Nothing but Darkness

by Maria Ann Green

  Nothing but Darkness

  Darkness Series, Book One

  Maria Ann Green

  Table of Contents

  Chapter One:

  Chapter Two:

  Chapter Three:

  Chapter Four:

  Chapter Five:

  Chapter Six:

  Chapter Seven:

  Chapter Eight:

  Chapter Nine:

  Chapter Ten:

  Chapter Eleven:

  Chapter Twelve:

  Chapter Thirteen:

  Chapter Fourteen:

  Chapter Fifteen:

  Chapter Sixteen:

  Chapter Seventeen:

  Chapter Eighteen:

  Chapter Nineteen:

  Chapter Twenty:

  Chapter Twenty-One:

  Chapter Twenty-Two:

  Chapter Twenty-Three:

  Chapter Twenty-Four:

  Chapter Twenty-Five:

  Chapter Twenty-Six:

  Chapter Twenty-Seven:

  Chapter Twenty-Eight:

  Chapter Twenty-Nine:

  Chapter Thirty:

  Chapter Thirty-One:

  Chapter Thirty-Two:

  Chapter Thirty-Three:

  Chapter Thirty-Four:

  Chapter Thirty-Five:

  Chapter Thirty-Six:

  Chapter Thirty-Seven:

  Chapter Thirty-Eight:

  Chapter Thirty-Nine:

  Chapter Forty:

  Chapter Forty-One:

  Chapter Forty-Two:

  Chapter Forty-Three:

  Chapter Forty-Four:

  Chapter Forty-Five:

  Chapter Forty-Six:

  Chapter Forty-Seven:

  Chapter Forty-Eight:

  Chapter Forty-Nine:

  Chapter Fifty:

  Chapter Fifty-One:

  Chapter Fifty-Two:

  Chapter Fifty-Three:

  Chapter Fifty-Four:

  Chapter Fifty-Five:

  Chapter Fifty-Six:

  Chapter Fifty-Seven:

  Chapter Fifty-Eight:

  Chapter Fifty-Nine:

  Chapter Sixty:

  Chapter Sixty-One:

  Chapter Sixty-Two:

  Chapter Sixty-Three:

  NOTHING BUT DARKNESS

  Copyright © 2018 Maria Ann Green

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, and incidents, other than those clearly in the public domain, are either products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

  Cover design by Angela Fristoe

  Covered Creatively Book Cover Design

  Formatting by Jaye Cox

  Formatting the Affordable Way

  All rights reserved.

  Other works by Maria Ann Green

  In the Rearview, young adult poetry and prose

  This book is dedicated to Travis,

  the Bee to my Aidan.

  Darkness (noun):

  1. A lack of brightness; the quality of having no or little light: he sat alone in the darkness of his corner

  2. A state of exhibiting or stemming from evil characteristics or forces; forboding: she provoked a particular darkness within me the longer she spoke

  “Stars, hide your fires; Let not light see my black and deep desires.”

  ―William Shakespeare, Macbeth

  My eyes widen, watching the arrow fly toward its target. Leaves flutter, pushed aside. As it lands, into the sinew of her neck, my lungs fill with triumph.

  Who knew death could be like this?

  Pride radiates through my chest. I’ve accomplished what I came here to do.

  The doe freezes, pain not registering yet. When it does she starts to dance, shaking her head and stomping her feet. A sad sound fills the air, ringing out my victory, as she stumbles through the trees. I’d have thought she’d die faster. The arrow must have missed her artery.

  Rising from my hunting blind, I move toward the wounded animal. She tries to run, but her strength goes with her coordination. Falling head first into tangled roots, it’s evident she won’t last much longer.

  I should put her out of her misery. Though, as the thought filters through me, I hesitate. My knife is ready, yet it remains still.

  End it already.

  I don’t. I keep watching as she flails, screeching in agony. Red stains her otherwise pristine coat, standing out against the white. I don’t think I’ve seen a more vibrant shade.

  Fuck.

  Snapping myself out of it, I raise my blade then stop as I watch the last moment of life fade from the doe’s eyes. She dies while I kneel close enough to feel her last breath against my knees. The pink tongue lolls from her mouth. This hunting trip is a technical success, yet the experience feels inadequate now. I was supposed to be a man. I was supposed to end her before the arrow did.

  I failed.

  How could I fail?

  Anger bubbles like acid from my stomach, coating the inside of my throat. I will not be a fuck-up. This weekend is for me. This is my time. I will not be weak. Without thinking any longer, as instincts take over, I act.

  I plunge the metal into a soft spot under her chin. Only her head moves with my thrust. The second spout I’ve opened drains over my arm onto the cold ground. It flows warm at first, but chills quickly. The scent is overpowering. I’ve never been this close to such a significant amount of blood.

  It’s terrifying.

  It’s thrilling.

  It’s over too fast.

  As the wound stops spilling, I stand, trying to clean myself off. She’s going to be heavy on the way back to the cabin.

  ****

  Work’s been shitty lately, and the…rest, it’s been lacking too. I needed a weekend away, a break, in the simple quiet country, a chance to let out my aggression, a chance to feel free.

  So here I am, hunting up north at my uncle’s cabin, soaking up the solitude. All alone; the silence is beautiful. No one asks me to hurry or to finish any work. No one speaks my name. No one speaks at all. There are no complaints, no shouts, no whining.

  Everything’s so wonderful, quiet.

  The deer’s been taken care of. After I did the easy work, I took her to a butcher to handle the rest. I don’t even like venison, so I took his money, leaving the meat. Now I’m back at the cabin, flipping through channels next to a warm fire. There isn’t much on, though I find a movie I haven’t seen. Leaving it there, I sip my beer, and stoking the flames is all I have left to do tonight. No responsibilities other than staying relaxed, content.

  Tomorrow I’ll head back to town, back to the faster-paced city, forgetting how peaceful it is here. I’ll be happy to be closer to everything I need and everyone I know. So for now, before I take this for granted, I put my feet up, relishing the silent darkness of tonight.

  Of course I forgot my goddamn coffee on the counter at home. That’s the type of day it’s turning out to be, after less than an hour since waking up. After such a great weekend away, I shouldn’t expect anything else. My alarm went off so quietly I hadn’t heard it until I’d slept in; I tripped over my computer’s cord, sending it crashing to the floor (not salvageable), and the beginnings of snow are falling on my windshield. Plus now the coffee. The creamer will have gone bad by the time I make it home tonight.

  Well shit. What else can go wrong? Hopefully nothing.

  I sulk, starting the windshield wipers.

  What a dumb fucking question to even think. I should be smarter than that, know better than to tempt fate. There’s always something else that can go wrong. These are the moments when an accident crushes the fool dumb enough to ask the question
. If I’ve learned nothing else in life so far, I’ve learned there’s always something else.

  And, as if on cue, I spot that bitch. That horrible, beautiful bitch, Eva Westfall. I let my eyes trail her from her parking spot until she’s through the glass front doors. It’s easier staring when I’m camouflaged by the thick snow falling from the crisp, gray sky. She makes the trip safely despite the flurries. Damn. I wish she’d fallen off those spindle heels and broken her ankle, or her neck.

  There’s always tomorrow.

  With a sigh, I haul my 175 pounds out of my leather seat, into the cold Maine air. My 5-foot-11-inch frame isn’t what most would consider intimidating, but I get by. Muscles help, so does charisma. As I enter the same doors Eva passed through moments ago, I walk slowly, hoping she’s already been taken upstairs by the jarring, slow elevator. That piece of shit will break down some day, I’m sure, with someone stuck inside.

  No such luck, though. She’s held the door for me.

  Her smile’s revolting. What once sent a wave of excitement down my spine now inches me closer to vomiting down her cleavage, sizable as it is. She may have been the content of many kinky dreams, but now all I see when I look at her is the disgusting individual who stole my promotion.

  Granted, she looks pretty good in her tight black dress today. But I still hate her. Fuck do I hate her.

  “Hello, Aidan. How’re you this morning?” As her red lips move I envision throwing her down a very, very long flight of stairs. I wonder how those lips would move then.

  “I’m well. How ’bout you?” My smile’s too sweet. I know it affects her as she leans almost imperceptibly closer to me. Not quite imperceptible, though. I notice more about body language than most. It’s always been a talent. I’m also a fucking brilliant liar. Both come in handy. Eva’s never once believed I’d rather gouge her eyes out than be in the same room with her.

  A few months ago, my smile would’ve been genuine. Months ago, I would’ve been glad to have Eva beneath me in ecstasy with pleasure instead of pain. Those months have changed a lot, and now I want her fired. I want nothing more than for her to lose her job in some particularly embarrassing way.

  I wouldn’t mind for her to lose more than her job too, though there’s no need to be greedy. Just the career will be fine.

  My inner rant concealed, she continues to smile before sipping her fancy, store-bought latte. The bitch even has to rub it in my face that I left my coffee at home.

  The elevator lurches to our floor, the seventh, so I wave my hand in what she thinks is a gentlemanly manner, to let her pass first. The truth is I just won’t put my back to her any longer, not since she shoved a knife between my shoulder blades. She won’t be allowed to twist the blade deeper.

  Plus, despite her many drawbacks, she still has a plump ass packed into that black business dress. I’d prefer she exit first. “After you.”

  “Why thanks. See ya later.” Again, her smile does little for me, but I return it, nodding as she walks toward her office. Her new, larger office. The one that’s supposed to be mine.

  Walking out, in the opposite direction of Eva, I take tally of all my rude thoughts this morning. Most toward Eva, and harsh. She gets under my skin. Plus I’ve been easier to piss off lately. I should work on that.

  Coffee may help.

  I round the corner then knock on the smooth space of wall between the doorframes of the adjoining office and mine. The other belongs to my closest friend.

  “Hey, Jason, you up for coffee?” I ask, as I drop my briefcase on the floor just inside my office. I don’t keep anything valuable in there, or in my briefcase, so I rarely shut the door. Never lock it. I get grief from plenty of others in the office, but I won’t change. It’s easier my way. Things I choose to do usually are.

  Jason looks up only after my utterance of the word coffee.

  “Fuck yeah.”

  “Nice. Isn’t it a little early for that?” I’m such a fucking hypocrite—Jason is so easy to rile up. He always has been.

  “Damn. Sh…” He catches himself on the latter half of his third offense, slapping his mouth with an open palm. It’s so over the top, we both break out in laughter on our way back to the elevator.

  “So how was your weekend, Aid?” Jason is one of the only people I allow to call me that. I’m not fond of nicknames, but Jason is too old a friend, and it’s a pattern he’s had too long now to try changing.

  “Same old, same old. After our drinks Friday I didn’t do a whole lot.” I press the button, and we jerk downward. “How about yours?”

  “Amelia and I took the kids to a movie, some stupid kids’ cartoon, on Saturday afternoon. Then we got a babysitter for the evening, so we went out dancing. Let me tell you she’s still got it, if you know what I mean.” I always know what he means.

  Jason’s wife, Amelia, is as gorgeous as she was ten years ago when they met, though I can’t say the same for him. He gained weight along with her for each of their three pregnancies. When she lost it, he didn’t. His once-athletic physique is now what I’d call pudgy. That may even be generous. He’s bordering on fat these days. In contrast, Amelia has legs that never end and a face like a model. Plus her rack is fucking mouthwatering.

  Seriously.

  “I’ll take your word for it.” Lies. I’d love to see her body moving to a rhythm. Friendship is stronger than lust. Almost all of the time. Though I’ve let my eyes linger longer than I should a time or two. But at least I’ve only looked.

  “Any interest in going out with us soon?” I can almost taste the desperation in his question. He’s a man hungry for his wife’s attention. How sad.

  He must not be getting enough, poor guy.

  Well if I can’t assist him into bed, what kind of friend am I? “Sure, buddy. Amelia have any single friends to bring along for a night?” Okay, maybe not completely unselfish, but at least I’ll be helping him along with myself.

  “Yeah. As a matter of fact she wanted to set you up with her friend from our neighborhood—Bessie, well actually she goes by Bee, Amelia is the only one who calls her Bessie.” Or…maybe I’ll just be helping Jason. I’d better score major points for this. Bessie isn’t the type of name that accompanies a knockout. He should’ve just told me her name was Bee.

  “You’ll owe me.” Try as I do, I can’t make that sound any better than a grumble as we exit the elevator toward the lobby coffee shop.

  “Yeah I know…” He says it as an apology, though his smile doesn’t convince me he’s listening any longer. He’s relieved he’ll get a second weekend to watch Amelia’s amazing ass shake on the dance floor. I can almost see the cogs turning behind his brown eyes as we walk up to the counter.

  “Two strong roast coffees please. Both with room.” After so many years we’ve just learned to take turns buying. It’s easier. We’ve been best friends since college, and buying coffee together just as long. We needed a lot of coffee to get through some of those accounting classes.

  His thoughts continue to churn behind his eyes as we collect our cups then head back to the rickety piece of shit up to our floor. While dancing, he’d get to saunter closer to her with each drink she consumed. He’d get to whisper things in her ear that’d make her blush if she were sober. He’d get to be riskier throughout the night, slipping his hand farther up her short hemline. So, maybe this night could be a possible opportunity for me. Besides, my date may not be that bad. I have no idea what she looks like yet.

  Bessie…

  “Big time. You’ll owe me big.” I lose the smirk I’d been wearing for a much more serious facade to break though Jason’s steamy thoughts. “Plus you already do for checking in on your car two weeks ago. That storage door is a bitch to open every few days.” Jason has a muscle car from the ’60s that he shamefully hides in the winter. It’s just sitting in storage until he, or recently I, takes it out, driving it occasionally to make sure everything’s running. Before he went on vacation for over a week he begged me, just one favor. He nee
ds to know I’m due.

  “Man, you’re right. Anything you say. I swear.” Thank god. This’ll come in handy. It never hurts to rack up favors.

  “Okay. Then deal.” And I let the corners of my lips turn back up a little as we round the corner, each heading into our respective offices.

  The day drags as I switch between typing on my computer and daydreaming about a few things. Slapping Eva across the face is one vision I can see playing out across my mind. But I don’t only imagine aggression. Sometimes I see myself kissing her immediately afterward. I can almost feel our warm tongues intertwining, the heat of her body pressed up against me as her cheek reddens from the strength behind my hand.

  Jesus. What the fuck? Time to get my shit together. I can’t fondle or attack Eva. And definitely not both. She’s my superior. My evil, sexy superior, who didn’t deserve the job she got.

  Traitor.

  “Hey, you staying late?” Jason’s voice breaks the trail of convoluted thoughts I’m strolling down.

  “Nope. Hadn’t looked at the time. Just need to save this, then I can walk out with you.” We never arrive together, because, let’s face it, getting out of bed in the morning sucks ass—I’d much rather sleep in. Though, we generally walk out together after one of us reminds the other to go home. Today’s his turn.

  “Any plans for the single man tonight?” Jason’s always interested in living vicariously through me. Typically, I’m forced to disappoint him. Sometimes I invent lavish, dirty stories to satisfy him. But that’s rare since I tend to forget what I’ve told him. A time or two I’ve gotten caught lying. He never seems to mind too much though. He’s still entertained regardless.

  “None so far. I may go down to Spot Z after dinner to see who’s around.” I’d sound lonely and boring to anyone listening.

  I’m neither.

  “Nothing wrong with that. There are plenty of hotties at Z every night. Not that I go there anymore since that asshole mugged me. It used to be fun. Did you know they never caught him either? Too cheap to pay for security cameras.” He concludes with a sigh.