A Different Shade of Violet?

by K E Osborn

“C’mon Violet you’re doing so well, I just need you to push again,” the midwife says calmly as Vee’s tight as fuck grip on my hand gets even tighter, if that’s possible.

  “You fucking push, you stupid bitch. I’d much rather see you in pain than me in pain,” she yells and I bring my other hand up and wipe the hair from her sweaty forehead.

  “Don’t fucking touch me,” she says and I quickly take my hand from her forehead and keep quiet. The last time I said anything, she called me things I never thought I’d hear come from her mouth and even though I’m finding her temper to be quite amusing, the pain I can so clearly see on her face is making me feel nauseous. If there’s one thing I hate, it’s seeing my wife in pain.

  “Good girl, Violet, you can relax now,” the midwife says.

  She stops pushing and her body relaxes onto the bed as she breathes heavily and closes her eyes. I notice a tear falling down her cheek and I can’t help myself as I lean in and wipe it away from her face. She opens her eyes and I brace for another wave of insults when her eyes fill with tears and her bottom lip trembles.

  “I’m sorry,” she says and then starts to really cry.

  “Hey, hey. It’s okay baby, you’re doing so great and Ariel will be here really soon,” I say and she brings her hand up and caresses my cheek.

  “I love you,” she whispers and I lean down and kiss her sweaty forehead.

  “Sweetheart, I love you too,” I reply and she moves her head so I can kiss her lips. It’s nice that even in this scary as shit moment she can still find a way to show me she loves me.

  Because, to be honest, I am freaking the fuck out! She suddenly pulls her lips from mine and her face contorts.

  “Fucking cock sucking tittie wobble,” she yells as another contraction hits.

  She clenches my hand again and I try to hide a laugh after her outburst.

  “Okay Violet, I need a big push this time honey,” the midwife states.

  Vee clenches her face tight as she constricts her body pushing hard. I’m right there with her watching her intensely and wishing like fuck she would’ve taken the drugs when they were offered. But my woman is as tough as you can get, and she didn’t want Ariel to be all groggy when she was born. So Vee decided on no pain medication whilst giving birth to our daughter.

  I need the pain meds just watching her!

  “How you doing sweetheart?” I ask and she glares at me making me chuckle slightly.

  “Don’t laugh at my pain,” she says and I caress her face.

  “Baby, I’m not laughing at you. I’m laughing at the fact that I need to piss so badly right now, but I’m not leaving your side,” I joke and she half-laughs.

  “I’m pushing out a baby and you’re worried about your bladder?”

  “Yeah, I need to keep my bodily functions running smoothly ‘cause you know how the saying goes - if I don’t use it I might lose it,” I say trying to make her laugh.

  It works.

  “So you’re worried if you don’t pee your cock will fall off? And you’re thinking about that while I’m giving birth?”

  “Not really, just trying to ease your pain a little,” I say honestly and I run my finger along her cheek.

  “Thank you, it’s working,” she says and then her hand clenches mine again as obviously another contraction hits. My heart pounds hard watching her in pain. It hasn’t stopped pounding since this all started nearly forty-nine hours ago. They were worried they might have to do an emergency caesarian, but Ariel suddenly decided she was coming and my God are the contractions coming hard and fast right now.

  “Good girl Violet, I think one more and we might have your little girl. She is crowning. Dad do you want to have a look?” the midwife asks as Vee falls back on the bed trying to catch her breath. She lets go of my hand after practically breaking my fingers and I shake my hand to try and get the circulation back into my white knuckles.

  Do I want to look? Once you see something, it can’t be unseen. I decide that even though I really don’t like the thought of seeing something so big come out and rip Vee’s pussy apart, that this could be a once in a lifetime opportunity, so I take it. I grab a hold of Vee’s hand and lean down to look between her legs and I see the small outline of Ariel’s brown hair.

  My heart thuds even faster now and I honestly can’t remember the last time I took a breath.

  “It’s amazing isn’t it?” the midwife says and I simply nod as I stare at the first part of my baby girl that I can see. I swallow a lump that’s formed in my throat as I try my hardest not to blubber out. I need to be the strong one. I need to be strong for my wife, because she’s exhausted, even though she’s being the bravest I’ve ever seen her.

  “Hudson, what does she look like?” Vee asks getting my attention.

  I look at her and she looks completely exhausted, but still as beautiful as ever. “It’s the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen in my life,” I say and she starts to cry again. I step back to her and take her head in my hands. “You’re giving me the most precious gift Violet and I’m so happy right now,” I say and lean down kissing her.

  “I’m glad you’re happy, but Hudson I can’t take any more. I’m so tired I just want to sleep. Can you tell them to cut me open?” she asks through her tears.

  I wince. I’ve never seen Vee give up before, but she’s truly exhausted and I can’t blame her. The pain she’s been in has been tremendous. “Baby I think it’s too late now,” I say and she cries harder. I look at the midwife and she nods confirming my suspicions.

  “No, I can’t do this anymore,” she says and she tightens her hand around mine and squeezes really hard as her body constricts again. I know she’s having another contraction so I stroke her hair, even though, last time she basically told me to get fucked.

  “Okay Violet, last one honey and then we’ll have little Ariel here with you,” the midwife says and I look Vee in the eyes trying to give her the strength she needs.

  “C’mon baby, you can do this. Just one last push and we get to meet her, okay? Be strong Violet,” I say and her eyes well up and she pushes hard while she nods her head.

  “Mother-fucking monkey balls,” she yells as the midwife is doing something down there that I have no idea what, I’m too busy staring into Vee’s eyes trying to help her through this.

  My heart is pounding so fast I feel like I could pass out at any second, but I try and hold myself together for the sake of my wife and daughter. As I look into her eyes, I feel a connection surging through me. I can feel the emotion she’s going through because it’s the same for me. We both know Ariel will be here soon and doing this together seems to be making it easier on Vee, but still by no means easy.

  I mouth ‘I love you’ to her and she nods and scrunches her eyes shut and pushes with everything she has. I hear a sloshing sound and I look down to see the midwife pulling Ariel out of Vee. I gasp and my hand tightens in Vee’s this time and I can’t look away as they pull her out fully, and then I hear it… the noise I’ve been dying to hear for the last forty-nine hours – Ariel crying.

  I look back at Vee and she’s laying back on the bed and looking down at Ariel with her hands out waiting for the midwife to bring our daughter to her as she cries nonstop. I feel lightheaded as I look at my baby covered in thick, sticky stuff but still, even covered in muck, she’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen in my life.

  “So Daddy want to cut her cord?” the midwife asks me and I look at Vee as I feel a little lost. My head is spinning and I can’t believe after nine months Ariel is finally here. Vee nods and actually smiles giving me the jolt I need to bring me back to reality. I step down and take the scissors from the midwife and she points to where I am to cut.

  “Will this hurt her?” I ask and the midwife smiles.

  “No honey, she won’t feel it,” she reassures me as Vee’s hand caresses my back. I look down at the crying little angel and I fall in love with her instantly. I move the scissors into place and slowly and gently
cut her cord. Once it’s severed from Ariel, I feel relief that blood didn’t squirt out everywhere like I was expecting it too. To be honest I don’t know what I was expecting, but it certainly wasn’t to feel this emotionally connected with her already.

  The midwife moves her up and finally into Vee’s arms and I watch as Vee runs her finger along the jaw of our adorable little angel. She cries softly and I move my hand to caress her hair as I shift in so I can be close to both of my ladies.

  “She is perfect Hudson,” Vee says and I have an overwhelming emotion running through me as I look at my girls. I let out a small sob as my bottom lip trembles. “You were worth all the pain my little Ariel,” Vee says and I lean down kissing Vee’s head.

  “I knew you could do it baby, look what you did,” I say and she looks at Ariel so lovingly, and I know that Violet is going to be the best mother I could have ever hoped for our daughter.

  Suddenly Vee starts to cry and I mean really cry.

  “Hey baby, what’s going on? Are you in pain?” I ask and she nuzzles into Ariel as our baby stops crying and sleeps soundly in her mother’s arms.

  “No, I’m happy, but I’m so fucking scared, Hudson,” she admits and I move in as close as I can get without squishing Ariel.

  My heart thumps for Vee, I know how hard this must be for her. She did this nearly eleven years ago with Caiden.

  “Oh baby, there’s nothing to be scared about. I’m here to look after you and Ariel forever, I promise,” I say and she cries even harder.

  “I can’t lose you, Hudson, either of you. I love her so much already, I can’t lose her. I won’t go through that again,” she says starting to sound distraught.

  I caress her hair and lean down kissing her cheek.

  “You won’t have to Vee. I promise baby, it’s you me and Ariel forever. I won’t let anything bad happen to any of us ever again—”

  “But what if she heard everything from when the Dogs had me? What if she felt my pain? What if she is traumatised?” she asks looking at me and I can see the terror in her eyes.

  I half-smile and her bottom lip trembles as she holds on to Ariel so tightly.

  “Vee, look at her,” I say and she looks at me raising an eyebrow like I’ve just completely ignored her. “Baby look at her. Don’t you think if she was traumatised she wouldn’t be sleeping so calming in your arms?” I ask and she swallows hard and then looks down at baby Ariel. She caresses her face and kisses her head.

  “I guess,” she says and I lean in kissing her temple.

  “She’s fine, Vee. She is more than fine, she is perfect, just like her worrywart mother,” I tease and finally I hear a small laugh and see her smile as she stares at Ariel.

  “So, we’re all going to be fine?” she asks and I cuddle into her.

  “Yeah baby, we’re going to be just perfect,” I say.

  I sit on the back veranda of my home with Hudson. It’s a Saturday afternoon so Hudson and I are home on the weekend from our day job, working at the Stone’s Bike Shop in the city. It’s an awesome place to work, and I love being with Hudson every day because I need to be around him. It might be my insecurities because I guess we never truly know if we’re safe from the Rebel Dog members. It’s been six years and we haven’t had any problems so far, so I doubt we will now. Plus, they were all arrested and their sentences ranged from two years to life imprisonment depending on the severity of their crimes. The cops went into the club house and they seized everything and there was nothing left for the Dogs to go back to even if they wanted to start the club up again. So even though I have a small part of me that worries, I feel safe most of the time. But a small nagging in my brain is always there that I will one day lose Hudson or my girls, but I push it to the back, trying hard not to think about how I would cope if my life was ripped away from me again.

  As I sit here watching a shirtless Hudson roll around on the back lawn with our two girls Ariel and Adeline who are now five and six years old. I love how my life has turned out.

  Midas leisurely walks over to Hudson and lays down next to him, poor pup is nine now and I’m sure he won’t be with us much longer as heartbreaking as that is.

  Zany, however, runs up and jumps all over the girls as they jump all over Hudson. It’s great to watch my family all playing happily on the grass. The laughter of my girls, and of Hudson, is filling me with a strange belief that this time everything is going to work out just fine. I won’t lose them, and nothing bad is going to happen. It’s just going to be me, Hudson and my girls for the rest of time as one big happy family.

  Holden finally proposed to Lucy and they’re getting married in September, right around my birthday. I know that a cousin for the girls won’t be far away, Lucy has already told me they’re trying. And I couldn’t be happier for them.

  Flynn met some girl online, she seems nice and it’s great that he finally wants to settle down with someone.

  Brige is now seventeen and has had a long term relationship with James, the boy she met in school. She has grown up to be an amazing woman. I am so honoured to call her my sister. She is in her final year of high school and her grades are very impressive. She wants to be a social worker when she leaves school, and she’ll be great at it because she’s such a loving and loyal woman. She doesn’t judge anyone for the way they live their life. Which is what I love most about her.

  Angel and Thor are working happily away at Cupiditas. It’s still going really well, but Thor is working in security now and not an escort, which I know made Angel very happy. When I spoke to Angel yesterday, she said that Thor asked her to marry him, finally, and I couldn’t be more ecstatic about it if I tried.

  Star and Papi are still together and going strong. Star is studying acting even though she is thirty-two now, I’m still happy she’s giving it a go. And as for Papi, he wants to open his own pizzeria and I know they are both looking to get out of Cupiditas, and I don’t blame them. Working as an escort is a hard job and I know I got sick of it, so I’m sure they have too.

  Shiela is the only one who has left Cupiditas. She left not long after I did and went to live with her brother back in Port Augusta. She helps him run the sheep station out there and she couldn’t be happier. When I last spoke to her, she had met a nice farmer and they were taking things slow.

  Rosie is the one who has shocked me the most, she still works at Cupiditas, but is strictly servicing only Chief Justice Ronald Jamerson or as we called him ‘The Old Fart’ from now on, and she seems fine with it. I would even go as far to say that she is happy about it. I think secretly, she actually really likes the old fart, God knows why though.

  So it seems everyone and everything is falling into its rightful place. My life right now is an endless stream of love and joy, and nothing could make me happier than to be living in the same home with my family.

  Hudson finally gets up from the grass and looks over at me smiling brightly. He’s thirty-nine now. His birthday is around the corner and I have a weekend trip planned for us where we can go and just be together, not to mention the hot sex we will have. It’s so hard to fuck when you have two tiny girls that always want to be with you.

  He walks over to me as the girls continue to run around the back yard playing with Zany. Midas walks with his dad leisurely up the stairs and over to me.

  “Hey baby enjoying the sun?” Hudson asks leaning down and kissing my forehead.

  I smile back up at him as he sits down next to me.

  “Enjoying the view more like it,” I say and he laughs.

  “Even though I’m an old man you still like perving on me?”

  “Even though you’re old, your body still looks like a Greek God. So yes, I enjoy looking at you.”

  “Muuum, Addy took my ball!” Ariel yells out as she crosses her hands over her chest and huffs stomping her foot. I try my hardest not to laugh at her, she’s so cute when she doesn’t get her own way.

  “Well then Ariel, maybe you should share with your sister more often then,
hey?” I say and Hudson chuckles as Ariel huffs and storms over to the other side of the yard seeming very displeased that I didn’t side with her.

  “Oh, you’re going to be in trouble for that one Mumma bear,” he says and I chuckle and nod my head.

  “Yep, I’ll be ignored for at least the next hour,” I say and he wraps his arm around my shoulders and I nuzzle into his side. There’s no place I feel safer than in Hudson’s arms. I lean back and look at him and he smiles at me so brightly, the spark between us has never ebbed, it hasn’t even dulled, and just being here with him gently stroking my arm is setting me on fire. I lean up and kiss him softly and he kisses me back with a little more passion. I bring my hand up to his cheek and caress his face as we kiss on the back veranda of our home.

  I think back to my life just after Danny and Caiden died… I was alone… I had no life… no friends and no family. And I look out at the family I have now – my girls, my pets and, of course, my rock, and now I know that through the heartache and pain, through the darkness and the rain, the sun eventually shines through and right now the sun is shining so bright.

  My life is perfect, and I couldn’t wish for a better family - my family - a family that has made this Violet Widow whole again. I don’t have to hurt anymore because all the hurt has been replaced with pure love – love I receive from my family.

  My family – me, my two girls, our pets and none other than my safe place, my sanctuary, my home… my Rock!

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