A Blessing & A Curse: A Angel

by Dawn Davis

  He rolled his eyes. Did he just roll his eyes? Someone showed up with their feelings on their sleeve. "I won't hold you up from your date, but I have a message from the Boss. While you're doing great, don't dwell on why you're here." That was vague, even for Aussy. "What do you mean? I thought I was here for Kayla." I honestly thought I was only here because she didn't have a mom, and would need guidance for how busy her dad could be. "Aussy, what exactly am I here for?"

  I've never been on the receiving end of his serious stare, but it shocked me to my mortal core. Without blinking or breaking eye contact, his wings extended and his voice deepened, "Mayice I will only say this once, so listen up. You are not in any way to look for the child's mother. That is not your mission!" Mission echoed so loud that I covered my ears and closed my eyes to keep at bay the glow that followed. Without a goodbye, Aussy was gone.

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  Ring, ding, ring, ding.... I need to learn how to change that ringtone. Tony was calling me probably to see what was taking me so long. I had no idea what to say. "Um hello?"

  "Hey, are u okay?"

  "Yeah, yeah I'm good. Why?"

  "Well it's going on 9 and you said you would be over at 8. I knew you worked earlier so I didn't want to rush you."

  "Oh yea I'm just sluggish I guess, I really wasn't paying attention to time. I'm on my way now!"

  "Um okay." He hung up but it he sounded like there was more to say. I guess it could wait seeing as I'm only steps away. Needless to say I would spend the night thinking on what Aussy said. Though it sat in the back of my mind, I did wonder how any woman could leave her child, or Tony for that matter.

  I have my orders not to look into her but I do have free will right ? I mean I know I shouldn't because he said so, but I could at least find out if she was dead or a live, right? What harm could that be? OMG! I sound so mortal .

  *Snap

  Just like that, I was wearing a tan pencil skirt, brown wedges, and a pink top. I ran to the bathroom to take myself in. Cute. "Awww thanks Aussy!" I yelled. I knew he heard me because silver jewelry apparently found its way onto my body. Well I guess I was really ready, even if wasn't a "date".

  10) The sad story..... Mayice

  "Dad said you got lost from your place to ours." I laughed because it probably true with how my mind was racing. Apparently Kayla couldn't help herself either. Once again I couldn't see why her mom left. While Tony cooked and set the table, she showed me inside their apartment and it was nice. Two bedrooms, full of pictures and everything I would think home should be. Their place looked the same as mine just more stuff and obviously there was a lot of love. As we went from room to room then from space to space, I stopped. A picture in the hall had a gorgeous woman holding a baby no more than 1. The baby I knew was Kayla because of her one dimple on her right side of her mouth, so I guessed. “ Kayla is that your mom?"

  "Uh huh. That's her! Tamara! She's pretty right?" Pretty wasn't the word. She had red eyes, red and black hair, and tan skin with reddish brownish freckles. Kayla was her twin and I was wrong about the eyes. Unless....

  "Are you ladies ready to eat because I'm starved?" Tony asked shining his pearly whites. He looked really nice for just a dinner. His hair looked tamed and he even ironed his clothes. We all sat at the table and Kayla gave me a look. It probably had something too do with the way my face was turned up at the plate in front of me. I hoped Tony didn't notice since for someone who couldn't cook I made it look like I had eaten the best food in life. "Let me guess, you don't like eggplant either?"

  "Well I've never had it to be honest. But I'll try it." Here goes nothing ....

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  "That was delicious Tony!" If the fact that I ate two helpings didn't say so I wanted him to know just how great it was. Even thought I only had a muffin at the café, that was so much better. As he cleared the table, I watched him and Kayla in what seemed to be a routine. She grabbed a little stool from under the sink and turned on the facet. Was she about to wash dishes? "May I wash them, as a way to say thanks for dinner?"

  “ No I couldn't have that but next, umm if u want there to be a next time, sure, You won't be a guest then."

  Kayla laughed so hard that she snorted. Before long we were all laughing. God this felt good. Being free and able to join in on the joke. Not watching from afar but in the mix of things.

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  We sat in the living room bunched up on the couch talking about our day. Though Kay was fighting sleep she talked about vacations, and field trips, and shopping. She promised we would go tomorrow after church. I found out that normal parents only send their child to school five days a week not six. Tony says it's only because he works those days and because she's so smart. God gave them a great bond. They fit so well I could see that without a mother they were doing just fine.

  Before long Tony was carrying Kay to her room since she lost the fight to sleep. When he returned we talked; some about his day, my day, why I moved here to Florida, and family. Though I couldn't say I had a family, I described the angels that I thought of as family. Of course I left out the fact that they are angels but still my family.

  "Tony?"

  "You want to know what happened to Kayla's mom huh?"

  I shook my head, feeling a bit ashamed that I was that obvious. "I just see how amazing you two are and wonder, why?" I felt those tears start to fall again. The same ones I felt when I first found out she had no mom around. I know she is okay but it just made me sad to think .....

  "You and those water works. Trust me we are ok, and Kayla...well she is amazing. Her mom only left to keep her safe. See when we met we were in college and we were young. Though we had a great start, she knew people didn't want us together. I don't know if it was her family or her friends, but whoever it was. All I know is that after she found out she was pregnant, the unique woman I fall in love with became stranger and stranger the more she showed. The day she came to me holding Kayla in her arms, was after 2 months of her being missing. Through those two months, I couldn't find her, and I found out I wasn't the only one looking. She gave me Kayla and told me not to tell anyone who she was. She said she would visit and for a while she did. Once a week turned to once a month, then to every three months to every six months. Once a year. Kayla only sees her once a year, Midnight on her birthday. I couldn't tell you where she lives, how she even knew we moved but we've been here for three years and she found us. I only pray she's okay, and her kept secret, will end soon for Kayla's sake."

  With tears in both our eyes, he leaned over and kissed me.....

  Diary Entry 1

  Welp! I'm writing this to myself I think, because Aussy says I need to keep one. He thinks it's a good idea to keep a record of my days and it may help me learn something. Whatever that means. I think today is a good day to start cause I never want to forget tonight; the dinner, the laughs, but most of all, that kiss. If that was punishment then send me to hell. Oh no God I don't mean that but yup he kissed me. It was amazing, I mean I've never been kissed before, but yes. It was like at that moment I had my wings back and was flying through the clouds. I have no clue what I did to get it but I want to figure it out. I know mortals deal with lust but I never knew it was this bad. I literally had to clutch my legs to keep from jumping on him. Tony is a great friend, strong, and smart. We talked for a while, and I found myself having feelings for him. I can't lie about them, because they're there. Of course I've already fell in love with Kayla but I never thought of Tony that way until now. I can't tell Aussy, well he probably already knows. And that probably means I won't see him for a while. You know the whole jealous thing.......

  I don't know what God has planned and I must admit I'm terrified but I'm also excited. I fear that I'll have to say goodbye when whatever "this" is.... Well when it's done. I never get attached to my charges but this is different. I've made a few friends and maybe even get to love someone up close without restrictions. Aussy knows something he's not telling and
I need to know to prepare myself. And them I guess.

  I wish I could say I'm going to bed now that it's 1 something, but that would be a lie. At least I get to go shopping tomorrow after church of course.

  Epilogue:

  It’s been 6 months, 15 days, 23 hours and 42 seconds since I witnessed her lips embrace his. The mortal man Tony had won the affection of Mayice. Though our love is looked at as forbidden, I shouldn’t have to watch her fall in love with another. In my eyes it wasn’t fair, but what could I do. No matter how long I try to stay away from her, I couldn’t. Though she would never know it, she was going to need me to guide her, keep her on the path, and to complete her mission. The goal was simple, but the journey not so much.

  Day after day I was watching Mayice enjoy in the pleasures of being mortal, while at the same time knowing her mind was all angel. I went from pop up visits of once every three days to once a week. The sad part was that I don’t believe she even noticed. She was too consumed in being a mom to the little girl. Wait till she finds out she’ll have to choose …