A Mating of Hawks

by Jeanne Williams

  Yes, they had called her that, little maiden, and they’d sung “Las Mañanitas” under her window on the dawns of her birthdays, because this had always been done for daughters of the house. She was no maiden anymore, though she realized with dismay that she was the youngest of the family who had grown up at the ranch, since neither Judd nor Shea had yet produced children. The branches of the clan living in Phoenix and ranching in the Verde River country east of Prescott had gradually built up allegiance to their own locations and didn’t stay in touch.

  “I’ll go see Chuey and Anita tomorrow,” she promised. “And now, Don Patrick, shall I play for you a little?”

  He patted her hand and his smile dragged at the lax side of his face. “You remember some of the old family songs?”

  “If I lose the words, you help me.”

  Perching on a stool where she could watch him and still gaze out where the majestic timbered rise of the Santa Ritas faded to purple, she hummed and tuned, closing her eyes to bring back words she’d grown up with but hadn’t heard in years.

  The double-branding of Patrick O’Shea who endured the searing iron to ransom Talitha’s baby brother from the Apaches; the valiant women, Socorro and Tjúni, who killed the ravaging scalp-hunters and earned the protection of the great Mimbreño, Mangus Coloradas; the ballad “Ay, Caterina!” told how the daughter born at the cost of Socorro’s life had loved James-Fierro all her brief years and died with him along the Verde. From this tender lament, Tracy launched into the irreverent Wobbly songs Johnny Chance had played on this same guitar and wondered what genes of his, surviving in her, responded to the music.

  “Long-haired preachers come out every night,

  Try to tell you what’s wrong and what’s right;

  But when asked how about something to eat

  They will answer with voices so sweet:

  You will eat, bye and bye,

  In that glorious land above the sky;

  Work and pray, live on hay,

  You’ll get pie in the sky when you die.”

  A hand closed on her shoulder. “Damned if you don’t make that old ‘I Won’t Work’ propaganda sound real good!” chuckled Judd. “But you’re going to have bleeding fingers if you don’t toughen them gradually. Let me play awhile.”

  Without waiting for her assent, he slipped the strap over her head and settled on a footstool that left his tawny head close to her knee. The warm brush of his hands had sent a slow, sensuous shock through Tracy; his proximity kept an electric awareness pulsating with every beat of her heart.

  What was happening to her anyway? Was her body rebelling against her long celibacy or was it that both these distant cousins of hers aroused some deep, primitive hunger that other men didn’t reach? She must be careful, very careful. She’d come here for peace, not passion. Above all, she mustn’t get caught up in anything that would make it difficult to stay with Patrick as long as he needed her.

  Still, she couldn’t keep from watching Judd’s fingers thrum the strings, caress the guitar that curved like a woman’s breasts and hips with the narrow waist between. If he touched her that skillfully—

  Her cheeks grew hot. She wrenched her eyes away, but not before his lion’s eyes caught them and his long mouth curved into a smile.

  “Do not look for me along the highway,” he sang in Spanish. “Look for me along the shortcut—” He was still singing love songs when Vashti came in with that clicking Patrick had mentioned, and regarded the three of them with asperity.

  “That might all be very nice if I could understand it.” She took the guitar from Judd and put it on a chest. “Be a darling, Judd, and make us all a drink.”

  Lazily, he moved over to the bar. “Just tomato juice for me,” Tracy requested.

  “Don’t spoil my tequila with a bunch of ice,” growled Patrick.

  Vashti took Judd’s seat and clasped her perfectly manicured hands about her knees in a way that pulled her dark green velvet caftan tight across the curves of her high, full breasts, further defined by the heavy antique silver medallion resting between them.

  “I hope all this troubadouring hasn’t exhausted you, love,” she said to her husband.

  “It sure beats listening to recordings, or thinking about how danged useless I am!”

  “Patrick! You’re getting better all the time. Doctor Garth thinks you can start sitting up in a wheelchair any day you feel up to it.”

  “God damn a wheelchair.”

  Vashti flushed. When she spoke, her voice was taut and brittle. “That’s right, Patrick. Feel sorry for yourself. See how hard you can make it on those of us who’re trying to take care of you.”

  It was clear he was no easy patient. Though Tracy’s sympathies were all with him, she reluctantly had to admit that Vashti was in a trying position. Judd handed his father a drink, snapping the tension, and turned the mechanism that lifted the upper third of the bed so that Patrick was able to swallow.

  Patrick took a swift draught and shifted his good leg. “Sorry, baby,” he told Vashti. “I’m getting mean as a rattler in August that can’t shed his skin. I can’t get all worked up about straddling a wheelchair, but bring one up here tomorrow and I’ll try.”

  Rising gracefully, she kissed his cheek, though it seemed to Tracy that she hesitated for a second, as if having to nerve herself. Well, that was natural. Something in healthy people instinctively wished to avoid sickness or disfigurement, probably out of unconscious fear that the same thing could happen to them.

  “Thank you, darling,” she said, and resumed her seat, accepting the martini Judd handed her. Giving Tracy her juice with a teasing smile, he fetched his own Scotch and raised it in a flourish.

  “Here’s to Tracy’s homecoming!”

  “We’ve already drunk to that,” Vashti said with some annoyance.

  Judd’s mocking stare subdued her jewel-green one. “I haven’t,” he reminded. Bowing to Tracy, his eyes had the sheen of the rich whisky in his glass. “Salud, cousin. Pesetas y amor y tiempo gozarlos.” Money, love, and time to enjoy them.

  “The same to you,” she laughed, then frowned as she discovered that he’d mixed a strong jolt of vodka into her drink.

  He laughed boyishly. “Just couldn’t do it, Tracy! Breaks every law of hospitality and proper welcoming of prodigal daughters.”

  “This once,” she said, smiling, though there was an edge to her voice. “In future, though, please give me what I ask for.”

  He sipped his drink, savoring it as he watched her. “But what if you don’t ask for a few things I know you’d like mighty well?”

  “I’d rather have what I choose than something I might like better that was foisted on me.”

  “The perversity of woman!”

  “Free will.”

  He laughed caressingly. “Guess we can be thankful you haven’t cut off your pretty nose to spite your face!” Patrick moved restlessly and Judd refilled his glass.

  “You boys work out something on the El Charco lease?” Patrick demanded.

  “Shea plays the same old record. Dump a thousand head.”

  Patrick’s good hand clenched on his glass. “Can’t figure what’s got into that kid!”

  “Comes from getting all scientific. Hell, he’s had the nerve to map a survey of the whole ranch with recommended uses—a real fancy plan. Only trouble is, we’d go out of the cattle business.”

  “He talked to me about it,” Patrick said slowly. The live side of his face contorted as he turned toward the window, out of which he was powerless to see. “Is the range in as bad a shape as he says, Judd?”

  “It’s dry,” Judd admitted. “But a few good rains’ll bring it back. You’ve pulled through enough drouths to know the answer isn’t to sell at a loss every time it gets dry.” He hesitated as if trying to sense his father’s set of mind. “Dad, like I’ve told you, there’s another way to go. Sell off some of that worn-out land along the highway. Use the proceeds to put in an irrigation system.” Judd spread h
is hands expansively. “We could grow enough alfalfa to feed our herds in bad years, and in good years we could sell it.”

  “That’d take a lot of water.”

  Judd grunted impatiently. “That’s why they’re putting in the Central Arizona Project, running Colorado River water over this way.”

  Tracy frowned. “I’ve heard the Colorado River’s already overcommitted. Anyway, don’t the Papagos have first claim on CAP water since Tucson, the mines, and agribusiness have taken so much of their water?”

  “If the Colorado dries up, we’ll get it from someplace else,” Judd said confidently.

  “You sound just like the farmers I interviewed up around Lubbock in West Texas,” Tracy remarked. Raised in an arid region, she knew water was life, and Judd’s careless talk made her angry though she kept her tone even. “They got a water depletion allowance, just like that on oil, since everyone knew groundwater would be used up in time. Now that it’s happening, they want the government to bail them out—have other taxpayers foot the cost of pumping water uphill from the Mississippi.”

  “Hey, now!” protested Judd. “The Ogallala aquifer underlies those high plains!”

  “Sure. Fossil water from thousands of years ago. Do you know its rate of recharge?”

  “What’s that got to do with us?”

  “The whole West is in the same position, pumping groundwater that can’t be replaced.” Tracy went over to stand by her great-uncle, rest her hand on his shoulder. “Patrick, the Ogallala recharges from a quarter-inch to a half-inch yearly! There’s not enough surface water in all of Texas to supply West Texas growers at their present rate of use. Even if there were, the cost of delivery would be exorbitant. I’m not too familiar with Arizona’s problems, but I do know agri-business uses ninety percent of the water. It has to be crazy to grow high-water-volume crops where water’s so scarce and costs so much.”

  “You’ve sure been to the city!” Judd snapped. “The country’s got to eat.”

  She had done an article on that, too, and was able to say with sweet reasonableness, “The question is, how long can we squander the grains many peoples live on in feeding up meat animals?”

  Patrick’s blind eyes glared at her. “Well, Tracy girl, as long as I got a tooth to chew with, I’m having my beef three times a day!” The glare switched to his son. “You’re saying that land along the road’s so poor we ought to get rid of it. Maybe there’s something to what Shea argues.”

  “Those pastures closest to the old ranch house got the heaviest use for years,” Judd said with bitter patience. “They’re not typical of Socorro range.”

  “They’re the heart of the home place. I want them brought back to grass.”

  “But that’ll take years!”

  “I don’t care if it takes till hell freezes over!” Patrick dragged the paralyzed side of himself higher by hitching up the half that could move. “Some of our family’s going to live in the old house again, and they’re going to look out at good grass, not some damn beehive development!”

  “But, darling—” began Vashti.

  Patrick said grimly, “I’ve heard the last word I’m going to about selling any part of the Socorro.”

  Stalking to the window, Judd kept his back turned. When he spoke, his voice was strained. “You want me to quit as your manager, Dad?”

  “Don’t talk like a damn fool!”

  “You’re tying my hands. You won’t let me do what it takes to keep the ranch going.”

  Patrick considered. At last he said wearily, “You’re the manager, Judd. Sell cattle if we need to. Buy feed. Try to lease or buy more land. Sell off stocks for financing, or we’ll unload some real estate. But we hold onto the land.”

  “Of all the pig-headed medieval ideas!” Vashti burst out. “Sacrificing valuable assets when you could get a fabulous price for used-up land with an old hovel!”

  Judd swung to cross over and place a warning hand on her shoulder, roughly, without looking to see how she took his wordless rebuke.

  “You’re the boss, Dad.” His tone was conciliating. “I’ll do the best I can. And I’m going to start by getting Shea’s lease revoked.”

  Tracy felt the old man sag against her, then say, “The boy’s got wild notions. But son, I hate to see you two fall out.”

  “We’re bound to have it out sometime.”

  Patrick sighed. “Maybe you could honey up the medicine by giving him a free hand with the pastures around the home place.”

  “You talk to him about that, Dad.” Judd’s face hardened. “Reckon the less Shea and I see of each other, the better, at least till this lease thing gets settled.”

  Patrick slumped completely in his pillows. Tracy bent to make him more comfortable. “Get me another drink,” he said. “I want to get to sleep.”

  Judd filled his glass. Patrick gripped Tracy’s hand. “I liked your singing, honey. Good to have you back.”

  “It’s good to be here.”

  She kissed him, wishing desperately she could give him some of her youth and strength and sight. Pitiful that the wife and sons who should be easing his mind seemed locked into conflicts that were bound to prey on him. Maybe her comparative neutrality would be a comfort.

  He squeezed her hand in dismissal. She left the guitar and started down the curving stairs.

  Vashti and Judd stood near the bottom, the man towering over the shapely woman. Vashti’s gaze flew up to Tracy. “We dress for dinner,” she announced. “Henri gets cross if we don’t sit down promptly at seven.”

  Tracy considered it ludicrous to gear one’s life around the timetables of those hired to make it easier, thought with nostalgia of the days before Vashti when Concha shouted that meals were ready and the bunk-house vaqueros ate with the family.

  Nodding at her hostess, she returned Judd’s baffled stare of appraisal. Evidently, he belonged to the sort of man who felt persecuted and subtly betrayed when a woman knew inconvenient facts.

  “I enjoyed your singing,” she told him.

  He laughed. Assurance restored, he said with endearing swagger, “Cousin, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet!”

  She felt him watching her as she moved across the huge room. This consciousness injected a flowing grace into her walk though she controlled the swaying of her hips. Judd, like Shea, was supremely masculine—and he liked women. Yet it was Shea she thought about as she stripped for her shower.

  Why was he so hostile? Still blaming all women because his wife had ditched him? That happened too much for anyone to parade around years later with his bleeding heart pinned to his sleeve. Like that mugging. She couldn’t keep it from happening, but it was in her power now to fight the terror, master the experience instead of letting it dominate her. This was the ideal place to subdue that nightmare, in the protective atmosphere of her home, with Patrick’s needs to respond to.

  And a couple of handsome, very distant cousins? If only they didn’t seem set on a collision course! Stepping out of the shower, she toweled till her skin glowed, and surveyed her clothes.

  She hadn’t brought anything Vashti would consider dressy, but one side of the armoire was filled with long skirts, lacy or embroidered blouses, and colorful Mexican and Guatemalan lounging gowns. Choosing a simple white drawstring blouse, she slipped on her favorite skirt, black-and-white coarse Mexican cotton, its extravagantly full hem trimmed with a wide band of scalloped black lace.

  Her hair was too short for elaboration but brushing brought soft waves to a sheen. Her married lover had called her Rapunzel and loved to lock his fingers in her hair. When she’d gotten rid of him, she’d had her hair cut, too. Maybe it was time to let it grow again.

  Her old jewelry chest yielded the black coral earrings and oval pendant she’d always liked with the skirt.

  Smoothing the dark eyebrows that winged up questioningly above eyes that had been called sherry or amber, or now, by Geronimo, the shade of mesquite honey, she glossed her lips and left her room just as the clock struck seven.


  Excellent vichyssoise, superb green salad, glorified pot roast, coffee and glazed strawberry cake. Lit by candles, the big table looked even larger, and the room rather like a cave except for the gleam of gilt picture frames. Vashti seemed abstracted but Judd took the opportunity to quiz Tracy.

  “Wasn’t it a drag, busting yourself to write stuff that went into a paper you knew would just be used to wrap the garbage?”

  “Recycled, I hope,” she returned, smiling, though he’d hit a sore spot. “I never expected anyone to frame my articles, but I did a few that I hope made an impression. Like the one on West Texas water.”

  He gave her a wary look, but Vashti set down her crystal wine goblet with some violence. “My God, Tracy, I hope that sanctimonious do-gooder streak in your branch of the family isn’t surfacing in you! We’ve got troubles enough without a resident Ralph Nader.”

  That slur on her family sent a rush of anger through Tracy. “Corny as it sounds, I prefer good to bad,” she said. “I think the only chance we have is to work for what we believe in.”

  Vashti groaned. Judd’s eyes glowed yellow as he leaned forward. “Now there we agree! Tell me, cousin, don’t you think people have a right to defend themselves from thugs and gangs that rob, murder and rape?”

  Could he know what had happened to her? She hadn’t told anyone but the authorities in Houston and her lawyer. His words brought back that moment of helpless dread when she’d been choked past consciousness, and her voice flamed with outrage.

  “Of course I think people should defend themselves! But it’d help more to try to get at causes.” Like not releasing a dangerous psychotic with his own little supply of downers. Or perpetuating poverty, hopelessness, racist injustice and a system that turned prisons into costly grad schools for crime rather than supplying job training and opportunities before people went wrong.

  Judd ignored her proviso. “Then I’m doing something I think you’d be mighty interested in. It would at least give you a good feature.”

  “What?”

  “I’d rather show you.” His smile lingered on her mouth, traced the curve of her shoulders and breasts, making a sort of sweet warmth tingle through her. “There’s a moon. Care for a stroll?”