Connor
We're just about to go on stage and do our first show and all I can think about is Allie. I can hear the crowd screaming and chanting from where I stand backstage. I haven't seen or spoke to her since I put my size ten foot in it earlier. I was going to go after her but Johnny convinced me that I had to let her calm down. I shouldn't of said I only had her in that storage room because I had my reason's, I mean I did have my reason's mainly because I was in a jealous rage because of that fucker Kyle trying to make a move on what's mine but that's not the point. I went about dealing with the whole situation the wrong way, and I now see I have some major groveling to do and an explanation to give or she may never speak to me again let alone let me in her bed again.
"You ready to give the crowd what they want?" Clint shout's above the music coming from the opening band who are currently on the stage.
"Yep." I shrug not arsed if I went out there or not. I have bigger problem's right now and she's rapidly becoming more important to me than any of this. Don't get me wrong I love what I do and I'm very grateful for all our loyal fan's who have stuck with us, but right now I feel sick and I'm actually shitting myself... actually no make that I'm petrified in case she walk's away from me.
Jesus if only Johnny could hear my thought's he'd rip me a new one and call me a pussy!
I'm being poked and prodded by Chloe our sound tech who's wiring me up with my Inner Ear Monitor's when I hear laughter behind me and I'd know that cackle anywhere and I stiffen immediately.
It's Vanessa.
What the actual fuck?
I turn around about to give her a piece of my mind and ask how the hell she got in here and why the fuck she's here in the first place, when she walk's right up to me and plant's her overly made up sucker fish lip's on mine.
And I shit you not, the timing couldn't of been any worse because as I'm trying push her off me I look up and see Allie over Vanessa's shoulder. She's stood staring at me her eye's look glassy with unshed tear's.
Vanessa noticing my attention is elsewhere and not on her, she turn's and face's Allie and give's her an evil snigger before saying.. "Want to join in with us? Although I'm pretty sure my gorgeous man Connor here is a little too wild for a little girl like you, so it's best if you probably just run along now."
I don't miss the way she emphasizes the word... my as if I'm her piece of property.
I look from Vanessa back to Allie but she's already turning around and I think she's about to run off.
"Fuck off Vanessa." I spit in venom as I push her to one side at the same time Allie bolt's in the opposite direction.
Fuuccckkkkk!
*****
Follow your dreams
Believe in yourself
And don't give up
Chapter 24
Allie
Just how stupid am'I? Don't answer that, I already know... You stupid... stupid girl Allie.
And there I was prepared to go and talk to him and hear him out but the minute my back is turned he's in the arm's of some big boobed bimbo.
After I walked away from him this afternoon I went back to my room showered and phoned Karina, that was when I broke down and told her everything that had been going on between me and Connor right up until I left him in that corridor today.
To say she was shocked would be a bloody understatement. She squealed and screamed with excitement but then once she calmed down she demanded I tell her all the detail's and she was excited and happy for me till I told her about what he said today, after that there were a lot of F-bomb's and some other unsavory word's coming from her mouth that even shocked the shit out of me. Once she got all that out of her system, sensible thinking Karina kicked in and she told me to chill out and listen to what he had to say because there had to be some reasonable explanation. If there wasn't she said she'd come over here just to kick his arse. And she would.
Now I know he's not so sweet and innocent but the fact that it's not even been six hour's since we had our tiff and he's in the arm's of this slut with her cheap red lipstick all over his mouth.
Well it hurt's like a bitch... it hurt's more than it should, especially for two people who are just supposed to be having fun!
And I realize all of this whilst I'm sat on my arse, in the dark, and in the exact same cleaning cupboard I was in getting my freak on with the man whore. I don't know how I ended up in here it was like I went on autopilot I saw him with the tramp and ran, I bolted in the first door I came too. The irony that it was this cleaning cupboard I ended up in isn't lost on me.
"Allieeeeeee?"
Oh shit, he followed me. Maybe if I wait it out he'll go back to the staging area because he's due on stage before me.
"Allie Angel where are you?"
I sit on the floor hugging my knee's hoping he will just go away when I hear the click of heel's coming along the corridor outside the door.
I cringe and hold my breath when I hear the tramps purring voice "Connor baby there you are, I thought I'd lost you again."
Again? Are they together? Has he been lying to me this whole time? What is she to him?
"I've told you once Vanessa, I won't tell you again now fuck off, I don't want you here I thought you'd get that from all the phone call's and text's I've ignored from you, now do us all a favor and go back to whatever hole you've crawled out of because I need to find Allie."
From this side of the door I know he's pissed off by the way he's spitting his word's at her and I'm positive if this Vanessa wasn't a woman then he would of put her on her arse by now.
Sitting here and listening to him speak to her like that and the panic I heard in his voice when he was trying to find me make's me want to go out there and give her a piece of my mind, because it's clear to me now that he can't stand her and she's just some cheap groupie tart looking to make her way up the fame food chain.
I suppose I can listen to what he's got to say, give him a chance to explain.
Getting up from the floor I dust myself off and wipe away the few tear's that managed to leak out with the back of my hand, I straighten my shoulder's, lift my head high and yank the door open with more force than I thought I was capable of thinking, shit I could have took it off it's hinges.
I need to direct this anger on the pouty tramp!
I stand in the doorway and they both turn to look at me, Connor step's toward's me.
"Allie Baby..." He trail's off and stop's moving when I hold my hand out to stop him.
The tramp just stand's there with a smug smile on her face... yeah well it won't be there when I've said what I've got say to her.
I walk right up to her and before I know it my right hand just comes flying out from nowhere and it smack's her right across her face and before she even has time to react, I grab a hand full off her poured out of the bottle bleached blonde hair and drag her down so she's level with me and give her a few choice word's of my own.
The look on her face is priceless. I might be small but that doesn’t mean I can't hold my own!
"You listen to me you cheap whore and you listen good, now Connor's told you too fuck off he doesn't want you here and whatever you think you had with him was nothing more than something to pass up his time. He's not your's not now or will he ever be... now be a good girl and click them ridiculous heel's your wearing out of here before I get security to throw you out on your arse!"
I let go of her hair and she stumble's on her heel's and falls flat on her arse.
"Connor... are you just going to let her talk to me like that? Who does she think she is anyway?" She says whilst trying to get back up on her feet, stumbling slightly as she does. "I've got more right be here than her, tell her Connor."
Connor just looks at me with his mouth wide open as if he's catching fly's and then looks back at Vanessa with a massive grin on his face.
"Actually Vanessa, she's a dancer on the tour, so no you don't. You have no right whatsoever to be here, now I'm asking you nicely... fuck off."
I go to turn and walk away leaving them to whatever it is that... that was.
But then I stop.
Watch this bitch!
"You coming rock star? We have a show to do." I throw at him over my shoulder as I head back toward's the stage adrenaline still flowing through my body. What I just did is so unlike me, I haven't got a friggin clue what just came over me. It was like I was having an outer body experience. My instinct telling me I had to protect him.
Karina would be proud of me.
*****
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
Chapter 25
Connor
Oh wow... I think I'm still in shock.
Don't get me wrong the thrill I always's get when I'm on that stage, it's indescribable, the fan's screaming and singing my song's back at me is unbelievable but right now I'm so pumped up on pride with the way Allie handled Vanessa. I mean that could have gone a totally different way. I know I should of stopped her because Vanessa isn't Allie's problem. She's mine. It's my fault she's around and attempting to screw with whatever it is I have with my Angel. I really thought that when she bolted that she wasn't coming back and that thought petrified me and proper put the willies up me!
When she opened that door to where she had been hiding I really thought she was going to feed me my ball's and leave but no she shocked the shit out of me, by aiming straight for Vanessa and handing her arse to her on a silver bloody platter. I haven't had a chance to talk to Allie and explain to her about everything yet because we've been on stage for the last ninety minute's and now I can't find her again. As I stand back stage getting congratulated for a fantastic first show, I nod and say an automatic –thank you- but I'm not one bit interested all I want is her. I need to find her. Make sure she's ok. Make sure we're ok.
"That was fucking awesome brother you coming to celebrate?" Johnny laugh's as he slap's me on the back.
Not turning to look at him instead keeping my eye's on all the people milling about backstage trying to see if I can spot Allie in the sea of people I shrug.
"Maybe in a bit dude I need to speak to Allie".
"Arrhhh you want get a little celebratory freak on do you?" He say's giving my shoulder a shove and laughing.
Although that would be bloody awesome right now I just need to talk to her. Plus I doubt that's the first thing Allie wants when she sees me.
"I'm not sure if me and Allie will be getting any sort of freak on ever again dude." I tell him.
"Why? What did you do this time?"
Even though he's right to presume it was me who did something I still laugh at him...
"Now why would you think it was me who did something wrong?" Feigning shock that he would think it was my fault.
"Seriously fucknut you have to ask that question? How long have I known you Con?"
He's met with silence because I really don't have a comeback to that. So I give him the one word that will instantly make him understand.
"Vanessa!" I say.
"Oh fuckety fuck!" He gasps clearly now getting why I'm not Allie's favourite person right now.
"What did that nasty bitch do now?" He question's.
A nasty bitch is putting it mildly. I swear the woman has a screw loose or all the bleach she throw's on her hair has damaged her brain cells somehow because no normal person would do the things she's done and there is no way is she a natural blonde like my Allie.
There I go again referring to her has mine what is wrong with me? Shaking my thought's away I finally answer him.
"She's been phoning and texting me for week's and I've avoided her like the plague but somehow the sneaky bitch came all the way out here and managed to get her skanky arse backstage. Probably flashed her boobs at the bouncer." He goes to say something but I cut him off and carry on.
"Anyway about fifteen minute's before we were due to go on stage I was getting my ear's plugged in when I heard a screeching laugh and before I had time to react and ask what the fuck she was doing here, she literally threw herself at me and planted her lip's to mine just as Allie came around the corner and saw the whole thing."
"Oh wow... your so screwed dude."
"It get's better." I tell him.
"What do you mean it get's better? Unless your going tell me that Allie put that crazy bitch in her place then I don't see how it can get any better douchebag."
Laughing at him because he's just hit the nail on the head I look at him with raised eyebrow's till it click's in that's exactly what I was going to tell him.
"What? No way? Allie actually give that bitch what for? Oh wow I think I'm in shock she doesn't seem like the type of a girl who would open a can of whoop ass on someone. Damn what I wouldn't have given to be a fly on the wall when that shit went down, I love a good catfight." He sounds wounded that he actually missed it all.
"Neither did I but she did, she shocked the shit out of me I tell you." I say whilst laughing at disappointment written all over his face.
I love a good catfight myself but I wasn't going tell him that or Allie for that matter. It wasn't the time nor the place, and I'm already treading on thin ice with her.
Just as I finish telling Johnny the rest of the detail's to Vanessa's ass whooping the little blonde devil Allie come's out of nowhere with a bottle of water and a towel in her hand's.
She stop's right in front of me and smile's at me which totally throw's me off balance because I wasn't expecting it, I was expecting a round off fuck you's and a slap to the face but I'm getting neither and now I'm even more confused.
"Angel?" I say testing the water's to see where I stand with her.
"Hey rock star." I hear her say before she comes at me and kisses me on the lips. I wasn't expecting that. "Sorry I ran off straight after I finished I was dying for a drink... and a pee." She say's as she drink's from her water bottle and even that she make's look sexy as hell.
Oh my god I've got serious problems.
She's standing in front of me her body glistening in sweat from dancing whilst drinking water and I'm getting turned on by it. Shifting slightly so neither her or Johnny notice the semi I have going on in my jean's I reach out and tuck a strand of her hair behind her ear that's fallen out of her ponytail she's had in for the show.
"Hey Rocky." Johnny say's laughing at his own little joke.
"You bloody told him?" She glare's at me but I see the slight grin she's trying hide.
I shrug not sure what to say but as usual Johnny save's my arse.
"Look Rocky I'm not sticking up for butt munch here but when we came of stage he couldn't find you and he was worried, so he told me what happened but in all honesty girl... that bitch had it coming, I only wish it had happened sooner and that I was there to see her being knocked down a peg or two, so good on you for giving her what she deserved I know I'm proud of you so god know's how he's feeling." He say's as he punches me in the arm and walk's away leaving just us two together, staring at each other neither one of us not knowing what to say.
"So.... so much for keeping us two quiet ay?" I joke hoping she see's the funny side.
"Yeah well that bitch wouldn't take no for an answer and I know you didn't want her here because I heard you when I was in the cupboard." She tell's me sheepishly her eye's lowering to her feet as she scuff's the floor with her shoe seeming embarrassed that she overheard a conversation she wasn't supposed to.
Needing to touch her somehow, I put my thumb and forefinger on her chin and raise her head so I can see her eye's. Hoping like hell that what she see's in my eyes reassures her.
"No one has ever stuck up for me like that so don't you even dare be ashamed or embarrassed about what you did Angel." My voice turning serious.
"Ok I appreciate that... it's just I didn't like it and I'm not a jealous person normally and the way she spoke to you as if she owned you, well I just saw red that is not something I would normally do." She rushes her word's as if she's trying get
me to understand her explanation.
"No need to explain I get it, I do honestly I let my jealousy get the better of me earlier and look where that got me?"
She look's at me with confusion written all over her gorgeous face.
"Earlier on when you got pissed at me and walked off for what I said... well I didn't word it right I put my big foot in my mouth before I even thought about what I was saying or how it might sound to you."
Running my hand through my sweaty messed up hair I try to put the word's I want to say together in my head before I say them out loud this time. So I take my time as I say...
"Ok... so I'm just going to throw this out there and if I'm out of order just tell me because this... whatever this is between us is all new to me and I'm not used to having feeling's like this." I say meaning every word because for once in my life I have something good, and I have no intention of screwing this up but it doesn't mean I'm not terrified that I will fuck this up at some point. Because I will make mistakes I'm not going lie, it's all new to me so please can you bare with me?"
She just stands there among the chaos of the after show clean up, roadie's putting equipment away who aren't exactly quiet. Deciding I need to do this properly and not where there are potential lurker's ready to jump out and take picture's with their mobile phone's, I take her hand and start speed walking towards the exit desperate to get her alone, and as I expected she resists and yank's her hand out of mine and stop's walking.
Bloody stubborn woman!
"Connor what are doing? Where are we going? We can't just leave, everyone is waiting for you in the greenroom, you've just finished your first show... and... She's nervous again god knows why. Maybe she doesn't want the guys thinking she's the reason I haven't shown up.
Sighing because the woman's bloody right but desperate to have her all to myself I walk back to her putting my hand's on either side of her face and tilting her head so she can see the seriousness of what I'm about to say to her.
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