This Day all Gods Die: The Gap into Ruin

by Stephen R. Donaldson

  “Not a good one, Mr. President,” she admitted tiredly. If she hadn’t sworn an oath as Warden’s Director of Protocol, she might have been tempted to concede defeat. “I’ve simply been trying to save time by telling the whole story as I know it. To help the Council make informed decisions.”

  But she had sworn an oath. And Warden had staked his life aboard Calm Horizons to save these people. In spite of her despair, she couldn’t bear to back down while there was still something, anything, she might say.

  Before President Len—or the FEA—could continue, she added, “And, frankly, I had hoped the evidence I need would have arrived by now.”

  “What evidence?” Cleatus sneered like vitriol. “From whom?”

  Koina confronted him squarely, her anger swelling to match his. “From Hashi Lebwohl. From UMCPED Chief of Security Mandich. They’re investigating these recent kazes.”

  In response he brandished his beard at her like a club. He’d been practicing innocence for a long time. He was good at it. “My God, this is unconscionable! Are you going to blame that on Holt Fasner, too?”

  She didn’t try to stop. She didn’t want to. Risking what was left of her credibility, she snapped, “Yes, I am. I believe he sent those kazes. I believe he’s the one who wants to confuse this Council. And I believe he’ll do worse if he isn’t stopped.”

  Her charge may have sounded like lunacy to everyone else; but Cleatus was ready for it. His PCR gave him information and advice she couldn’t hear. The baldness of her accusation didn’t make him falter for a second.

  Wheeling away from President Len, he proclaimed, “Members, we’ve had too much of this farrago. Director Hannish has made a shambles of this session.

  “But it won’t go on like this. That’s a fact, not a challenge. I’ve just been informed”—he indicated the receiver in his ear—“that CEO Fasner has relieved Acting Director Donner of her duties.

  “Because the CEO doesn’t believe the Amnion will ever let a man as valuable as Warden Dios go, no matter what kind of deal he makes with them, Director Dios will be replaced. A new director will be named shortly. And I’m sure one of his first actions will be to put a stop to Director Hannish’s malfeasance.”

  Koina winced in shock. Involuntarily she flung a look at her techs; mouthed the words, Is that true?

  One of the women had the blessed presence of mind to rise to her feet. “Director Hannish”—only a slight quaver marred her voice—“we’ve received a report from UMCPHQ Center. On your dedicated downlink.”

  “What does it say?” Koina asked quickly.

  The tech cleared her throat. “Acting Director Donner has refused to be relieved.” Her tone grew stronger as she summarized Center’s transmission. “According to the terms of the UMCP charter, her authority derives from the director. She insists that Holt Fasner has no right to relieve her. He must first replace Director Dios. But Director Dios can’t be fired without due notification. This is especially true under conditions of war. Since Director Dios hasn’t been replaced, Director Donner has refused CEO Fasner’s orders.”

  At once the woman sat down as if she wanted to get out of the crossfire.

  Thank God! Abruptly Koina’s knees started trembling again. She leaned an elbow on the podium to support herself.

  Cleatus didn’t contradict the tech. Obviously he knew her information was accurate: his PCR had already given him the same news. Instead he protested savagely, “That’s not our fault. For the last twenty-four hours he’s refused to speak to Mr. Fasner. And now the Amnion are holding him incommunicado. We’ve done everything we can to give him notification.”

  “But the point is”—Koina offered a bitter smile—“that Director Dios has not been fired. Under the circumstances, UMCPHQ has lawfully refused to recognize any authority except Min Donner’s.

  “Why did you lie to us, Mr. Fane? Did you think you could bluff your way out of this?”

  But Cleatus was ready for that, too. His downlink from UMCHO seemed to cover everything. Without pausing to collect himself, he blared at the Council, “If I hadn’t been interrupted, I would have told you what you just heard. The point isn’t that Dios hasn’t been fired. It’s that he’s blocked CEO Fasner’s lawful authority at every turn.

  “Do you need more proof? Do you have to be hit by proton cannon fire before you recognize the treason here? Warden Dios has betrayed his office. He’s betrayed the UMCP. He’s betrayed humankind. How many more crimes have to come to light before you do something about it?”

  “Like what?” Koina demanded so that Sixten would have an opening. “What do you think the Council should do, exactly?”

  The old captain didn’t hesitate. His voice quavering with age and urgency, he pronounced, “Pass my Bill of Severance. Now. While we still can. Take the cops away from the UMC so they won’t be influenced by a man like Holt Fasner.”

  Fane shook his head brutally. “That’s not good enough.” He seemed to be prepared for everything. “It leaves Warden Dios free to do what he wants. I have a better idea.

  “This Council should decharter the UMCP. Right here, right now. Revoke their existence. Then recharter them with somebody else as director. My God,” he cried, “anybody else! If you actually believe any of this shit about Holt Fasner”—his scorn rang off the walls—“you can give Captain Vertigus the job.” He flung a gesture like a blow at Sixten. “It doesn’t matter. Only staying alive matters. And putting an end to these lies.”

  When she looked around the room, saw the dismay and dread on the faces of the Members, Koina had no doubt which proposal they would accept. They were too troubled, too unsure, too scared to reject the power of the Dragon.

  And Warden was lost.

  MORN

  The quiet she experienced when she made the decision to trust Angus with her son’s life, and Warden Dios’, comforted her; but it didn’t last long. First came a rush of activity as everyone hurried to their places: Captain Ubikwe, Vector, and Davies with the command module; Angus, Ciro, and Mikka aboard Trumpet; Min Donner, Punisher’s duty officers, and Morn herself on the auxiliary bridge. Then followed the tense work of detaching the module and releasing Trumpet. Min stood impatiently at the communications station while Cray routed Center’s transmissions to her PCR and throat pickup. Patrice activated the helm console swiftly. Restored to his post at last, Glessen ran targ with grim satisfaction. Porson and Bydell working together brought up the main displays—scan schematics, orbit and course vectors, targ windows—and added blips for the command module and Trumpet as Dolph began transporting the gap scout along his cautious route toward Calm Horizons.

  Among them Morn settled into the command g-seat. The auxiliary bridge felt like a completely different place than the one she’d just left: oriented differently in Punisher’s deceleration g; with different sounds and pressures. And the air was colder for some reason. It seemed closer to the outer dark; the absolute chill of space. More exposed—

  Unlike the people around her, she had no duties. The cruiser would have obeyed her orders, but she had none to give. Captain Ubikwe’s officers took care of Punisher: Min handled everything else. And Morn had no part to play in Angus’ plots, or Davies’ risks. Finally she’d arrived at the position she’d sought ever since she’d returned to consciousness beyond Massif-5. She was free to do what she’d come here for.

  Tell the truth. Accuse the men and women she’d been raised to serve of crimes she abhorred.

  That crisis loomed ahead of her like the last gap crossing of her life; the ordeal she dreaded most. She’d talked about it as if she were certain of herself; believed completely in what she meant to do; as if she had no room for doubt. But now she feared it might prove to be a new form of gap-sickness—a more fatal form.

  Possibilities of ruin seemed to throng like furies about her, calling for blood. She would have to bare her soul to the Council; open her shame for every Member of the GCES to see and condemn.

  Because she needed Min’s help, s
he looked for some way to catch the ED director’s attention; encourage Min to leave Center’s demands aside for a moment and talk to her. But Min’s link to Center—and, through Center, to the planet—required harsh concentration. She was responsible for Earth’s defense in every sense: both planet-side and out in space. At times she appeared to answer multiple questions simultaneously; issue orders on several different subjects at once.

  A nagging itch troubled Morn’s sore arm—a sign of healing, she supposed. Grateful for it, she scratched at it occasionally while she awaited her opportunity.

  After a while the command module and Trumpet finished their last transmissions. Then Porson confirmed that Trumpet was well occluded, her telltale electromagnetic activity masked by the module’s emissions. Still Morn didn’t speak. Despite her complex fears—and a mounting sense of urgency—she waited until Min made time to glance in her direction.

  But then she found that the words she required were hard to say. Once they were spoken, she wouldn’t be able to call them back: simply articulating them would make them irrevocable; a promise she had to keep. In chagrin she stalled for courage by asking the first question she could think of.

  “How’s your hand, Director?”

  If Min considered that an odd question, she kept her reaction to herself. She may have understood why Morn asked it. Flexing her fingers, she inspected the bandage Glessen had applied for her.

  “Funny thing,” she muttered, frowning. “That damn cyborg has good aim. Hitting him hurt worse than getting shot.” Her mouth twisted. “Someday I’ll learn to keep my temper. But that probably won’t happen anytime soon.”

  The auxiliary bridge was definitely colder than it should have been. Morn checked her maintenance readouts; saw that a couple of temperature sensors and air circulation relays weren’t working properly. They must have been damaged somehow.

  She tried again.

  “Director—” Her throat closed. Min—

  “You know about my gap-sickness. You know what Angus did to me.” She didn’t wait for Min’s assent. “But I never told you that Vector broke my black box. My zone implant control. Angus gave it to me. But Vector broke it to keep me from killing myself. When Nick had Angus’ priority-codes.

  “Since then,” she explained lamely, “my gap-sickness has been more of a problem.”

  The lines of Min’s face became sharper. “I wondered why Angus hit you when we hit hard g. At the time that seemed”—she frowned at the memory—“excessive.”

  Ignoring her duties, she waited for Morn to go on.

  Morn swore at herself. Why was this so hard? Hadn’t she grown accustomed to her shames yet? Surely by now she might have come to understand that Starmaster was gone?—that no amount of self-torment would bring her family back?

  With an effort she set her reluctance aside.

  “I need your help, Director,” she admitted unsteadily. “I want to talk to the Council. Tell my story.” Give my testimony. Now or never. “But I can’t do it alone. Center doesn’t take orders from me. GCES communications certainly doesn’t. I need you to open a channel for him. If you don’t, I’m helpless.”

  Her request didn’t surprise Min. The ED director must have heard enough hints to guess what Morn had in mind. Perhaps she approved: perhaps this was why she’d let Morn

  take command in the first place. Deliberately she removed her PCR, lifted the pickup off her throat. Her eyes searched Morn like a hawk’s.

  “You don’t have to talk to them.” She sounded distant, noncommittal, like a woman withholding judgment. “They need to hear your story, but you don’t have to tell it in person. You can record it. Then I’ll talk to them for you. Give them a playback. Answer their questions.”

  “In your spare time?” Morn countered ruefully. She’d already observed how tightly Min’s responsibilities stretched her. The strain was palpable every time Min addressed her pickup.

  “I can do it,” Min insisted. Then, more gently, she added, “You’ve already done enough. More than any of us.”

  Morn bowed her head. The unexpected kindness of Min’s offer touched her; but she wasn’t tempted to accept it. “It’s my job, Director,” she sighed. My story. “I think they should hear it from me.”

  When she looked up again, she saw a gleam that might have been pride or hope in the ED director’s gaze.

  “In that case—” Min shrugged. “Give me a few minutes. Suka Bator isn’t exactly calm at the moment. And even when they are calm, what they do best is dither. I may have to put the fear of God into a few techs before they’ll do what I tell them.”

  Without hesitation she returned her attention to her PCR and pickup. Morn heard her issuing crisp instructions in a tone that left no room for argument.

  A few minutes.

  Morn was glad for the delay. Despite the pressure of events, she felt now that she could use every moment Min gave her. Gripped by her gap-sickness, she’d killed her whole family. In order to protect her shame, she’d bartered Angus’ life for her zone implant control. And then she’d driven herself into zone implant addiction so that she could lie to and seduce Nick Succorso. If her pregnancy and Davies’ birth hadn’t changed the way she made decisions, she might have continued ruining herself until she joined her mother and father.

  The Council needed to hear her story.

  She needed all the time Min gave her to harden her heart.

  CLEATUS

  Cleatus Fane knew what might happen.

  That’s why he was so angry—and so scared. He knew what might happen. He could see it in the way some of the votes struggled against his proposal to decharter the UMCP. He could hear it in Holt’s incisive, unscrupulous voice from his PCR. He could visualize it in the fatal progress of Punisher’s command module toward Calm Horizons. Now more than ever, events and the FEA’s master hinted at terrible possibilities.

  Cleatus was so scared that his bowels squirmed. The studied bonhomie with which he usually faced the votes had deserted him entirely. It was his job to ensure that nothing terrible happened; that Holt saw no need to make anything terrible happen. And he appeared to be succeeding at it. Certainly the Council gave that impression, despite the Hannish woman’s infuriating allegations, and the few remaining instances of resistance among the sheep. But he knew he couldn’t afford to relax even slightly until Dios was officially and legally out of a job: until someone else took over as director of the rechartered UMCP. Then Calm Horizons as well as Punisher could be informed that Dios no longer had the authority to make deals, and any accommodation he might have hammered out was void.

  Punisher’s command module was on its way to the defensive. With Trumpet in tow. So Holt had informed his FEA. Dios had devised some kind of accommodation: that was obvious.

  Whatever it was, it had to be stopped. Holt wanted the Hyland kid for himself. He wanted Morn dead. He wanted that damn antimutagen crushed out of existence—and Vector Shaheed with it. And he wanted the Amnion to finish Dios for him. But if Dios’ deal held, very little of that would take place.

  Dios himself was definitely out of the picture. Cleatus didn’t believe for a second that the Amnion would ever release him. But if the module wasn’t stopped, Davies would be lost to Holt. Morn might protract her improbable survival long enough to cause more trouble. And blind, self-righteous Min Donner might take it on herself to release Shaheed’s formula. She was arrogant enough. The only way to keep her in line was to give her a boss with enough authority to overrule her. The kind of boss Dios should have been.

  The module was still almost two hours away from Calm Horizons. Cleatus had that long—only that long—to make reality match his master’s wishes.

  Unfortunately there was nothing he could do about it at the moment. He’d countered Hannish’s revelations as vigorously as circumstances allowed. For the second time he’d disrupted the efforts of that old fool Sixten Vertigus to pass that insipid Bill of Severance. And he’d presented Holt’s counterproposal in terms which ma
de it hard for the sheep to balk. But he didn’t run the Council. Instead he had to sit on his hands and watch the Members debate an idea they should have voted into law by acclamation.

  Fortunately Holt was at his most lucid in emergencies. His powers of concentration helped make him dangerous. He didn’t waste time with useless demands or impossible orders. One of the FEA’s techs delivered a verbatim report of the proceedings: Cleatus supplied explanations and commentary. On that basis Holt grasped the situation as accurately as Cleatus did. He didn’t expect Cleatus to work miracles; didn’t hold Cleatus accountable for the actions of others.

  Not in an emergency.

  Nevertheless the CEO’s precise pragmatism made Cleatus’ guts clench in alarm. More than anyone else in this room —or anyone else in human space, for that matter—Cleatus knew how far Holt’s grip on practical reality might take him.

  From his seat beside Dios’ pet PR director, Cleatus Fane projected outward calm and stewed inwardly while the sheep blundered about the business of achieving a vote.

  The process took longer than it should have; much longer. Len acted like a man who wanted to be sure each word he said was unimpeachable. The supercilious twit insisted on dotting every legislative i, crossing every procedural t—which used up time. In addition several of the votes did their best to turn the session into a true debate.

  That promiscuous slut from Betelgeuse Primary harped endlessly on the emotional observation that Dios risked his humanity aboard Calm Horizons. After all, he had no real reason to think the Amnion would ever release him. She’d figured that out. So the accusations against him were pointless, she insisted, since he obviously gained nothing from his so-called crimes except this chance to suffer mutation.

  In his most effete tones, the Council’s resident intellectual snot, Silat, advanced the more ominous argument that if the UMCP were dechartered Dios would lose his authority to make deals—surprise, surprise—in which case any arrangement he conceived would be meaningless. The new director would have to start from scratch, which would take time. And time worked against the Amnion. They might conclude that proton cannon fire would serve them better than protracted renegotiations.