Future King's Pregnant Mistress
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‘No.’ Emily told him. ‘No! I like listening to you talking about your plans. I just wish that you had told me who you were when we first met.’ Had he done so she would have been so much better armoured against her vulnerability to him and she would certainly never have started dreaming they could have a permanent future together.
‘It wasn't a deliberate deceit on my part.’ Marco defended himself coolly.
‘Maybe not but you could have said something...warned me. Then, at least...’ She stopped, shaking her head, not wanting to admit her own folly where he was concerned.
‘In order to live the kind of life I wanted, to prove myself on my own terms, it was necessary for me to do it with anonymity and without the trappings of royalty. I grew up here as a renegade in my grandfathers eyes. I was his heir, but I refused to conform or let him turn on me and bully me the way he did my father.’
Marco's expression changed, and Emily ached to reach out and comfort him when she saw that look in his eyes.
‘My father was too gentle to stand up to my grandfather. As a child I hated knowing that. As a form of compensation I suppose. I rebelled against my grandfather’s authority and I swore that I would prove to him and to the world, that I had the capability to succeed as myself.’
‘But while you were proving yourself, you missed the island and your family, your father?’ Emily guessed tenderly.
Marco opened his mouth to reject her words and then admitted huskily. ‘Yes. It was such a shock when he was killed in a freak accident off the islands coast. Something Id never imagined happening...never considered.’
And along with his natural grief at the loss of his father. Marco had had to deal with the irreversible changes in his own circumstances that had followed. Emily acknowledged silently. It must have been so hard for him—a man used to taking control of every aspect of his personal life, to have to come to terms with the fact that, as King, a huge part of his life would now be beyond his control. Just listening to him was causing a change within her own thoughts, turning her angry bitterness and pain into compassionate understanding and acceptance.
It altered everything for her. Did he recognise how very alone he was emotionally? Was that a deliberate choice, or an accidental one? If he knew about it did he care, or did he simply accept it as part of the price he paid for his royal status?
‘I would hate to be in your shoes.’ The words had slipped out before she could stop them.
Marco looked searchingly at her.
‘What do you mean?’ he demanded.
‘I can hear how important your people are to you Marco, and how strongly you feel about helping them but...’ She paused and shook her head. ‘I couldn't pay the price you’re about to pay for being Niroli’s king. On the one hand yes you will have enormous wealth and power, but on the other you wont have any personal freedom, any right to do what you want to do. Everything will have to be weighed against how it affects your people. That is such a tremendously heavy responsibility.’ She gave a small sigh. ‘I suppose its different if you’re born to it. I'm beginning to see why princes marry princesses,' she added ruefully. You really do have to be born royal to understand.’
‘Not necessarily. You’re doing a pretty good job of showing you have a strong grasp of what's involved.’ Marco told her dryly. They had rarely spoken so openly to one another and it surprised him how much he valued what she had said to him. Impulsively, he slowed the car and reached for her hand, giving it a small squeeze that caused her to look at him in surprise. Such a small, tender gesture was so very unlike him.
‘I’m glad you're here with me. Emily.’
Her heart was thumping and thudding with the sweetness of the emotions pouring through her. Marco brought the car briefly to a halt and leaned across and kissed her—a hard, swift kiss that contained a message she couldn't manage to decipher, but which sent a physical craving for him soaring through her body. She had never, ever known him exhibit such extraordinarily un-Marco behaviour before. Her heart felt as though it had wings, her own happiness dizzying her.
She mustn't let a casual moment out of time lead her into forgetting what she had just recognised, she warned herself. But then, should she let what she knew to be their separate futures prevent her from enjoying their shared here and now? a different voice coaxed.
At this stage of the game, when you've got so much to deal with, it's only natural that you need someone to bounce ideas off and confide in,' she told him. ‘and...’ She paused, unsure of just how much she dared say without giving herself away completely.
‘And?’ Marco probed as they bounced along the narrow track past a cluster of small houses.
'And I wouldn't want that someone to be anyone else but me’ Emily told him simply.
A young man, tall and gangly and outgrowing his clothes, was standing in the middle of the road in front of Marcos car waving his hands, his face alight with excitement.
Emily looked questioningly at Marco.
‘Tomasso.’ he informed her as he brought the car to a halt. ‘He is the leader of a gang of young Vialli hotheads, and he is also the person I have chosen to be my representative in taking care of the generator and introducing his village to its benefits’
The moment Marco opened the car door and got out, Tomasso bounded up to him exclaiming, ‘Highness, Highness, it is here! The generator, just as you promised. We have built a special place for it. Let me show you...’
An elderly woman appeared from the nearest house, tutting and looking very disapproving as she came over to join them.
‘What is this—where is your respect for our Crown?: she demanded. ‘Highness, forgive my thought-less grandson’ Emily could hear her saying as she curtseyed to Marco.
This was a side of him she had never seen. Emily thought to herself as Marco leaned forward and assisted the elderly woman to her feet, accepting her homage with easy grace, whilst maintaining a very specific formal dignity that Emily could see the elderly woman liked. As more villagers surrounded him he was very much the future king, so much so that Emily’s emotions blocked her throat.
She felt so proud sitting in the car watching him and yet at the same time, so painfully distanced from him. What she was witnessing was making her even more aware of how impossible it would be for them to sustain a long-term relationship. Already she could see the curious and even hostile glances being directed towards her and she guessed when Marco turned to look at the car that he was being asked who she was.
She looked away, her gaze caught by an array of brightly painted and beaded leather purses spilling out of a basket, just outside the door to one of the houses. Her artist's eye could immediately see how with some discreet direction, highly desirable objects could be made by adapting the leather and bead-work to cover boxes. She was constantly on the lookout for such accessories to dress her decorating schemes; they walked out of her shop faster than she could buy them. She made a mental note to ask Marco a bit more about the leatherwork and those who produced it.
It was nearly half an hour before he returned to the car having been pressed into going and viewing the generator in its new home. When he returned he was accompanied by a group of laughing young men whilst Emily noticed the older people of the village held back a little, still eyeing her warily. One of them, a bearded and obviously very old man went up to Marco and said something to him. shaking his head and pointing to the car. Emily saw the way Marcos expression hardened as he listened.
‘What was that old man saying to you?’ she asked him once he was back in the car and they had driven out of the village.
‘Nothing much.’
‘Yes. he was. He was saying something about me wasn't he?: Emily pressed him.
‘He didn't like you taking me there.'
Marco looked at her. Rafael, the elder of the village, was very much his grandfather’s man. He did not approve of the generator and had said so. And then, when he had seen Emily in the car he had berated Marco for—as he had put it—bringing such a woman
to Niroli. Where is her shame? Rafael had demanded. She shows her face here as boldly as though she has none. In my days, such a woman would have known her place. It is an insult to us the people of Niroli that you have brought her here he had told Marco fiercely.
Rafael has a reputation as someone with very strong views. He is even older than my grandfather and tends to think of himself as the guardian of the island's morals...’
‘You mean he disapproves of me being here with you.’ Emily guessed.
‘Marco was negotiating a tight bend, and Emily had to wait for him to answer her.
‘What he thinks or feels is his business. What I choose to do is my own.’ he told her grimly.
But the reality was that it wasn't, and that whatever Marco chose to do was the business of the people of Niroli.
In an attempt to change the subject, she asked him brightly. ‘I saw a basket of leather purses...’
‘Yes the women of the villages make them. They sell them to tourists, if they can although these days the visitors who come to Niroli would far rather have a designer piece than something fashioned out of home-made leather.’
‘Mmm...l was thinking that, with a bit of time and effort, the leather could be used to cover trinket boxes, the bead ornamentation was so pretty, and I know from my own experience there is a huge market for that kind of thing. If as you say the villagers are short of money, then...’
‘It’s worth thinking about, but there's no way I want my people involved in any kind of exploitation.’
‘It was only a thought.’
‘And a good one. Leave it with me.'
When the time came for him to marry. Marco reflected, he would need a wife who would take on the role of helping him to help his people. Emily could easily fulfil that role. Somehow, that thought had slipped under his guard and into his head where it had no right to be. Just as he had no right to allow Emily into his heart. Into his heart? Now, what was he thinking? Just because Rafael's objection to her presence had made him feel so angry and protective of her, that didn't mean that she had found her way into his heart. Did it?
CHAPTER ELEVEN
EMILY sighed to herself as she parked the car Marco had hired for her to use whilst she was staying on Niroli outside the islands elegant spa. Although he had made love to her last night and it was at his suggestion that she was visiting the spa today, she knew that she would far rather have had his company. Marco, though, was too busy with royal affairs to spend time with her. His purchase and distribution of the generators had led to yet another row with his grandfather, which had resulted in Emily asking Marco if there wasn't someone within his family who could mediate between the two of them.
‘Someone, you mean, like my sister Isabella?’ he had replied. She claims that my grandfather doesn't value her because she is female. No. Emily.' He had shaken his head. ‘This is something I have to deal with myself.'
To Emily's relief, she had now gone three whole days without being sick, although she had noticed that, despite the fact that she wasn't eating very much, the waistline of one of her favourite skirts was now uncomfortably tight, and even more uncomfortable were her breasts, which felt swollen and tender. It must be due to too-rapid a change of climate, she had told herself this morning as shed dressed.
Marco had told her that the spa was owned and run by Natalia Carini daughter of Giovanni, the Royal Vine-keeper. Emily had been a bit hesitant about coming here and putting herself forward for inspection1 when she was at her most vulnerable. But as she walked into the spa foyer she heard the pretty girl behind the reception desk saying to another client. ‘I’m sorry, but Miss Carini isn't here today.’
Emily hadn't really been sure how she felt about meeting someone who might have known Marco when he was younger. Like any woman in love, she longed to know everything there was to know about him and yet at the same time, the reality of her position in his life made her feel that she wanted to remain anonymous. In London, it might be acceptable for a couple to live together as lovers without any intention of making their relationship permanent, but she suspected that things were different here on Niroli—even if Marco weren't who he was and destined to be King and. no doubt, to make a dynastic marriage.
‘May I help you?'
Emily returned the receptionist's smile. ‘l don't have an appointment, but I was wondering if it was possible to have a treatment?'
‘Since it isn't the height of the tourist season yet we should be able to fit you in. What kind of treatment would you like? We specialise here in using natural substances, especially the island's own volcanic mud. It's very therapeutic, especially when we use it in conjunction with our specially designed massage treatments.
‘Here's a list of the treatments we offer, and a medical questionnaire.' The girl smiled again. The owner of the spa takes her responsibility to our clients very seriously, and I should point out to you that some of the more vigorous massages are not suitable for women who are pregnant.'
Pregnant! Emily almost laughed. Well, she certainly wasn't. And then suddenly it hit her. Her brain mentally registering the facts and assembling them: her sickness, her aching breasts, her growing waist...A wave of sickening shock and disbelief thundered through her and she could hear the receptionist asking her anxiously if she was all right.
‘I'm...fine...' she lied.
But of course she wasn't. She was anything but. How could she be 'fine', when the reason for the sickness shed been suffering these last few weeks, and the fact that, oddly, her waist seemed to have expanded making her clothes feel tight, had suddenly been made blindingly obvious to her?
Was she right? Was she pregnant? She did some hasty mental calculations, whilst her heart banged anxiously against her ribs.
She needed very badly to sit down, but not here. Not anywhere where the truth might out and there could be any hint of a threat to her unborn child. It had only been seconds, minutes at the most, since she had realised the reality, but already she knew that there was nothing she would not do to protect the new life growing inside her. She would allow nothing or no one to imperil her child's safety and right to life!
Emily stared at her own reflection in the bedroom mirror and tried not to panic. There was little to show that she was pregnant as yet apart from that slight thickening of her waist, but how much longer would she have before Marco became suspicious? She couldn't afford to be still here on Niroli by then. Her throat went dry. Inside her head she could hear Marco's voice telling her at the very beginning of their relationship, that there would be no accidents, and what he expected her to do if one occurred.
Of course, what he had meant and not said was that he didn't want any royal bastards.
But there was no way she could destroy her child. She would rather destroy herself.
However, logically. Emily knew that, even if Marco had not made it plain he did not want her to have his child, there would be no place here on Niroli for the future king’s pregnant mistress, or his illegitimate baby! What on earth was she going to do? She had never felt more alone.
‘And now the village elder says that his orders have been ignored, and that the generator-shed has been broken into and the generator itself stolen. You see what you have done, what trouble you have caused by your interference?’
Marco forced himself to count slowly to ten before responding to his grandfathers angry but also triumphant accusations.
‘You say that Rafael gave orders that the shed housing the generator was to be boarded up for the safety of the villagers. What is that supposed to mean?’
One of his grandfather's aides bent his head close to the Royal Ear and murmured something in it.
The peace of the village was being destroyed—by the noise of the generator and various electrical appliances. Several villagers had complained to him that it had put their hens off laying and stopped their cows producing milk.:
Marco didn't know whether to laugh or cry. And because of that he stopped the villagers using the ge
nerator?’ he demanded incredulously. No wonder they decided to ignore him.
Rafael says that he has long had concerns about the rebellious Vialli tendencies amongst this group of young men. Now that they have stolen the generator and are refusing to say where it is. He has had no other option but to order that they are punished.
‘What?'
‘Furthermore Rafael has told me his village is on the verge of anarchy, and that it will spread to other villages in the mountains.’
‘This is crazy,’ Marco told his grandfather. ‘lf anyone should be locked up it’s Rafael with his prehistoric views. Grandfather, you must see how foolish it was for him to have done this,' Marco implored. His grandfather was after all an educated, astute and wily man whilst Rafael was a simple peasant.
‘What I see is that you are the cause of this trouble with your reckless refusal to obey my commands.’
Marco didn't trust himself to stay and listen to any more, in case it provoked him into open warfare with his grandfather and his outdated ideas. Giving King Giorgio a small, formal half-bow, he then turned on his heel and strode out of the room.