Coroner's Journal

by Louis Cataldie

  Hurricane Rita complicated things for everybody. Just as we were pumping dry from Katrina, Rita came and reopened the wound—gangrenous at that—so we will go back into the sludge and try to get our dead and help our state heal and reunite our people with their loved ones.

  As Rita approached, I had twenty-eight trucks tied together at the forty-acre morgue site—they were full of human remains. It had been suggested that they be moved, but I elected to keep them here rather than have a macabre caravan of dead bodies go north.

  STRESS TEST

  Some do-gooder chaplain invaded my personal space one evening. I was taking a few minutes to revive myself, enjoying a sloppy joe—army rations, in fact, an MRE, meal ready to eat. Quite fitting, now that I think about it, because this is as bad as any battle scene. Anyway, this chaplain comes up and sits a little too close for me to enjoy my slop. What bugs me is he’s so clean—clean shirt, clean pants, clean fingernails, his hair neatly combed. He sits down right next to me. I’m on a bench, and trying to go blank for a few minutes, just to get the images out of my head for a while. He interrupts me.

  “How are you holding up?” he want to know.

  He gives me that TV evangelical smile—I wonder if he practices it in front of the mirror—and I am instantly irritated by his very existence.

  Cool it, Lou, I tell myself. This is exactly what the guy wants.

  Against my every natural urge, I’m nice, because if I go off, I’m going to really go off, and this guy would misinterpret it as affirmation of his intuitive worth. You know, the kind of guy who goes back and tells his buddies how much stress I was under and how he was blessed to be there for me. He’d be wrong. While he mumbles his rhetoric, I wonder how the hell he’s so dry out here in the heat and humidity. You know, I’ve met lots of chaplains out here, and some are here for the right reasons and some are here for themselves. This guy was not the real thing, so I brushed him off. Get the fuck away from me.

  Give me the real guy who has reddened eyelids and no smile and smells of death because that’s what he’s been around all day and he’s got the look and his face is greasy and his sunburnt pores are clogged because he dares not wipe his face because his hands have been in gloves and he may have touched places that harbor disease from the wet sewage. He knows the deal, and he says, “Let me know if you need to talk.” He pauses and adds, “I do.” Give me that guy any day. He’s the one out in the shit with me—he knows.

  This day started off at the morgue, the biggest in the world, I am told, then off to the Joint Field Office ( JFO), with all the politics there, then a visit to a proposed cemetery site, then a review of public record policy, then helping local leaders in Cameron Parish, then debriefing on same, then back to the morgue and more problems re Katrina versus Rita damage, then conversations with various state and U.S. senators regarding missing persons, then prepping for an interview with the press. It’s been a long one.

  PRESS HERE

  I repeatedly refused to speculate on the body count, nor can I understand the media’s gruesome obsession with it. It is almost always the first question in every interview, and in some ways, the least relevant. I thought I would lose it with a reporter who had the temerity to ask if the body count would match that of the World Trade Center terrorist attacks. Who thinks like that?

  I don’t lie to the press. I strive to be polite, but I am direct. And I am amazed sometimes that they let me in front of a camera. This is how one interview with a correspondent from the Australian Broadcasting Corporation ended:

  REPORTER: There’s been talk of upwards of 10,000 bodies. I understand you’ve set up a morgue for 5,000 in St. Gabriel, can you tell me how big you believe your operation is going to be?

  LC: Number one, we’re worried about the individual and not about the number, and if there are 500 individuals, we will treat them as individuals. If there are 1,000 individuals, we will treat them as individuals. I don’t know how many individuals we’re going to find, I don’t know how many family members we’re going to find. We certainly have prayed for the dead and we’re preparing for the worst, and if it’s 1,000, or if it’s five, we’re going to do the right thing, so I don’t want to speculate on numbers. As far as I’m concerned, until a body comes to my morgue I will not count that individual as a victim, because I just don’t know. So I’m not going to speculate or guess on numbers, but I will tell you, yeah, I’m prepared for 5,000, but I certainly hope that doesn’t happen.

  The press has been both a help and a hindrance. There have been many questions about crime down here. My crew and I have been inundated with false reports. I heard stories of euthanasia, women being raped, people murdered. Police were supposedly in shoot-outs inside shelters after the storm.

  When the smoke cleared and the water receded, four deaths by gunshot wounds were initially confirmed in New Orleans after Katrina. To put that in perspective, four’s a typical week in the Big Easy. So while the press deserves credit for arriving at the disaster scene before the federal government did, I nonetheless fault the national media for not following up more aggressively on any of these rumors. Too often they simply accepted rumor as fact. As I told one reporter, “It’s not consistent with the highest standards of journalism.” In total, ten corpses were recovered from the Louisiana Superdome—contrary to urban legend, not one was a homicide.

  DMORT

  The tiny town of St. Gabriel, where we are based, was named after the archangel who in the Bible bears good news to people. Gabriel first appears in the Hebrew Bible in the book of Daniel. He is the messenger of God. He has high standing in the Christian faith for having announced the coming of Jesus; some Christians believe his horn will signal the second coming of Christ. In Islam, he is credited with revealing the Koran to Muhammad. He spans many faiths. What better guardian for the Disaster Portable Morgue Unit (DPMU)?

  The town is now temporary headquarters for the Louisiana branch of the Disaster Mortuary Operational Recovery Team (DMORT), a mobile disaster squad made up of medical examiners, pathologists, and funeral directors from all over. (There is another in Gulfport, Mississippi.) DMORT was set up so that experts in nearby cities, acting on behalf of the federal government, could quickly relieve overwhelmed local resources in a disaster.

  When a body comes through this morgue, it is decontaminated and assigned an ID number, along with an escort who will follow the body through this laborious but necessary process. A forensic pathologist will thoroughly examine the victim for any signs of foul play. To the husbands, wives, brothers, sisters, and children of the deceased, I can assure you: No one will get away with anything on my watch.

  At another station, forensic dental experts take photographs and X-rays of the victim’s teeth. DNA samples are also taken. Bodies and personal effects are stored in a refrigeration truck until final ID and family notification are made.

  The causes of death vary. Many are drownings. We also see chronic illnesses, predisposing illness, ventilator-dependent patients who died when electricity was lost, not to mention acute myocardial infarctions related to the stress and the trauma. Each body that comes in is a worst-case scenario for the victim, the family, and the coroner: there’s nothing worse than somebody’s dying like this.

  Families of missing persons call into the Family Assistance Center (FAC) on a daily basis. We’ve had over 16,000 calls and more than 10,000 missing persons entered into the database. Where are they? Some are in the morgue, unidentified. Some have washed into the river and the gulf, some may be in the marshes, some may be in their flooded homes awaiting their family’s arrival. What a horribly traumatic event, to go back to a flooded home and find the decomposing human remains of a loved one there.

  They find their bodies in the toxic sludge, under furniture that floated about and under the drywall ceilings that crashed down on top of them. Why weren’t they found during the searches? For lots of reasons, there is no one answer. I am relegated by those reasons to the position of trying to control the damag
e those families experience. I have been in the field talking to them. It sucks!

  There have been problems with the DMORT database. It wasn’t set up to handle missing persons and fatalities scattered over an area the size of Great Britain. I’m told it’s held together with high-tech Band-Aids. I’m not even sure what that means.

  The FAC members collect all the information on an eight-page form. They list the surgeries, prosthetic devices, unique characteristics, tattoos, and personal effects of the victims. Visual identification is a rarity, owing to the condition of the bodies. There will be no open-casket funerals. I need dental records, but many were destroyed in the flood. We send dental teams out into the flooded offices to try to salvage any records. We take photos of the victims’ mouths and show them to family members for identification. Forensic dentists match pictures of smiling victims to their dental photos and X-rays here at the morgue. I always have one of the Victim Relief chaplains here for support when we do this. Such reality without compassion is indeed brutality.

  I see those victims smiling back at me in those family photos. I hear them say, “Find me and send me home.”

  Fingerprints are great tools if you can get them, but the sludge and the water and the time and the animals have not been kind to these bodies. In short, some don’t have fingers for us to print.

  We have the same problem with medical records. Many doctors’ offices and hospitals are flooded and out of commission. We have taken total body X-rays on all the victims. I hold a chest X-ray up to the light and look at the wire pattern in the sternum of an elderly man found at a certain address. He’s had coronary bypass surgery. I have a lead. If I had his old chest X-ray, I could match that wire pattern and make a solid identification. Alas, the X-ray has suffered the same fate as the dental X-rays. We will not give up, we will continue the search. Every day I sit in the “IR” trailer with DMORT investigators, radiologists, forensic pathologists, and forensic dentists. Every day we try to reunite the deceased with their families. DMORT isn’t some federal bureaucracy, DMORT is people—dedicated people.

  There are a lot of dead folks here, and a lot of families wanting to know whether their missing loved ones are among the deceased. One of the most crucial and difficult parts of the job is to notify the families of victims and deal with their immense grief. Compunding the grief are the facts that families aren’t able to view the bodies quickly, and that the bodies aren’t released to the families fast enough. It’s excruciating for relatives, but there is just no way I can speed the meticulous work of identifying the dead and preserving evidence of possible crimes.

  As I told reporters on national television, “We won’t take anybody out of the rotation or the process. To take one person out would corrupt the process.” And so when folks say, “Can we speed up the process?” the answer is, unfortunately, no.

  STAYING SANE

  People always ask me how I stay sane doing what I do. I’m not sure what “sane” means in this profession, but it does take an emotional toll. I sometimes wonder whether maybe I’ve brushed shoulders so often with Charon, that mythological ferryman of the dead, that it’s caused me to question the very nature of humankind. There’s a fine line between healthy skepticism and jaundiced cynicism.

  If there’s one thing that’s helped me walk that line, it’s the fact that I’ve kept a personal journal, starting in the coroner’s office of East Baton Rouge Parish in 1993. I wrote whenever it struck me, jotting notes in the field and later sketching images on a small pad as I remembered them. These were not sketches of any forensic value, but nuances that stayed with me for some reason. I wrote in my journal mostly at night, especially after a particularly troubling autopsy or a visit to an unsettling crime scene, when neither a soft pillow nor the comfort of DeAnn, my loving wife and partner, could induce slumber. The journal is about how the lives—and untimely deaths—of the people I investigated crossed my path, and how I tried to bring order and integrity to the aftermath.

  I’ve become quite aware of the importance of these private journals because, since Katrina, I’ve been unable to keep up the practice to the degree I’d become accustomed. I simply haven’t had the time. Other than the occasional flurry of midnight e-mails (from which this chapter evolved), I’ve been without my usual coping mechanism to process these experiences privately. The burden then falls, even more than usual, to De and Michael, whom I’ve barely seen in weeks and weeks. I miss them more than I can say.

  Michael, my youngest son, is another reason for keeping these journals. I want him to be able to understand what was going on in his family during his formative years. How many eleven-year-olds go tracking across the shopping mall to decribe the “splatter pattern” of a leaky garbage can that has been moved across the floor? “Look, Dad, they stopped here for a second—see how the drops fell straight down? They started back up this way, and hey, look, over here they started speeding up. I guess they figured out they had a leak, huh?” Kids do tend to listen to our conversations, don’t they? Michael once accused me of going to the movies without him—he found trace evidence of a popcorn hull on me. Actually, I was innocent: I had had popcorn at the office earlier. At any rate, I just want to give him some perspective as he wanders down life’s road and takes his place in society. He may find it helpful later to reflect on how my years on the job affected him.

  As coroner, I have served as the state’s official witness to the worst that humanity has to offer. I’ve investigated some of the most despicable crimes and violent deaths imaginable, have held the limp bodies of innocent children. Nothing, not even the profound inhumanity of serial killers like Derrick Todd Lee and Lee Boyd Malvo and John Allen Muhammad, can compare to the sheer devastation of Katrina and Rita. Yet in many ways, it seems that everything I’ve done in my professional life has been training for these last terrible weeks. The stories that come later in this book trace my evolution not just as a doctor but as a human being. The people I met, the families I counseled, the mistakes I made, the crimes I helped solve—these were my training ground, I see now, for the biggest challenge of my life.

  I didn’t have a survivor’s guide when I got into the coroner business. I certainly could have used one, though. I don’t think one exists. Maybe this will help some of the other folks who get into this vocation and have to deal with and reconstruct the details of a person’s final minutes or moments before death comes.

  Be forewarned. This book is no CSI: Cajun Country. I’m not a polished movie star, we don’t rely on special effects, and the stories of the people who are left holding the pieces can’t fit neatly into a one-hour episode. It’s about emotional survival on the battlefield of death investigation. Death will walk with us.

  On the surface my job seems quite simple. I pursue the cause, time, and manner of death. My responsibilities are to the deceased, the survivors, and society at large. There are times when I feel it is the survivors who suffer the longest if not the most. The violent or unexpected death of a close friend or loved one can shake the foundations of a person’s existence. Some of those left behind in the aftermath of a death may suffer from pathological grief disorders or post-traumatic stress disorder. They live with recurring nightmares and intrusive thoughts that can plunge them downward into an abyss of severe depression and hopelessness.

  And as a coroner, I, too, have tasted from that deadly cup. At times, I’ve come away from crime scenes and autopsies with a tainted worldview: tainted by anger that I strive not to bring home; tainted by skepticism turned to cynicism; tainted by fear. That taint has been lessened in part by people like Caron Whitesides and Wanda Hebert, who have worked with me for years and shown me how to salvage some good from the bad.

  There is a truth I accept on this matter: If you don’t deal with a horrible or traumatic event, it will deal with you. There is no escape. In recent weeks I’m having trouble taking my own advice. I accept the reality of the situation, do my duty to the best of my ability, and deal with the emotional consequence
s.

  NOT OVER YET

  I have witnessed unbelievably selfless acts from fellow coroners, rescue workers, and medical teams from around the country. I have been inspired by the downright unflappable spirit of the people around Cameron and the natives of New Orleans—it makes me proud to be from Louisiana. But there is no solace when you look at the hurt in the eyes of the survivors. It is my obligation to do it right; 99 percent is a failing grade. The feds will go away, but I will not.

  What went wrong? Why weren’t the local, state, and federal governments prepared to cope with a hurricane or disaster of this magnitude? I’m sure politicians will appoint committees to investigate, as well they should, and the blame will fly faster than the mud in a political race down here. I sure as hell can’t explain it—truth is, I’m not even going to try, at least not here. All I want to do here is to assure the survivors that dignity for the dead is my only agenda.

  Finally, I ask readers to forgive such an incomplete accounting. There aren’t words invented yet to describe the depth of despair—or courage—in this corner of the world I love so much. No one person can attempt to tell this story. And it is not over yet.

  Gotta go.

  —Lou Cataldie

  September 29, 2005

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  Coroner