Billionaire In Hiding: The Complete Series (Alpha Billionaire Romance Western Love Story)

by Claire Adams

  Rachel’s eyes widened. “He said that?” She knew that this attack on my career was greater than anything else; but she also understood that I was so assuredly falling in love with this man.

  “And then. He kicked me out,” I nodded. “He told me to leave. I’m not surprised if I’m fired. But I can’t be sure.” I sighed, taking another sip. The wine was bitter, and it fit my mood. Everything seemed to be folding together into this grand, bitter scheme.

  But Rachel placed her hand on my knee from across the coffee table. Her thin wrist twisted a bit as she did it. “You’re going to get through this, Amanda. Come on. You’re a fighter. That’s how you got into this position. Not for any other reason. Not because you’re beautiful, because anyone can see that. But because you have balls and brains.” Rachel’s face was so grim. Her mouth was a flat line between her fine cheeks. In that moment, she noted that I was out of wine, and she re-filled us both, bringing us into the next stage of this drunken reality: away from sad drunk and more toward angry drunk.

  “You know what we should do?” she asked me, midway through her second drink. The evil gleamed in her eyes. “We should tell his wife.” She nodded succinctly.

  I tossed my head back, shaking it. “What do you mean?” I asked. “Camille? No. No, no.”

  “But think about it?” Rachel asked, flashing her palms toward me in a curious move. “He won’t be expecting it. She’s not the public, certainly, and she won’t want this to get out. But it will offer the perfect retribution for all he’s put you through. He’ll have this hellacious woman figure in his life, and he certainly will rue the day he ever misaligned your career like that.” She smiled in that grim way once more. “It’s beautiful.”

  I laughed, but I wasn’t so sure. “What about going to the media?” I asked, playing along with her words. “I could tell them that I was the president’s little plaything for a while, that I have secrets to the ways in which he handles other countries and world leaders.” I thought for a moment. “You know, it’s actually kind of true.” I winked at her.

  Rachel laughed, nearly spinning her wind with the joyousness of it. “You’re wicked, my girl. Wicked. We could ruin him. We two in this room. We have more dirt on the president than anyone in the world.”

  Rachel reached toward the cell phone on the coffee table, then. I paused from my laughter, my eyebrows high. “What are you doing?” I whispered.

  Rachel shrugged. “We have to start somewhere, don’t we? The Times? Someone will be awake, typing away in these late hours.”

  But I shook my head, a grim expression exhibiting itself on my face. “Not tonight, Rachel. A couple of drunk ladies calling into the New York Times? I don’t think that would work so well.” I winked at her, but really, my heart was quaking in my chest. In these moments, I hated the president with a sure passion. However, I knew that deep inside my soul, I actually cared for him a great deal. Even loved him, although I hated to admit this to myself. Threatening Xavier from afar was making me feel ever better (and the wine wasn’t hurting, either).

  However, ruining Xavier’s life also meant something else. It meant that I was exposing myself as his “bimbo”—something that Jason was attempting to do, all this time. And that meant that I couldn’t ever tell anyone. I couldn’t allow my identity to be revealed. I couldn’t allow all that I had worked for to be burned at the stake, so to speak, only for my anger and jealousy. I was much stronger than that.

  Thusly, a few hours later—near sun-up, when Rachel went to bed—I laid in my guest bedroom and listened to the cars as they whizzed by the apartment complex. I thought about the life I’d always wanted: the powerful one at the top. I thought about how lonely that one was: that if I ever found anyone to share it with, that would truly be a beautiful thing. But my need for that life still obliterated everything, almost even my deep passion for the president. And thus: all my decisions had to keep my career in mind. If that ultimately meant that I needed to leave the campaign in order to resist the president and get away from his lying, scheming self—the man who had pushed me back out into the dangerous world, even after I had told him all that had happened to me (the blackmail, etc.), then so be it.

  Chapter 2

  The next morning, I stretched myself from bed, unsure if I should go back into work. I could remember the scorn from the president’s lips so well in my ears, and I didn’t want to return to that mockery. I didn’t want to go see those eyes—those eyes that had provided such comfort, such humor in the previous days—and know that they ultimately hated me, now. It was too much to face.

  However, the White House had become my home, in many ways. As I tapped from the guest bedroom in Rachel’s house, I noted the cold, slickness of the floor; I wrapped my sweater around my shoulders. I didn’t feel like myself, as I did in the White House. Instead, I felt like a foreigner. I could hear Rachel getting ready for work in her larger bathroom, and I knew that I needed to head out the door, as well. What was I going to do at home all day—in Rachel’s home? Read romance novels? Watch talk television? Dream ever about reaching the heights of my career, without really pursuing it in a realistic sense?

  No.

  I tugged myself into the shower and allowed the hot water to course down my back, down my sides. I scrubbed at my armpits and tried to rid my body of Xavier’s scent. I didn’t want to remember him as I pulled off my dress later this evening. I wanted every speck of evidence to falter away from me, for good.

  I dried my hair, thinking about my apartment. I imagined the cameras lurking like sharks in the depths. I wondered if I’d ever return back there or if it was ultimately lost to me for good. I’d never allowed myself to lose so many things at once, before. I’d lost Xavier. I’d lost my home. All I really had, in this moment, was Rachel. And perhaps a drive to succeed, still riveted somewhere in my head.

  I tugged my dress over my head and heard Rachel as she shuffled from the door. Both of us were late for work (and both of us were absolutely battling hangovers from the previous evening, I knew). I calmly trounced toward the door, taking every precaution from shaking my tender head too much. I spun back around, noting the comfortable shell of the room around me, before exiting into the revving world. Soon, I’d have to see Xavier. I tried to turn off the anxiety of my mind.

  Finally, I arrived at the White House, pushing myself from the taxi in another long line of almost-late government employees. I nodded to them as we passed each other. They naturally allowed me to enter the White House first, to go through security first. After all, I was their leader. I was the campaign director. I was twenty, thirty years their junior, in some cases. And yet, there I was.

  The secret servicemen looked at me stoically, without a speck of recognition. I wondered what this meant. I wondered if they knew about what had happened between the president and I—if they understood that it was over between us, that because of me, they had a serious security breakage on their end. I wanted to take them to the side and shake them, telling them it wasn’t my fault. But their eyes were so cold.

  Dimitri, my old friend from the old campaign days, was especially cold. He pressed his lips together and allowed me to pass by. I imagined a day in which he would hold out his hand and shake his head dismally. “Not today, Miss Martin,” he’d say. The White House mouth would be closed to me. My dreams would rush through the cracks.

  That morning, I sat at my desk and sipped my coffee, watching the campaign team roll around my evenly. The speed was ramping up, as it naturally did during the year before the election. The next few months would be hard and fast, and then in the summer, we’d ramp up even more. It was going to be a hard road, but it was a road that I’d imagined so many, many times before. It seemed impossible to imagine myself not involved.

  Jason, on the other side of the office, seemed in a tizzy. He continually placed his hand on his forehead, scraping the sweat away from his brow. He shook his head into the phone he held at his ear, opening his mouth to bicker in a menacing manner. I
raised my eyebrow toward him. Nothing ever went to plan, I wanted to tell him. Not even the best-laid of them all.

  That afternoon, I ate my lunch at my desk, working through the last mechanisms of my later-afternoon briefing. I munched through cucumbers and some almonds, knowing that this would just barely push me through the rest of the day. But I didn’t have the time to go into the world to find anything. Before me, many of the desks were empty, revealing that these people had wants, had needs, had desires.

  Above the desks, peering toward me in the darkness of the hallway, I saw a thin, muscled figure. I turned my neck toward him, alarmed at his secrecy. Of course, the man was Xavier. He’d pushed from his Oval Office to come spy on me—perhaps to fire me in decency, when no one but that little guy with the southern accent in the corner would know.

  But as soon as he caught my eye, shivers coursed through both of us. I swallowed slowly. He spun around, giving me the darkness of his back, his black hair. I turned back toward my work, readying myself for the briefing. Sometimes, Xavier didn’t go to them. Perhaps I could push through. Perhaps this stress that pulsed in me could go unnoticed.

  However, when the briefing finally came, I felt the shivers coursing through my body. I stood before the great crowd of fully-fed campaign workers, feeling Jason’s burly presence beside me. He leaned toward me and whispered: “You seem awful quaky today. You sure you don’t want me to cover it?”

  I peered up at the back of the room, where I noted that Xavier had just entered, his dark eyes peering toward me. It felt like a challenge, like he wanted to make sure I was up to snuff. The anger grew in me, obliterating the love I had for him, even just for a moment.

  I grabbed the baton, not giving Jason a decent response to his malicious question. I tapped it against the board before me, where I’d drawn a decent outline of our education bill plan—the one we were shuffling through congress in the following few months to really get a lead over the Republican candidate. “LISTEN UP, PEOPLE,” I announced, lending them a sense for my passion, my drive. “Get the fuck out of your heads and listen to me.” I furrowed my eyebrows. They were going to pay attention to me—their campaign leader—for as long as I held this chair. Xavier was going to know that a little phrase like the one he used—the one initiating his regret for even hiring a “29-year-old girl” like me—held no validity. I was strong, empowered.

  And I would make him win.

  Chapter 3

  As I pushed through the meeting, I grew stronger and truer to the feelings of triumph inside me. I no longer looked toward Xavier. Rather, I turned my attention toward the people before me, the people who turned toward me with a sense of passion and drive for this cause. I didn’t have time for people like Jason and Xavier—people with such apparent cruelty in their hearts. Did they believe that you could only make it in this business if you were cruel, if you obliterated everything and everyone in your path?

  I tapped the baton back before the table, bringing everyone’s heads back up from their notes. It was nearly five-thirty, which meant that I had overworked everyone well beyond their five-o-clock end time. I thanked them, nodding my head succinctly. “Good work today. I think if we follow this plan to a T—if everyone does his or her job appropriately—we can win this thing.” My eyes were drawn to Xavier once more in this moment. He still looked so dark beneath the fluorescent lights of the great conference room. I tapped my papers on the table. “You can all head out,” I announced. “Thank you.”

  The conference room erupted. People began their long-held conversations that had surely been bursting in their hearts. They turned toward each other and discussed dinner plans, first dates. They allowed their thoughts to stem away from the campaign. I wondered what that was like. Everything about my life: from the cameras positioned in my apartment to the very real love I held for Xavier was rooted in the campaign. Thusly, I couldn’t very well rip myself away from it. I couldn’t’ find another topic in my head!

  The people ran into the hallway to grab their coats and head into the fall day. I stayed behind, toward the white board, taking final notes for the day. Even Jason nodded toward me with a sense of near-decency, telling me to enjoy my afternoon. I wanted to kick him in the shin, but I held back. “Have a good evening,” I told him. My voice was brimming with constricted hatred.

  As everyone left, I was still very much aware of the final, dark figure lurking at the top of the conference room. I turned to the left and tapped off one of the central lights, leaving my area in grey. I walked up the steps, clinging to my folders. I swallowed. “Hello,” I nodded coolly to the president. “How are you today?”

  But Xavier stepped forward with such an anxious ferocity, I nearly stepped back—a step that would have forced me to fall down the steps. “Amanda. I need to talk to you. Immediately.”

  I raised my eyebrows, my heart quickening in my chest. I didn’t allow my eyes to meet his. I knew this eye contact would churn me into a sense of sadness, of remorse. The last time I had looked at him, really looked at him, he’d told me that I wasn’t worthy of his campaign. He’d told me to leave. He’d essentially taken back every expounding of love he’d ever given me. It was over. It had to be.

  “I actually can’t talk right now,” I stated, looking down at my folder as if to check something. “I’m on my way to meet with a member from Congress.”

  His head reared back. “Which one?”

  I raised my eyebrow, still peering somewhere over his left shoulder. “Jimmy Everett.”

  He scoffed, shaking his head. “That old crabby man. You don’t want to talk to him.”

  I felt offended for Jimmy, even though I was lying. “I’m certain you don’t mean to speak of your supporters that way,” I reprimanded. I readjusted my folders. “You’re going to need all the help you can get next fall. I crank these numbers every day. Talking to Jimmy is going to give me insight on how to proceed.” My words were so forceful, brimming with anger. I could feel him deflating before me, and the thought of his sadness brought me a small sliver of pleasure.

  He brought his hand out to grab my wrist as I walked by. I turned my head, frowning. I still didn’t give him my eye. “I told you. After the meeting with Jimmy, sometime before the next reelection campaign. Please respect that I’m doing everything in my power to get you re-elected.” These final words were my stand, assuring him that I was capable, that I wasn’t some silly twenty-nine-year-old bimbo. I wasn’t Clinton’s intern. I had pounded my way to the front door of the White House and I wasn’t turning away without a fight.

  “But—Amanda.” He was pleading with me, now. I could hear it in his voice. “Know that this isn’t a work matter. I need to speak with you about something private.”

  I spun toward him once more on my way to the door. I was sure that the president was not used to being walked out on. I tipped my head to the right, thinking that a private matter was nothing I wanted to talk about, then. Not now. Perhaps not ever. “A private matter?”

  “Yes. It’s incredibly urgent.” More words of pleading, of anxiety. His heart was clearly lurking beneath his eyes.

  But I just turned my eyes toward my papers. “I’m incredibly busy the next few days. But I’ll see what I can do,” I said to him, still speaking as if this was about the campaign. My voice was rimmed with authority. “My best to you and Mrs. Callaway.”

  And then I was out of there, leaving that final spurn in the air between us. I caught my things up at my desk, and then I spun toward the door. I sped down the steps, my heart still in my throat. I couldn’t believe I’d just turned away from the man I truly loved. I felt so strong, so empowered in this moment—even as I felt that my heart was breaking.

  I soon found myself speeding away in a taxi. I felt myself diving into a state of solitude. I couldn’t even dredge up the words to say thank you to the taxi driver. I found myself dragging up to Rachel’s apartment, feeling so low. I thought of the events coming over the next few days, and I couldn’t picture myself a
t any of them. Something was shrouding over my mind, over my muscles. It forced me into the chair by the window, a glass of wine in my hand. I didn’t know yet that I was coming into sadness, into a sense of mourning. I had never fallen in love before; I’d never lost love before. I sipped at my wine.

  Rachel burst through the door about an hour later. She placed her bag on the table and sat beside me, placing her hand at my back. She pursed her lips before asking. “So. Did you tell the media? His wife?”

  I shook my head slowly, feeling a bit of laughter churn up from my stomach. Of course I didn’t tell on him. He was my love; he’d been my life. I was trying to shell myself to him. But I was rattling around, feeling empty. I laid my head on my friend’s shoulder, and she sighed beside me. “It’s going to be okay, Amanda. Do you think—do you think you could stay home?” she whispered.

  I shook my head, feeling the anxiety ramp through my arms, my legs. “I have so much to do for the campaign. I can’t stay home. Not tomorrow, not ever.” I felt my voice break as I said the words. I felt myself begin to shake.

  “Shh,” Rachel began. She rubbed at my neck and held me. I didn’t realize that I was crying so profusely, that I was allowing all the emotion from the previous few days to exit my body. She brought a Kleenex toward me, and I sighed into it, quaking.

  “What am I going to do?” I kept asking her—her and the world. I hadn’t realized that all this emotion had been brimming to the surface all along. The stress I had been under was too much, far too much for any one person to handle. However, I had thought I could handle it, like I could handle anything else. I had thought that it would work itself out. I had thought I could beat Jason at his game.

  As I sat and cried with my friend that evening, I knew that I had to stay home, at least for the rest of the week. I knew that I needed to escape the penetrating anxiety of the White House if I was going to live through the campaign. This would be the wayward way I worked through the emotion of the previous few weeks. I would release the emotion I held inside of me. I would say I was sick—say anything at all to get me out of the office. Then, I would return a brand-new person, the type of person who would never be caught with her skirts up around the President of the United States. No. Never.