Heir to the Shadows

by Anne Bishop

Page 52

 

  Guardian.

  The word slammed into Lucivar, freezing his lungs.

  Guardian. One of the living dead.

  Jaenelle made the introductions. Then she smiled at Geoffrey. "Why don't you get acquainted? There's something I want to look up. "

  Geoffrey looked pained. "At least tell me the name of the volume before you leave. The last time I couldn't tell your father where you 'looked something up,' he treated me to some eloquent phrases that would have made me blush if I was still capable of doing it. "

  Jaenelle patted Geoffrey's shoulder and kissed his cheek. "I'll bring the book out and even mark the page for you. "

  "So kind of you. "

  Laughing, Jaenelle disappeared into the stacks.

  Geoffrey turned to Lucivar. "So. You've finally come. "

  Why did they make him feel like he'd kept them waiting?

  Geoffrey lifted a decanter. "Would you like some yarbarah? Or some other refreshment?"

  With some effort, Lucivar found his voice. "Yarbarah's fine. "

  "Have you ever drunk yarbarah?" Geoffrey asked drolly.

  "It's drunk during some Eyrien ceremonies. " Of course, the cup used for those ceremonies held a mouthful of the blood wine. Geoffrey, he noted apprehensively, was filling and warming two wineglasses.

  "It's lamb," Geoffrey said, handing a glass to Lucivar and settling into a chair beside the table.

  Lucivar gratefully sank into a chair opposite Geoffrey and sipped the yarbarah. There was more blood in the mixture than was used in the ceremonies, the wine more full-bodied.

  "How do you like it?" Geoffrey's black eyes sparkled.

  "It's . . . " Lucivar struggled to find something mild to say.

  "Different," Geoffrey suggested. "It's an acquired taste, and here we drink it for other reasons than ceremonial. "

  Guardian. Was the blood mixed with the wine ever human? Lucivar took another swallow and decided he wasn't curious enough to ask.

  "Why have you never come to the Keep, Lucivar?"

  Lucivar set the glass down carefully. "I was under the . . impression a half-breed bastard wouldn't be welcome here. "

  "I see," Geoffrey said mildly. "Except for those who care for the Keep, who has the right to decide who is welcome and who is not?"

  Lucivar forced himself to meet Geoffrey's eyes. "I'm a half-breed bastard," he said again, as if that should explain everything.

  "Half-breed. " Geoffrey sounded as if he were turning the word over and over. "The way you say it, it sounds insulting. Perhaps dual bloodline would be a more accurate way to think of it. " He leaned back, cradling the wineglass in both hands. "Has it ever occurred to you that, without that other bloodline, you wouldn't be the man you are? That you wouldn't have the intelligence and strength you have?" He waved his glass at Lucivar's Ebon-gray Jewel. "That you never would have worn those? For all that you are Eyrien, Lucivar, you are also your father's son. "

  Lucivar froze. "You know my father?" he asked in a choked voice.

  "We've been friends for many years. "

  It was there, in front of him. All he had to do was ask.

  It took him two tries to get the word out. "Who?"

  "The Prince of the Darkness," Geoffrey said gently. "The High Lord of Hell. It's Saetan's bloodline that runs through your veins. "

  Lucivar closed his eyes. No wonder his paternity had never been registered. Who would have believed a woman who claimed to be seeded by the High Lord? And if anyonehad believed her, imagine the panic that would have caused. Saetan still walked the Realms. Mother Night!

  Had Daemon ever learned who had sired them? He would have been pleased withthis paternal bloodline.

  The thought lanced through him. He locked it away.

  At least there was one thing he was still sure of. Maybe. He looked at Geoffrey, afraid of either answer. "I'm still a bastard. "

  Geoffrey sighed. "I'm reluctant to pull the rest of the ground out from under you but, no, you're not. He formally registered you the day after you were born. Here, at the Keep. "

  He wasn't a bastard. They . . . "Daemon?" Had he said it out loud?

  "Registered as well. "

  Mother Night. They weren't bastards. He scrambled, clawing for solid ground that kept turning into quicksand under him. "Doesn't make any difference since no one else knew. "

  "Have you ever been encouraged to play stud, Lucivar?"

  Encouraged, pressured, imprisoned, punished, drugged, beaten, forced. They'd been able to use him, but they'd never been able to breed him. He'd never known if the reason was physical or if, somehow, his own rage had kept him sterile. He'd wondered sometimes why they'd wanted his seed so badly. Knowing who had sired him and the potential strength of any offspring he might produce. . . . Yes, they'd overlook a great deal to have him sire offspring for specific covens, specific aristo houses with failing bloodlines.

  He gulped the yarbarah. Cold, it tasted thick. Shaking

  and choking, he wondered if his stomach was going to stay down.

  A small water glass and another decanter appeared. "Here," Geoffrey said as he quickly filled the glass and shoved it into Lucivar's hand. "I believe whiskey is the proper drink for this kind of shock. "

  The whiskey cleansed his mouth and burned all the way down. He held out the glass for a refill.

  By the time he drained his fourth glass, he was still shaking, but he also felt fuzzy and numb. He liked fuzzy and numb.

  "What did you do to Lucivar?" Jaenelle asked, dropping the book on the table. "I thought I was the only one who made him look like that. " "

  "Fuzzy and numb," Lucivar murmured, resting his head against her.

  "So I see," Jaenelle replied, petting him.

  A soft warmth surrounded him. That felt nice, too.

  "Come on, Lucivar," Jaenelle said. "Let's tuck you into a bed. "

  He didn't want her to think four paltry glasses of whiskey could put him under the table, so he stood up.

  The last things he clearly remembered seeing before the room began moving in unpredictable ways were Geoffrey's gentle smile and the understanding in Jaenelle's eyes.

  4 / Kaeleer

  Jaenelle was gone before he woke the next morning, leaving him to deal with a throbbing head and the emotional upheaval on his own. When he'd found out she'd left him at the Keep, he'd come close to hating her, silently accusing her of being cold, cruel, and unfeeling.

  He spent the two days she was gone exploring the Keep and the mountain called Ebon Askavi. He returned for meals because he was expected to, spoke only when required, and retreated to his room each evening. The wolves offered silent company. He petted and brushed them and, finally, asked the question that had bothered him.

  Yes, Smoke told him reluctantly, Lucivar had cried. Heart pain. Caught-in-a-trap pain. The Lady had petted and petted, sung and sung.

  It had been more than a dream, then.

  In one of the dreamscapes Black Widows spun so well, Jaenelle had met the boy he had been and had drawn the poison from the soul wound. He had wept for the boy, for the things he hadn't been allowed to do, for the things he hadn't been allowed to be. But he didn't weep for the man he'd become. "Ah, Lucivar," she'd said regretfully as they'd walked through the dreamscape. "I can heal the scars on your body, but I can't heal the scars of the soul. Not yours, not mine. You have to learn to live with them. You have to choose to live beyond them. "

  He couldn't remember anything else in the dream. Perhaps he wasn't meant to. But because of it, he didn't weep for the man he'd become.

  Lucivar and Jaenelle stood on the wall of one of the Keep's outer courtyards, looking out over the valley.

  Jaenelle pointed to the village below them. "Riada is the largest village in Ebon Rih. Agio is at the northern end of the valley. Doun is at the southern end. There are also several landen villages and a number of independent farm
steads, Blood and landen. " She brushed stray hairs from her face. "Outside of Doun, there's a large stone house. The property's surrounded by a stone wall. You can't miss it. "

  He waited. "Is that where we're going?" he finally asked.

  "I'm going back to the cabin. You're going to that house. "

  "Why?"

  She kept her eyes fixed on the valley. "Your mother lives there. "

  A large, three-story, stone house. A low stone wall separating two acres of tended land from the wildflowers and grasses. Vegetable garden, herb garden, flower gardens", rock garden. In one corner, a stand of trees that whispered, "forest. "

  A solid place that should have welcomed. A place that gave no comfort. Conflicting emotions too familiar, even after all this time.

  Sweet Darkness, don't let it be her.

  Of course, it was her. And he wondered why she had abandoned him when he was so young he couldn't remember her and then tolerated his visits as a youth without ever once hinting that she was his mother.

  He pushed the kitchen door wide open but remained outside. Until he crossed the threshold, she wouldn't realize he was there. How many times had he suggested that she extend her territorial shield a few feet beyond the stone walls she lived in so she'd have some warning of an intruder? One time less than she'd rejected the suggestion.

  Her back was to the door as she fussed with something on the counter. He recognized her anyway by that distinctive white streak in her black hair and the stiff, angry way she always moved.

  He stepped into the kitchen. "Hello, Luthvian. "

  She whirled around, a long-bladed kitchen knife in her hand. He knew it wasn't personal. She'd caught the psychic scent of a grown male and had reached automatically for a knife.

  She stared at him, her gold eyes growing wider and wider, filming with tears. "Lucivar," she whispered. She took a step toward him. Then another. She made a funny little sound between a laugh and a sob. "She did it. She actually did it. " She reached for him.