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Collected Poems 1945-1990

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by R. S. Thomas


  too many had been burned in that fire

  for your contrast to hold.

  Still, you are the mountain

  the teaching of the carpenter of Nazareth

  congealed into. The theologians

  have walked round you for centuries

  and none of them scaled you. Your letters remain

  unanswered, but survive the recipients

  of them. And we, pottering among the foot-hills

  of their logic, find ourselves staring

  across deep crevices at conclusions at which

  the living Jesus would not willingly have arrived.

  Thirteen Blackbirds Look at a Man

  1

  It is calm.

  It is as though

  we lived in a garden

  that had not yet arrived

  at the knowledge of

  good and evil.

  But there is a man in it.

  2

  There will be

  rain falling vertically

  from an indifferent

  sky. There will stare out

  from behind its

  bars the face of the man

  who is not enjoying it.

  3

  Nothing higher

  than a blackberry

  bush. As the sun comes up

  fresh, what is the darkness

  stretching from horizon

  to horizon? It is the shadow

  here of the forked man.

  4

  We have eaten

  the blackberries and spat out

  the seeds, but they lie

  glittering like the eyes of a man.

  5

  After we have stopped

  singing, the garden is disturbed

  by echoes; it is

  the man whistling, expecting

  everything to come to him.

  6

  We wipe our beaks

  on the branches

  wasting the dawn’s

  jewellery to get rid

  of the taste of a man.

  7

  Nevertheless,

  which is not the case

  with a man, our

  bills give us no trouble.

  8

  Who said the

  number was unlucky?

  It was the man, who,

  trying to pass us,

  had his licence endorsed

  thirteen times.

  9

  In the cool

  of the day the garden

  seems given over

  to blackbirds. Yet

  we know also that somewhere

  there is a man in hiding.

  10

  To us there are

  eggs and there are

  blackbirds. But there is the man,

  too, trying without feathers

  to incubate a solution.

  11

  We spread our

  wings, reticulating

  our air-space. A man stands

  under us and worries

  at his ability to do the same.

  12

  When night comes

  like a visitor

  from outer space

  we stop our ears

  lest we should hear tell

  of the man in the moon.

  13

  Summer is

  at an end. The migrants

  depart. When they return

  in spring to the garden,

  will there be a man among them?

  The Other

  They did it to me.

  I preferred dead, lying

  in the mind’s mortuary.

  Come out, they shouted;

  with a screech of steel

  I jumped into the world

  smiling my cogged smile,

  breaking with iron hand

  the hands they extended.

  They rose in revolt;

  I cropped them like tall

  grass; munched on the cud

  of nations. A little oil,

  I begged in conspiracy

  with disaster. Ice

  in your veins, the poet

  taunted; the life in you

  ticking away; your breath

  poison. I took him apart

  verse by verse, turning

  on him my x-ray

  eyes to expose the emptiness

  of his interiors. In houses

  with no hearth he huddles

  against me now, mortgaging

  his dwindling techniques

  for the amenities I offer.

  Gradual

  I have come to the borders

  of the understanding. Instruct

  me, God, whether to press

  onward or to draw back.

  To say I am a child

  is a pretence at humility

  that is unworthy of me.

  Rather am I at one with those

  minds, all of whose instruments

  are beside the point of

  their sharpness. I need a technique

  other than that of physics

  for registering the ubiquity

  of your presence. A myriad prayers

  are addressed to you in a thousand

  languages and you decode

  them all. Liberty for you

  is freedom from our too human

  senses, yet we die

  when they nod. Call your horizons

  in. Suffer the domestication

  for a moment of the ferocities

  you inhabit, a garden for us to refine

  our ignorance in under the boughs of love.

  Measure for Measure

  In every corner

  of the dark triangle

  sex spins its web; the characters

  are ensnared; virtue

  is its own undoing, lust posing

  as love. Life’s innocent

  need of itself is the prime sin.

  And no one able to explain why

  at the margins of her habit

  the fifteenth phase of the flesh

  so mercilessly dazzles.

  The Cones

  But why a thousand? I ask.

  It is like breaking off

  a flake from the great pyramid

  of time and exalting the molecules

  into wholes. The pyramid

  is the hive to which

  generation after generation

  comes with nectar for the making

  of the honey it shall not eat.

  Emperors and their queens? Pollen

  blown away from forgotten

  flowers. Wars? Scratches upon earth’s

  ageless face. He leads us to expect

  too much. Following his star,

  we will find in the manger

  as the millennium dies neither

  the child reborn nor the execrable

  monster, but only the curled-up

  doll, whose spring is the tribute

  we bring it, that before we have done

  rubbing our eyes will be back

  once more in the arms of the maternal

  grass in travesty of the Pietà.

  Adder

  What is this creature discarded

  like a toy necklace

  among the weeds and flowers,

  singing to me silently

  of the fire never to be put out

  at its thin lips? It is scion

  of a mighty ancestor

  that spoke the language

  of trees to our first

  parents and greened its scales

  in the forbidden one, timelessly shining

  as though autumn were never to be.

  Cadenza

  Is absence enough?

  I asked from my absent place

  by love’s fire. What god,

  fingers in its ears, leered at me

  from above the lintel, face

  worn by the lapping

  of too muc
h time? Leaves prompted

  to prayer, green hands folded

  in green evenings. Who

  to? I questioned, avoiding

  that chipped gaze. Was lightning

  the answer, scissoring

  between clouds, the divine

  cut-out with his veins

  on fire? That such brightness

  should be attended by such

  noise ! I supposed, watching

  the starry equations,

  his thinking was done

  in a great silence; yet after

  he goes out, following

  himself into oblivion,

  the memory of him must smoke

  on in this ash, waiting

  for the believing people

  to blow on it. So some say

  were the stars born. So,

  say I, are those sparks

  forged that are knocked like nails

  one by one into the usurping flesh.

  Centuries

  The fifteenth passes with drums and in armour;

  the monk watches it through the mind’s grating.

  The sixteenth puts on its cap and bells

  to poach vocabulary from a king’s laughter.

  The seventeenth wears a collar of lace

  at its neck, the flesh running from thought’s candle.

  The eighteenth has a high fever and hot blood,

  but clears its nostrils with the snuff of wit.

  The nineteenth emerges from history’s cave

  rubbing its eyes at the glass prospect.

  The twentieth is what it looked forward to

  beating its wings at windows that are not there.

  The Tree

  So God is born

  from our loss of nerve?

  He is the tree that looms up

  in our darkness, at whose feet

  we must fall to be set again

  on its branches on some April day

  of the heart.

  He needs us

  as a conductor his choir

  for the performance of an unending

  music.

  What we may not

  do is to have our horizon bare,

  is to make our way

  on through a desert white with the bones

  of our dead faiths. It is why,

  some say, if there were no tree,

  we would have to set one up

  for us to linger under,

  its drops falling on us as though to confirm

  he has blood like ourselves.

  We have set one up, but

  of steel and so leafless that

  he has taken himself

  off out of the reach

  of our transmitted prayers.

  Nightly

  we explore the universe

  on our wave-lengths, picking up nothing

  but those acoustic ghosts

  that could as well be mineral

  signalling to mineral

  as immortal mind communicating with itself.

  Grandparents

  With the deterioration of sight

  they see more clearly what is missing

  from their expressions. With the

  dulling of the ear, the silences

  before the endearments are

  louder than ever. Their hands have their accidents

  still, but no hospital will

  receive them. With their licences

  expired, though they keep to their own

  side, there are corners

  in waiting. Theirs is a strange

  house. Over the door in

  invisible letters there is the name:

  Home, but it is no place

  to return to. On the floor

  are the upset smiles, on the

  table the cups unwashed they drank

  their happiness from. There are themselves

  at the windows, faces staring

  at an unreached finishing

  post. There is the sound

  in the silence of the breathing

  of their reluctant bodies as

  they enter each of them the last lap.

  Publicity Inc.

  Homo sapiens to the Creator:

  Greetings, on the mind’s kiloherz.

  For yours of no date,

  thanks. This is to advise

  that as of now our address

  broadens to include the planets

  and the intervals between. No

  longer the old gravitational

  pull. We are as much

  out there as down here. As likely

  to meet you on the way back

  as at our departure.

  You refer to the fading away

  of our prayers. May we suggest

  you try listening on the inter-galactic

  channel? Realising the sound

  returned to us from a flower’s

  speaking-trumpet was an echo

  of our own voices, we have switched

  our praise, directing it rather

  at those mysterious sources

  of the imagination you yourself

  drink from, metabolising

  them instantly in space-time

  to become the ichor of your radiation.

  History

  It appears before us,

  wringing its dry hands,

  quoting from Nietzsche’s book,

  from Schopenhauer.

  Sing us, we say,

  more sunlit occasions;

  the child by the still pool

  multiplying reflections.

  It remains unconsoled

  in its dust-storm of tears,

  remembering the Crusades,

  the tortures, the purges.

  But time passes by;

  it commits adultery

  with it to father the cause

  of its continued weeping.

  Passage

  I was Shakespeare’s man that time.

  walking under a waned moon

  to hear the barn owl cry:

  Treason. My sword failed me,

  withering at its green

  tip.

  I took Donne’s word,

  clothing my thought’s skeleton

  in black lace, walking awhile

  by the bone’s light;

  but the tombstone misled me.

  Shelley put forth

  his waxwork hand, that came off

  in my own and I sank down

  with him to see time

  as its experiment at the sand’s

  table.

  I walked Yeats’

  street, pausing at the flowering

  of the water in a shop

  window, foreseeing its drooping

  from being too often

  smelled.

  I stand now, tolling my name

  in the poem’s empty church,

  summoning to the celebration

  at which the transplanted

  organs are loth to arrive.

  The Bush

  I know that bush,

  Moses; there are many of them

  in Wales in the autumn, braziers

  where the imagination

  warms itself. I have put off

  pride and, knowing the ground

  holy, lingered to wonder

  how it is that I do not burn

  and yet am consumed.

  And in this country

  of failure, the rain

  falling out of a black

  cloud in gold pieces there

  are none to gather,

  I have thought often

  of the fountain of my people

  that played beautifully here

  once in the sun’s light

  like a tree undressing.

  Contacts

  The wheel revolves

  to bring round the hour

  for this one to return to the darkness

  and be born again on a chill

&nbs
p; doorstep, and have the blood washed

  from his eyes and his hands

  made clean for the re-building

  of the city. While for this one

  it revolves to make the tanks

  stronger the aeroplanes faster.

  The scholar bends over

  his book and the sage his navel

  to enter the labyrinthine

  mind and find at the centre the axis

  on which it spins. But for the one

  who is homeless

  there is only the tree with the body

  on it, eternally convulsed

  by the shock of its contact

  with the exposed nerve of love.

  Inside

  I am my own

  geology, strata on strata

  of the imagination, tufa

  dreams, the limestone mind

  honeycombed by the running away

  of too much thought. Examine

  me, tap with your words’

  hammer, awaken memories

  of fire. It is so long

  since I cooled. Inside me,

  stalactite and stalagmite,

  ideas have formed and become

  rigid. To the crowd

  I am all outside.

  To the pot-holing few there is a way

  in along passages that become

  narrower and narrower,

  that lead to the chamber

  too low to stand up in,

  where the breath condenses

  to the cold and locationless

  cloud we call truth. It

  is where I think.

  Island

  Of all things to remember

  this is special: the Buddha

  seated cross-legged, disproving

  Donne, himself an island

  surrounded by the expanses

  of space and time. From his navel

  the tree grows whose canopy

  is knowledge. He counts the leaves

  as they fall, that are words

  out of the mouth of the unseen

  God, washing his thoughts clean

  in them. Over the waters

  he sees the argosies of the world

  approaching, that will never

  arrive, that will go down, each

  one sunk by the weight of its own cargo.

 

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