a goddamn life already!!" Sheila fussed, watching him with her heart pounding, although the man she stared at was much younger, it only took a few moments for the features to come clear, she cut the hair away in her mind, she added a beard and mustache and bulked him up, filled him out.

  "Shit I got a goddamn life! Lil'porn on the side, spice things up... don't hurt! That's beside the point, tell me that ain't him goddammit... you know that shit is straight up! That's him ... now... I'm gone give you sound... once you hear his voice... you gone know." She clicked the mute button off. And Shawn's voice was unmistakable.

  "Ah shit!" Sheila gasped low.

  "Okay! Okay! Shi - i - it! Don't tell me nothing goddammit! I never forget a face! That ain't nothing, lemme' fast forward to the action!" She fast forwarded it, stopped it and then clicked play.

  "Oh my god! OH SHIT!!!" Sheila stood up covering her mouth as Edwina leapt up and down laughing and snapping her fingers excited because she knew it was blowing Sheila away.

  "Look at his ass! Look at his DICK! GIRL! That's why Sylvia married his goddamn ass!! I got six of his movies with the black dude.... and two with him alone... that's every goddamn one of'em! Shit! Look as his sweet ass go... his ass moving like a fiddlers elbow - shit if he ain't HOT - and that's a young man doing the action there baby! I been lookin' at'em for two days now! Still can't stop lookin', I can't believe this shit!"

  "Turn it off!"

  "What? Why?!"

  "'Cause it's wrong... girl I can't believe it! TURN IT OFF!!" Sheila shouted.

  "Shit this still ain't nothing... wait till you see what I got!" Edwina bragged clicking the Disc off.

  "Take that shit out of my player right now... I don't want that shit in my house! We don't watch no porn here... don't want it here!"

  "You ain't got to worry about that... I wasn't leaving it no way! This here one of my PRIZE possessions!" Edwina went over after ejecting it to put the disc back in the holder and then into her purse. "As I was saying, this ain't all! Pick up that bag right there and pull out the package." Edwina instructed with that same pussy cat grin.

  Sheila picked it up, and pulled out the content to be face with a massive phallus.

  "AAAH IT'S A DICK!!!" She yelled and tossed it across the basement, jumping up shaking her hands and having a fit. "Oh shit! Oh shit! Why ain't you tell me it was a dick!?"

  Edwina was laughing with tears rolling down her cheeks as she went to where Sheila had thrown it and picked it up. "Damn Sheila, you act like you ain't never handled a dick before! Don't be tossing this dick around... this a special dick! This ain't no any dick!"

  "Get that dick out'ah my house!" Sheila stood back grimacing at the sight of it.

  "Hey... as much as I paid for it... you better believe its going with me. Look at it Sheila... look how thick this sonofabitch is! This is one - thick ass dick! Guess whose it is?"

  "I don't wanna know who's dick it is... just get it out of my house!"

  "SHAWN'S!" She paused at Sheila's expression, "Em hm, I ain't lying... this is his shit! Its on three of the video's advertising it. Showing him laying up getting a mold of it done! I watched that too goddamnit! Besides... you saw it in action! I can't believe this shit girl! Look at this!" Edwina gasped, looking at it in the package.

  "You know what - you a freak! Not just any kind of freak, you a goddamn super-freak - need to be yo'ass off with Rick James somewhere - keep all you freaks together!!"

  "Shit - ain't nothin' wrong with a lil'freaky - shit... you know it, and Mr. McPherson, just a freak like me! Ain't nothin' to be ashamed of."

  "That is Sylvia's husband... obviously, its shit from his past! As you could see, he was young in that! You see any of him now!?"

  "No! But all his merchandise out there for sale! Including thousands of this dick! I done bought it and now it's mine."

  "What you done bought, belongs to Sylvia!" Sheila reminded her.

  "Hey... she got the real deal but I got the best of both world's! I get the feel, but I don't have to cook it breakfast!"

  "So what you mean by that? Ain't yo' ol'man got one? Hell, I will admit, its mighty impressive... but Dennis dick bigger than that."

  "You a goddamn lie! Is it really?"

  "YEAH! I ain't got to lie! It's longer and... well ... not quite that thick... but its more than I need."

  "Shit... don't nobody want no overly long ass dick no way... I want it thick! Like this one right here! This what I'm talkin'bout!"

  "You still aint' said what you gone do with it?" Sheila asked with her arms crossed over her breasts.

  "I'mo keep it! What you think, I paid 45.00 dollars for it - its mine now!"

  "You went and bought that - knowing that its Sylvia's husbands... you knew that!"

  "Damn straight I did... it was for sale... I had the money... its now - mine."

  "That's wrong! You know you wrong! How you gone do some shit like that? What if it was your man... how would you like that shit?"

  "First of all... my man ain't got no dick like this! He one of them black men that didn't quite make it to the dick bank in time - all they had left was that lil'mofo' he be tryin' to use on me! Second of all, I'm tired of his ass anyway!
I need more action than his ass dealing out, forget that!"

  "So what is you saying? What all of that got to do with her man? Umm, wait... put that away please before you answer, I'm tired of looking at it!"

  Edwina walked over, grabbed the bag it came out of, kissed the phallus, saying - "Me and you got a date later baby." and slipped it back inside. Sheila shook her head in disgust. Edwina sat on the small love seat and turned to Sheila looking up at her with an expression Sheila didn't care for, asking next. "Is she back home yet?"

  "Who?" Sheila asked.

  "Sylvia? She bring her ass back home yet?"

  "Don't worry about when she gone bring her ass home, what that got to do with you?!" Sheila asked with her hand going to her hip.

  "I'm thinking about going up there and seeing if he and the kids are okay. Just a friendly gesture. You think she know he did porn? You think he still do? Maybe that's how he make his money... doing porn. He still look good as hell, I know that... matter of fact, he better looking now than back then. If he was doing all that shit then, wonder what he do now?"

  "First... don't know if she know. Second, I highly doubt that he still do. Third - get the fuck up out of my house! 'Cause yo' ass got me sick to my stomach! I can't believe you contemplatin' this kind of shit! Against Sylvia! What kind of shit is that!?"

  "She ain't never been that close to me!"

  "Well she been that close to me goddammit! Ain't no way, you gone sit in my house, and tell me you making plans in your head to go fuck my girlfriends husband - 'cause you got a big dick on yo'mind! That's just the kind of shit - I don't wanna have nothing to do with! So grab all your lil'toys and shit... and get your ass up out'o'here! You got me thinking about yo' ass now! One more thing... you take your stupid ass up there trying to get that man, you gone fool around and get your feelings hurt! I can tell you right now - that man is in love! And it ain't with yo'ass - that's for sure."

  "I see how you gone be! I come here and share this with you and you gone dis'me! Shit... its every woman for her goddamn self! Sylvia so stupid to leave a man like that - shit - you don't get no man like that... and walk away leaving his ass unattended! I might as well try my hand, if he meant that much to her - she would be home." Edwina turned her nose up in the air, made her way up the steps to Sheila's front door and exited.