Stone of Tears tsot-2

by Terry Goodkind

  Warren’s eyes teared. “Please, you wouldn’t hurt Pasha.”

  “Warren, I like her. I think she is a lovely person, inside, like you said. I only kill to protect my life, or the lives of innocent people. I don’t believe Pasha would ever give me cause, but you must understand that if I am right, and the veil is torn, then more is at stake than any one person’s life. Mine, yours, or Pasha’s.”

  Warren nodded. “I have read the prophecies. I understand. I will search for the things you need.”

  Richard tried to reassure him with a warm smile. “It will be all right, Warren. I’m the Seeker; I’ll do my best. I don’t want to harm anyone.”

  “Seeker? What is the Seeker?”

  Richard slapped his hand to the metal plate. “I’ll tell you about it later.”

  Warren glanced down at the plate as the door slid opened. “How are you able to do that?”

  Pasha was standing calmly, waiting, her face making a good effort at not showing her anger.

  “And just what was that all about?”

  Richard stepped through the doorway. “Boy talk.”

  Pasha stopped him with a hand to his arm. “What do you mean, boy talk?”

  Richard looked into her warm brown eyes. “I was twisting Warren’s arm, making him tell me about the test of pain. You failed to mention it, so I had to ask him about it. Or were you planning on waiting until you came to do it, before you told me?”

  Pasha rubbed her bare arms, as if to warm them. “I do not do that, Richard. I’m only a novice. Full Sisters must do it.”

  “Why didn’t you tell me about it?”

  Tears welled up in her eyes. “I don’t like to see people hurt. I didn’t want to frighten you about what may not come for a long time. Sometimes the waiting can be worse than the actual experience. I didn’t want you to have to wait in fear.”

  “Oh.” Richard let out a long breath. “Well, I guess that’s a good reason. I apologize, Pasha, for what I was thinking of you.”

  She forced a smile. “Shall we go start your lessons?”

  Above ground again, they passed down halls and through several buildings until they finally reached Gillaume Hall, where his room was. The fabric of Pasha’s dress made a swishing sound as they climbed the wide marble stairway. The walls and columns were a matching tan, variegated marble.

  It was a beautiful place with elegant rooms, but it was not as impressive as the People’s Palace, in D’Hara. Before he had seen that magnificent edifice, he would have been astonished by the opulence of this place. Now, he simply noted its layout in reference to everything else. Upstairs, as they went down another wide, carpeted hall, he saw several other young men wearing Rada’Han. At last they reached his room.

  Richard caught her wrist as she reached for the door handle. She looked up in puzzlement.

  “There’s someone inside,” he said.

  Chapter 55

  “It is my job to watch over you,” Pasha said.

  She used her Han, breaking his hold on her wrist and throwing him aside as if with an invisible hand, and then charged through the door. Richard rolled, finishing on his feet, drew his sword, and flew in after her. Only the small flames from the hearth gave light to the otherwise dark room. They both stumbled to a halt in the near darkness.

  A voice came from a chair beside the fire. “Expecting a mriswith, Richard?”

  “Sister Verna!” Richard slid his sword back into its scabbard. “What are you doing here?”

  She rose to her feet and swept her hand in the direction of a lamp, bringing the wick to flame. “I didn’t know if you heard.” Her face was unreadable. “I’m once again a Sister of the Light.”

  “Really?” Richard said. “That’s great news.”

  Sister Verna clasped her hands in a relaxed manner. “Since I’m a Sister, again, I wanted to come and speak privately to you for a moment.” She glanced to Pasha. “About same unfinished business Richard and I have.”

  Pasha looked from the Sister to Richard. “Well, I guess this dress is, well, not the most comfortable thing to give lessons in. Why don’t I go change.” She curtsied to Sister Verna. “Good night, Sister. I’m so happy for you; you should be a Sister. And Richard, thank you for being such a gentleman tonight. I will return after I change.”

  Richard stood facing the door once he had closed it behind Pasha.

  “Gentleman,” Sister Verna said. “I’m delighted to hear it, Richard. I would also like to thank you, for my being returned to Sister. Sister Maren told me what happened.”

  Richard laughed as he turned to her. “You’ve been around me too long, Sister. But you need more practice at telling lies; you’re not yet totally convincing.”

  She couldn’t keep a small smile from coming to her lips. “Well, Sister Maren told me that she had prayed for guidance, and decided I would serve the Creator best if I were a Sister, in view of my experience.” She lifted an eyebrow. “Poor Sister Maren; lying seems to have become infectious since you arrived here.”

  He shrugged. “Sister Maren did what was right. I think your Creator would be pleased with the outcome.”

  “I heard that you killed a mriswith. News spreads through the palace like a blaze through dry grass.”

  Richard walked to the hearth. He leaned on the dark granite mantle and stared into the flames. “Well, I had no choice.”

  Sister Verna stroked a hand tenderly down his hair. “Are you all right, Richard? How are you doing?”

  “I’m fine.” Richard pulled the baldric over his head and set it and the sword aside. He tossed the red coat on a chair. “I’d be better if I didn’t have to wear these silly clothes. But I guess it’s a small price to pay for peace. For now. What did you want talk to me about, Sister?”

  “I don’t know what you did, how you got me returned to Sister, but thank you, Richard. Does this mean you would like for us to be friends?”

  “Only if you will take this collar off me.” She looked away from his eyes. “Someday, Sister, you will have to make your choice. I hope when the time comes, you choose to be on my side. After all we’ve been through, I would hate to have to kill you, but you know what I am capable of. You knew what my answer would be; surely, you came here for more than that.”

  “I have told you before how you are using your Han without knowing what you are doing, remember?”

  “Yes, but I don’t think I’m using my Han.”

  She lifted an eyebrow. “Richard, you killed a mriswith. As far as I know, that has not been done in the last three thousand years. You had to use your Han to do that.”

  “No, Sister, I used the magic of the sword to kill it.”

  “Richard, I have observed you, and learned a little about both you and your sword. The reason no one has ever been able to kill a mriswith is because they never knew it was coming. Even the Han of Sisters and wizards could not sense its approach. Your sword may have killed the mriswith, but your Han let you know it was coming. You are calling on your gift, but without control.”

  Richard was tired. He didn’t feel like arguing, so he didn’t.

  He flopped into a plush chair. He remembered the way he had seen the mriswith in his mind, had seen it coming. “I don’t understand what I’m doing, Sister. The mriswith came, and I protected myself.”

  She sat in a chair opposite. “Look at it this way, Richard; you killed a beast as deadly as anything walking the land, yet that little girl with the big brown eyes, and about as much power compared to you as a sparrow compared to a hawk, just used her Han to throw you down the hall. I hope you will study hard so you may learn to control your Han. You need to get it under control.”

  She looked at him intently. “Why did you go into the Hagen Woods, after I told you that they are dangerous? The real reason. Not the justification, but the deep-down-inside reason. Please tell me the truth, Richard.”

  Richard stretched back, looking up at the ceiling. He finally conceded with a nod. “It was like something drew me in. I
t was a need. A hunger. It was like I needed to pound my fist against a wall, and that was the way to do it.”

  He thought she might launch into a lecture, but she didn’t. Her tone was sympathetic.

  “Richard, I’ve been talking to a few friends of mine. None of us knows everything about the magic of the palace, and especially the Hagen Woods, but there is reason to believe that the Hagen Woods were placed there specifically for certain wizards.”

  Richard studied her quiet expression, the creases in her face, the sincerity in her eyes. “Are you saying, Sister, that if I need to pound my fist against the wall, maybe I should do so?”

  She gave a slight lift to her eyebrows. “The Creator gave us hunger so we would eat, because eating is necessary.”

  “What would be the purpose of a hunger like mine?”

  She shook her head. “I don’t know. For a second time in as many days, the Prelate has declined to grant me an audience.

  “But I’m going to try to find some answers. In the meantime, just please don’t let the sun set on you in the Hagen Woods.”

  “Is this what you came to tell me, Sister?”

  She looked away, and paused, rubbing her forehead with two fingers. She looked uncertain. He had never seen her like this. “Richard, there are things going on that I don’t understand, and they are connected to you; events are not happening as they should.” She saw his curious look. “I can’t talk about them just yet.”

  She cleared her throat. “Richard, I don’t want you to trust every one of the Sisters.”

  Richard lifted an eyebrow. “Sister, I trust none of you.”

  That brought a short-lived smile to her face. “For now, that would be best. That was what I wanted to tell you. I’m going to find the answers, but for now, well, let’s just say that I know you will do as you must to stay safe.”

  After Sister Verna left, Richard thought about what she had said, and about the things Warren had told him. Mostly, he thought about the Stone of Tears.

  It puzzled him that the magic in the Valley of the Lost would present him with a vision of something he had never seen before, and put it around Rachel’s neck. The other visions seemed to have been anchored in his longings and fears. Maybe because he missed seeing his friend, Chase, he saw the vision of Rachel, too; she would be with Chase. But why would the vision put around her neck something he had never seen before, which turned out to look like a drawing in a book?

  Maybe they weren’t the same thing. He told himself they couldn’t be, but an uneasy feeling inside said otherwise.

  As much as he missed Chase and Rachel, it was the stone around Rachel’s neck that had captured his attention. It was as if Rachel were bringing it to him for Zedd, and Zedd had been there with him, urging him to take the stone.

  Pasha’s knock at the door brought him out of his brooding. She was wearing a plain, brownish gray dress with small, pink cloth buttons up the front, all the way up to her neck. Though it didn’t show the expanse of flesh the green dress had, it was tailored so that it revealed nearly every detail of her shape. The fact that it covered everything only made what it covered all that much more intriguing. The color somehow brought out the softness of her brown hair.

  Pasha sat cross-legged on the floor, on the blue and yellow carpet in front of the fireplace. She draped her dress carefully over her knees and then looked up. “Here. Sit like me, in front of me.”

  Richard sat on the floor and folded his legs. She motioned him to come closer until their knees touched. She took his hands and held them lightly as they rested across both their knees.

  “Sister Verna didn’t do this when I practiced.”

  “That was because the Rada’Han had to be within the circle of influence of the magic of the palace before we could practice in this way. Until now, when you have practiced touching your Han, it has been alone. Most of the time from now on, I, or a Sister, will use our Han to assist you.” She smiled. “It will help you progress faster, Richard.”

  “All right. What do you want me to do?”

  “She told you how to try to reach your Han? How to concentrate on finding that place within yourself?” Richard nodded. “That is what I want you to do. While you search for that place, I will use my Han, through the Rada’Han, to try to guide you.”

  Richard squirmed a little, getting more comfortable. Pasha took back a hand and fanned her face. “This dress seems so warm, after wearing the other.” She unbuttoned the top five buttons of her dress and then took his hand up again. Richard glanced at the fire, to check the logs, so he would know how long it had been when he opened his eyes again. He could never seem to judge the time while he searched for his Han. It always seemed like mere minutes, but it was usually at least an hour.

  Richard closed his eyes. He brought forth the image of the Sword of Truth on a plain background. As the quiet settled over him, as he sought the peace within, his breathing slowed. He took a long breath, and then let himself sink into the calm center.

  He was aware of Pasha’s hands holding his, of her knees touching his, and of her even breathing coming into harmony with his. It felt good to have her holding his hands. He didn’t feel isolated the way he had always felt before. He didn’t know if she really was using the magic of his collar to go with him, but he felt himself spiraling deeper than he had before.

  He drifted in the timeless place without thinking, without effort or worry. Whatever his Han was, he didn’t see or feel anything he hadn’t seen or felt before. Other than feeling more relaxed than before, and the comforting feeling of having Pasha with him, it was no different. He was dimly aware of his body starting to feel cramped, and of the warmth from the fire. The cold steel of the sword seemed to be a core of ice in the heat.

  At last, he opened his eyes. Pasha opened her eyes with him. Richard glanced to the fire. The logs had been reduced to glowing coals. Two hours, he judged.

  A trickle of sweat ran down Pasha’s neck. “My, but it’s warm tonight.”

  She unbuttoned buttons. A lot of buttons. More of her was showing than had shown in the green dress. Richard made himself look back up into her soft eyes. Pasha gave him a small, self-assured smile.

  “I didn’t feel anything,” Richard said. “I didn’t sense my Han. Although, I don’t know what it is I’m supposed to sense.”

  “I didn’t, either, and I should have. Strange.” She sighed to herself with a puzzled expression. Her face brightened. “But it takes practice. Did you feel my Han? Was it any help?”

  “No,” he admitted. “I didn’t feel anything.”

  She made a little quirk with her mouth as she frowned. “You didn’t feel anything of me?” He shook his head. “Well, close your eyes and try again.”

  It was late, and Richard didn’t want to practice anymore; it was tiring. But he decided to do as she wished. He closed his eyes. He concentrated on trying to bring back the sword.

  Suddenly he felt Pasha’s full lips against his. His eyes opened as she pressed against him. Her eyes were closed, her brow wrinkled. She grasped his face with her hands.

  Richard gripped her shoulders and pushed her away. She opened her eyes and licked her lips.

  She smiled coyly. “Did you feel that?”

  “I felt it.”

  She hooked an arm around his neck. “Apparently, not enough.”

  Richard gently put a hand against her as she tried to lean in. He didn’t want to embarrass her, so he tried to keep his voice pleasant. “Pasha, don’t.”

  She rubbed her free hand around on his stomach. “It’s late. No one will be around. If it will make you feel more comfortable, I’ll shield the door. You shouldn’t worry.”

  “I’m not worried. I just . . . don’t want to.”

  She looked a bit hurt. “You do not think I am pretty enough?”

  Richard didn’t want to offend her, and he didn’t want to make her angry. But he didn’t want to encourage her, either.

  “It’s not that, Pasha. You’re very at
tractive. It’s just that . . .”

  She unbuttoned another little button. Richard reached out and took ahold of her hand to stop her. He realized the situation was becoming hazardous. She was his teacher. If he angered or humiliated her, things could become dangerously complicated. He had things to do, and couldn’t afford to turn her antagonistic.

  She pulled her dress up her legs and put his hand against her thigh. “You like this better?” she asked in a breathy voice.

  Richard froze at the firm, sensual feel of her flesh. He remembered what Sister Verna had said, that he would soon find another pair of pretty legs. These were certainly that, and Pasha was leaving precious little to the imagination. He pulled his hand away. “Pasha, you don’t understand. I think you’re a beautiful young woman . . .”

  Her eyes fixed on his face as she ran her fingers down his beard. “I think you’re the most handsome man I’ve ever seen.”

  “No, you don’t . . .”

  “I love your beard. Don’t ever cut it off. I think a wizard should have a beard.”

  Richard remembered the time Zedd had used Additive Magic to grow a beard and teach him a lesson, and then had shaved it off, explaining he couldn’t make it vanish with magic because that would take Subtractive Magic, and wizards didn’t have Subtractive Magic. Subtractive Magic was of the underworld.

  He caught her wrist and pulled her hand away from his face. To Richard, his beard was a symbol of his captivity. It meant he was a prisoner. Prisoners don’t shave, that was what he had told Sister Verna. But he didn’t think now was the time to explain that to Pasha.

  She kissed his neck. Somehow, he was unable to stop her. Her lips were so soft, and he could hear her insistent breath close to his ear. It felt as if the kiss went all the way through him, down to his toes, something like the feeling he had had when she had put her hands to his Rada’Han. The tingling numbed his brain. Inside, he groaned. His resistance was being dissolved by her kisses . . .