Sugar Walls

by Brittani Williams

  “I don’t want to fight you Meeka,” I said.

  “Meeka, back off!” Dyna yelled. “You weren’t too worried about me earlier. Why do you care now?” she asked.

  “Dyna, that’s not true!”

  “You always do that shit when you get drunk!” Dyna yelled. “Why don’t you just go to your mom’s tonight and get sober? We’ll talk tomorrow.”

  “Dyna, please. I’m sorry, baby.”

  “I said we’ll talk tomorrow,” Dyna yelled before heading to her bedroom.

  “This ain’t over, bitch!” she sneered at me before grabbing her bag and walking toward the door. If looks could kill, I would have been dead. The party guests figured that was the cue for them to leave as well. They began to gather their belongings and disperse to their vehicles. I was happy that Meeka left for the night because I was really in no mood to fight.

  I was still feeling a buzz from the alcohol that I had been drinking. I went up to the bathroom and began to undress. I bent over to turn on the shower so the water could warm up. As I took off my shoes, I looked at my body in the full-length mirror. I had really developed in the last few years; my breasts were now a full D cup, and my waist was small with round hips and a perfectly rounded butt. I admired how I had changed and I was now secure with my body, especially with all of the attention I had been getting lately. I was no longer embarrassed by what God had given me.

  It had been months since a man had touched me, and I was growing hornier and lonelier every day. I sat down on the stool against the wall opposite the mirror. I closed my eyes and placed my right leg up on the side of the tub. I listened to the sound of the shower and imagined it was a rainstorm, and as I could hear the water beating against the glass, I eased my middle finger inside of my tunnel. I caressed my breast with my free hand and continued moving my finger in and out as I moaned loudly. I tickled my clit with my index finger in a circular motion. I could feel the juices pouring out of me as I came three consecutive times. I sat there for a second before I opened my eyes and was stunned to see Dyna standing at the door staring at me. I quickly sat up straight and tried to cover my naked body with my bath towel.

  “I’m sorry, Dyna!” I said, shyly.

  “What are you sorry for? I enjoyed what I just saw; it made me wet as a matter of fact. Do you mind if I join you?” she asked, moving closer to me.

  “I’m not gay, Dyna.”

  “Neither am I, I’m bisexual. I want to make you feel good, Sugar. No man can give you the feeling that I can,” she said, easing down on her knees and placing her hand on my thigh.

  “Dyna, please,” I said.

  “Come on and let me fuck you, Sugar. I’ve been wanting to since the day I met you,” she said as her hands eased up to my lips and began rubbing on my clit. “Ummm, you taste so good!” she said as she licked my juices from her fingers.

  “Dyna,” I called her name, trying to resist. Her fingers felt so good moving inside of me that I gave in. She continued to move her fingers in and out of me as she sucked on both of my extremely hard nipples.

  “Do you want me, Sugar?” she asked as she moved in to kiss me.

  “Yes,” I moaned.

  She moved in the direction to kiss me down below. I could have never imagined that I would be about to have sex with another woman. I had never even been curious about it. Since the first time that I had sex with JT, men were the only thing that I had thought about.

  I tried my best to relax as pictures of Meeka kept popping into my head. I remembered her warning, and I prayed that she wouldn’t come home and catch us in the moment. I used the tub as leverage to assist me in grinding my clit against her tongue. I continued to moan over and over again. She made love to me with her tongue that night, and it was an experience that I would never forget.

  I didn’t know what to say to Dyna after it was over. I could barely look her in the eye. It was almost instantly that I began to feel uncomfortable. I had let my loneliness take over, and I knew that I should have gone with my mind on this one. I knew that situation could bring nothing but drama. Meeka was still her girlfriend, and I was still her employee. I was definitely not going to be a jump-off. I felt that I needed to end this before it went any further, and before she went to sleep I went into her room and sat on the edge of the bed.

  “Dyna, we need to talk,” I said, tapping her on her shoulder.

  “What’s up?” she said, turning around to face me.

  “I really enjoyed myself tonight, but this can’t ever happen again.”

  “Why is that?” she asked before sitting up on the bed.

  “Because you are with Meeka and I’m not gay.”

  “Well, that could change if you want to be with me.”

  “Dyna, I like you a lot, and I appreciate everything that you’ve done for me, but I’m not sure I’m ready for that.”

  “So after what just happened you’re telling me that you don’t want to enjoy that pleasure all the time?” She moved closer to me.

  “I don’t know, Dyna.”

  “Yes you do,” she said, moving closer to kiss me.

  “I can’t, Dyna. I just can’t!” I said before getting up and leaving the room. I quickly went to my room and stretched out across the bed. I hoped that Dyna wouldn’t take my rejection the wrong way and decide to fire me or put me out. I did want to remain friends minus the lover thing. To be honest, I really did enjoy every minute of the sex. I had never been so satisfied. Dyna pleased me in every way and didn’t pressure me to return the favor. I sat there while she feasted on me and it was pure ecstasy. I guess her knowing first hand what makes a woman feel good was where her expertise came from.

  It wasn’t long before I fell to sleep, and when I woke up to Meeka yelling over top of me, I wasn’t sure what the hell was going on. Dyna was standing there in her underwear arguing with Meeka, obviously trying to keep her from attacking me. I rolled out of bed and stood on the opposite side of the bed to move further away from the commotion.

  “What’s going on?” I asked.

  “You know what the fuck is going on! I leave here for one night and when I come home I find you two in the bed together!” Meeka yelled.

  “We weren’t in bed together!”

  “I’m not blind, and I know I walked in here and saw you two ’sleep in the same bed!” She continued to try and get through Dyna and reach me.

  “What?” I asked, confused, because I was sure that I went to bed alone last night. She must have climbed into bed with me after I fell asleep.

  “Meeka, it’s over between us. Me and Sugar are together now!”

  “What are you talking about Dyna?” I asked, still unsure of what Dyna was trying to pull.

  “I’m going to kill you, bitch!” Meeka yelled.

  “Meeka, it’s time for you to go. I’ll pack your stuff and drop it off to you.”

  “This shit ain’t over,” Meeka said. She pushed Dyna out of her way and walked toward the door, continuing to yell obscenities.

  “Dyna, why did you lie to her like that?” I asked.

  “I didn’t lie! We are going to be together and that’s final!” she spoke sternly.

  “What?”

  “I didn’t eat your pussy like that just to do it. I did it so you can see what you have to look forward to. I knew you were going to be mine from the day that I met you.”

  “But Dyna . . .”

  “Do you want to go back to your abusive crackhead-ass mother and that fucked up apartment? Because that’s the only other option that you have. I’ll gladly pack your shit right along with Meeka’s things.”

  “What?” Tears began to well up in my eyes.

  “There’s no need to cry, Sugar. You’ll love being with me, trust me. I’m going to go get a shower. It would be nice if you joined me,” she hinted before leaving the room.

  I sat there for a minute in shock. I couldn’t believe she would give me an ultimatum like that. I never wanted to go back to my mom under any circumstance, a
nd she knew that. I had nowhere else to go, but I knew that I didn’t want to be in a relationship with Dyna. I was so upset that she was going to force me to do something that I had clearly told her I didn’t want to do. I didn’t have much money saved because she paid me every day, so I didn’t waste time spending it. I felt like I was back at home being threatened unless I did everything her way. Dyna had never shown this side to me before.

  Within minutes of Dyna leaving the room, I heard the shower running. I knew that I had no other choice but to do what she had ordered me to do. I took off my clothes and nervously made my way to the bathroom. Before going in I took a deep breath and turned my frown into a smile. Though I was burning up inside, I knew that I couldn’t let her know it. I walked in just as she was stepping into the shower. She turned around and glanced at me with a devilish grin.

  “I’m glad you decided to join me,” she said, motioning me to come closer. “I’ll guarantee that you will love every minute of what I have to offer.”

  I didn’t say a word as she pulled me into the shower and pushed my back up against the wall. The steam along with the adrenaline had me sweating instantly as she began kissing me on my neck. I closed my eyes and imagined there was a sexy brown-skinned man in the shower with me. I could hear the water beating against her back as she moved down to my stomach and slowly pushed her tongue in and out of my belly button. I began to moan as she moved down lower and placed my leg over her shoulder. She French kissed my lips, and my juices began to flow while she sucked every drop from me. I quickly forgot about the fact that it was Dyna eating me out; the multiple orgasms that she was giving me pushed the idea far into the back of my mind. I wanted her to stop just as much as I wanted her to keep going. My body wanted one thing, but my heart wanted another. It wasn’t long before the episode was over, and though I experienced many orgasms, I wanted to go to my room and go to sleep with the hopes that I would wake up and this would all be a dream.

  Once I reached my bedroom I slid into bed and lay there staring at the ceiling. What had happened to my life? I questioned all the choices I had made and I wondered if I would have just stayed home and dealt with my mother for a little while longer would I had been better off right now. For some strange reason I missed my mother. Though she abused me for so long, I had gotten used to it, and not having her around was weird. I didn’t know what to expect from Dyna. From the day I met her I had built up what I thought she would be in my mind. Once I began working for her she was everything I thought she would be. Sadly, she changed every great thought I had of her. This display of sisterly love was something that I would be forced to grow accustomed to.

  Chapter 5

  Like mother Not Like daughter . . .

  I decided to pay my mother a visit since she had been on my mind a lot the last few months. It had been four months since the day I ran out of mother’s house. I knew she would probably have nothing nice to say to me, but I still wanted to see how she was doing. After all, she was still my mother and I loved her. I got dressed early on a Saturday in my best gear. I wanted to dress the part to show my mother I had turned out rather well after all she had put me through. Before leaving the house I walked to Dyna’s office to let her know where I was going. She was sitting at her desk counting money when I walked in.

  “Hey baby! You’re all dressed up. Where are you headed to?” she asked, motioning me to come closer so she could get a good look at me.

  “To see my mom,” I said in a low tone.

  “For what?” she asked, shocked.

  “Because I haven’t seen her since the day that I left, and I want to see how she’s doing.”

  “But why? She never gave a fuck about you, so why do you care about her?”

  “Well, unfortunately I’m not like her.”

  “Yeah, that is unfortunate, because I wouldn’t care how the hell she was doing after all that she did to you. She could die and I wouldn’t even go to her funeral. Personally, I don’t think you should go. But it’s your choice, Sugar.”

  “Well, I’m going to go see her for a few, and I’ll come past the store when I’m done.”

  “All right,” she said, kissing me.

  I turned to leave the room and I thought about what Dyna had said. You would have to be a cold-hearted person not to attend your mother’s funeral. I didn’t really know much about Dyna’s past, but I could sense that it wasn’t great by the things that she said. With all of the things that my mother had said and done to me, I would still attend her funeral because she’d always be the only mother I’d have.

  I got into the car that Dyna had bought for me—a new model Toyota Camry. She said that there was more to come, and she was surely making sure that I was happy with what she was giving me. She had even given me a raise in my pay, and I was extremely happy about that. This time I was being a little smarter about saving my money, because I never wanted to be caught out there again broke and forced into an unwanted situation.

  Once I reached my mother’s apartment complex I sat in the car for a minute. I pondered whether I should go through with it or not. I knew that I had nothing to be afraid of because I didn’t depend on her anymore, and I didn’t need her to take care of me either. I still had the key to the door, but I decided to knock instead of just walking in. I stood there for about five minutes before my mother stumbled to the door. I could tell that she was high as usual, and she reeked of alcohol. I held my composure and politely said hello.

  “What the hell brings you here? Ran out of money?” she said, spitting from the sides of her mouth.

  “I just came by to say hi and see how you were doing.”

  “I don’t know why you care about me now,” she said, turning around walking inside of the apartment.

  “I always cared about you, Mom,” I said, following her into the apartment.

  “Yeah, right! I heard you’re a prostitute now!” she said, grinning.

  “No I’m not, Mom. I just promote an escort service, that’s all.”

  “If that’s what you want to call it, honey. I ain’t no fool, you know.”

  “That’s what it is.”

  “You’re fucking girls now too!”

  “Who told you that?” I asked.

  “Don’t worry about where I get my information from. I know everything.”

  “Well, if you must know, I am in a relationship with someone, and she treats me very well.”

  “I know which way you are headed, and it damn sure ain’t to nobody’s college. I knew you weren’t going to be shit!” she spat.

  “I am going to go to school, and I hope you’re still alive to see it.”

  “What the hell is that supposed to mean? You think that I’m going to die soon or something?”

  “I’m sure you’re not going to live very long with all of that heroin you keep shooting into your veins.”

  “Fuck you, Sugar. If all you came here for was to show off all of your new shit, you can hop off that high horse now, because I don’t give a fuck about you or anything you have.”

  “I’m glad you told me that, Mom. I always had a feeling that you didn’t care about me, but now I know for sure. It was nice seeing you anyway,” I said, turning to walk out of the apartment.

  “Well, the feeling is definitely not mutual,” she said, digging the knife even deeper.

  I could feel tears welling up as I walked out, but I held them in. I was no longer going to be hurt by anything that she said. I was wiping her out of my life. I now knew that the saying, “like mother like daughter” wasn’t always true because I was nothing like her at all. I made my way back out to my car and I noticed Mya walking up the street. I stopped and waited for her to come up to where I was standing.

  “What’s up, stranger? What brings you around this way?” she asked, smiling.

  “I just came by to see how Mom was doing.”

  “What’s been going on? I heard that you’re making a lot of money now.”

  “Not really. It’s enough
to get by. How have you been doing?”

  “I’m cool. You see I’m pregnant again.”

  “Yeah but, why so soon?” I asked.

  “I don’t know, it wasn’t on purpose. I wasn’t going to get an abortion, so I decided to keep it.”

  “Well, good luck. I hope everything turns out good for you.”

  “Well, keep in touch. Maybe we can go hang out some time.”

  “OK,” I said before giving her a hug and waving good-bye. I got in my car and watched her as she went into the building. I did hope that everything turned out good for Mya. After all, she was my sister and I wanted her to be happy.

  I drove off with a sense of relief. I finally knew how my mother felt about me, and I could move on. I began driving and my cell phone was ringing in my pocket. I fumbled to answer it without checking the caller ID.

  “Hello!” I said.

  “What’s up, bitch? I hope you didn’t think it was over. I’m going to kick your ass when I catch you,” Meeka yelled.

  “Meeka, I don’t know why you continue to call me and harass me. Dyna doesn’t want you, and even if she was ever thinking about it, threatening me is not the way to get her back.”

  “Please, you are just a little pawn in her game. It’s a shame that you are too stupid to notice that! She’s going to drop you just like she did me when some fresh pussy comes along. You just wait and see.”

  “Whatever, Meeka. You need to get a life!” I yelled before ending the call. I was furious, and I was sick and tired of arguing with Meeka. At least once a week since the day Dyna put her out she had called and threatened me. She would call me every name in the book just before guaranteeing me an ass-whipping. I had told Dyna on numerous occasions to get Meeka under control, but it didn’t appear that she followed through, because Meeka still continued to call me.

  I had begun to like this relationship with Dyna over the past few months. Honestly, I had begun to love it. I never thought I could feel that way about another woman. Though Dyna mesmerized me from day one, it had been taken to another level. The way that I felt about her the day I was forced into the relationship had faded away. Her dark-toned skin reminded me of a Tootsie Roll, and she had succulent lips that you just wanted to kiss all the time. Her voice was soft but firm, and her touch was smooth as dark chocolate. With my light brown skin, we were like a candy bar with caramel; we mixed perfectly. I tried not to get upset with Dyna for Meeka’s actions, but it was extremely hard. I knew Dyna was capable of taming Meeka if she truly wanted to.