The pained look Dalton, ‘Viper’ gave me was almost enough for me to shout out that it was all a lie but I couldn’t. He deserves someone better. Someone that can give him everything he’s ever wanted.
I remember that day, I went to my doctor’s appointment after losing the baby. It was terrifying. I didn’t know what to expect. I was hoping the news would be different than what she told me, but you don’t always get what you want.
-Flashback-
I’m waiting for my name to be called, so I can see the doctor. My palms are sweating like crazy. My nerves are shot. I can’t believe I’ve lost our baby. Oh, my God, what if I can’t give him children? What if my body’s a failure and I can’t do that for him, give him the family he desperately wants? My mind is going in so many different directions. I’m going to go nuts, any second. I’m saved by my own thoughts when my name is called.
I jump out of my seat and walk towards the nurse, she’s waiting there with my file in her hand, and she has a bright smile plastered on her face. Damn, to be that happy she must have gotten laid this morning, that or she’s just too fucking happy in general.
She takes me to a little room, and she tells me the doctor will be joining me in just a few minutes. I nod my head at her, because my throat feels so tight, that I can’t even talk. A few minutes later, the doctor walks in. She gives me a soft smile when my head snaps up to look. I try to return the smile, but I just can’t. I’m too worried about what she’s going to tell me. Will it change everything?
She takes a seat and clears her throat. My head snaps up, and she gives me a sympathetic smile. “Miss. Murphy, I’m afraid it’s not good news. You miscarried because of the amount of scar tissue on your ovaries, and it’s to the point where it might be impossible to conceive. The chances of
you becoming pregnant and going full term are highly unlikely, but there is hope. We can perform a surgery to remove most of the scar tissue.”
Those words killed me more than you’ll ever know. I know there’s a chance that doing the surgery might help me, but at the same time, if I have another miscarriage, it’s going to kill me even more. I don’t think I would be able to go through that again.
“There’s a chance of becoming pregnant and miscarrying again even with the surgery?” I ask my voice sounding so small and daunted. The doctor nods her head firmly. I can’t do that. I can’t get pregnant again.
Well, there’s my answer. The answer I was dreading. I should break things off with Dalton to save him from a lifetime of unhappiness because I can’t give him what he craves… A family!
-End of flashback-
When we get to Annie's place, she opens the door. I walk over to the couch and plop down. I break down. The tears that are running down my face aren’t just for me. They’re for the baby I lost and for Dalton. The one man that I’ve ever loved with my whole heart. The man, I think I destroyed tonight. If he ever finds out about what I’ve done. I hope he can find it in himself to forgive me when he does.
“I’m off to bed. Everything you need is in the spare bedroom,” Annie says with a yawn. I look at the time and it’s getting pretty late. It’s almost midnight, and we’ve had a busy day helping with the wedding, making sure everything went smoothly. I’m beat, too. My head is spinning from today’s events. I just wish this was all a bad dream and that I could wake up tomorrow morning in Vipers arms, cuddled into his side where I belong. I don’t belong there anymore, and I need to get that through my head. So, I don’t go and mess up his life any more than I have.
“Are you going to be okay?” she asks softly. I nod my head because, hell at this point I’m not okay. I’m not going to tell her that. I don’t know if I’ll ever be okay.
“Yeah, I’m fine,” my words are broken from all the crying I’ve been doing. She gives a faint smile and leaves the room. Well, I guess it’s time for me to take a quick shower and get to bed. I have to get ready to look for another job tomorrow. I can’t keep working at the club knowing he’ll be there and the women throwing themselves at him any chance they get. There’s nothing holding him back now from fucking each and every one of them, just to spite me. I don’t think I can be around that without wanting to throw myself at him, beg him for forgiveness.
Of course, I’ll have to continue to work there while I search for another job. I’ll give my two weeks’ notice tomorrow. I pray that I’ll find something in the meantime. If not, I’ll be stuck day after day, being reminded of everything I’ve lost.
It’s around two AM by the time I finally get settled into bed. It felt refreshing to take a shower and soak, but it didn’t do much good for my mental state. Did I really do the right thing? Fuck if I know. I must live with the consequences. My head hits the pillow, and all I can think of is Dalton and the look on his face when I betrayed him. My eyes tear up. I squeeze them tight, but the tears still escape and fall onto the pillow. I cry myself to sleep, weeping for everything that has gone wrong in my life. Everything that I’ve lost that meant so much to me in a matter of weeks.
Chapter 3
Two weeks later…
My head’s pounding and my eyes aren’t even opened yet. I feel a warm body beside me. I grin, I was drinking heavily last night. Destiny makes me forget. Forget all about the bad shit in my life. Destiny and Tammy, are totally opposite of each other. Whereas Tammy’s brunette, Destiny’s bleach blonde. I’m just fucking happy that Destiny isn’t a brunette; I don’t want to have that constant reminder. I’m swearing off all brunettes, but Tammy dyes her hair most of the time, it’s usually black. So, I’ll stick with fucking blondes. I haven’t heard or seen Tammy since that night at the wedding. She’s been at the club of course, but tonight is her last night, and I’ll never have to deal with her again. My heart is plagued with sadness, but she made her choice. I’m going to live my life like, I would without her. I wonder if she’s seeing anyone or if she’s fucking someone. I shake my head, it doesn’t concern me anymore. She made that pretty fucking clear, the last time I saw her.
My eyes go wide as I take in the mess of my room. Well, it seems Destiny and I got a little wild last night. I chuckle. I look around for a condom wrapper but come up short. What the fuck? We didn’t use a condom? How fucking stupid can I be? FUCK! Most of the girls at the club are on something for birth control. So, I don’t think I have too much to worry about. I try to sit up, but my head spins a little. Fuck, I really drank too much last night. Fuck, today is going to suck. I need Advil for this dull pain in the back of my head.
Destiny moves cuddling to my side, and she moans softly. “Good morning, Viper,” she purrs, rubbing my stomach. She trails her finger down my abs to my famous ‘v’ the girls love. She moans in the back of her throat as she touches the corners of my ‘v.' Damn, she’s always fucking ready for me. Tammy pops into my head, and I shake the image away. I can’t let her bring me down anymore. She’s gone and she ain’t coming back. Destiny starts kissing my stomach, her lips dragging against my toned, hard stomach. Jesus, that feels good. I want to feel her lips somewhere else. Like the good girl she is, she knows what I want without me asking. She whips the blanket back and grabs hold of my cock, she teases the tip of my dick with her tongue.
“It’s not nice to tease, Destiny,” I growl. She giggles at me, giving me an innocent-eyed look. Her innocent is a laugh in a half.
“What? I’m not teasing you… that much,” she grins at me before licking me again. She winks at me before taking me fully into her mouth. My eyes roll back in my head.
“Fuck, that feels good,” a groan escapes from my lips. She works her way up and down my throbbing cock.
I’m getting close to the edge. I need to get her off my cock before I blow my load in her mouth. I need to fuck her. I fist her hair, pulling her head off my dick and she gives me a pout. I laugh.
“Don’t worry, baby, you’ll be happy in a minute when my cock is ramming into your tight little pussy hard and fast the way you like it,” her eyes dilate, and she moans. I have
n’t even touched her yet. She’s always so responsive to everything I say or do.
She goes to get on top of me to ride me, but I stop her. She looks at me with curious eyes.
“I want to fuck you from behind,” my voice uneven from the pent-up energy within me.
She licks her lips and nods her head. She gets on her hands and knees on the bed, ready and waiting for my hard cock. My mind is so far gone, I don’t even put a condom on like I usually do. Well fuck, last night there was no condom involved, and she’s clean, and so am I. The girls at the club get tested regularly so, we know and she’s on the pill. I just want to feel her tight pussy choking the life out of my cock and forget about every fucking thing that’s shit around me.
She wiggles her ass in front of me. What a fucking beautiful sight it is. Nice and round, my hand comes up, and before I can stop myself, it comes down on her right cheek. She squeals out, then she groans wanting more. Well, my kinky little bitch is going to be getting a hell of a lot more.
I line myself up at her entrance, teasing her some, pushing the tip of my dick in then pulling it back out. She growls out in frustration, and I chuckle, knowing it’s driving her insane with need.
“Will you just fuck me already, Jesus Christ,” she hisses under her breath. Well, someone’s impatient.
Without another word. I ram my cock in balls deep, and she screams out into the pillow. She’s clawing at the sheets trying to move away from me. I know she must be feeling a little pain with the pleasure because for one thing, I have a big cock. I’m not bragging or anything, but it’s the truth. Fully hard, I’m ten inches. The girls at the club just love my cock. When they see me coming, I’m treated like a king!
“Yes,” she draws out, throwing her head back. “Give it to me hard.”
Don’t have to tell me twice. I work my cock in and out of her hot pussy, pounding hard and fast. She’s purring deep in her throat. She wants my cock, she’s going to get it every fucking inch of it.
I’m pounding into her so hard that the headboard keeps knocking on the wall. All you hear is the yells and cheers from the next room fuckers are listening in. Well, I better give them a fucking good show then, don’t I? I pick up my pace, and I slap her ass hard enough to leave my hand print. Destiny’s screaming and shouting out in ecstasy.
“I’m going to come, Viper… Yes,” she screams.
Her toes start to curl, and her body begins to shake. She starts calling out my name, and her pussy tightens around my cock. Her tight pussy squeezing me causes my balls to tighten. Within seconds, jets of my cum hit the inside walls of her hot pussy. Her body’s shaking on the bed from the aftershocks of her orgasm. My legs shaking, the sweat on my brow almost blinding. I’m definitely in need of a shower now. I pull out, and she whimpers. Fuck, I guess I went a little rougher than usual. She knows how it is, though with me. I use to be a lot less aggressive while fucking, but now it seems I have a lot of shit that I just want to fuck out of my system. I slap her ass before getting up off the bed.
“I’m going to take a shower. I’ll see you later tonight at the club.”
After I mention that, I get up and leave the room. I head to the bathroom that’s connected to my room at the clubhouse. I just want to soak and drown in my misery. My heart hurts knowing I’ve slept with Destiny multiple times over the past two weeks, but my head says ‘she fucking left us, forget about her,' only if it were that easy.
I get to work on time, which is a fucking miracle because I was sure that I would be late, but who gives a shit. On more than one occasion Ace has been fucking an hour late. I guess that happens when you have a hot pregnant wife at home. My mind wanders right to Tammy and my heart pinches, and I wince. Why in the fuck can’t I just forget about her like she did with me? I need to move on. I can’t keep doing this, she’s gone… It’s over.
I walk in the big doors to the bike shop, and I’m stopped dead in my tracks when I see Alison and Ace near the bike he’s been working on for the past week. Thank fuck, he got the job because there’s no way my head would be able to handle it. I’ve been working the little jobs on the bikes for the past two weeks, and even that seems to be hard for me right now. Which is fucking stupid because I’m the best mechanic the club has. But I guess it doesn’t help when a woman fucks with your mind. Ace knows what happen and the look he gave me when I told him what happen was one of pure shock. Alison was pissed at her sister, but it is what it is. I can’t change her mind.
When I walk over to them, Alison turns and gives me a weak smile. “Hey, Viper. How are you feeling today?” she says softly. What does she expect me to say, I’m all better now that her sister is gone? I’ve moved on? My heart feels like it was ripped from my chest and stomped on repeatedly, by the fucking heels her devil sister was wearing at her wedding? “I’m a little better today than I was yesterday. I’m taking it day by day.” She nods and places her hand on my shoulder, giving it a light squeeze. She turns and kisses Ace before leaving to say hi to Pit. That old man loves Alison probably just as much as Ace. Well, maybe not as much as Ace, but you know what I mean. He loves her like his own.
“So, did you both enjoy the honeymoon? I didn’t really get the chance to talk to you about anything other than the fucking drama, about Tammy and me.” Ace grunts and grabs the wrench and goes back to fixing the bike.
“The honeymoon was great.” I can tell he's trying to play it down to spare me but fuck if I care about how I’m feeling right now. He should be able to talk about his wife and how the vacation was without thinking that he’s going to make me blow up. I shake my head with a small smirk.
“Don’t lie to me fucker. I know for a fact that you two didn’t leave that room.”
Ace chuckles and nods. “It was fucking amazing. I swear with her being pregnant, she’s even fucking hornier than before. She always wants me to fuck her everywhere and anywhere we can. That woman has become unsustainable. She wants my cock every chance she gets,” I burst out laughing my ass off at him. He turns his head, and his eyes widen a little. I stop laughing and turn to see what he’s looking at. Alison is standing behind me about two feet away with a huge smirk on her face.
“I’m hornier now, am I? Well, you better hurry up before I have to leave. The bathroom is calling us, Hayden.” His eyes widen and his mouth parts. I can’t help it, but it’s too fucking funny to see how much Alison has changed. To be able to stun the VP of all things is priceless.
“It’s not nice to tease, woman,” Ace hisses at his wife.
I shake my head at him and walk over to Alison.
“How’s the little guy?” I ask. She rubs her stomach grinning.
“She’s doing, well. Found out were having a baby girl. I can’t believe it,” she squeals with joy, and I couldn’t be happier for them both. Ace will have his hands full with that one. There’s a pang of sadness in my chest, knowing that Tammy and I had a baby once, but that was taken from us. The loss leaving me an empty shell of a man I used to be. I lost everything I’ve loved aside from the club. The club’s my family, and they always will be. They’ll be there for me. Women come and go. Tammy proved that to me when she left.
“Ace, treating you like the princess you deserve to be treated like?” my voice comes out in a teasing tone. She laughs.
“Yes, he’s been amazing with me. Even with all my weird cravings.”
There’s a silence between us, and it’s like she knows what I want to know even though I don’t ask it.
“She’s doing okay. She’s been moping around the house for the first week, but she seems to be getting better.”
What the fuck does she mean she’s been moping around the house. She’s the one that fucking said we were finished. How is it that she’s acting like it’s a huge deal?
I can’t even say anything because I don’t want to upset Alison. I just nod my head.
“She just started going out a bit now. She went for coffee with an old friend. She didn’t tell me who it is, but it’s like cl
ockwork every Saturday morning, she’s gone to the little coffee shop near her apartment.” It’s like she’s hinting on that I should check it out. I don’t want to end up causing a scene at the coffee shop. The poor little old lady that owns it would have a fit. I wouldn’t want to be the cause of her having a heart attack.
Now I laugh. “Do you really think that she’s moping around because of me? I don’t think so. She probably only needs to get laid, and her toy isn’t around anymore,” my voice comes out rougher than I wanted but hey, it’s the fucking truth. The truth hurts they say.
Alison’s eyes widen, and she gasps. “That was uncalled for Viper. Just because she ended it, doesn’t fucking mean that she isn’t hurting just as much as you are,” she hisses and walks around me. She gives Ace a kiss and tells him she’ll see him at home. Ace glares at me then goes back to fixing his bike. What the fuck just happened?
Well, hell what does she want me to do? She was fucking someone else; she didn’t need or want me anymore. Fuck this shit. I have a bike that has my name on it, and I’m going to fucking fix it without Tammy even crossing my mind.
Chapter 4
I’m at the club working like every other night since the break-up. How could I be so fucking stupid and not talk to him? I should’ve told him about what was going on, but I was too scared in disappointing him with the news. My stomach feels a little uneasy tonight. I got no idea what the hell is going on lately. I feel fine one minute, and then the next I feel like crap.
Viper will be here tonight, probably avoiding me like he has. He has even gone as far as avoiding the bar, sending his new fuck buddy, Destiny to fetch his beer. My heart breaks knowing he’s with her every night, while I’m at home crying my bloody eyes out. I should just shout out, ‘I never cheated on you’ then tell him what’s going on but I can’t. He's too far gone. What we had is too far gone. I don’t know if I could get past him sleeping with Destiny. Even if we aren’t together anymore, it doesn’t hurt any less.
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