Watching for Willa

by Helen R. Myers

  When he reopened his eyes, he saw Willa had succeeded in getting the first blind up. He watched shapely calves, knees, then thighs appear, as she tested it, and almost sighed with relief as the red flames of madness receded.

  What was she wearing beneath that man’s dress shirt? And beneath her obvious fear this morning, had the curiosity, even desire he’d seen in those bottomless eyes of hers, been real? The blinds suggested one answer, but he wondered. Were they going up to protect her from him…or to protect her from herself?

  Did he want either of them to discover the answer?

  “Zach? Zach!”

  “I’m here.”

  “I didn’t mean it.”

  “Oh, but you did.” He drew a deep, relaxing breath. “I’ve never asked you to like me or even to respect what I do, Felix. But I don’t pay you to lie to me.”

  “You’re right.” Felix’s voice flowed heavy with regret. For once, all pretense and affectation vanished. “We need to talk about this. I don’t know how much more I can take. I don’t even know if I have the guts to break this to Carstairs. We have a contract for crying out loud. He could crucify us.”

  The blinds lifted the rest of the way, and finally she saw him. He’d swept back the sheers to make it easy for her, although it was almost eight in the evening and new storm clouds made it darker than usual for a late spring night. He hadn’t turned on the lights, either. No need to remove all the challenge. There was only the glow from the computer screen to let her know he was there. He knew it cast him in an eerie silhouette. Visible, but not identifiable. Real and surreal. As he was.

  The unexpected flash in the corner of his right eye stung. It came from the car pulling into his driveway. Round three, he thought, his mood sinking once more.

  “Zach, talk to me.”

  “I have to go, Felix. Young Elias has arrived.”

  “Let him wait. Why you waste your time with that overambitious weasel is beyond me. He doesn’t have any real talent.”

  “I disagree,” Zach replied, refocusing on Willa’s frozen stance. “At any rate, it’s not wise to underestimate. Anyone. I’ll call you soon.”

  He hung up the phone and after punching the proper button on the remote control to release the downstairs lock, he watched as she hesitantly moved closer to the window to see his visitor more clearly. Despite the distance between them, her confusion and wariness were palpable.

  Truly lovely.

  The underwear lady, indeed.

  What was he going to do about her?

  When Zachary Denton left the upstairs room to see to his visitor, Willa lowered her new blinds and shut them tight. Her heart continued to pound from the way he’d been watching her, and seeing the unrecognizable car pull into his driveway hadn’t helped. For an unsociable person, Zachary Denton had his share of company.

  Stepping back, she considered her workmanship. Not bad for a woman who, only a few years ago, could barely read a tape measure, let alone handle a nail and hammer. Being on one’s own certainly forced a person to adapt and try new things, and Willa was glad she’d decided to stick with the same ivory color as the walls. She would use color through accents; she’d chosen green and yellow to go with the sunflower print bedspread and curtains bagged and waiting in the closet.

  One more day and she would have her bed again. She rubbed at her aching back. What she wouldn’t give to be able to climb into the tub right now. But she wasn’t finished with her work for the day. Besides, Starla said she would—

  The doorbell sounded, and Willa’s thudding heart nearly leapt into her throat. Good grief, a few days around the crown prince of horror and she was turning into a wreck!

  Who on earth could it be? She’d just been thinking that Starla said she would call, not stop by. What’s more, after getting her number from Kelly, her parents had telephoned from Madrid, which canceled any possibility that they’d concluded their trip early.

  Hurrying downstairs, she found herself braking by her purse. Of course, she thought as she realized why. She stooped to dig into the outer pouch. Thank goodness for instincts. She hadn’t heard another car stop by except for the one that had pulled into Zachary Denton’s driveway; therefore, it would be foolish to answer the door without being prepared.

  With her cannister of tear gas in hand, she went to switch on the front lights. Maybe she would leave them on. It might discourage any more funny business from…well, whomever.

  Peering through the peephole, she frowned. No one was there.

  “Blast.” Her nerves didn’t need this.

  About to go to the front window for a better view, a dark head suddenly popped up out of nowhere. She reared back, but a second later realized who she’d seen.

  Starla! Quickly unlocking the dead bolt, she jerked open the door, vowing to herself that as soon as possible she would have a storm door added. Every bit of security would help.

  “Starla Donohue, I could shake you!” she cried, stepping aside for her assistant to enter.

  Pretty brown eyes tried to look apologetic, but not all the twinkling amber lights dancing in their depths would behave. “Don’t be angry with me. I know I said I’d only call, but the suspense got to me. You have to let me have a peek. Look,” she grinned, holding up bottle of chardonnay. “I brought a bribe.”

  Willa shook her head. “But I don’t have a corkscrew.”

  The younger woman shook the huge, chic tote bag slung over her shoulder. “Remember this? Since when has anything less than useful emerged from its—Yikes! What’s that for?”

  She’d finally spotted the tear gas. With a wry smile, Willa shut the door and returned it to her purse. “Over-stretched nerves, obviously. I’ll tell you about it in a minute,” she added, noting Starla’s confusion. “First come have that look around.”

  Starla’s surprise visit gave Willa what she needed—something else to focus on. A good listener with a slightly wacky sense of humor that hid a deeper shyness, she reminded Willa of her sister, Kelly, but with longer, golden brown hair, and a softer, rounded figure.

  “This place is darling! Not too big to keep up, but large enough not to give you claustrophobia. Like a certain efficiency apartment I could tell you about,” she added as an aside. “And it’s obvious you’ve been working your butt off. Oh, wow!” They entered the kitchen where brick and copper created a warm, welcoming environment. “I can’t wait to see how you decorate everything. If it turns out half as good as Whimsy did, the paper’s going to want to do another feature on you.”

  Willa hadn’t considered that. “I’m not sure I want to share this with the public,” she replied, frowning as she retrieved two paper cups from a basket of supplies on the counter.

  “You’re kidding! Ms. My Life’s An Open Book?”

  Was she like that? Well, once upon a time maybe, and mostly because A.J.’s stressful work as an emergency helicopter pilot had created a need for counterbalance. More. Relief. His preference had been to throw impromptu, open-house parties. But if truth be known, she would have been happier to have spent those nights cozily in front of a fire, with a romantic dinner and a more romantic bubble bath waiting. Nowadays she had plenty of opportunity to do just that, but without A.J.

  “I’m sorry, Willa. What did I say? I didn’t mean to dig up ghosts or anything.”

  “Don’t worry about it,” she replied, smiling as she presented the cups. “You reminded me that I may have some new decisions to make, that’s all.”

  “Tomorrow’s the big day, huh? Ready or not, you’re a homeowner again.”

  She nodded, regaining some of her excitement. “The movers tell me they’ll be at the apartment at nine. Are you getting tired of playing chief, cook and bottle washer yet?” she asked, aware of the responsibility she’d placed on her friend’s shoulders. Four years her junior, Starla was capable, but young for the pressures Willa knew could come swiftly and without warning.

  “To be honest…? As good a time as I’m having, I’d prefer it if you were
there.” Starla’s dimples deepened. “Because I miss our chats like heck. Not having had any brothers and sisters, or being very close to my folks, I guess you’ve become like an older sister to me. Hope you don’t mind.”

  “Of course I don’t mind. I feel the same way about you.” Willa hugged her, touched by her friend’s admission.

  “But I know this is good for me, and that I need to learn to flex my administrative muscles.”

  “That’s a girl! I know you can do it.” Willa watched the younger woman ease the cork out the bottle’s neck. The pop underscored her pleasure and gratitude that Starla had stopped by after all. “And it’s not as if I’m far away. If you can hang on until Tuesday…?”

  “Don’t worry. We’ll be fine.” Starla poured the wine. “Now let’s change the subject before we get too mushy and sentimental, and wind up with raccoon eyes.”

  They laughed and touched their cups together. Then Starla reported on the day’s sales and reassured Willa that she’d locked the cash and receipts in the small office safe.

  “It sounds as if you have everything under control,” Willa said, leading the way out of the kitchen again. “Come on and I’ll show you the rest of the place.” But she was surprised when Starla stopped her at the foot of the stairs.

  “Wait. First tell me what’s going on? Why the tear gas?” She held up a hand the instant Willa hesitated. “Unless it’s pushing the boundaries of our friendship.”

  “Don’t be silly.” It surprised and dismayed Willa that Starla could think that, and she told her so.

  Once again beaming, her young friend replied, “Good. Then what is it? Is being on a dead-end street and practically in the woods more to handle than you’d expected?”

  Willa sipped her wine, considering the possibility again. “No, I really enjoy that. There are so many birds, and this evening I glimpsed a deer in my backyard. I can’t wait to put up some feeders, and maybe set out something for the deer, too.”

  “Now that sounds like you.” Warming to her subject, Starla tilted her head, continuing, “And I think you’d have to have a good reason to be feeling threatened enough to reach for that stuff in here, so out with it. What’s wrong?”

  CHAPTER SIX

  Willa nibbled at the rim of her cup. “Promise not to laugh?”

  “There’s nothing funny about tear gas.”

  “Okay, then don’t blow what I say out of proportion, either.”

  Starla rested an elbow on the banister. “That’s not a reassuring way to start this conversation, boss dear. I’m the one who’s supposed to take the long route to get to the point. You’re the one who’s always known your own mind—along with everyone else’s.”

  The compliment was nice to hear, despite her doubts about its current accuracy. Willa took a deep breath. “Something’s happened that shook me up a bit.”

  She proceeded to tell her friend about the note—for the moment preferring to leave out what had occurred the day before. As she feared, Starla went from concerned to upset.

  “That’s too spooky. And I can’t believe you didn’t tell me this when we talked on the phone!” Starla’s expression matched her accusatory tone.

  “How do you share something like that over the phone?”

  “Well, okay. What did the police say?”

  Now came the hard part. Willa glanced toward the dining room window, too late realizing what a reflexive move that was becoming. “I didn’t call them.”

  As expected, Starla was aghast. “Why on earth not? There’s a creep out there who’s terrifying almost every woman in this town. You mean to tell me that note didn’t make you think of him?”

  “You didn’t let me finish.” Only then did Willa realize she would share everything—or almost everything. Maybe, she decided, it was time to get someone else’s input. “Remember who I said I’ll be having as a neighbor?”

  “Who could forget? I was about to ask you if—” Her assistant’s eyes went so wide, they could almost have been used as dual makeup mirrors. “You think…Zachary Denton?”

  “I don’t know,” Willa admitted, knowing it would have sounded crazy to her if Starla had been the one presenting such a bombshell. Once again, feeling uncharacteristically unsure of herself, she took a sip of her wine.

  “Willa, isn’t he completely disabled or something?”

  “He uses a wheelchair, but he’s hardly disabled.” Images of Zachary Denton, flashbacks of his speed and strength, played out before her eyes, leaving her uncomfortably warm. She fingered the damp hairs at her nape that had slipped free of her ponytail. “His house is set up to accommodate the chair—there are ramps, and some electric gizmos. He even has an elevator. Believe me, getting around isn’t a problem for him.”

  To her credit, Starla didn’t miss a beat. Narrowing her eyes, which gave her rounded face an almost Eastern quality, she demanded, “How do you know that?”

  “I went over there.”

  “You didn’t!”

  “Well, think about it,” Willa insisted, holding fast to the logic that had ruled back then. “Isn’t it a bit suspicious how nothing like that had happened to me until I start moving in here? How many times have I been one of the last people to leave the mall at night? Have you ever heard that I’ve had any real problems. Oh, sure, a few of the high school boys drive by getting revved up for their next ball game and hoot and holler a bit. But that’s all.”

  “Willa, we’re not talking about high school kids, we’re talking about Zachary Denton…and to take matters into your own hands and confront him like that.” Starla looked upward and shook her head. “Bet he was thrilled with your accusation.”

  “I’m fairly certain I won’t be getting a Christmas card from him.”

  “At least you can still make jokes. I’d be locked in my bedroom closet if this was happening to me.”

  “I’ve had my moments.”

  Nodding, her friend glanced in the direction of Zachary Denton’s house. Then, as though in a trance, she went to the bay window and leaned against the wall. “I have to ask. Is he still a hunk?”

  Willa had forgotten Starla was as devoted a Denton fan as A.J. had been. “I couldn’t really tell. I don’t think he’s shaved or cut his hair in months.”

  Starla shot her a dismayed, yet fascinated look over her shoulder. “You mean what the press said is true? He’s a hermit? That’s so…mysterious.”

  “I hate to burst your romantic illusions, but he was rude, threatening and…” She’d almost said “totally without feeling,” but the words stuck in her throat because they would have been a lie.

  Something sensitive and disturbing had surfaced between them. Something so unnerving that it had kept her awake long into the night. When she’d finally slept, she’d dreamed of a great, dark shadow lowering itself over her and shocking her back to a world of awareness she’d been resisting. She’d tried to resist it, too, but it had been relentless, seeming to know all her vulnerabilities and desires. Awakening with a start, she’d found herself perspiring and out of breath, as if—

  “It’s crazy,” she moaned, rubbing her forehead. Fighting the restlessness building inside her, she began pacing the gleaming living room floor. “He’s complicated, okay? And stranger than anyone I’ve ever met.”

  “Strange? You mean as in crazy?”

  Willa could tell by the way Starla asked that she didn’t want an affirmative answer, and although she felt for her friend, she admitted, “He can give that impression. But in the next minute—” she remembered the feel of his fingers on her neck “—he can be almost gentle. For the most part, though, he’s secretive, paranoid and he talks in riddles.”

  “His life has to be frustrating, being in that wheelchair,” Starla insisted, sounding more and more like the devil’s advocate. “After all, he was an active, adventurous guy before, and now he can’t even…you know.”

  “Can’t he?”

  “Well, I’m assuming that’s out.” But Starla eyed her with increasing
curiosity. “Are you blushing?”

  “What if he can walk?” Willa said returning to her pacing.

  “I wasn’t talking about walking.”

  “But supposing he can?” She didn’t want to deal with the idea that this way she wouldn’t have to feel guilty for suspecting him. “He’s in great shape from working out. Ger Sacks at the health club works with him.”

  That drew Starla away from her post, and she made a throaty sound. “Another hunk.”

  “Think so? Guess what? Zachary Denton has a body in almost as good shape. In fact…blast, I’m not going to be able to avoid this.”

  “Avoid what?”

  “He’s functional.”

  “Excuse me?”

  “I think he could…be with a woman if he wanted.”

  Once the shock wore off, delight and intrigue lit Starla’s animated brown eyes. “I’m almost afraid to ask, but how did you discover that little tidbit?”

  “He became angry with me, and tried to grab the note. I ended up sprawled across him. Believe me, the change was impossible to miss.” Her throat as dry as her tone, Willa took a longer sip of her wine.

  “Wow, that’s wild. You and Zachary Denton.”

  “There is no me and Zachary Denton!”

  Starla lifted an eyebrow. “Really? So why are you practically scarlet, especially when you never blush? What happened? Did he kiss you?”

  “No!”

  And she had to deal with her shame for wanting it, for wanting him to take without asking. That was the worst of it. The man was dangerous, and maybe certifiable for all she knew, yet she couldn’t stop thinking about those few moments in his arms. No matter how she tried to insist there had also been something deeper, something spiritual in his eyes, she failed. The explosive sexuality between them made a mockery of the idea, and her.