Wanting him back

by Mary Norton

  Augusto throws her head backwards and laughed.

  - Juli, you are unique.

  - Mom says the same thing. - Me and my brother say together.

  - But whenever I did, I was just sick, fever mainly, and ended with both me back.

  Augusto looks at me after that information.

  - Juliane has emotional fever. - My brother ends to take your beer. - After my father discovered this, we avoid much yell at her or something. - My brother gives me a smile. - There were nights we were always with her. And this little witch did what he wanted with us.

  Augusto pulls me closer to him.

  - And you told me that was the daughter forgotten. - He plays pushing my glasses.

  - Not all the time.

  His phone rings and he picks up in his pocket.

  - Juju, when will you give me an iPhone gift? - My brother asks. - I think I deserve after all I've done for you today.

  - Do not fill!

  Joaquim smiles and looks at her daughter.

  - Ly, my princess. Ask your mother what time it is.

  My niece looks at my sister with her head bowed.

  - Time to sleep, Mom? - She asks already raising his arms to go to lap.

  - Yes my love.

  I stare at the three together.

  - Man, I'd love to stay and chat more. But I have plans for tomorrow ... - My brother reaches out to Augustus. - Come back on Sunday. Still do not know what we do, but Juliane will warn you.

  - Thanks for dinner.

  Bianca says something to his daughter and puts it on the floor. Nicole shyly comes to Augusto and tilts his head.

  - Good evening! - Said extending his small hand.

  Augusto handle in his arms, putting her standing on her thighs.

  - Good night, little star. - Deposit a kiss on his forehead and gets a kiss on the tip of his nose. Laughing, my niece runs into the arms of his father. She grabs the neck of my brother and back to look around.

  - Good night, Augusto! - My sister says and go out with my brother and his daughter.

  I look at the table and see the mess we have. I will be a great host and I will fix everything now to be able to take my niece tomorrow. But I have a helper who will do everything to be faster.

  - I'll help you with the dishes! - He grimaces and gives me a kiss. - The sooner we finish, the sooner I'll hold you in your bed.

  And I have to say. Augusto is good washing dishes. I do not say about it know how to use a detergent sponge. But as your muscles get when he makes little effort to rub the soap in the pan aluminum. I can only look stunned for him while doing his job.

  - I did not know what was good with a sponge. - Me back in wiping the glass sink. - I thought it was just good with numbers.

  Augustus closes the tap. He turns to me and takes my hands napkin.

  - I have other secrets as well. - It doubles the cloth and placed over the sink. - What will we do now?

  He approaches and rests a hand on my shoulder and the other goes to the end of my back, pulling my body to him. He looks at me for endless seconds before kissing me.

  His tongue curls up in mine. His teeth pinch my lips. I grab her hair bringing it closer. Augusto puts me sitting in the sink. He opens my legs and puts them in the middle. He hits with some force his hand in the small cabinet on top of us.

  - What's it? - I ask breathlessly.

  - Not here, where one can catch us! - Looks like he makes a great effort to say it. - His brother mind if I sleep here?

  Bufo with this review idiot.

  - My brother knows I'm not a virgin and that goes, I'll let you eat me today. - Arrumo your blouse. - Trust me, he does not mind one bit. The gift I gave him will be worth it to me for a year enduring. And he will do what we have in mind, all day tomorrow.

  He leans back to face me more visibly.

  - I do not want to think about my brother having these things. - I push back and go down the sink. Sigh knowing what will happen now. - Promise you will not laugh at me.

  - Why do that? - I question holding my hand in his.

  - You'll get into my little sanctuary. Probably will run out when you see my obsession.

  Augusto thinks for a moment.

  - You do not perish like sadomasochism or something.

  I make a face for it.

  - I think it would not be so scary as well.

  Hold your hand tighter and take him to my room. Once you open the door, I step aside and let him in. Now I know how the Grey was when he showed the red room of pain for Anastacia.

  Augusto turns to me.

  - I would envy you had thirteen years old. - Said hitting the head of the Funko Batman standing next to the TV. - I'm jealous of you for all that. Man, Juli. This is a paradise for anyone who likes for at least two months a hero.

  My mouth drops open with your comment.

  - My sister says it's a waste of time and money. - I say stroking the picture of Captain America that sent draw.

  - Of course not, Juli. Do you like anything involving fantasy world. It is normal you want to collect stuff. - He takes a miniature red ranger. - I had one of these when I was little. I slept with him in bed.

  I smile about it. Someone finally not look at me with fear when they see my room. I always liked everything involving heroes and so many other things. And always I love that launches something new. I'm always the first to buy things.

  - You are the daughter every father asked God! - He said sitting on the bed holding the doll in his hands.

  I sit beside him watching him play with the doll.

  - Not my father, he wanted me to follow in his footsteps, but I'm sure he has surpassed all. - Caught a mushroom doll Mario Bros. - Now he thanks me every year when I help with the tax return.

  Augusto takes the doll of my hand and put in place as well as the one that was in his hands. He returns to sit beside me, take my in his and stares at our clasped hands.

  - One of the things I love about you, Juliane, is that you are always the same. Anywhere, with anyone, under any circumstances. You are true to herself and I think in all my life, I have not met anyone like you. - He holds my chin and raises my face to look at him. - If all this is you, I will not find you crazy, a little obsessive maybe, but I'll admire you have something to love so greatly.

  - When I was fifteen, I told myself I would have all the things I wanted in my room. - I look around and see all that I have. - I think I got. I look at him. - But they are always inventing and releasing anything else. So I guess I'll have to send it to another room or change me.

  Augusto laughs and kisses me.

  - You'll find a way, Juli. - He rubs your nose in my. - I really want to be able to do many things with you today. - His hand grabs my hair leaning my head back. - But I will respect your niece who is in the next room.

  I think I have a disappointment face as he bites his lip to avoid laughing.

  - So if you do not mind, I'll stay only in his underwear on his bed, holding you while the noise of the rain will making us sleep in each other's arms.

  He starts taking his clothes. The first to go is your blouse and unceremoniously, he takes off his jeans.

  - Do you sleep well?

  I shake and I go to my closet and picked up the big top that I bought the Deathly Hallows. Augusto's eyes on me, I dispo, a little shame appears, but I send away suddenly. When I take my bra, I see your eyes open more, showing that it is strongly wishing my body.

  When I cover my body with a shirt. He tilts his head to bed.

  - I lie in the middle. - I say. - How will we do this?

  Augusto smiles and puts the comforter aside and lie down on my bed. She looks tiny beneath his large, muscular body.

  - Let's find a way. - He calls me to bed.

  Like that guy came into my life? He has no shred of decency. And not even bother to ask permission.

  Laughing that stupid thought, I'm going to him. When I'm lying next to him, Augusto surprise me to put me on top of him. My legs
on top of his. His right hand holds mine, while his left arm is in the middle of my back. With my head right over his heart. Your muscles are a good bed for my body. I could take my shirt and felt his skin on mine, but it's not a good idea with my brother at home.

  - What your brother wanted to say: after?

  I did not think he would remember that. I swear, I did not think it. I do not know if he really heard my discussion with Joachim, but he was well aware of all that my brother told me.

  I honestly do not want to talk about it. Much less to him. We are not together long enough to declare things like that, as if we were friends since childhood.

  - Juliane.

  more I press my face into his chest. Feeling his smell. Now I can feel a little more alcohol he drank. Weak, but I feel.

  - Joaquim was what was most upset at all after what happened. So he said that. Please forget what he said. - I'm squeezing her hand gently. - It is past.

  He pulls my hair to look at him.

  - If he gave me a warning, is not passed to him, Juli. I'm a good listener.

  He will not change his mind.

  Telling it will hurt me. Even having overcome everything. But it is not easy to say all this and not feel some of the pain that was once in your heart. You will remember me as I was dumb and stupid in many ways. How I wasted my time and life with someone the first chance I had to take a major turning point in life, no thought or twice to dismiss me.

  And tell that to the guy who is not only the guy who is relating with me very closely, but it is also one of my bosses. One that I should be helping to settle in the city and not helping to undress and find other ways of having sex on a bed.

  I do not know if it's good. But what if I tell? What will he think? He's asking for it, because it is curious why or want to know more about me? I think I'll just have the answers to tell him or ask questions without caring if Augusto will answer them or not.

  Looking at him, I see you watching me patiently, waiting for me to take heart and answer. Taking a deep breath, go out from the top of his body and lay beside her. He turns to me, waiting for my answer.

  - When I came back to town, I lived for three months in a republic in the center. I did not know anyone but the lady of the bakery where was having breakfast every day. The girls who lived with me one day called me out to a bar. I never liked to drink, but decided to go to meet more people from college.

  It was there where it all began.

  - There was only our college class, also had other courses. One of the girls in my class was dating a law face, just that everyone was on the same table. - I can not help but smile when I remember that day. - I do not know how, but someone discovered that two days later would be my birthday. Then they got something to do cake and sang happy birthday to me. A pastel, they put a candle on the cake.

  Augusto stares at me intently. Stroking my hair as I continue talking.

  - There was this guy. I saw him a couple of times at the entrance of the college. He was on my side on the table. He asked me how old I was doing. He said he was nineteen. We started talking about everything you can imagine, while the rest was there, shouting and drinking. We were both isolated from everyone in our own world. - I take a deep breath and continue. - He asked me what I wanted from this, I did not know what he could give me. So he improvised and kissed me.

  I close my eyes and see the scene from afar in my mind.

  - I never called the attention of guys like him. That I can tell you. But that night, I had someone who was looking at me. I knew it was just my birthday present. Only I did not know that Edward would be taking it seriously next week.

  I remember the surprise I had when he was waiting for me at the door of my room.

  - I do not remember if he asked for date, just remember being together with assumed and all dating. Eduardo began to take me out with him and his class, but sometimes it was just us two. After three months, he introduced me to his family. When I realized at the end of the year, he was with me on a plane to spend Christmas with me and my family. Dad loved him first. Joaquim got the brother who always wanted. All the plans we made, Mom made sure to put it in the middle.

  How could all this have been a lie?

  - I loved that kid. Whenever he smiled at me, it was like the happiness of dawn within my heart. I always did the things he liked, looked after him, helped him in college classes. And he did the same for me. Eduardo has always been proud to see me solving the most difficult calculations that physics class proposed. I loved watching every performance my school. It was a student applied in English, even when he was trying to grab me instead of studying.

  - We were good together. Juli and Edu. Some people said that we were the kind of couple who is known in college and will for life. I began to think so and want him to think the same way.

  Augusto get your hands out of my hair.

  - I was coming in my penultimate period when everything started happening. Eduardo was already forming and was excited about it. And I was very happy for him. When I asked the date we were going to visit my parents, he said he would not because he was looking for internships. I get it, I swear to you that I did. Even I helped him with the choice of several offices and all. With my aching heart, I went to spend the holidays with my parents. I stayed with them even when I had to go back. And I saw the change that happened in just three weeks.

  good eye on Augusto's eyes, wanting to show him everything I feel.

  - Eduardo was no longer the same. He barely spoke to me. When he came to my new apartment that my parents gave me, it was like hiding. As if to hide who was with me. I accepted the idea that it was his last sentence, he was getting tired and stressed. And I tried at all costs to help you. Even coddling him when he was with me at night. I loved him, too. I wanted to see him happy more than anything in this life.

  Augusto grabs my hand in his gently.

  - Leonardo studied in the same college. He was planning class with me. One day he told me he saw Eduardo with a blonde at the mall. I told him I could be his sister, since she lived painting the hair. But a week later I saw him with a blonde. And he saw me too. And he did not hide that he was with her. He came to me and said, "I wanted to tell you before, but I could not. I did not want to hurt her. That's what it has to offer me, Juli. I need someone who is as ambitious as I am, to help me open my ways. And you are not that person. " He broke up with me so in the middle of a crowded mall.

  - Not only this, he began to parade with her everywhere he went with me. And I realized that I just was with him, that all the places I knew was thanks to him. I probably did not have an identity that did not involve him in the middle of everything. I've isolated, studied, I graduated, I finished my Spanish course. And so I was hired out of college.

  - But it was not easy. I was depressed. I was hurt by the person for whom I was willing to fight at his side. But I'm like, Augusto. I care about people, I love people. I always do everything to help. Eduardo was just someone who did not want my love, did not want me at his side. But I'm very glad he got what he wanted. He's happy now.

  Augusto pulls me close to him. I feel your heart beating against my hand is right on top of his chest.

  - He is not so happy. He lost and you will live with this for the rest of his life. Being well or not.

  He pulls me to him again. He puts his hand inside his shirt and begins to caress my back until I start to feel sleepy.

  Even with the room ceiling, I hear the rain falling in full force outside.

  After telling him that I realize I did not hurt as much as I thought it would hurt. Eduardo is a memory in my life. After all it was my first everything. It was not just a date. It was a friendship and brotherhood that we both built in four years.

  And when I say I'm happy for him, I say this with an open heart and truth. For even though he had done it, he was honest with me. And I recognize that in him. And I hope he gets more achievements.

  - You should never think you deserve what you think necessary, ta
ke what you think you deserve, Juliane. Not all the crumbs are enough to give us a little joy. You are amazing and deserves all the affection and respect that someone has to give. I tell you that he lost out the amazing woman you are. And if you're here with me in my arms that night. After a wonderful dinner with your family. I'll have to thank the jerk for giving me you so. You may not have been what he wanted. But it's what I want now.

  Ω

  According to the high giggles my niece is giving. She sure is like his father. Matutina and lively every morning. But the guy on top of me, seems to understand that it's Saturday and did not want to wake up at all. Augusto is with her head on my stomach. One of his arms is beneath me and the other, between my breasts.

  He looks serene in your dream and do not want him to wake up. I try to get him off me, but it's too heavy. Then you have to be sharp and fast as the loss of virginity. And it works. Augusto is facing me while I'm a few millimeters falling out of bed.

  Silently I leave the room. I am meeting my three guests in the kitchen. Ly is eating her shaved apple with its juice. She is the first to notice me. His smile appears, lifting her free hand she calls me.

  - Aunty. Good Morning!

  - Good morning my love. - Kiss her hair. - Your lunch looks delicious just for you.

  My brother laughs and kisses my forehead.

  - Would let you sleep a little longer.

  I go to the coffee and make my coffee. Bianca says he wants a bit.

  - No need, this weekend is yours and I got my girl here to enjoy. - I look at the clock that sits at the kitchen door. - You should have already left.

  - I know, but I have to have breakfast with my daughter. - My brother says caressing the girl. - Love. - He calls his wife. - You brought that bear that she likes?

  - She's in her purse.

  He nods.

  - Look, Juli. It is the first time I let my daughter so with you. She is the most behaved child I know and will not give you any work. But I'm afraid that something will happen ...

  - The most that can happen is Nicole and I stay until the mall closed. Let's feed of nonsense and end feed her for a day.