“Was I good?”
“Yeah, and you were so hot… Hey! I didn’t say it was you.”
I laughed. “I’m sorry. You made it obvious. I’m glad you dream about me.” Then I regretted my words. “I mean…”
“Do you dream about me, too?” he asked.
I closed my eyes, hoping he didn’t just want sex from me. “Yes.”
“Am I good in your dreams?”
I bit my lip and sighed. “Good is an understatement.”
Then my phone rang. I climbed over Giovanni to reach it. As I basically lay on top of him, I opened my phone. Giovanni’s hand moved over my bare back and his stiff cock was against my thigh. That was the best feeling.
Chad asked, “Hey, you still in bed?”
“Uh-huh,” I said into the phone, while Giovanni was tracing the tattoo on my lower back.
I heard Chad stretching. “Were you OK last night?”
“I was fine.” I turned my head and looked at Giovanni.
He lightly smacked my ass. “Hey, get up. I gotta pee.”
“Who’s that?” Chad asked.
I got off of Giovanni and watched him leave the room. Then I replied, “Giovanni came to check on me.”
“That was nice of him. I should’ve done that.” Chad sounded unhappy.
I sighed. “I’m OK, Chad. I’ll see you tonight.”
When I put the phone down, Giovanni was standing in the doorway. “You don’t want him to know I stayed here?”
“I don’t think he can handle it.” I told him.
He frowned. “Yeah. He loves you.”
“But I don’t love him and he knows it. I can be with whoever I want.”
“You date, right?”
“Sure I do, but I’m not with anyone now.”
“Me neither.”
I watched him hesitate. I wished I knew what he was thinking. Then I wondered if I got him to sleep with me, would he start to like me. That sounded a bit backwards, but I didn’t know how else to go about it. He dreamed about me. That was good. Maybe I could get him to show me what I did to him in his dreams.
“Will you tell me what I did in your dream?”
He looked away. “I can’t. It was just a stupid dream. Those things can’t happen.”
I got up and put my arms around him. I was starting to feel some confidence. “Maybe they can.”
He looked down at me. “Why would you say that?”
“Because we can make it happen.”
He closed his eyes for a second then looked at me again. His mouth opened but no words came out. Then he put his arms around me too, before leaning down and kissing my lips.
I was so glad he did it. I kissed him back, and soon we were kissing over and over. Our breathing got faster, and we ran our hands over each other. I pulled him towards the bed. Then I let him go as I lay down.
Giovanni took a deep breath then got on top of me. We started kissing again while his rock-solid dick was pressed against my pelvis. I slid my hands into the back of his pajama bottom and kept them there. He ran one hand through my hair and the other he put under my top.
“I never needed someone this much before,” he whispered.
When he had just started exploring my bare breast, his phone on the nightstand started ringing. “Just ignore it. I want you. Please.”
He pulled away and sighed. “It could be my mom. Maybe she needs me.” Then he got to his knees and grabbed the phone. His eyes closed and I knew he was annoyed. “Yeah,” he answered. “She’s fine… Chad, really she was OK… I didn’t stay long… I know you do… OK, I’ll see you later.” Then he got up off of the bed. “I can’t do this to him.”
“Do what?” I sat up.
He walked to his bag on the floor and picked it up. “You belong with him. This isn’t right. I can’t just have sex with you like this. It has to mean something… and you’re with him.”
“No, I’m not!” I almost shouted as he left the room.
I felt like crying. I thought I finally had Giovanni where I wanted him, but then Chad went and spoiled it. What did Chad say to him?
By the time Giovanni was back in my room, I was crying. I couldn’t help it. I finally started to open up to Giovanni and it fell apart. He was leaving.
The bed moved and soon after I felt a hand wiping away my tears. “I didn’t mean to make you cry. I’m sorry I started kissing you. I just can’t do this. I care too much about you to ruin our friendship this way. I know you and Chad are more than friends. I get it. It’s OK. I won’t stand in his way.”
“But…”
He put his finger on my lips. “I can’t hurt him this way. He was so angry at himself for not staying with you last night. If he knew I was in your apartment all night, he’d probably wanna hit me. And if he knew what we were just doing, he’d kill me. Please don’t feel bad. I… I gotta go. I wish things were different.” Then he kissed me again and left.
I blew it. I should have kept my big mouth shut. I knew telling him how I felt was the wrong thing. Everything was a mess. How am I going to look at him tonight? We had another gig and I had to see him.
Almost an hour later, Chad called again. “Baby, you’re crying. What happened?”
“I’m fine.” I had been in the kitchen getting some water and trying to stop crying.
“What’s wrong? I know you’re lying.”
I couldn’t tell him the truth. It would hurt him too much. “Nothing,” I sniffled quietly. “I’m just watching a sad movie.”
“Baby, are you sure? It sounds like more.”
“Chad, please.”
“When did Giovanni leave?”
I took a shaky breath, feeling a new wave of tears about to start. “I gotta go.” Then I closed my phone.
I ran to my room and fell on my bed, face down, as more tears started to fall. I wished I was able to convince Giovanni that Chad and I were only friends. But then I realized we were more. We had become lovers, too. I didn’t know it was obvious.
Then I closed my eyes and cried even harder. I didn’t want to be without Giovanni. I wanted to be with him all the time. I was so angry that I ruined all my progress by… By what? What did I do wrong? I wasn’t sure. Maybe I was too aggressive or he just didn’t care enough.
“Baby, why were you crying?” I heard someone say later.
I opened my eyes. Chad had used the set of keys I gave him. He was sitting on my bed next to me. I quickly sat up and hugged him. Tears started to fall again.
“It’s OK, baby. Did you have a bad dream?”
I couldn’t tell him. “Just hold me.”
“I’m here, baby.” He caressed my back and held me as close as he could.
When my tears stopped, I looked up at him. He put a hand through my hair then kissed me. I felt guilty at first. Giovanni had only left a few hours before. But he didn’t want me. I just knew I had no chance with him. I had to give up the only man I’d really wanted to be with in months. I didn’t know how I was going to do that.
“I love you.” Chad whispered as he laid me back on the bed, forcing me to think of him.
Things got intense quick. Our clothes were thrown everywhere within seconds. Then Chad grabbed me and rolled on top of me. I picked up my legs and wrapped them around him.
“Baby. Wow,” he said as he slid into me.
I grabbed his shoulders and wished I loved him too. At least I could feel his love inside of me, as if he filled my body with it. It was unbelievable the way he made me feel when we had sex. I pulled his face down to mine and kissed him as his hair cascaded around me. It was exactly what I needed now. I needed to be loved.
“Tell me what you want. Please, baby.”
I enjoyed how gentle he was sometimes, but I needed to forget that morning. “Go faster.” We started to move quicker. I pulled his hair, feeling the buildup begin. I moaned loudly. “That’s it!” I sensed my body reacting to him. Then I screamed as my insides exploded with pleasure. I gripped Chad’s shoulder with on
e hand and pulled his hair with the other.
Chad hung his head down. “Baby, that feels so amazing.”
When my body relaxed, we both picked up our pace even more, moaning together. It took less than a minute for me to scream again. That time, my back arched as well, because it was stronger.
Chad shifted his hips a bit. He started to make more noise, and so did I. It had gotten so much better, and I knew it was going to end soon, but I didn’t want it to. I grabbed Chad’s arms firmly and cried out his name. Then I lifted my hips up to him as I trembled internally.
Then Chad pushed inside me more and held me tight. “Oh, Crystal, baby… Shit!” Then he quickly pulled out of me.
I looked up at him and suddenly realized what we had done. “Oh my God. We forgot a condom again.” I closed my eyes. “Please tell me you got out in time.”
He rested his head on me and sighed. “Yeah, but that was so close. And I messed up your sheets. I’m sorry.”
“It’s OK.” I let my body relax. I had wanted him so badly, I wasn’t thinking.
“Your dad would kill me if I got you pregnant.”
CHAPTER TWELVE
That night we played at a club on South Street in Philadelphia. We got there early because we didn’t hit traffic. Giovanni was avoiding me and seemed angry while the guys were unpacking the vans.
At one point, Chad called Giovanni over to us. “Keep an eye on her. I gotta piss.” He was nervous that another jerk would bother me.
“Yeah, sure.” Giovanni stood next to me, but didn’t even look at me.
“I’m sorry,” I said and put my hand on his arm.
He pulled away.
“Giovanni, please talk to me.” I got nothing. “Is it because I kissed you?”
He exhaled loudly. “I kissed you first. Just drop it, please.”
Mark, one of the roadies came up to us. “Giovanni, I can’t get your bass pedal to…”
He cut Mark off. “Just fucking fix it and leave me alone!”
“OK, that’s it!” I shouted and grabbed his hand. He tried to pull away, but I held on tight. I pulled him to the back door. “Look, I don’t know why you’re mad at me, but that was not my intention this morning. I like hanging out and going to clubs with you. Please don’t let my stupidity ruin what we built.”
“I’m not mad at you, Crystal. I’m mad at myself. I shouldn’t have let it go so far. You don’t deserve to be treated that way. Maybe if Chad wasn’t a factor, we could…” He trailed off in frustration. “I just wanna punch something.”
I wondered if it had been a long time since he had sex. That would explain some of his extreme frustration. He seemed to be overreacting a bit. I felt so bad for him that I hugged him.
“You’re making it worse.”
I moved my hands over his shirt. “Just relax, and forget about Chad.”
“Feel better now, bro?” I heard Rosario say from behind me. “You got her to…”
“Shut the fuck up!” Giovanni yelled at his brother, interrupting him.
I looked up, not understanding what his brother was talking about. “Got me to what?” I asked.
“Nothing, Crystal. He’s just being a pain in the ass. Go away, Rosario.”
I heard Rosario laughing as he walked away. He was annoying sometimes. I guess that’s what big brothers are for. Mine were annoying too, before they left home.
Giovanni gently pushed me away. “After this morning, I can’t have you so close to me for a while, please. I’ll deal with it somehow. Things’ll go back to the way they were before. We’ll just be friends again. No more kissing and wanting to have sex with you, really.”
“Um… Guys?”
I turned around. Mark was standing behind me.
“It’s time to go on,” he said hesitantly. “I got the pedal to work.”
Giovanni put his hands on my shoulders. “I’m sorry, Mark. I didn’t mean to yell at you.”
“Sure, whatever.” then he walked away.
I leaned back on Giovanni. “Please don’t do this.”
“I have to. I care too much about you to act like that again.”
I sighed, woefully disappointed, but I would rather have him in my life as a friend than not at all. “Fine,” I replied sadly.
He soon followed me to the stage. “It’s better this way. You’ll see,” he whispered in my ear just before he kissed my cheek.
I felt like we had broken up. It was so hard to ignore my heart breaking. At that moment, I knew I was in love with him. I had never felt pain and emptiness like that before. When we started to play, I closed my eyes and tried to just focus on the music, but it wasn’t easy.
“You OK?” Chad asked just before Giovanni started our second song.
I nodded and gave him a forced smile.
After our last song, I looked at Giovanni. He smiled at me, but that hurt even more. I went to the ladies’ room to get ahold of my emotions. I couldn’t let anyone know I was so upset. It took me a few minutes of crying and then a few more of fixing my face, but I felt a little better.
When I stepped out, I crashed into a huge guy. “I’m so sorry,” I immediately said. I had been looking down, so I knew it was my fault.
“Not a problem, sweetie.” The voice sounded familiar.
I looked up. It was Noah from the night before. “You work here, too?”
“Yeah, I work where they send me.” He flashed me a wide smile. “Maybe it’s fate that we met again so soon.”
It was great timing and an odd coincidence, but I wasn’t sure what to say. I looked him up and down a bit. He was built well, like Giovanni. I sighed, thinking he’d be a good replacement for him.
“So…” He looked nervous.
Chad came to us. “Where the hell have you been? I was looking everywhere for you.” He started to pull me away.
“Wait. Here.” Noah quickly handed me a business card. “Call me.” I put the card in my bra and let Chad tug me to the already-packed vans.
I went home alone. The last thing I needed was to fuck Chad again. I was mixed-up enough as it was. Right away, I undressed and I lay down on my bed naked. Then I reached over to my nightstand and grabbed the card Noah had given me. I wondered if it was a good idea to call him or not. What did I have to lose?
I turned to my belly and grabbed my phone. “Uh, Noah, did I wake you?”
“No. Good to hear your voice, Crystal,” he replied. “I have Thursday off. Do you wanna have dinner with me?”
“That would be nice, but I have to be back at Chad’s by eight. We’re playing at a club in Trenton.”
“How about I take you there after?”
“We’ll see how dinner goes.” I stifled a yawn.
Noah sighed. “You’re tired. Get some sleep. I’ll call you tomorrow after I make reservations.”
“Sorry, I had a long day.”
“ ’Night, sweetie.”
“ ’Night.”
I closed my phone and put it and the card on the table again. Then I shut my eyes and imagined what Thursday would be like.
Suddenly, I was back in the bar in Wilmington. The guy who had torn my blouse was dragging me. I cried out for Giovanni and Chad, but they couldn’t hear me. The next thing I knew, I was pinned down on the floor in an empty room and he was tearing my panties.
My eyes opened as I screamed. I was shaking, crying and terrified. It had only been a dream. I wished Giovanni were there again. I needed him.
As soon as I could talk, I called Giovanni, but got no answer. Then I called Chad. Through my tears, it was hard to speak. “Chad, I… I need you.”
“Baby, what is it?”
“Please. I’m… I’m scared.”
“Was it a dream or is someone there? Baby, you have to tell me. Are you hurt?”
“No.” I just started crying harder. “Chad…”
“Baby, I’ll be right there.”
He was at my place within 15 minutes, holding me. I was so glad he had a set of keys. I cried
for a while in his arms, clinging to him.
“Baby, it’s OK. I won’t let anything happen to you.”
I awoke very early the next morning, to Chad moaning. I had a hard time opening my eyes and was not able to grasp what was happening at first. Chad was on top of me.
“Chad, what are you doing?”
I got no response. I forced my eyes open and looked at him. He was inside of me, thrusting slowly, but his eyes were closed. He moaned again, but his expression was not like it normally was when we made love.
“Chad? Chad?” I called to him.
I moved my hips around a bit to see what he would do. He didn’t miss a beat, just kept going. Then he started going faster. I couldn’t help but moan. It felt that good. I noticed his breathing sounded the way it did when he was asleep. Could he be sleeping? But he was moaning loudly. Was it possible?
Then the question was forgotten as I felt a massive amount of pleasure inside me. Chad began driving into me so fast, I couldn’t contain how I felt inside. I started to moan and sigh. Soon after, I screamed and held onto him tightly, trembling intensely inside.
Just after my voice died down, I heard Chad whisper. “Baby…” He pulled his hips away from me and I felt my inner thigh get wet. “Baby, I needed that.” Then his whole body relaxed on me.
“Chad, you forgot the condom again,” I told him, but he didn’t respond again. “Chad… Chad… Are you sleeping?”
He didn’t move again. He had to be asleep. It was really nice to wake up that way, though. He had never done that to me before.
I was too tired to care about the mess he had made under us. I did try to get him off of me because he was heavy, but he wouldn’t budge. I sighed and let myself relax and soon was falling asleep again.
“Crystal… wake up. Baby, please.” I heard Chad’s voice in the dream I was having of Giovanni telling me he loved me.
I slowly opened my eyes. Chad was kneeling between my legs, naked. “What?” I asked, confused.
“Why is there a white stain on the bed between your legs?” he asked, looking truly baffled. “I was on top of you when I woke up. Did you take my clothes off?”
I laughed. “Please. Don’t even try telling me you don’t know what you did.” He was so sneaky sometimes. “You woke me up doing it.”
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