by Mz. Toni
“Oh my God Shante this shit bangs!”
“I told you it would be good, now go take it to them and tell them dinner will be ready soon,” I said throwing the first batch of chicken in the grease. Here I was just coming home from the damn hospital and this bitch had me cooking at my own welcome home party that her ass threw.
“Thank you so much for saving my ass,” Camille said when she came back in the kitchen.
“Why didn't you just have the shit catered like you did when I was in a coma?”
“Bitch I told you I cooked that!”
“Kasan told me what you so called cooked girl, you know you ain't make that shit,” I said laughing.
“Aight you got me, I ain't make none of that shit, but I wanted to do something special for you,” she said sadly.
“Girl I got all my people here this is perfect,” I said hugging her. After dinner was cooked Camille went to set up the table. While pulling the mac and cheese out the oven I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around me, I didn't even have to say anything because I knew my man from anywhere.
“Welcome home beautiful,” he said kissing my neck.
“Fuck you Kasan!”
“How you mad at me for being mad at you?” he asked with a smirk.
“I understand you being mad and all but ignoring my phone calls and shit that ain't cool.”
“My bad I had a lot on my mind,” he answered nonchalantly.
“So much shit on ya mind that you couldn't even check on ya girl?”
“My bad Tae baby, don't be mad at daddy,” he said showing me that sexy smile that I can never resist. Instead of giving in to his sexy ass, I grabbed the food and walked out running right into Shana and my nephews and niece.
“You came!”
“I would have never missed your welcome home party. Raymond was acting stupid so it took me a while,” she said hugging me.
“I wanna say something,” I said once everyone was seated.
“I just want to say how happy I am to have all my family new and old here. What I went through was pretty traumatic but with all this family I have I know I will get pass this soon,” I said with teary eyes.
“We love you Shante!” Camille shouted.
“I love y’all too!” I said. We all sat down and ate like a big happy family; I couldn't be happier right now. It was late as hell and my body was tired, I couldn't do too much because my body still was sore.
“You aight?” Kasan asked.
“Yeah my body is sore.”
“Aight you had enough fun it's time to go home.”
“Yeah you're right,” I said no longer mad at him. Saying my goodbyes to everyone, I took my tired ass to Kasan’s car and waited for him to finish talking to Mark. When we pulled up to the house I was nothing but smiles. I missed our home, I missed my man, I missed my bed.
“You go ahead inside Imma grab ya bags,” Kasan said kissing my forehead.
“When I walked into the house I was surprised to see everything just how I left it.”
“A nigga miss you,” Kasan said wrapping his arms around my waist.
“I miss you more!” I said kissing his sexy lips. Grabbing the back of my head, he kissed me with so much force and love it gave me chills.
“Can we talk?” I asked, taking a seat on the couch.
“Yeah what’s up?”
“Do you know who did this to me?”
“Naw but I have an idea.”
“Who?” I asked praying that he didn't kill that girl.
“Your ex,” Kasan said getting upset.
“Tre? He wouldn't hurt me.”
“He beat your ass and put you in the fucking hospital, fuck you mean he wouldn't hurt you!”
“I just know he wouldn't do no shit like that Kasan!” I said getting pissed off.
“Yeah ok, well I’ll find out sooner than later!” he said with a major attitude.
“Look the last thing I want to do is spend my first night home arguing,” I said honestly.
“Aight then, can daddy taste you?” he asked sexily.
“Do you really have to ask?” I said running upstairs. By the time Kasan reached the bedroom I was already sprawled out on the bed naked.
“Damn you wasted no time huh.”
“Hell naw and you doing too much talking, come here so I can feed you something sweet,” I said. Kasan took his clothes off and I swear I came from that alone. He must have been taking his frustrations out on the weights while I was gone cuz the nigga had ripples. Licking my lips, I continued to watch him undress; I almost drooled but I caught that shit.
“You staring at a nigga like you wanna get fucked.”
“Because I do, I ain't ashamed to admit my man eye candy,” I said while spreading my legs. Diving in, he sucked my pearl like a lollipop, causing me to shutter. He was hitting my spot continuously with his tongue. Trying to scoot back, he wrapped his arms around my thighs as he continued to devour me. Since he had me in the death grip I couldn't do shit but take all of the pleasure he was delivering until I came long and hard all over his face. Not wasting a drop, he lapped all of my juices up.
“Damn babe!” I said out of breath. This was the first time I had came in almost three months so I was drained completely.
“You good?” he asked as he laid next to me.
“Yeah just tired as hell,” I said laughing.
“Well get some rest,” he said kissing my forehead.
“You don't want to have sex?”
“We got forever to do that, I just wanted to please you.”
“That you did!” I said laughing. Cuddling up next to the love of my life, I got comfortable. It didn't take long for me to doze off.
Waking up, I looked over and didn't see Kasan next to me. Getting up I headed to the bathroom to handle my morning hygiene.
“Kasan!” I screamed down the stairs only to swear that I’d heard a baby crying.
“I'm downstairs Tae baby!” Kasan screamed back. Walking into the kitchen, I was surprised to see that Kasan had prepared a big breakfast; the table was full of all of my favorites. What surprised me even more was seeing him sitting in front of a high chair feeding a baby.
“Kasan what are you doing?”
“What does it look like I'm doing?”
“It looks like you're feeding a baby,” I said confused as hell. Moving out of the way, Kasan showed me the most beautiful baby girl that I had ever seen in my life and she looked just like me.
“You alright babe?” he asked feeling my forehead.
“Yeah I'm good I just have a headache.”
“You can go lay back down after you eat,” he said kissing my lips softly, only to have the baby burst in tears.
“Aight aight, Princess Kaliah here I come,” Kasan said to the baby. Sitting back down, he continued to feed this little girl who looked like a mixture of both me and Kasan.
“Mommyyyyy!” the little girl screamed trying to reach out to me. Getting up, I picked up my baby girl and couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes as I kissed all over her pretty face.
“She’s so beautiful Kasan!” I said as I gushed over my baby.
“Yeah she had a rough start but she’s a fighter,” he said as he grabbed her from me and walked away.
“Wait I wasn't done holding her!” I said following Kasan. When I got upstairs, he was in what looked to be a toddler’s room which confused me because our daughter was an infant.
“I'm sorry Tae baby!” he said with tears in his eyes.
“What are you sorry about and why did she have a rough start Kasan?
“You let them kill me!” a little girl screamed. It wasn't until I looked up at her did I notice she was my daughter, just older.
Waking up out of my dream in a cold sweat I couldn't do shit but cry. Why did I have this dream? Why would God allow me to see my future child only to have it turn into a nightmare?
“You aight Tae baby?” Kasan asked rubbing my back.
“No I had
the craziest dream, well nightmare.”
“Was it about the shooting?” Kasan asked nervously.
“No I dreamt that we had a daughter, she was beautiful, but then it got bad. She was older and screamed that I’d let someone kill her,” I said as tears fell freely from my eyes.
“Babe you been through a traumatic experience, it's just your body’s way of telling you to chill and rest. Everybody has nightmares, don't worry everything will be ok,” he said kissing my forehead.
“But this seemed so real Kasan, she looked like both of us,” I said trying to get him to understand where I was coming from.
“Babe you're stressed, you been through a lot maybe you should go see a doctor.”
“I'm not crazy Kasan!”
“I didn't say you were. I'm just saying the shit you went through was enough to make the toughest nigga have nightmares.”
“You're right babe, I'm sorry for waking you up.”
“Cut that shit out!” he said pulling me close to him, he held me until I fell asleep. The next morning I woke up and got ready for my breakfast date with Ms. Betty. I swear Kasan’s mother was like mine, she loved me with all her heart and I felt the same way.
“You sure you don't want me to drive you?” Kasan asked with a worried face.
“Babe, I'm good I promise.”
“I'm sayin, I know you taking meds and I don't know if you should be driving.”
“What the fuck, I'm not a baby nor am I fucking handicap!” I snapped.
“I'm trying to look out for your spoiled ass, fuck it you wanna drive ya self go head!” he screamed punching a wall.
“I'm sorry babe!” I said.
“Damn you so fucking stubborn. Can't you see I love you, a nigga just worried.”
“I know, I'm just used to doing things on my own and now I can't.”
“You gotta put ya ego to the side sometimes,” he said hugging me.
“I know babe,” I said grabbing my things and walking over to his car. I didn't want to have to wait for him to pick me up, but I know he’s only trying to help me. When we arrived at his mother’s house she was already in her car waiting for me.
“Call me when you're ready for me to come get you,” he said kissing my forehead.
“Ok I will,” I said jumping out his car.
“Yo!” he screamed out the window causing me to turn around.
“You know I love you right Tae baby!” he screamed loud as hell causing me to blush.
“I love you too daddy!” I screamed back not giving a fuck.
“Oh yeah and you working the hell out of them jeans!” he laughed before pulling off.
“Hey Mama Betty,” I said once I was in her car.
“How are you baby?”
“I'm ok, just tired.”
“You ain't get no sleep?” she asked worried. I knew I could tell her anything and she wouldn't judge me so I told her about my dream and when I was done, she had tears in her eyes.
“You know I'm old school so where I'm from dreams are signs, so pay close attention to them.”
“Thanks for not making me feel crazy like your son did, talking bout I need to talk to somebody,” I said pissed.
“Don't get me wrong, although I believe dreams really mean something, I also believe you went through a lot and maybe you do need to talk to someone.”
“Maybe I will,” I replied. Pulling up to IHOP, we both got out and headed inside.
Chapter Eleven
(Kasan)
A nigga felt fucked up last night. My girl waking up in cold sweats and having nightmares all because a bitch couldn't let me go. Now I'm on my way to see the same bitch that caused my girl to lose our child. If Shante knew that, not only did Keisha shoot her but that she was pregnant and the baby didn't make it, she would be crushed. Part of me just wanted to say fuck it and kill Keisha’s ass but the father in me couldn't bear losing another child or having my child grow up without a mother. Pulling up to Keisha’s apartment, I hopped out my truck. I swear she better be already packed cuz I ain't have time to be waiting for her to get ready, I still had to pick Shante up from my mom’s house later. Walking into Keisha’s apartment using my key I was happy to see that she had everything packed and the U Haul guys were almost done loading it.
“Hey Kasan!“ she said hugging me.
“What’s up mama?” I said pulling away from the hug.
“Nothing just excited to be starting fresh.”
“I feel that shit,” I said sitting on the couch. I wasn't sure what they were doing with that shit but the house I got her was already furnished so she was leaving everything except her clothes.
“So you promise you're gonna visit often and be in your daughter's life?” she asked while rubbing her huge belly.
“Yeah a nigga gonna do right,” I said while moving her hands and replacing them with mine.
“You know how I feel about you Kasan; I made some mistakes but who hasn't.”
“Man I love my girl, Keisha,” I said rubbing my hands over my face. I knew what she was going to say as soon as she opened her mouth.
“I love you Kasan. I'm about to have your daughter, we should be a family.”
“I don't want this shit to be complicated, I'm gonna be there for my daughter and that's it.”
“Maybe one day you’ll change your mind,” she said with a smirk.
“I know that face and I'm telling ya ass right now, don't try that crazy shit cuz I won't hesitate to put a bullet in ya fucking head!”
“So you’ll kill your child?” she asked with teary eyes.
“Hell naw, you're due to deliver any day now, I’ll murk ya ass and raise my daughter!”
“I ain't gonna try nothing Imma make you love me the right way.”
“Let’s go,” I said walking to my car, while shaking my head.
“Damn is you gonna help me in the car?” Keisha asked with her hands on her hips. We got a two hour drive; I pray to God I don't kill her ass before we get there. Helping her into my truck, I pulled off and we were on our way.
“I'm hungry Kasan!”
“We almost at a rest stop!”
“I want four chicken wings and fries,” she said rubbing her stomach.
“Keisha you gonna get whatever we pull up too!” I said turning my radio up to drown out her annoying ass voice. I ain't gonna call her a bitch cuz she carrying my seed, but her unstable ass had the nerve to turn my fucking music off.
“That shit giving me a headache.”
“Yo fuck ya head don't touch my radio!” I snapped, losing my cool.
“Why you talking to me like that!” she screamed as tears rolled down her face.
“What you crying for Kesh?”
“You hate me don't you?” she said still crying. Her face looked mad ugly and you couldn't tell me all that screaming and crying didn't have her breath smelling like ass.
“Naw I don't hate you, you know how I am about my radio, you doing too much just chill.”
“Ok I'm sorry, I’ll eat wherever you stop at,” she said finally starting to make some damn sense. I knew she was my baby mom but I ain't like her ass no more so it was real hard for me to cater to her slimy ass.
“Naw I'm sure I can find somewhere to get ya big ass some chicken and fries,” I said laughing.
“Fuck you once this baby come my body gon bounce right back,” she replied with an attitude.
“Yeah aight,” I said pulling up to a diner.
“I hope they got something I like,” she said once we entered the diner. After we were seated she took forever to find something she actually wanted, I was just ready to drop her picky whiny ass off.
“I want the blueberry pancakes, bacon fried hard, eggs scrambled with cheese, oh and the hash browns with fried onions and cheese,” she said giving the waitress her menu.
“I’ll take the same thing but you can axe out the sausage and add turkey bacon on both orders,” I said giving her my menu.
