The Weird of the White Wolf

by Michael Moorcock

  Behind him, the last reaver ships flared into sud­den appalling brightness and, although half-thankful that they had escaped the fate of their comrades, the crew looked at Elric accusingly. He sobbed on, not heeding them, great griefs racking his soul.

  A night later, off the coast of an island called Pan Tang, when the ship was safe from the dreadful re­criminations of the Dragon Masters and their beasts, Elric stood brooding in the stern while the men eyed him with fear and hatred, muttering of betrayal and heartless cowardice. They appeared to have forgot­ten their own fear and subsequent safety.

  Elric brooded, and he held the black runesword in his two hands. Stormbringer was more than an ordi­nary battle-blade, this he had known for years, but now he realised that it was possessed of more sen­tience than he had imagined. The frightful thing had used its wielder and had made Elric destroy Cymoril. Yet he was horribly dependent upon it; he realised this with soul-rending certainty. But he feared and resented the sword's power—hated it bit­terly for the chaos it had wrought in his brain and spirit. In an agony of uncertainty he held the blade in his hands and forced himself to weigh the factors involved. Without the sinister sword, he would lose pride—perhaps even life—but he might know the soothing tranquillity of pure rest; with it he would have power and strength—but the sword would guide him into a doom-racked future. He would sa­vour power—but never peace.

  He drew a great, sobbing breath and, blind mis­giving influencing him, threw the sword into the moon-drenched sea.

  Incredibly, it did not sink. It did not even float on the water. It fell point forwards into the sea and stuck there, quivering as if it were embedded in tim­ber. It remained throbbing in the water, six inches of its blade immersed, and began to give off a weird devil-scream—a howl of horrible malevolence.

  With a choking curse Elric stretched out his slim, whitely gleaming hand, trying to recover the sen­tient hellblade. He stretched further, leaning far out over the rail. He could not grasp it—it lay some feet from him, still. Gasping, a sickening sense of defeat overwhelming him, he dropped over the side and plunged into the bone-chilling water, striking out with strained, grotesque strokes, towards the hovering sword. He was beaten—the sword had won.

  He reached it and put his fingers around the hilt. At once it settled in his hand and Elric felt strength seep slowly back into his aching body. Then he real­ised that he and the sword were interdependent, for though he needed the blade, Stormbringer, parasitic, required a user—without a man to wield it, the blade was also powerless.

  “We must be bound to one another then,” Elric murmured despairingly. “Bound by hell-forged chains and fate-haunted circumstance. Well, then—let it be thus so—and men will have cause to tremble and flee when they hear the names of Elric of Melni­bone and Stormbringer, his sword. We are two of a kind—produced by an age which has deserted us. Let us give this age cause to hate us!”

  Strong again, Elric sheathed Stormbringer and the sword settled against his side; then, with powerful strokes, he began to swim towards the island while the men he left on the ship breathed with relief and speculated whether he would live or perish in the bleak waters of that strange and nameless sea ...

  Book Two

  While The Gods Laugh

  I, while the gods laugh, the world's vortex am;

  Maelstrom of passions in that hidden sea

  Whose waves of all-time lap the coasts of me,

  And in small compass the dark waters cram.

  Mervyn Peake, Shapes and Sounds, 1941.

  Chapter One

  One night, as Elric sat moodily drinking alone in a tavern, a wingless woman of Myyrrhn came gliding out of the storm and rested her lithe body against him.

  Her face was thin and frail-boned, almost as white as Elric's own albino skin, and she wore flimsy pale-green robes which contrasted well with her dark red hair.

  The tavern was ablaze with candle-flame and alive with droning argument and gusty laughter, but the words of the woman of Myyrrhn came clear and liq­uid, carrying over the zesty din.

  “I have sought you twenty days,” she said to Elric who regarded her insolently through hooded crim­son eyes and lazed in a high-backed chair; a silver wine-cup in his long-fingered right hand and his left on the pommel of his sorcerous runesword Storm­bringer.

  “Twenty days,” murmured the Melnibonean softly, speaking as if to himself; deliberately rude. “A long time for a beautiful and lonely woman to be wander­ing the world.” He opened his eyes a trifle wider and spoke to her directly: “I am Elric of Melnibone, as you evidently know. I grant no favours and ask none. Bearing this in mind, tell me why you have sought me for twenty days.”

  Equably, the woman replied, undaunted by the albino's supercilious tone. “You are a bitter man, Elric; I know this also—and you are grief-haunted for rea­sons which are already legend. I ask you no fa­vours—but bring you myself and a proposition. What do you desire most in the world?”

  “Peace,” Elric told her simply. Then he smiled ironically and said: “I am an evil man, lady, and my destiny is hell-doomed, but I am not unwise, nor un­fair. Let me remind you a little of the truth. Call this legend if you prefer—I do not care.

  “A woman died a year ago, on the blade of my trusty sword.” He patted the blade sharply and his eyes were suddenly hard and self-mocking. “Since then I have courted no woman and desired none. Why should I break such secure habits? If asked, I grant you that I could speak poetry to you, and that you have a grace and beauty which moves me to in­teresting speculation, but I would not load any part of my dark burden upon one as exquisite as you. Any relationship between us, other than formal, would necessitate my unwilling shifting of part of that burden.” He paused for an instant and then said slowly: “I should admit that I scream in my sleep sometimes and am often tortured by incommunicable self-loathing. Go while you can, lady, and forget Elric for he can bring only grief to your soul.”

  With a quick movement he turned his gaze from her and lifted the silver wine-cup, draining it and re­plenishing it from a jug at his side.

  “No,” said the wingless woman of Myyrrhn calmly, “I will not. Come with me.”

  She rose and gently took Elric's hand. Without knowing why, Elric allowed himself to be led from the tavern and out into the wild, rainless storm which howled around the Filkharian city of Raschil. A protective and cynical smile hovered about his mouth as she drew him towards the sea-lashed quay-side where she told him her name. Shaarilla of the Dancing Mist, wingless daughter of a dead necro­mancer—a cripple in her own strange land, and an outcast.

  Elric felt uncomfortably drawn to this calm-eyed woman who wasted few words. He felt a great surge of emotion well within him; emotion he had never thought to experience again, and he wanted to take her finely moulded shoulders and press her slim body to his. But he quelled the urge and studied her marble delicacy and her wild hair which flowed in the wind about her head.

  Silence rested comfortably between them while the chaotic wind howled mournfully over the sea. Here, Elric could ignore the warm stink of the city and he felt almost relaxed. At last, looking away from him towards the swirling sea, her green robe curling in the wind, she said: “You have heard, of course, of the Dead Gods' Book?”

  Elric nodded. He was interested, despite the need he felt to disassociate himself as much as possible from his fellows. The mythical book was believed to contain knowledge which could solve many problems that had plagued men for centuries—it held a holy and mighty wisdom which every sorcerer desired to sample. But it was believed destroyed, hurled into the sun when the Old Gods were dying in the cosmic wastes which lay beyond the outer reaches of the so­lar system. Another legend, apparently of later origin, spoke vaguely of the dark ones who had in­terrupted the Book's sunward coursing and had stolen it before it could be destroyed. Most scholars discounted this legend, arguing that, by this time, the book would have come to light if it did still ex­ist.

  Elric mad
e himself speak flatly so that he appeared to be disinterested when he answered Shaa­rilla. “Why do you mention the Book?”

  “I know that it exists,” Shaarilla replied intensely, “and I know where it is. My father acquired the knowledge just before he died. Myself—and the book—you may have if you will help me get it.”

  Could the secret of peace be contained in the book? Elric wondered. Would he, if he found it, be able to dispense with Stormbringer?

  “If you want it so badly that you seek my help,” he said eventually, “why do you not wish to keep it?”

  “Because I would be afraid to have such a thing perpetually in my custody—it is not a book for a woman to own, but you are possibly the last mighty nigromancer left in the world and it is fitting that you should have it. Besides, you might kill me to ob­tain it—I would never be safe with such a volume in my hands. I need only one small part of its wisdom.”

  “What is that?” Elric inquired, studying her patri­cian beauty with a new pulse stirring within him.

  Her mouth set and the lids fell over her eyes. “When we have the book in our hands—then you will have your answer. Not before.”

  “This answer is good enough,” Elric remarked quickly, seeing that he would gain no more informa­tion at that stage. “And the answer appeals to me.” Then, half before he realised it, he seized her shoul­ders in his slim, pale hands and pressed his colour­less lips to her scarlet mouth.

  Elric and Shaarilla rode westwards, towards the Silent Land, across the lush plains of Shazaar where their ship had berthed two days earlier. The border country between Shazaar and the Silent Land was a lonely stretch of territory, unoccupied even by peasant dwellings; a no-man's land, though fertile and rich in natural wealth. The inhabitants of Shazaar had deliberately refrained from extending their borders further, for though the dwellers in the Silent Land rarely ventured beyond the Marshes of the Mist, the natural borderline between the two lands, the inhabitants of Shazaar held their unknown neighbours in almost superstitious fear.

  The journey had been clean and swift, though ominous, with several persons who should have known nothing of their purpose warning the trav­ellers of nearing danger. Elric brooded, recognising the signs of doom but choosing to ignore them and communicate nothing to Shaarilla who, for her part, seemed content with Elric's silence. They spoke little in the day and so saved their breath for the wild love-play of the night.

  The thud of the two horses' hooves on the soft turf, the muted creak and clatter of Elric's harness and sword, were the only sounds to break the stillness of the clear winter day as the pair rode steadily, nearing the quaking, treacherous trails of the Marshes of the Mist.

  One gloomy night, they reached the borders of the Silent Land, marked by the marsh, and they halted and made camp, pitching their silk tent on a hill overlooking the mist-shrouded wastes.

  Banked like black pillows against the horizon, the clouds were ominous. The moon lurked behind them, sometimes piercing them sufficiently to send a pale tentative beam down on to the glistening marsh or its ragged, grassy frontiers. Once, a moonbeam glanced off silver, illuminating the dark silhouette of Elric, but, as if repelled by the sight of a living crea­ture on that bleak hill, the moon once again slunk behind its cloud-shield, leaving Elric thinking deeply. Leaving Elric in the darkness he desired.

  Thunder rumbled over distant mountains, sounding like the laughter of far-off Gods. Elric shivered, pulled his blue cloak more tightly about him, and continued to stare over the misted lowlands.

  Shaarilla came to him soon, and she stood beside him, swathed in a thick woollen cloak which could not keep out all the damp chill in the air.

  “The Silent Land,” she murmured. “Are all the sto­ries true, Elric? Did they teach you of it in old Melnibone?”

  Elric frowned, annoyed that she had disturbed his thoughts. He turned abruptly to look at her, staring blankly through his crimson-irised eyes for a mo­ment and then saying flatly:

  “The inhabitants are unhuman and feared. This I know. Few men ventured into their territory, ever. None have returned, to my knowledge. Even in the days when Melnibone was a powerful Empire, this was one nation my ancestors never ruled—nor did they desire to do so. The denizens of the Silent Land are said to be a dying race, far more evil than my ancestors ever were, who enjoyed dominion over the Earth long before men gained any sort of power. They rarely venture beyond the confines of their ter­ritory, nowadays, encompassed as it is by marshland and mountains.”

  Shaarilla laughed, then, with little humour. “So they are unhuman are they, Elric? Then what of my people, who are related to them? What of me, Elric?”

  “You're human enough for me,” replied Elric in­souciantly, looking her in the eyes. She smiled.

  “No compliment,” she said, “but I'll take it for one—until your glib tongue finds a better.”

  That night they slept restlessly and, as he had predicted, Elric screamed agonisingly in his turbu­lent, terror-filled sleep and he called a name which made Shaarilla's eyes fill with pain and jealousy. That name was Cymoril. Wide-eyed in his grim sleep, Elric seemed to be staring at the one he named, speaking other words in a sibilant language which made Shaarilla block her ears and shudder.

  The next morning, as they broke camp, folding the rustling fabric of the yellow silk tent between them, Shaarilla avoided looking at Elric directly but later, since he made no move to speak, she asked him a question in a voice which shook somewhat.

  It was a question which she needed to ask, but one which came hard to her lips. “Why do you desire the Dead Gods' Book, Elric? What do you believe you will find in it?”

  Elric shrugged, dismissing the question, but she repeated her words less slowly, with more insistence.

  “Very well then,” he said eventually. “But it is not easy to answer you in a few sentences. I desire, if you like, to know one of two things.”

  “And what is that, Elric?”

  The tall albino dropped the folded tent to the grass and sighed. His fingers played nervously with the pommel of his runesword. “Can an ultimate God exist—or not? That is what I need to know, Shaarilla, if my life is to have any direction at all.

  “The Lords of Law and Chaos now govern our lives. But is there some being greater than them?”

  Shaarilla put a hand on Elric's arm. “Why must you know?” she said.

  “Despairingly, sometimes, I seek the comfort of a benign God, Shaarilla. My mind goes out, lying awake at night, searching through black barrenness for something—anything—which will take me to it, warm me, protect me, tell me that there is order in the chaotic tumble of the universe; that it is consist­ent, this precision of the planets, not simply a brief, bright spark of sanity in an eternity of malevolent anarchy.”

  Elric sighed and his quiet tones were tinged with hopelessness. “Without some confirmation of the order of things, my only comfort is to accept the anarchy. This way, I can revel in chaos and know, without fear, that we are all doomed from the start—that our brief existence is both meaningless and damned. I can accept then, that we are more than forsaken, because there was never anything there to forsake us. I have weighed the proof, Shaarilla, and must be­lieve that anarchy prevails, in spite of all the laws which seemingly govern our actions, our sorcery, our logic. I see only chaos in the world. If the Book we seek tells me otherwise, then I shall gladly believe it. Until then, I will put my trust only in my sword and myself.”

  Shaarilla stared at Elric strangely. “Could not this philosophy of yours have been influenced by recent events in your past? Do you fear the consequences of your murder and treachery? Is it not more comfort­ing for you to believe in deserts which are rarely just?”

  Elric turned on her, crimson eyes blazing in anger, but even as he made to speak, the anger fled him and he dropped his eyes towards the ground, hood­ing them from her gaze.

  “Perhaps,” he said lamely. “I do not know. That is the only real truth, Shaarilla. I do not kn
ow.”

  Shaarilla nodded, her face lit by an enigmatic sym­pathy; but Elric did not see the look she gave him, for his own eyes were full of crystal tears which flowed down his lean, white face and took his strength and will momentarily from him.

  “I am a man possessed,” he groaned, “and without this devil-blade I carry I would not be a man at all.”

  Chapter Two

  They mounted their swift, black horses and spurred them with abandoned savagery down the hillside towards the Marsh, their cloaks whipping be­hind them as the wind caught them, lashing them high into the air. Both rode with set, hard faces, re­fusing to acknowledge the aching uncertainty which lurked within them.

  And the horses' hooves had splashed into quaking bogland before they could halt.

  Cursing, Elric tugged hard on his reins, pulling his horse back on to firm ground. Shaarilla, too, fought her own panicky stallion and guided the beast to the safety of the turf.

  “How do we cross?” Elric asked her impatiently.

  “There was a map—” Shaarilla began hesitantly.

  “Where is it?”

  “It—it was lost. I lost it. But I tried hard to memo­rise it. I think I'll be able to get us safely across.”

  “How did you lose it—and why didn't you tell me of this before?” Elric stormed.

  “I'm sorry, Elric—but for a whole day, just before I found you in that tavern, my memory was gone. Somehow, I lived through a day without knowing it—and when I awoke, the map was missing.”

  Elric frowned. “There is some force working against us, I am sure,” he muttered, “but what it is, I do not know.” He raised his voice and said to her: