The Seeker

by Ronica Black

  In a voice tense with fear, Tom told the boys to go to their rooms. He searched for the phone and returned to her. Helping her to stand, he helped her to the couch, where they sat and clenched one another’s hands. With the room beginning to spin, she eased back and heard Tom dial and speak to Kennedy.

  *

  Hilton Head, South Carolina

  “What is it? What’s wrong?” Shawn was looking at her with wide, fearful eyes. “Is it Veronica?”

  Kennedy fought to steady her hands as she paced. “No.”

  “Then what is it?”

  Kennedy was blunt. “I have to leave.”

  Shawn sank into a kitchen chair. “Why?”

  “My sister. She’s received a threat.”

  “Oh, no.”

  Kennedy stopped. Her heart fluttered in her chest. Tunnel vision threatened. “It’s not good. It means he knows where she’s at. And Tom has to leave tonight because the season’s starting up again.”

  “So you have to go. I understand.”

  “I don’t know what else to do.”

  Just then her phone rang. “Scott.”

  “Kennedy, it’s Allen.”

  She sank into the chair next to Shawn. “Did you get anything?” They’d had the letter sent to headquarters for forensic evaluation.

  “Nothing helpful. The blood was human. Type O. We’re sending it to the lab for DNA testing, maybe we’ll get lucky and have the DNA on file. The letter was mailed from Virginia. That’s all we know.”

  “He knows where she is.”

  “Yes, it seems so. But honestly, Kennedy, it wouldn’t be hard to find out. Ask anyone in Lafayette where Tom Boudreaux lives and eventually you’ll get the right answer. It doesn’t mean he was even physically there.”

  “It’s too much. And now she’ll be alone with the kids.”

  “She has security.”

  “I’ve got to go, Allen. I can’t leave her there.”

  He sighed. “I know you’re concerned. And I’ve thought about it. You going there isn’t really going to help anything, is it? He’ll still send the letters to harass her. He’ll still know where you are.”

  “So what do you suggest?” She bit at her cuticles, unconcerned that Shawn was watching.

  “Fly her to you. There in Hilton Head.”

  “Have them all here?”

  “Why not? It’s secure and you’re already protecting the Ryans.”

  Kennedy looked at Shawn. “I don’t know.”

  “I know Shawn will understand. Kennedy, it’s the best solution. Get Keri and the kids out of there.”

  “There isn’t enough room in this house.”

  Shawn scooted forward, obviously catching on to the conversation. “The house next door is up for rent.”

  Kennedy covered the phone. “Really?”

  She nodded.

  “Kennedy? You there? I’ve had it checked into and we can get her into the house next door.”

  She ran her hand through her hair. Her body went limp with temporarily relief. “Okay.”

  “Great. We’ll make the arrangements.”

  “Thanks, Allen.”

  “Don’t mention it.”

  *

  Shawn tucked the covers in around her oldest daughter.

  “Mama?” Rory said.

  “Yes, sweetie?”

  “Is Kennedy here so you don’t get shot again?”

  Shawn smiled weakly, trying not to show her immediate reaction at Kennedy’s name. A reaction she was starting to worry about. She swept the hair from Rory’s forehead.

  “Yes.” She was wary about discussing the shooting at great length with her daughters for fear of scaring them. She and Veronica had told them the truth, that someone had shot at them but that they were okay and there was nothing for them to worry about.

  “Will she always be here?”

  “No, only for a short while.” She paused. She didn’t like that statement. She didn’t like to think of their lives without Kennedy. They were growing so comfortable with her, and her presence was so calm and reassuring.

  “How come?”

  “We won’t always need her to protect us.”

  Rory thought for a moment, her tiny brow creased with questions. “What if she wants to?”

  Shawn sighed and kissed her warm forehead, inhaling the clean scent of the baby shampoo she had washed her hair with minutes before.

  “Because it’s just her job, sweetie.”

  “But I like Kennedy. And I want her to stay with us always.”

  “Me too, Mommy,” Kiley chimed in from her bed.

  Shawn thought back to earlier that day. They’d been on the beach playing and Kiley had gotten her clothes wet. She’d come up to Shawn crying, holding her arms up in the air, wanting to be carried.

  “I can’t carry you, honey. You’ll have to walk,” Shawn had explained, her arm too sore.

  “I can’t walk,” Kiley wailed, moving stiffly in the wet jeans.

  “I got her,” Kennedy had said, holding out her hand. But Kiley had shaken her head at Kennedy and cried up at her mother. Insistent.

  “Kiley Marie,” Shawn had said. “I can’t carry you. Mommy’s hurt, remember?”

  Kennedy had knelt down in front of the girls, giving a quick wink to Rory.

  “Who wants a piggyback ride?”

  “Me!” Rory said, instantly latching on. Kennedy stood, held her tight, and ran off in a circle, swinging Rory through the air. “Whee! Look, Kiley, I’m riding a horsey!” Rory cried out with glee.

  Kiley had immediately stopped crying and came bounding after them, holding her little arms up in the air, beckoning Kennedy to return to her.

  “My turn!” she had declared, wanting desperately to take her older sister’s place. Kennedy had stopped and set Rory down, giving her another wink and high five.

  Then she’d said, “Okay, Kiley, climb on.”

  Shawn had watched in amusement as Kennedy carried Kiley all the way back to the house, at one point even managing to carry both girls.

  Shawn thought about that now as she tucked in her girls. Kennedy had handled that situation well. Her situation. Once again showing how kind and considerate she was. Shawn refocused on Kiley.

  “We’ll talk about this later, okay?” She rose to place a kiss on Kiley’s forehead. She knew she was fighting a losing battle—the girls were too young to understand, so it was easier to just leave the topic for now.

  “Good night,” she whispered, flicking off the light.

  “Night, Mommy,” they both said, the peach and pink butterfly night-light glowing from the corner.

  Her heart ached at the fragile innocence of her children. She pulled the door halfway and headed for her bedroom. She couldn’t help but replay Rory and Kiley’s words. Truth be told, she liked Kennedy too, probably too much. And she wondered what it would be like to spend more time with her. More personal time, under different circumstances.

  She stepped into her dimly lit room and undressed, carefully minding her sore shoulder, readying herself for a nice, hot bath. She’d been longing for the claw-foot tub since she’d arrived. The water tumbled out and pooled quickly, a haze of steam rising into the air.

  As she waited, she turned and caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. The body reflected was thirty-five, pale and soft from her time spent recuperating from her injury. Normally she was fit and strong, her muscles lightly defined, her body curvy and feminine. She and Veronica were about the same size, but Veronica was thinner with less muscle development. She brushed her hand over the angry red scar on her shoulder. Was she still attractive? Or was she now a used-up mother? What about Kennedy? Did she think she was attractive?

  She quickly shook the thought from her mind. It was silly and useless and she didn’t have time to wonder about Kennedy Scott and what she thought. She had a divorce to think about. A life to salvage and rebuild. Or did she? The dull pain returned to her insides as she thought of Veronica and their crumbled lives ly
ing in ruin. The sting of betrayal made its way back up her throat, threatening more tears. She swallowed with difficulty, refusing to let them return. Clearing her mind, she turned off the faucet and stepped into the tub. As she leaned back and soaked, she rid her mind of all thoughts. For the moment, she was content with just being.

  *

  “Well, what do you think?” Kennedy asked Allen, referring to their one and only suspect, Sloan Savage. They had just ended a conference call and Kennedy was disappointed to learn just how few leads they had. Nothing was going as she’d hoped. Things were just getting worse. Keri’s situation was escalating, the Ryan situation also seemed to be escalating. What else could they do? There had to be something.

  “She’s clean,” Allen replied, disappointment thick on his voice. “In the Ryan case, anyway. She does enough recreational drugs to easily kill any human, but that’s it.”

  “Can you give me details?” Kennedy’s mind raced and she, for the first time since she left, wished she was back in the Bureau heading up this investigation. The waiting was killing her and she wanted her hands in it, making sure everything was being done right. Every rock unturned.

  She bit at her cuticle, frustrated, yet accepting that she was needed here with Shawn and the girls. They needed her and so did Keri and the boys, who were due to arrive the next morning.

  “Her polygraph was inconclusive, all over the map. But we did search her place. Nothing there, excluding the drugs. We could charge her but it’s not up to me.”

  “Nothing there that ties her to our UNSUB?”

  “She had some personal photos of Ms. Ryan and some personal journal entries she’d written about her, but nothing else. Nothing out of the ordinary.”

  “Do you think she’s had time to get rid of anything?”

  “She tried before we got the warrant. But we watched her and retrieved the trash bag. Most of it was drug paraphernalia. And there were a couple of pornographic movies and some sex toys.”

  “I’m surprised she kept the drugs.”

  “She had them hidden and there wasn’t very much. So my guess is she flushed most of it.”

  “So you’re sure she’s out, then?”

  “I’d say so. I know our surveillance has taken its toll. She’s looking haggard and she’s quite paranoid. She’s not faring well. She went to Veronica’s movie set and insisted on talking to her. Veronica told her to get lost. Sloan left hurt but okay. I think she got the message this time.”

  Kennedy still didn’t feel comfortable. Not after the confrontation at the nightclub. Sloan had gone there with intent. She’d hunted Veronica down and held her captive. Even if she wasn’t the UNSUB, her behavior was escalating and she needed to be watched.

  “Are you going to keep surveillance on her?”

  “Not for much longer.”

  “Unless you get something else,” she stated, knowing the routine.

  “Yes.”

  “What about Veronica’s fan mail, you had any luck on your end?”

  “We’re still looking.” He sighed heavily. “For one woman, she gets a hell of a lot of mail.”

  “They’re there, I know it.”

  Silence filled the phone line as Allen thought. “How are things going with Shawn and the kids?”

  “So far everything’s been relatively quiet.” She was grateful for that and she failed to mention how quickly the trio were growing on her. The brief time she had spent with them had been special and meaningful, warming her insides in a way that only her own family had ever done.

  “Yeah, well, be thankful. Veronica’s giving her new guys one hell of a hard time.”

  “How so?”

  “She’s difficult, uncooperative.”

  “I was worried she might be. But I was hoping she’d come around and try to help us out a little.” Veronica seemed worried about her family’s safety but more than willing to disregard her own.

  “Well, she’s not,” Allen continued. “Apparently she’s angry and depressed and raising all kinds of hell with the new team.”

  “Maybe I should call and talk to her.” Someone had to make her listen—her life depended on it.

  “I wouldn’t. She’s upset at the separation and the tabloid circus, and you calling to talk to her will just drive that nail right home.”

  “You’re right.”

  They rang off and she sat staring in thought down at her leather Rockports. Yawning, she bent and pulled them off, ready for a good night’s sleep. Monty was once again keeping the night watch downstairs. Knowing that allowed her to sleep soundly upstairs with Shawn and the girls.

  She set her shoes aside and stood to unbutton her slacks. But just before she could, she heard something. Ears alert, she looked up and stilled her movements. The sound came again, a woman’s voice calling out for help. At once she retrieved her gun off the night table and bolted out the door.

  It was Shawn and she was crying out from her bedroom. With her heart surging at a maddening pace, Kennedy sprinted past the girls’ room to the master bedroom, where she flung open the door and swung her gun from side to side, ready to fire.

  “Shawn!” she called out, seeking and clearing every corner.

  “In here!” She was in the bathroom.

  Kennedy approached slowly, her breathing quick, her mind flying, not sure what to expect.

  “Are you okay?”

  “I’m fine.” Her voice was lower. “I just need a little help.”

  Kennedy lowered her gun and looked behind her as Monty entered the room. He stared at Kennedy with intensity, his massive chest rising and falling with adrenaline.

  “Stand down,” she said, tucking her weapon into the waistband of her slacks. Monty relaxed and bent to catch his breath from his fast run up the stairs. Kennedy gave a little knock on the bathroom door before easing it open.

  The room was heavy with steam and dew and it smelled of lavender and shampoo. Kennedy squinted, her eyes adjusting to the candlelight. Her heart rate kicked back up as she caught sight of Shawn, lying back in the large tub, consumed by bubbles, the soft golden candlelight caressing her face and glistening shoulders.

  “I can’t get out,” Shawn said softly. She looked down in obvious embarrassment.

  Kennedy stood very still, her legs heavy yet weak.

  “Everything okay?” Monty asked from behind.

  “I’m fine, Monty!” Shawn called out and then laughed. “I’m just stuck in the bathtub! I can’t believe this,” Shawn continued in a softer voice, looking at Kennedy. “I tried to stand up and I slipped and fell. Now my shoulder is killing me. What was I thinking getting in here?” She gave another nervous laugh. “I’m so embarrassed.”

  Kennedy took a careful step in, knowing she had to help, but scared to death to do so. Her cheeks flushed with heat as she reached for a towel.

  “It’s okay,” she said softly, handing it to Shawn.

  Shawn took it hesitantly. “Kennedy, I only have one good arm. And I need to use it to grab on to you.”

  “Oh, right.”

  Shawn set the towel on the edge of the tub and reached up to grab Kennedy’s hand. Kennedy hoisted her up easily, her gaze focused on the floor. Shawn stood in the bath, dripping with soft white suds, completely naked. Kennedy cursed her peripheral vision but she could not help herself. Shawn was smooth and glistening, curvy and beautiful. A golden angel in the candlelight. The sight would, no doubt, keep her up for nights on end.

  Shawn reached down and clutched the towel to her wet body. “It’s okay. I’m covered now.”

  “Do you need help to step out?” Kennedy asked, turning her head slightly to look at her. She cleared her throat nervously, wishing the towel would cover up more. If she had questioned her attraction to Shawn before, there was little doubt now. Shawn stirred her in ways she never thought possible.

  “Yes, if you don’t mind.” Shawn flung the towel over her shoulder and reached out to grip Kennedy’s shoulder. Kennedy eyed her at the contact, her eyes
quickly taking in the exposed, wet flesh. More heat rushed to her face and she felt suddenly light-headed as her body awakened. She looked away again, the vision too much.

  “Thank you.” She had stepped out of the tub safely and wrapped the towel around her as best she could.

  “You’re okay, then?” Kennedy asked, looking only into the blue-green irises.

  She could feel her own heartbeat in her ears, she was so moved. And something else.

  Aroused.

  “Yes.”

  “Okay, well, good night, then.”

  “Good night, Kennedy,” Shawn voiced from behind.

  Kennedy reentered her room in a daze and sat on the bed. She rubbed at her cheeks, embarrassed at the hot blood that stirred just beneath her skin.

  The image of Shawn nude and wet came into her mind again and again. Glistening skin, the sharp dip above her collarbone, the delicate swell of her small breasts, the pink of her nipples, the indentation of her abdominal muscles, the dark blond hair between her legs…

  With her heart still racing, she stood and stripped out of her clothes. She pulled out a pair of shorts and a T-shirt. Quickly, she put on both and then stepped into her sneakers. As she laced them up, she willed her mind and her heart to slow, to somehow make peace with what she had just witnessed.

  But she knew it was no use. She knew she would be up most of the night, excited and moved in a new and foreign way. Closing her bedroom door behind her, she stepped out into the hall, needing to escape. The house felt warm, the upstairs air thick with the heat of a soaking and wet Shawn Ryan.

  She ran down the stairs and waved at Monty, who gave her a nod. She stepped outside and wound her way beyond the pool, through the small gate, and onto the thick sand. She hit the beach at a trot, which soon increased quickly to a full-out sprint. The salty air and the cool sea breeze did wonders for her aching soul and she pushed herself harder and faster, desperately trying to outrun her growing feelings and emotions.