Syn 2: Sex Is Syn, Love Is Pain

by J Peach

  “What was she lacing your weed with and how would you not notice it?” I asked instead of addressing how he made me feel when he bugged the fuck out on me. I just didn’t want to get into that without knowing the full facts behind him tripping out.

  “I didn’t know because she was rolling the blunts and I wasn’t sitting next to her every time she did it. I knew it was something different about it, tho, because that shit had my ass lit,” he explained stressfully.

  I waited on him to tell me what she was lacing their weed with, but he didn’t say. And I could tell just from the look in his eyes that he was embarrassed and ashamed by what he did.

  “How did you find out she was drugging your weed?” I turned on the bench, facing him.

  “It was after Ron talked to you, when he found out about Jennifer and her girls jumping you. He came to the house and flipped the fuck out. Ron was so pissed off that we got into a fight.” His head shook and a hand ran down his face. “We ain’t fist fought since we were teens, so you know that nigga was mad. Anyway, I was high when he came over and started telling me how fuck’d up that shit was. And he understood why yo nigga shot at me.”

  Leon pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and lit it. “Ron was saying a lot of shit that I wasn’t paying too much attention too. That’s when he noticed how tweaked out I was. When he said it, I ain’t know what the fuck he was talking about. But shid, I knew something wasn’t always right either. I mean, whenever I smoked by myself or with other mothafuckas, I didn’t get as high as I would with Jennifer.”

  Leon took another pull on the square and then exhaled the smoke. “A few weeks after the fight with Ron, I caught her ass putting powder into the weed. I flipped the fuck out on her ass. It was funny because I was going over there to get high with that bitch. Her shit was the only weed that really had my ass lit,” he let out a laugh. “Now I know why. But once I found out what it was, my ass would crave that shit for real.”

  I was beyond shocked at what he was telling me. I just didn’t want to believe Jennifer was drugging him with dope. Why would she do that? I wanted so bad to understand and ask more questions, but I could tell he didn’t want to talk about it anymore. I felt bad for him now that I understood. Cocaine was a hell of a drug and having lived with an addict most of my life, I knew what that drug did to people.

  A sigh left my mouth. “That’s so fuck’d up, Leon.” My head shook. “How are you now?” After hearing what was going on with him. I was genuinely concerned about his health.

  He let out a heavy breath and ran a hand over his face. “I’m cool now, thanks to Ron. I’ve been clean for the past two months. I haven’t smoked, drank shit, or took a pill. I’ve been drowning myself in work and going to meetings. But I can’t even lie to you, I miss that high, you know? That shit take you to another world. And it was like, whatever problems I had while high, was gone.”

  I understood that feeling all too well. That was the reason I had popped pills. It took me to another place where my issues weren’t no more. “I know how that feels to want to get away from your problems. But, Leon, don’t fall off. I know what that drug can do to people and I don’t want to see it happen to you. Hell, look at Kelley’s ass. That bitch is bad and would do anything to get a hit.”

  “I ain’t gon’ fall off, I’m straight. I just needed you to know that I don’t ever intend to hurt you, Angel. You’ve been my friend, lover, whatever I needed at any moment. You was always it for me, even though you hit a nigga’s pockets,” he said, causing my eyes to roll and us to laugh. “Real shit, tho, I know we can’t go back to what we were and I know it’s gon’ take you time to forgive me for the shit I did, but I would eventually like my friend back,” he confessed with a sincere look.

  “It’s forgotten and I forgive you, Leon. I’ve always said that we were better than any of the bullshit that happened. No, we can’t go back to the sex thing we had, but we can most definitely be friends. Hell, my nigga beat you up and shot at you and then yo brother beat you up for me, so we’re even,” I shrugged as my lips pursed together. I couldn’t be mad at him for something he really couldn’t have control over.

  “Is yo man gon’ be cool with us being friends?” His brows rose questioningly.

  “Is that a trick question?” There was no way in hell Parker was going to be okay with me being cool with Leon. I wasn’t even going to say anything to Parker about this meeting with him. He was too fast tempered and I just didn’t want to deal with all that.

  “N’all, it ain’t. I’m dead ass serious. How we gon’ be cool without him knowing?” Leon asked.

  I shrugged my shoulders. “What he don’t know won’t hurt him.” That was the simplest way I could put it. After learning what had happened to him and knowing he missed that high, Leon needed a friend and I wasn’t going to turn my back on him.

  “What’s up with you? It’s something different about you. I don’t know what it is, but it’s a good look on you, though.” He gave me a slight smile.

  “I feel different honestly, and it feels good.” Again I shrugged as I returned his smile.

  “That's what's up.” He stared at me for a long minute. Leon then cleared his throat and looked away from me before he stood up. “Well, I don't wanna hold you up.”

  I got up as well. “I’m glad that you’re doing better. And, Leon, if you need me for anything, don’t hesitate to call me. No matter the time, call me. Okay?” I meant every word I had said to him. The last thing I wanted to do was turn my back on him. Once upon a time he was my friend. Just like I was what he needed at times, whether it was for sex or just someone to talk to, Leon was the same for me.

  “I’ight. I’ll do that,” he said.

  “Leon, I mean that. If you need someone to talk to, I’m here. No matter the time, call me,” I stressed to him how serious I was.

  Leon laughed at me and nodded his head. “I hear you and believe me, I will. Now come on, let me walk you to your car.” He held his hand out for me to take. I took his hand and he pulled me close to his side as he began to lead us to my car.

  “Angel? Is that you?” I heard that irritating, all too familiar voice yell from behind me.

  I ignored Kelley’s ass and kept on like I didn’t hear her.

  “Angel! I know you hear me!” She yelled.

  Leon slowed his pace, looking down at me. “You ain’t gon’ see what she wants?” He asked.

  I rolled my eyes at him. “No. She don’t want shit but some money like always and I ain’t got shit for that bitch.” I didn’t have anything to say nor did I have shit for Kelley’s crackhead ass.

  “Angel!” She grabbed my wrist and pulled it back.

  I jerked away from her. “Don’t you fuckin’ touch me. Get the fuck away from me, Kelley!”

  “Lil’ bitch! You heard me calling yo black ass. Where the fuck you been at? Huh? I been looking all over for yo ass. So you just move and don’t tell nobody,” She fussed at me.

  I looked her up, taking in her dirty attire. “I never tell you where I stay, you always just seem to find out. And don’t worry about where I’m at, just know that I’m away from yo thieving ass. Kelley, get yourself together. I don’t have anything to say or do with you no more. I don’t have no money for you, so don’t ask. And I don’t give a fuck if you owe somebody and you’re about to die. That’s your problem. Not mine. Now leave me the fuck alone, literally forget about me,” I waved her off and then turned my back to her and walked away.

  “You little ungrateful bitch. I took care of yo black ass when nobody else wanted you,” Kelley yelled at me.

  Any other time I would have gotten pissed off by her words. Hell, I would’ve tried to kill her ass. But she wasn’t that important to get a violent reaction out of me. So I ignored her and kept on walking.

  “Damn, Angel. yo ass cold,” Leon shook his head at me.

  “No I’m not. I just know Kelley and I don’t have time to deal with her. Where I’m at in my life right now, I’ve moved b
eyond her ass. I don’t have anything else to do with her,” I told him honestly. That was the whole point of me moving, so she couldn’t find me. Yeah, she would run into me in the streets, but I would simply ignore that bitch like I didn’t know her.

  “Bitch, fuck yo ass too!” Kelley fussed as she continued to walk behind us. She went over to Leon next. “Hey handsome, can I hold a few dollars so I can get something to eat?” She asked him.

  My eyes rolled at her. “Kelley, get the fuck on somewhere. Leon, don’t give her ass shit. That money gon’ go on some fuckin’ crack,” I told him.

  “It ain’t, bitch!” Kelley spat out harshly. “I’m hungry. I ain’t ate in months, she snapped at me before she turned her attention back to Leon. Kelley looked him up and then smiled, showing off her yellowed teeth. My head shook at her. She was just pitiful, hopeless, and I couldn’t feel bad for her. “I know you have a few dollars you can give me. You gon’ hook me up? Baby, I’ll show you some tricks,” she flirted with Leon.

  “You got tricks, huh?” Leon smiled back at her.

  I already knew he was about to start fuckin’ with her ass. I hit him in his arm. “Leon, don’t even do that. Kelley, get yo ass the fuck on somewhere, damn!” She was beginning to irritate my soul. Her ass had no problem trying to give somebody that funky ass pussy of hers to get what she wanted. That was what had started to piss me off at that moment. It was just so easy for Kelley to spread her legs with the quickness for that shit.

  “Little bitch, you wanna show him some tricks for me then?” She smiled a wide, smug smirk at me.

  My breath got caught in my throat. Her words stung painfully, knowing what she meant by it. A lump started to form in my throat. I looked at Leon to see his brows furrow. “Bitch, go find that glass dick and overdose.”

  “Fuck you, black bitch— Aye!” Kelley suddenly yelled at someone across the street. And just like that we were forgotten as she jogged off.

  “That mothafucka crazy as hell,” Leon laughed. He didn’t seem to think anything of what Kelley had said, I was thankful for that.

  I cleared my throat and nodded. “Yeah, she is that.” Kelley had seriously just ruined my mood completely. I was so glad Parker wasn’t with me when I ran into her. What she’d said about me showing him tricks had hit hard, a lump lodged in my throat. “I have to meet up with the girls, so I’ll talk to you later. And, Leon, I meant what I said. If you need me for anything, call me. Okay? I don’t need you out here like that,” I pointed in the direction that Kelley had run off in.

  “I will. Thanks, Angel,” he pulled me into a tight hug.

  I hugged him back. “Lee, you know you’ve always been my nigga.” We pulled back and he opened my car door. “Be good, Leon, and call me. Oh, wait, I got a new number. Put it in your phone.”

  “Damn, you done moved, got a new number, yo ass changing up on a nigga,” he chuckled as he entered my digits into his phone.

  “Change is good, trust me,” I smiled at him and then started up my car.

  “You be good, sweetheart. I’ll use this number,” he closed my door.

  I rolled my window down. “You better. See you later.”

  “See you.” He threw up two fingers and then walked off to his car.

  When he did, I called the girls, asking them if we could meet. After running into Kelley, I needed to be around my girls so they could make me laugh. Plus, I hadn’t seen them in a while and I missed my bitches like crazy.

  ***

  “I mean, I can’t really fault him for his actions. We were cool as hell though, you know. It wasn’t just sex with us, we would actually hang out, smoke, drink, and talk,” I explained to them.

  Kim nodded her head. “You wanting to be there for him is understandable, so I see where you’re coming from. But I would’ve still had to punch that mothafucka five good times, I mean dead in the fuckin’ mouth, nose, eyes, jaw and then kicked his ass in the balls for having me jumped.”

  We broke out laughing at her.

  “Girl, Parker had already whooped his ass and shot at him, then Ron beat him up. And then his bitch drugged him, I think he got his ass handed to him. That was some fuck’d up shit. Leon’s ass done been through a lot.” I shook my head just thinking about that shit. “So I just told him to stay in touch and call me if he needed me,” I shrugged, looking at them.

  All my girls where there except for Peaches. She was still in Lafayette and wouldn’t be down until my birthday.

  “Yeah, that was fuck’d up,” Ebony’s head shook as she rubbed her protruding belly.

  Ebony had gotten so big since the last time I saw her. She had a cute round stomach. I thought about telling them about me being pregnant, but I decided to wait until I was with Parker to inform them. I knew if I told them while I was alone they wouldn’t have believed me. Hell, I never even talked to them about having a baby. So for me to tell them that, they would probably think I was joking.

  Then again who would play like they’re pregnant?

  I pushed it to the back of my mind and decided to wait until I was with Parker and had the ultrasound photos to tell them.

  I focused back on the girls. “Missy, you got everything set up for my party?” I asked her.

  She looked at me and rolled her eyes. “Yes. I’m always on my shit. And it’s going to be amazing. Do you have Parker ready for the party?”

  I started laughing. “Yes, I have him ready and y’all be nice. He already don’t wanna be around y’all crazy asses. So keep the safety on yo guns. Oh, and he’s bringing his friends for backup too.”

  Missy let out a loud, irritating groan. “Why the fuck you give Chris my fuckin’ number with his ol’ irritating ass.”

  I broke out laughing. “That was not me. I swear. Let me tell you. I did call you for him on my phone, but you didn’t answer. Chris had given us his hotel room, so Parker ol’ horny ass took my phone while it was unlocked and gave it to Chris so he could get some. I didn’t know he saved your shit.”

  “I’mma slap Parker ass then. That nigga blew my damn phone up. I’m not coming to the party if he’s there,” Missy rolled her eyes.

  “Who is Chris?” Ebony asked.

  I looked at Missy and smiled. “Missy’s new boo. Remember the pic I sent in the group text a while back of Parker’s friend? Pretty, brown skin with braids?”

  “Oh! Okay— Wait, I thought you said that was a girl? Sooo why are you saying him?” Kim raised a confused brow.

  I shrugged. “Parker always refer to Chris as a him. And shid, he looks and act just like a dude. So to me Chris is a nigga,” I explained.

  “Because he’s transgendered. He converted from female to male. So he actually is a male,” Missy clarified for us.

  “Well excuse us then, shit. How the fuck you know?” I asked, confused.

  She shrugged like it was nothing. “Because when we were in the bathroom at your place, I felt his chest and all that jazz. Well he actually took my hands and literally made me feel him. That nigga had a bitch weak for a second, I can’t even lie. Girl, I was so glad yo ass walked into that bathroom,” Missy laughed as she fanned herself.

  “I knew it! But that nigga is a hoe, so watch him,” I told her before I started laughing. “Parker’s sister had to beat his girl’s ass while I was out there,” I told her and she started laughing.

  “I know, he told me he was fuckin’ with someone but it wasn’t shit serious. She was just his spare time bitch or whatever. That’s why I can’t be bothered with him. Hell, I was Mia’s spare time bitch for a long time and I’m not about to be nobody else’s. So Chris can miss me with his bullshit even though he is sexy as hell.” She rolled her eyes and laughed. “But why Parker’s sister beat her up, tho?” Missy asked, flushed.

  “What really happened in that bathroom? This bitch done turned fifty shades of red!” Ebony blurted out.

  “I swear she did. Miss, what happened? Then I’ll tell y’all about the fight.” I needed to know what happened, I’d always wonder
ed, but we just never had the time to really sit down and talk about it. Especially since I’d been spending so much time with Parker.

  “Ain’t nothing happen, really. I mean, he accidently walked into the bathroom while I was washing my hands. And Chris just started talking to me. I wasn’t giving his ass no play, tho. Until he yoked my ass up and put me on the sink.” Missy started to fan herself as she let out a hard breath.

  “Y’all, say a bitch got so fuckin’ wet. I’m talkin’ soakin’, bitches. Like, nobody I dealt with has ever caused me to become like that especially without some type of foreplay. Bitch, that nigga grabbed my ass and I was like…” Missy fell back on the couch and then spread her legs wide. “You can have it. Take that shit, daddy!”

  We fell out laughing at her stupid ass.

  “No, bitch, you was not about to just give it up like that. You had just met him, tho.” My hands clapped as I continued to laugh at her.

  Missy’s lips pursed together and her brows rose. “Yes the fuck I was. My ass became weak as fuck and I couldn’t even help it, tho. Everything just happened so damn fast, man. It was like this…” She sat up straight on the couch and started to break it down. “He put me on the counter, his fingers was rubbing my coochie through my leggings, Lord have mercy! And then he kissed me.”

  She touched her lips with one hand as she fanned herself with the other, sighing. “His lips was so gotdamn soft. And then yo ass walked into the bathroom. Even though that shit was feeling good and my insides were bubbly like a mothafucka, I was happy as hell that you walked in that bathroom. That nigga had my ass open. I’m telling y’all, if we were alone any longer, he would’ve had all my good stuff.” She continued to fan herself while letting out another sigh.