DIRTY DADDY

by Evelyn Glass

  “You’re the sexiest goddamn woman alive,” he grunts. His voice is strained. He isn’t thinking about what he says anymore. He’s just saying it. “You’re fucking amazing.” A pause, and then, “I have to go fast. I can’t hold it any longer.”

  “Go fast,” I moan. “Go fast, Samson.”

  He doesn’t need more prompting than that. He slides out—and then in. Like a rocket firing, the speed of it . . . He pounds into me ferociously, red-hot, in-out-in-out-in-out without any pause between thrusts. I can’t bounce with him. It’s too quick. I dig my fingernails into his shoulders, propping myself up, and sit atop the pleasure.

  “So tight,” he grunts.

  “That’s because . . . because . . .”

  But I can’t finish the sentence. My pussy gets tighter and tighter, and I know it’s coming, coming fast, and I know before it happens that it’s going to be more intense than any orgasm I’ve ever had. My head gets hot and fuzzy and my body prickles and then—and then—and then—

  Everything stops. Time stops. I hardly know where I am, who I am. All I know is the thick solid pleasure lancing into me, over and over, and the feel of my pussy, burning. It grips his cock like a squeezing hand, stays like that for a few moments, and then releases. Everything releases. Time resumes. My pussy gets impossibly hot, my head clouds, and the prickles on my skin explode in a chorus of pleasure. Twenty seconds of pure bliss grip me. I’m vaguely aware of Samson moaning. I’m more aware of his shoulders, muscular in my hands.

  I feel myself squirt on his cock, but I don’t care, I don’t get embarrassed. Both of us are too caught up in the moment for that.

  When it’s over, I flop forward for a moment.

  “Thank fuck for that,” Samson sighs, and then he thrusts deep into me one last time.

  His cock judders, his breath stops, and then his cock begins to wilt inside of me.

  I kiss his neck, again and again. “Yes,” I breathe. “Yes, yes, yes.”

  “Fuck,” he exhales. “Oh my fucking—Fuck!”

  He comes, hard, and then I slide away from him onto the couch.

  After a few minutes, he turns to me.

  “You’re incredible,” he says.

  Chapter Six

  Samson

  What the hell just happened?

  I could equally ask myself: What the hell is happening? Anna and I stand, naked, in her shower together. Warm water rushes down us and we move our hands over each other, but in a tired way. We’re both slightly drunk, tired, spent. We touch each other now curiously, discovering each other’s bodies for the first time. This isn’t me, not even close. First, telling her about Richard. That was bizarre. If you’d told me, before I came here, that I would’ve shared one of my most precious memories, I would’ve laughed. But the fact remains that I did.

  And then the sex . . . the sex . . .

  It wasn’t just sex, I reflect as Anna strokes my cock and I massage shower gel into her breasts. It was more than sex. Sex, for me, is normally just a release. I never forget what I’m doing; I never forget where I am or who I’m with. I take what pleasure I can get from the act and I move on, forget about it. The women I usually go with are the same, passionless in the way it really matters. But Anna—with Anna I forgot everything, even where I was, who I was, in the heat and pleasure of her body. All that mattered and all that existed was the act itself.

  The shower finishes, both of us washed, and we step from it and stand there, naked, in the heat of the apartment, the bathroom radiator warming us both.

  “What’re you thinking?” Anna asks.

  I laugh. It’s all I can think to do. I don’t want to share anything else with Anna, but she has a quality about her I can’t quite pinpoint. It’s like she sees into me, sees into the heart of who I am, instead of just seeing the killer. I can’t remember a woman who looked past that: looked past my gruffness and coldness and anger. No woman has ever asked me about my past. Whether out of fear, or apathy, I don’t know. Probably it was simply lack of interest.

  “What’s funny?” she says, tilting her head in a cute-as-hell way.

  “Nothing,” I say. “I just need to get back to business. There are things I have to do tonight.”

  “Such as?”

  “Scout your neighborhood, for one,” I say. “And arrange your protection.”

  Without discussing it, we move into the living room. I pull on my underwear and sit on the couch, almost dry, and Anna goes into the bedroom and returns wearing a fresh t-shirt and panties. I’m painfully aware of how close she is to being naked, how easy it would be to remove the shirt and panties, how softly they hug her. But I fight the urge.

  She sits beside me on the couch and, mercifully, doesn’t move to touch me. ‘You’ve never been this captivated by a woman, eh, Samson?’ Richard, Black Knight, seeing all as he always does. ‘Women aren’t like that for you, eh, Samson? Normally just a bang-bang-thank-you-ma’am situation. But now, do you feel something for this woman? Did you start feeling something the first moment you saw her on the court?’

  I can’t deny it, so I ignore it. Maybe it’s true; I don’t know myself well enough to say for sure. All I can know is that Anna imbalances me, causes me to lose my killer’s center, my calm cold place. Nobody else has done that before.

  “What do you mean, arrange for my protection?” she says.

  “I had two plans for coming over here.” Neither of which involved making love to you. Not fucking. Or not just fucking. But making goddamn love! “The first was to get a description of the person who moved Eric’s body from you. But you don’t know that; you didn’t see anything. My second plan, the plan I have to follow now, is to protect you. It isn’t a coincidence that the body was moved to your car. Whoever did it, did it for a purpose. To make a point.”

  “Like some kind of twisted abstract art?”

  “Yes, I guess.” I shrug. “I can’t know if they’re watching me or you, so I have to stay with you until this is over.”

  When I rehearsed this in my mind on the way over—which seems like a long time ago now—I imagined her protesting this violently. I thought out what I would say when this happened. Of course she would protest. She doesn’t know me. She won’t trust me.

  But she does trust me. I can see it in her eyes, open and giving. The eyes of the woman I just made love to. I just fucked. More than that: the eyes of the woman I just shared my goddamn past with.

  “I get that,” she says. “But I have obligations. More cheering. Veterinary rounds to do at the center. I can’t just pause my life.”

  “No, I know. You don’t have to. But I’ll be there, watching you, the entire time. I’ll be like a shadow. You won’t even know I’m there.”

  “Doubtful,” Anna mutters. “I don’t think I could forget you were there.”

  She says this with startling directness. It’s like all the nervousness has dropped away from her, from us both, and now we are closer than we have any right to be. It terrifies me, but there’s nothing I can do to change it, and I don’t know if I even would.

  “But you agree?”

  “What choice do I have? If you want advice on how to fix a bird’s injured wing, ask me. If I want advice on what to do when being watched by some unknown psychopath, I defer to you.”

  I grin, can’t help but grin. “You’re strangely calm.”

  “No,” she smiles. “Just tipsy and tired.”

  “Let me do a quick circuit, and then you can sleep. You’ll have to lock the door behind me.”

  She nods. I get dressed and head for the door. Before I step into the hallway, I turn and glance at her. She’s on her feet, near me, ready to close the door.

  “Don’t get hurt,” she says.

  “I’ll try not to,” I reply, and leave the apartment.

  ###

  When I walk into the cold autumn chill of New York, I force myself to forget all about the sexy woman upstairs: the woman who just reached between my ribs and gripped my heart, gripped
it so hard she could squeeze it until it burst if she liked. Don’t you think you’re going a bit far, Samson? Maybe I am; maybe the feeling isn’t that intense. But it’s difficult for a man like me to tell. Looking back, I’ve never had any truly intense experiences with women. It’s all been surface level, desperately trying to feel something rather than actually feeling it.

  But I push that aside and walk across the rain-shiny pavement. Moonlight spears down between sparse black clouds and cascades onto the sidewalk. Cars sit low and dim on the curbside. Down the street, a bar lets out a raucous man, cheering up at the sky with the aspect more of a howl. I don’t walk as far as the bar, though. I sense something. Behind me—a few cars behind me.

  This sense seems ludicrous to many, I know. The normal man or woman, walking to and from work, watching TV and going to barbecues, living their lives in the day-to-day of regular life, would have no clue that someone was lurking far behind them in the night. But I feel them, whoever they are. It’s in the little things: their footsteps, not completely concealed; their breathing, steady but not silent; a quiet click which could be the latch of a watch or the safety on a gun; and the more nebulous sense that I’m being watched.

  I slow my pace, stop, and turn around casually. When I begin walking back the way I came, away from the bar and back into the dimness of the street—the streetlamps flickering and pale, barely shining out over the moonlight—I catch a quick shift to my left, on the other side of the street, somebody ducking down behind an old beat-up Chevrolet. I spot the top of a head and fingers which were clutching the wing mirror before I turned around.

  They don’t scuttle away. No footsteps sound. But their breathing increases slightly. Other sounds don’t interest me. The cheering and shouting at the bar behind me—I barely hear it. Uncle Richard told me about feral children once. The man was a damn good killer and could be a mean bastard, but he was also a big reader. He had a book on them, and he told me that if a child was taken in by wolves, it became like them. Its senses honed and it learned to see in the dark and eat raw meat. I grew up among contract killers, and I became like them. I learned to sense my surroundings, to reach out with invisible hands and feel the people around me, sense their threat, and assess the quickest way to end it.

  Anger bubbles beneath this coldness tonight, though, and I can only think it is Anna, up there, waiting for me. Whoever this is has made her life more difficult, and for some reason my blackened husk of a heart cannot even come close to figuring out, I care about that more than I’ve cared about anything in a long time.

  I walk, and I watch my periphery, and listen for the hider.

  When I’m halfway back down the street, level with the old Chevrolet, which is probably brown or blue but looks pitch-black in the night—when my muscles are ready and my senses are sharp—when I’ve told myself, It ends here, now—when I’m geared up and ready to fight, ready to kill—when I’ve taken a long calming breath and found my killer’s center, I spring across the street and sprint at the car.

  The person leaps to their feet at once, like a jack-in-the-box, and sprints to an alleyway just behind them. I know without having to think that this is their pre-planned escape route. They head toward it with the purpose I’d head toward an escape route, head ducked low, sprinting purposefully. I slide over the hood of the car and sprint after them into the dark. Garbage cans, a dead cat, a rat gnawing on a bone, graffiti incomprehensible in the dark, condoms and spilling plastic bags and decaying food . . . I run past them all toward the watcher. He’s thin, tall, with a slight build. His legs are long and he takes long strides away from me.

  Left, left, right, left, right, here and there, all over the place, deep within this labyrinth of passageways until I’m almost convinced that he’s guessing. He has no getaway. But then we come to a tall iron fence of intersecting metal, reaching as high as two people. Beyond the fence is a busy street. Laughter and shouting and glasses clinking filter down the alleyway and through the fence toward me. Pedestrians walk back and forth at the mouth of the alleyway, oblivious. And parked just beyond it, in a perfect position for whoever this is, is an inconspicuous black Ford SUV.

  The person charges the fence, vaults off an upturned dumpster, grips the edge of the fence and swings his entire body over in one swift motion, like a gymnast. I don’t think; I just charge. I have to get to him before he gets to the car. I run as fast as I can to the fence, bend my knees, and jump. Reaching up, I grab the rim, and make to pull myself up. Stupid, not watching.

  The person is wearing a ski mask, thick goggles, and nondescript black clothes. Their boots are thick and black; they are covered from head to toe. Instead of running to the car, like I guessed he would, he stands at the other side of the fence as I make to climb it. And then, quick as a cat, he reaches into his pocket, takes out a Taser, and electrifies the metal.

  “Ah!” I grunt.

  My body seizes up and I fall backwards, into the dark, as the stalker sprints away into the light and toward his waiting getaway car.

  ###

  As soon as my body stops shaking, I sit bolt upright and search the mouth of the alleyway. Nothing but pedestrians and an empty street, light, but no assailant. Anna, I think, and I put myself in the mind of the trickster, the watcher, the stalker, the prick. They clearly have an interest in Anna. Perhaps they want to hurt Anna. I don’t know why, but it seems that way. If that’s true, I’ve just given them the perfect opportunity. Here I am, lying atop a dumpster, body aching all over, and right now Anna could be in danger.

  I jump to my feet, ignoring the twinge in my lower spine where the corner of the dumpster dug into my skin, ignoring the various pulsing aches all over my body, and run back down the alleyway. I remember the way, as I always do. That’s another trick of the trade: another testament of Uncle Richard’s savage child. From an early age I’ve been going along on jobs, and soon I learnt that if you want to be great, not just good, there’s more than brute killing. That’s a small part of it. The rest is planning, attention to detail. Without really considering it, I mapped the way as I was chasing the man in black. Now I dart through the alleyway without stopping to think, my legs pumping furiously, my chest heaving.

  Anna, Anna, Anna.

  I try to imagine how much I will hate myself if I left her to die. Allowing a woman to die on my watch would be bad enough, but allowing Anna to die because I couldn’t close a chase would feel like spikes wheedling through my body, incessant spikes of regret and shame and anger. I feel something for Anna, as bemusing as that is. I feel something for her which goes beyond the mere fact that she’s a woman.

  After what seems like an age, I’m in the street outside her apartment building. I pace across the road and charge into the building, up the stairs, images swirling through my mind, images which cause me to push myself harder, quicker. I see her splayed on her back, blood dripping from her mouth, eyes glassed over. I see her dangling from the roof by a rope. All the men I have killed, or have seen killed, become Anna in my mind. She becomes the actor in a hundred grotesque scenes.

  I reach the door to her apartment, and knock. I’m tempted to crash through the door, but if I do that, whoever is in there will kill her all the quicker. Knock, and they might think it’s a neighbor, perhaps keep Anna alive to try and talk me into leaving. I knock lightly, as though there’s no urgency, as though sweat doesn’t cake my body and my heart isn’t a song of gunshots. No answer. I knock again, and again. And still there’s no answer. The scenes, the scenes . . . Anna, the woman I met only a few hours ago and yet feel like I’ve known for a long time. Anna, who will haunt my dreams forever if I’ve let this happy. Anna, who is innocent in all of this.

  I reach into my pants pocket, praying that it didn’t fall out during the sex. It didn’t.

  I take out the lock pick kit, open it, and retrieve the tools. I work the door; after a few seconds, it clicks and unlocks.

  Creeping into the apartment, fists clenched, as silent as a jaguar, I ready my
self for a fight. I creep to the couch and look down. There she is, mouth slack, eyes closed, body contorted. Sleeping soundly.

  I breathe a long, slow breath.

  Okay, okay, I think.

  I walk around the couch and lean down to her. “Anna,” I whisper.

  A small smile touches her lips and she rolls toward me. “Sleep,” she whispers.

  I smile. I almost laugh, but that would wake her up. I can’t even be angry at her for not waking up when I knocked. I’m just glad she isn’t dead, more relieved than I can understand. Not just that I’m not responsible for a woman’s death, but that she, Anna, is alive. Anna is still here.