The Society Wife

by India Grey

  Things that she’d never had.

  In one lithe movement he stood up. The gentle evening seemed to darken as his broad shoulders blocked out the cloud-marbled sky. Slipping her feet from their high-heeled shoes, Lily tucked them up on the bench and wrapped her arms around her knees, hugging herself for warmth and subconsciously closing herself around the tiny, tentative life inside her.

  Tristan was standing with his back to her, looking out over the garden to the dark tower. ‘Well, then. I hope you’re prepared for the alternative.’

  ‘The alternative?’ Something about the way he spoke made the hair stand up on the back of Lily’s neck. ‘What do you mean?’

  He turned. ‘It’s all or nothing, Lily. If you name me as the father, we have to get married.’

  ‘Married?’

  The tenuous thread of certainty that had anchored her a moment ago snapped, leaving her with the feeling that she was plummeting through space, and all logic, all familiarity had diminished to a tiny point in the distance.

  Married. The word that, when she was growing up, had always filled her with such wistful hope now sounded cold, comfortless, businesslike.

  ‘But why?’

  ‘Illegitimacy isn’t an option,’ he said flatly. ‘You have to understand that. My family bloodline stretches back, unbroken, for six hundred years. It’s my duty to respect and preserve that line. I can’t…’ here he faltered, but only for the briefest second ‘…I can’t knowingly let a child of mine be born and brought up outside of its heritage.’

  Stiffly, shakily, Lily got to her feet and walked slowly towards him. Standing in front of him, she looked into his eyes, trying to read the emotion that darkened them. ‘And yet a moment ago you wanted to pay me off?’ she said quietly. ‘You wanted me and this baby out of your life and your family. I don’t understand, Tristan. Why would you do that?’

  Their eyes met across the chasm that separated them. His gaze was unutterably bleak, achingly cold, but in that moment she forgot to be frightened or angry and wanted only to hold him. She wanted it so much that she almost felt dizzy.

  His lips quirked into a bitter, heart breaking smile. ‘You want your child to have a history?’ he said in a voice of mesmerising softness. ‘In my family you get six centuries of it, and roots so deep they’re like anchors of concrete, holding you so tightly that you can’t move. That doesn’t give you an identity, it makes it almost impossible to have one. That is why I never, ever intended to have children.’ He paused, passing his hand briefly over his face in a gesture of eloquent hopelessness. ‘I have no choice about the family I was born into, but you can still choose something different for your baby. Cut your losses, Lily. Get out while you still can.’

  Lily’s heart felt as if it were being seared with a blowtorch. Slowly, deliberately, she shook her head. ‘Our baby,’ she said quietly. The ground was cold beneath her bare feet and she was shivering, but her voice was strong and steady. ‘Our baby. I believe in family, Tristan. I believe in marriage.’

  Tentative butterfly wings of hope were beginning to flutter inside her. He was offering her the thing she’d always longed for. Marriage; a proper family for this baby—not like the inadequate, truncated version she had grown up in. Not quite a fairy tale happy ending, but a version of it. Hadn’t she always vowed that she would give her own children the family life she had never had?

  ‘This won’t be that kind of marriage,’ Tristan said coldly. ‘This will be in name only.’

  ‘What do you mean?’ she whispered.

  He made a brief, dismissive gesture. ‘I have a life. A life that I have carved out for myself against all the odds. A life that I won’t give up and I won’t share. You’ll be my wife, but you’ll have no right to ask anything about where I go or what I do.’

  ‘That’s not a marriage,’ she protested fiercely, feeling the emptiness beginning to steal through her again. ‘That’s not a proper family.’

  As she spoke he shrugged off his dinner jacket and now he laid it around her trembling shoulders, tugging the lapels so that her whole body jerked forwards. ‘No. But it’s the best I can offer,’ he said harshly. ‘I can’t make you happy, Lily. I can’t be a proper father to this child. Find someone who can.’

  The deliciously scented warmth of his body lingered in the silk lining of his jacket, and she pulled it closer around her. The unexpected thoughtfulness of the gesture he had made breathed life back into the fragile hope inside her. Looking up into Tristan Romero’s dark, aristocratic face, Lily saw the pain there, and instantly she was transported back to the tower; to standing at the window as the rain fell on the lake outside and looking at the watery moonlight washing his sleeping body on the bed. She remembered exactly the muscular curve of his back, the small, shadowy indentation of his spine at its base, the ridges of his ribs. She remembered the tracery of long, pale scars that cut across his shoulders and she remembered the suffering etched into his sleeping face and the anguish in his voice as he’d cried out…

  She remembered gathering him to her. Stroking him until his heartbeat steadied, until the lines beneath his brows were smoothed away and she had chased away whatever nameless horrors tormented him. For a short while then, against the odds, she had touched him. She had reached him and he had clung to her. Could she reach him again? Not for a moment, but for a lifetime, for the sake of the baby she wanted so much?

  That was what fairy tales were about. About quests that were seemingly impossible, where you had to follow your heart and fight for the things you believed in.

  And she believed in love. In marriage. In families and fairy tales. She always had. Raising her chin now, she met his bleak gaze steadily.

  ‘No. If that’s how it has to be…we get married.’

  He flinched, very slightly, his eyelids flickering shut for a split second before the steel shutters descended again and that small glimpse of suffering and humanity was concealed.

  ‘Right. If that’s your choice.’ His voice was cold, clipped, but contained a note of weary resignation. ‘Just for God’s sake don’t tell anyone yet.’

  ‘But what about Scarlet?’ she protested. ‘I can’t lie, Tristan—’

  ‘No? Then maybe we should drop this whole charade now,’ he said silkily.

  ‘She’s my best friend.’

  His perfect, sculpted lips stretched into a sardonic smile. ‘Then I would have thought that you would be able to see that announcing your own shotgun wedding at her engagement party might not be the most tactful thing to do. You can tell people in good time. For the moment you have to behave in a way that means it won’t come as a complete surprise when you do.’

  ‘How are we going to do that?’ she whispered hoarsely.

  ‘Just follow my lead,’ he said coldly, turning on his heel and walking back towards the entrance to the castle. ‘You might not be able to lie, but I hope you can act.’

  For a moment Lily didn’t move, watching him walk away, his head bent and his shoulders held very straight.

  No. She couldn’t act, as the director of the perfume commercials would certainly testify. But the thing was, in this case she suspected she wouldn’t have to.

  ‘What’s going on?’

  Tom’s tone was as light as always but Tristan knew him well enough not to be deceived. Behind Tom’s affable, self-deprecating façade was a mind sharp and incisive enough to have earned him a first at Oxford. He wouldn’t be easy to fool.

  Leaning against the massive stone fire place, Tristan took a thoughtful sip of his drink and let his gaze wander around the room. ‘Nothing. Why?’

  The speeches officially announcing the engagement and welcoming Scarlet to Tom’s illustrious family were over, and the guests had stirred and reassembled them selves as fresh bottles of champagne were circulated around. Lily was standing over by the window, talking to Scarlet’s parents, who were finally beginning to lose a little of the terrified look they had worn all evening. The light from the fading, flame-streaked sky out
side put roses in her pale cheeks.

  ‘That’s why,’ said Tom gently. ‘You haven’t taken your eyes off her for the last two hours.’

  Tristan’s hand tightened around his glass. With some effort he tore his gaze from Lily and looked at Tom levelly.

  ‘Come on, Tom. You’re engaged, not blind. She’s beautiful. Any man could be forgiven for looking.’

  ‘As long as that’s all you do.’ Tom softened the warning with a smile. ‘Lily’s sweet. She deserves a nice steady guy who’ll buy her flowers and give her break fast in bed, not a man like you who’ll—’

  ‘Buy her diamonds and give her orgasms in bed?’ Tristan cut in ruthlessly. ‘It doesn’t sound so bad to me.’

  ‘Ah, well, that’s because you can’t see that there’s more to life than money and sex.’

  ‘How little faith you have in me.’ Tristan took a swig of his drink and grimaced. ‘What if I told you I’ve decided it’s time to give up the one night stands and settle down?’

  Tom laughed. ‘I’d ask if it was just orange juice in that glass, or whether you’ve diluted it with vodka like you used to do in school. And then I’d probably look out the window to check for flying pigs and ask myself if it was April the first.’ Throwing an arm round Tristan, he slapped him affectionately on the back before moving away to rejoin his other guests. ‘The day you get married I’ll swim naked around the moat,’ he added with a grin.

  Tristan didn’t smile.

  ‘Deal.’

  At that moment he wished very fervently that there were vodka in his glass. And no orange juice. He wanted nothing more than to have something to slow the incessant, ruthless progress of his thoughts and bring warmth back to the frozen places inside him.

  A baby.

  His gaze moved inexorably back to Lily. She was sitting on the window seat now, deep in conversation with Scarlet’s mother. Or rather, he noticed, Scarlet’s mother was deep in conversation with her. Lily’s head was bent slightly as she listened, her face thoughtful. The gentle, sleepy quality he had noticed the first time he met her struck him again as he watched the graceful movement of her hand as she smoothed a strand of hair back from her forehead.

  He felt as if something were crushing his chest.

  But it wasn’t her beauty that caught him by the throat and squeezed. It was her goodness. Tom was right. She needed a decent man, a kind husband who would love her as she deserved to be loved.

  Tristan Romero de Losada Montalvo knew with a cold, bleak certainty that he could never be that man.

  He was the kind of man who was effortlessly good at everything he did, she knew that. So it came as no surprise to Lily to discover that Tristan’s acting ability was excellent.

  It wasn’t a surprise. But it was still shocking.

  She was acutely aware of his presence, as if some internal satellite navigation system were constantly signalling his whereabouts to her, inexorably pulling her towards him and making it impossible not to keep looking at him. Every time she did she found he was looking back, smiling a little, his eyes dark and glittering with obvious desire.

  Acting the part.

  And, of course, she was acting too. Standing with Scarlet’s brother Jamie, as she smiled and talked and put her glass to her lips she was acting that everything was normal. Acting as if she weren’t in the grip of raging pregnancy hormones, that she hadn’t just agreed to enter into a loveless marriage with a notorious playboy, and—most challenging of all—that she weren’t feeling as if her husband-to-be were slowly stripping her naked with his eyes from the other side of the room.

  Husband?

  The word was too domestic, too tame to be applied to the man who could make her squirm with guilty longing simply by looking at her from twenty feet away in a room full of people. Married life was going to be extremely uncomfortable if this was the effect he had on her.

  Oh, God, what was she doing?

  Scarlet’s brother Jamie was talking about the band he was in at university. Making vague, encouraging noises, Lily tentatively turned her head to where Tristan was leaning against the huge stone fireplace talking to Tom’s gorgeous teenage cousin. The cousin had her back to Lily, but Lily could imagine the expression of slavish adoration on her face from the way her head was tilted up, her whole body arched towards Tristan.

  At that moment he looked up, his eyes meeting hers as if she had just pulled on some invisible wire stretching between them. The look was of such smouldering sensuality that Lily felt as if he had slammed her against the silk-covered wall and were holding her by the throat.

  And then he smiled.

  It was like sunrise. A slow warming, a delicious golden promise of the scorching heat to come. Lily was dimly aware of the cousin looking round, following the direction of his gaze, visibly wilting as she saw that it was directed at someone else.

  ‘Get your coat, Ms Alexander, I think you’ve pulled a billionaire.’

  Jamie’s low, amused voice brought her back down to earth. She whipped her head round to face him again, trying to hide her flaming cheeks behind the curtain of her hair, but before she could think of a suitable explanation he dropped his voice and said, ‘Right, he’s coming over. This is the moment when I slip away and leave you to it. Good luck!’

  She wanted to reply; she wanted to tell him to stay, but suddenly her mouth was so dry that the words didn’t come. As Jamie vanished into the crowd she turned away, feigning interest in a portrait of an insipid man in a powdered wig with a sour lemon expression. Regency men were supposed to be rakish and dashing, she thought vaguely, remembering the Georgette Heyer heroes that she and Scarlet used to sigh over. They had despaired of ever finding men like that in Brighton…

  ‘This would be a good time to leave, I think. Don’t you?’

  Her whole body jolted as the husky Spanish voice caressed her ear. Standing behind her, he very gently picked up the lock of hair that was falling over her shoulder and smoothed it back, tucking it behind her ear.

  Tongues of flame were licking downwards into Lily’s pelvis, making it hard to think straight.

  ‘But I’m staying here tonight…’

  ‘That was Plan A, sweetheart,’ he murmured softly, putting his hands on her hips and pulling her against him as his mouth brushed her neck, her jaw, her ear lobe. ‘I asked for your things to be brought down to my car. I’m taking you home.’

  Lily couldn’t speak.

  But even if she had been able to she wouldn’t have had the strength to argue.

  CHAPTER SIX

  ALMOST as breathtaking as the skill with which he had assumed the act was the speed with which he dropped it.

  Sitting beside him in the low passenger seat, her blood still thrumming from his touch, Lily darted a surreptitious glance at Tristan. The moment they had left Stowell he had distanced himself from her completely, and in the light of the dash board his face was emotionless. The face of a handsome stranger. She shivered.

  ‘Are you cold?’ he asked with distant courtesy.

  ‘No. Well, a little.’

  He flicked a switch and warm air caressed her. ‘I think we should get married as soon as possible,’ he said, effortlessly guiding the sleek black sports car around a bend in the road without seeming to slow down.

  Lily clung to the edge of her seat. ‘So fast…’ she murmured anxiously.

  ‘Sorry.’ He slowed down sharply. ‘I’m not used to having a passenger.’

  A gust of laughter escaped her. ‘I wasn’t referring to your driving. I meant life.’ But as the words left her lips she knew that he wasn’t used to having passengers in that either. And that was what she had become.

  He showed no sign of having heard. ‘What are your work commitments for the next few weeks?’

  She shrugged. ‘Not much. When I got back from Africa and I wasn’t well I told my agent not to take anything else on. And when I…well, since I found out about the baby…’ the words gave her a warm little glow, like a tiny candle, deep inside; g
entler, sweeter than the blowtorch of feeling he unleashed in her ‘…I haven’t gone for any jobs. I’m still under contract to the couture people, though, and we’re shooting another perfume commercial in Rome in two weeks time. And then, after that I’m pretty free, until the beginning of December…’

  She bit back a hysterical giggle. It was as if she were making a dentist appointment, not arranging what should have been the most important event of her life.

  ‘Good,’ he said shortly. ‘Keep it that way. I’ll make all the necessary legal arrangements for the marriage and you can fly straight from Rome to Barcelona for the wedding.’

  Lily swung her head round to look at him. ‘Barcelona?’

  One corner of Tristan’s mouth lifted into an ironic smile. ‘You’re going to be a Romero bride. You have to get married in Spain.’

  Her stomach clenched and her throat felt suddenly as if it were full of sand. She folded her hands over her stomach in an automatic gesture of comfort.

  Romero bride.

  ‘Of course,’ she said hoarsely. ‘I didn’t think. Your family—’

  ‘Leave them to me.’ He frowned, as if something had just occurred to him. ‘What about your family? Do you want them to be there?’

  ‘God, no.’ Lily swept her hand over the frosted window, clearing a space and looking out into the blackness beyond the cocoon of the car. ‘My mother’s in some ashram in India, balancing her chakras or something.’

  Susannah Alexander had been searching for spiritual enlightenment and inner peace for as long as Lily could remember, but the search had shifted to more high-budget locations since being funded by Lily’s modelling income.

  ‘And your father?’

  Lily gave a soft laugh. ‘I wouldn’t know where to send the invitation.’

  Tristan said nothing, merely flicking a glance towards the rear-view mirror as he pulled out to overtake a line of cars and accelerate away into the darkness beyond. Lily was pressed back into the soft leather upholstery. The speed ought to have been frightening, but not for a second did she doubt that he was in absolute control of the powerful car.