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by Alexandra Sellers




  Captive of Desire

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  Alexandra Sellers

  ISBN: 978-1-78301-019-6

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  A Letter to the Reader—

  Readers often ask which is a writer’s favourite book, and writers routinely respond that, like a mother, they have no favourites but love their various offspring in different ways. I’ve said that myself.

  It’s only half true, though: I do love all my books in different ways, but this one, Captive of Desire, has always been special to me. It was very, very close to my heart when I wrote it, and still is today, more than thirty years and forty books later. It is a record of a time of transformative passion in my life, a time when I understood, for the first time, the consuming power of love, and it still summons up that truth in me. Love is transcendent, and it is transformative, and Captive of Desire is my contribution to the body of evidence that this is so.

  Many things have changed since the book was first published, including newspaper publishing and styles in romantic fiction. For obvious reasons it would be impossible to update my story, but I have done some revision of the text for this edition.

  Whether you are reading it for the first time, or re-reading an old favourite, I hope you will enjoy it.

  Love

  Alexandra Sellers

  Crete, August 2016

  This book is dedicated

  to prisoners everywhere

  and to you

  To enter in these bonds is to be free.

  --John Donne

  Prologue

  The jet stood at some distance from the terminal building, engines quiet, its door open onto the steps that ran down to the tarmac. Near it, on the runway exit ramp, was parked a long black car. The two machines had been standing in these positions for half an hour, while men walked back and forth at intervals between them. Throughout there had been an unnatural silence: no one ran, no one shouted; if they spoke, their voices did not carry.

  A moment before, a grey-haired man in a nondescript coat had come out of the plane and re-joined two that stood waiting by the car.

  “This is it,” he said quietly, and his two companions, in similar dress, turned to open the rear door of the car.

  Now the first whisper of excitement breathed across the scene, for the man who got out of the back seat of the long car was not in the mould of the other three. As he stood beside them, short, thin and wiry, his tension was palpable. Beside the nondescript coats of his companions his leather jacket and creased trousers seemed incongruous, as did his obvious emotion.

  His three escorts surrounded him, and at the aircraft four men appeared at the top of the steps. As though at a signal, these two groups started silently forward, across the tarmac and down the steps, and so measured was their motion that an alien being might have watched, fascinated, for this elaborate ritual of the coming together of eight to produce, perhaps, a ninth.

  Simultaneously, at a distance of about five yards from each other, both parties stopped, and it then became obvious that a fourth man in the group from the plane also did not fit the mould of his three protectors. Easily the tallest of all and very thin, his broad gaunt frame was covered by a badly fitting suit, and his hair was shaved close, like a convict’s. His eyes searched hungrily over the heads of his escort, though there was nothing to see in the fading light save grass and tarmac and, in the near distance, the large terminal building. In the far distance there were the lights of tall buildings, but it was impossible to say whether it was at these that he gazed.

  Without apparent signal, the two waiting groups parted within themselves to allow each odd fourth man, slowly and hesitantly, to walk towards the centre of that empty space between them. The short man walked easily, his well-knit, wiry muscles giving him a smooth gait, but the taller man held himself rigidly and walked stiffly, as though he saved himself from stumbling only by an effort of will.

  There was no sign of salute as the two passed each other and moved towards the opposing groups without pause.

  In that moment there was not a whisper, a breath of movement, from the waiting six. The motion of the two men, one jaunty, the other painstaking, seemed to require all the concentration of the watchers, until each group had been joined by a new fourth man.

  Then a sudden burst of emotion electrified the atmosphere. Each group received its newcomer protectively, joyously, like a mother bear or a lioness with her lost cub, and drew him, quickly now, back to each respective den.

  The blast of noise of the jet engines drowned out that of the car, and within moments the only evidence that the scene had taken place was their departing roar.

  Chapter 1

  “You what?” asked Harry Waller, his manner preoccupied, as he looked up at the girl leaning intently over his desk on the back bench of the newsroom of the London Evening Herald.

  He was not surprised to see Laddy Penreith waving the last edition of that evening’s paper practically under his nose, because Harry Waller had been the news editor of the Herald for nearly seven years now and very little had the power to surprise him anymore. But he was interested, because he was always interested in the things that got particular people going, especially Laddy. In her three years on the paper he had grown used to her appearing in front of his desk every now and then, passionately demanding that something be said about an injustice or asking to be assigned to cover a story that interested her.

  “What is it this time?” he began, and then he realised, and he smiled at the memory of how the story had broken just in time to catch the last edition.

  “BUSNETSKY RELEASED” was the headline she was pointing to, all right, and he waited to hear why.

  Laddy’s name on her birth certificate and her by-line was Lucy Laedelia Penreith, but she had been Laddy as long as she could remember. It had suited her in the days when she had looked more like a boy than a girl, when she had worn torn shirts and grubby jeans, and raced along fences and climbed trees with the best of them. But she didn’t look like a boy anymore. Now, at twenty-five, she was very much a woman—slim and full breasted, with “the longest legs in the newsroom”—and there were times when her dark eyes and full mouth made her almost beautiful.

  This was not one of those times. When her “conscience was up,” nobody noticed whether Laddy was beautiful or not. They only saw that her eyes were alight with the fires of passion and truth and that it seemed as though she woul
d be consumed by them.

  “Harry,” she said, as he knew she would, “I’ve got to go on this story. You’ve got to let me cover Mischa Busnetsky’s arrival.” Her low voice had a faint transatlantic accent, and Harry Waller was conscious of being soothed by it. But he couldn’t resist his little gibe. He threw down his pencil, leaned back and regarded her with the amused look she knew so well.

  “You know, my love, when you get to be as old and jaded as I am, it’s a great pleasure to see the young ones running around caring about Issues. Now why, I ask myself, has this one got our Laddy so concerned? Mmm?”

  Laddy laughed. “What a liar you are, Harry. A less jaded man in this newsroom I do not know, but you say what you like. And you know perfectly well that I’m always interested in dissidents.”

  That was true, but Mischa Busnetsky was much more than a dissident in Laddy’s mind. Harry could not have said how he knew that, but he was as certain as if she’d said it.

  “Dear girl,” he said, “as far as I can make out, you are interested in everything.” Certainly she had dedication, but Harry was trying to see if he could lead her off the topic, and Laddy laughed.

  “Come on, Harry, someone’s got to do it, with Brian away,” she pressed, and her dark eyes lost their smile and willed him to say yes.

  Harry Waller added this information to his mental file of what made Laddy Penreith tick. “Brian may be back in time,” he said, for no other reason than to see her face fall.

  “But he’s bound to be in Brussels over the weekend, isn’t he?” she protested. “When is Busnetsky arriving?”

  “We don’t know,” said Harry.

  Laddy burst out, “Harry, you must have a very good idea!”

  Of course, she would realise that he had read the national press-release bulletin and even that he had been the one to dash off the front-page story that afternoon, and he always had some information that was not going to be printed.

  Abruptly Harry tired of his game. “He’ll be staying the night in Zurich,” he told her, “but the word’s out he’s flying straight on to London tomorrow. I’ll call you when I get the word.”

  “Tomorrow!” Laddy breathed. “Thanks, Harry.”

  There was too much relief in her voice, and Harry’s curiosity, already aroused, heightened.

  “What—” he began, but she had already left him to go back to her own desk, and Harry shelved his curiosity and went back to the overnight report that he would be leaving for the night-duty reporter.

  Harry blessed the powers that be for the timing of Busnetsky’s release. The news had broken in time for the last edition of the evening papers, and now the morning papers would be scrambling for a new angle on what would otherwise be stale news. With luck, Busnetsky would arrive in England tomorrow in time for the early-afternoon edition of the Herald. Unless the newly-free man came up with something very newsworthy tomorrow evening, the mornings would be making do with “in-depth analyses” and backup stories again on Saturday.

  Harry Waller checked the overnight report with a smile on his face and thought about Laddy Penreith’s interest in Mikhail Busnetsky. He might have assigned her to cover the story without her asking, he reflected; it had been in his mind. With her strong background of involvement in her late father’s interests, she was a natural choice.

  Laddy had expressed an interest in Soviet affairs when she had been hired into the Herald newsroom from a smaller paper three years earlier. But the Russians were Brian March’s exclusive domain, and he was not about to move over for the dark-eyed dedicated young woman who was a good enough reporter to be a threat to anyone—including, Harry reflected, himself.

  Laddy had had to be satisfied with being among the general run of news gatherers for two and a half years, until Harry, recognizing that her brain and her nose for research were being wasted, had asked her to act as the paper’s specialist on Israel.

  But of course she still routinely covered other stories, and now Brian March was in Brussels covering the latest SALT talks impasse, and he could hardly complain—although he would, bitterly—if Laddy were assigned to cover an area that she had been so intimately involved with all her life.

  Harry Waller threw the overnight list into his drawer and decided to go home. Brian March would be filing a backup story from Brussels tonight on the political inside of the Busnetsky release, and Harry would decide tomorrow where that would go, depending on how interesting it was to the man in the street. The rather uneducated man in the street, he amended mentally, and grimaced. In earlier days the full text of Brian’s report would have gone on page two regardless, but stiff competition from what Harry called the “yellow” papers was inexorably forcing down the intellectual tone of what used to be an evening paper he was proud of. With passing contempt he cursed the Herald’s editor for his short-sightedness.

  Harry put on his jacket in the empty, echoing newsroom. Tonight the paper seemed more to have died than to have been put to bed. But that was just his mood: he had been thinking of the lowered tone of the Herald.

  The light in the library was still on, so Laddy must be in there, researching Busnetsky’s background. That was interesting. He would have thought her father’s own papers would have been far more valuable than the library clippings of the last eight or ten years. Extremely interesting, unless she was looking for some particular piece of information.... Harry crossed to the library door.

  A long tattered grey envelope lay on the desk, and he could read the upside-down “Busnetsky” scrawled in red across the back of it. Laddy’s head was bent intently over the tiny pile of newsprint, her dark curls glossy in the yellow light.

  “Slim pickings,” Harry said, indicating the pile, and she looked up, her hand resting almost caressingly on the tiny column-wide piece of newsprint she was reading. It was from the Times, he could tell from the type style: the Herald library, like that of all newspapers, kept clippings from every London paper in its files.

  “Very slim,” she agreed, smiling at him, but she was preoccupied, her brown eyes were distant, and Harry filed away the information in his capacious brain that this story meant very much indeed to Laddy Penreith. Now, what special connection had her father had with Mikhail Busnetsky? As far as Harry knew, very little of Busnetsky’s work had ever seen the light of day in the West, though it was known that he was a writer.

  “Don’t work all night,” he said, in a fatherly tone that was most unlike Harry Waller, but his brain was ticking over so rapidly he didn’t notice.

  “On this?” Laddy laughed, indicating the scanty pile of clippings that she had yet to read. “Another ten minutes at most.” And she bent her head again, unconsciously dismissing him.

  His footsteps thudded hollowly on the wooden floor and the rattle of his car keys in his hand was lost in the silence as he crossed the dimly lighted newsroom. Harry Waller’s chin sank into the collar of his old mac as he let himself out.

  Very curious. He hoped the SALT talks would keep Brian in Brussels over the weekend. He would like to be able to leave Laddy on the story for a while. He would like to learn what this was all about.

  * * *

  Laddy sighed, stuffing all the clippings back into the grey envelope, and threw it into the filing tray for the librarian to put away in the morning. There was nothing there she didn’t already know. This had served no purpose except to bring back all the memories, all the pain.

  Laddy rested her forehead on her palm and glanced at the wristwatch on her other arm. She had better get home; she couldn’t stay here all night, although if unconsciousness had descended on her here and now she would have welcomed it.

  John was coming for dinner tonight, she suddenly remembered. Of all nights! John, who had something special to tell her, something she knew she wanted to hear. But not tonight. Tonight she wanted to crawl into her bed and cry herself to sleep.

  Well, she couldn’t. It was the first time she had invited him to dinner at home, and John would not understand a last minut
e put-off.

  Wearily she got to her feet and left the library, thinking about the evening as she had originally planned it. She should have had the meal halfway cooked by now and had time to dress herself carefully, beautifully, and been relaxed and smiling when John came in.

  Relaxed and smiling and ready to hear, when he told her, that he loved her. That was what she was sure he was going to say, and that was what she wanted to hear.

  But now she would be rushed and unhappy, and all she would want to do would be to put her head on his broad chest and weep and have him tell her that it didn’t matter.

  Laddy gathered up her coat and ran through the door, down the stairs and out into the warm spring evening.

  If the sun had not actually set, it had certainly gone down behind the tall buildings of the Fleet Street area, and Laddy walked down the laneway to the small red car that sat, alone now, by the pavement. Well, at least the rush-hour traffic would be long since over; she would make good time home.

  She tried to push Mischa Busnetsky’s face out of her mind as she drove, and her father’s, too, but it was impossible. She tried to think of John, to conjure up his smiling handsome face to drive away her pain, but his magic was impotent against this. Everything took a back seat to this, even the face of the man she was sure she loved.

  Laddy parked her car behind a dark green one in the old, tree-lined street and breathed deeply in the scented spring air as she moved up the front path to her house.

  Margaret and Ben Smiley were home upstairs, and if she had had time, she might have gone up for a cup of tea and a quiet, calming chat. That was one of the benefits she had not foreseen three years ago when she had rented out the upper storey: that she always had friends on call.

 

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