“Nicky…” That was all she got out before her pussy clenched and her back arched deep. It was almost enough, that was her nickname for me when she was feeling especially loving towards her man, but it wasn’t good enough.
I dropped her hair and grabbed her throat pulling her head back until it touched my shoulder.
“Love me.” My cock slammed into her punishingly hard as I palmed one of her tits and bit into her neck where I’d already marked her. “I do, I do love you. I never…stopped damn you.”
We fucked through her tears and my salvation. I didn’t take my hand away because it seemed to keep her pussy on a constant throb that felt amazing around my cock as it tried valiantly to find its way into her tummy.
Madness, I felt it coming on, that wildness that had been missing from my bed, from my life. We hadn’t lost anything, only time.
“I’ll never leave you, nothing will ever come between us again. Cum for me, I want to feel you cum.” I eased out and went back in going after her spot. Once I found it I worked it over and over with the head of my cock until her juices ran down and out and her screams rent the air.
I wasn’t too gentle when I chased my own climax, pummeling her body over and over until cum shot out of me and deep into her womb where I was sure it would do the most good. I squeezed her neck and pulled her head back so I could suck on her tongue as the last of my seed dripped into her.
The harder I choked the tighter her pussy squeezed until my vision blurred and her screams became hoarse murmurs that were caught in my mouth.
“Don’t move Princess.” I held her there until I was sure there was nothing left and my seed would stay buried inside her. Her cervix was a tight ring around my cockhead making it hard for me to slip out of her body so I waited, giving my cock time to soften before pulling out.
SHELLY
Okay what the hell was that? Last night I’d sensed something in him, something just there beneath the surface. He was my Nick, the same kind sweet boy I’d given my heart to all those years ago. The one who’d kept a tight hold on it even after the betrayal. But I’d felt something in him that hadn’t been there before.
I’d put it down to the tragedy. Anyone who’d endured something like that is bound to be changed by it. But now I think there’s something more going on here.
There was a new hardness to him now that I didn’t recognize. It was almost scary. And that tattoo, when did he get that? It was so unlike him. Then again I didn’t really know him anymore did I.
I’d known the boy; someone else had got to grow with the man. I pushed the resentment away for now. I hadn’t exactly given my word but might as well. I’d given him my body, and heaven knows he always had my heart; so why not see where this would go?
I stood in front of him in the shower letting the water wash over me. His hands washed over my skin and between my legs and I stopped thinking.
My mind floated and nothing else mattered but the feel of his hands on me again. It had been so long since I’d felt this, since my body had sung with the sweet pain of what only he could do to me.
“Lean over sweetbaby.” I did as he asked, planting my hands on the wall as I leaned forward, and welcomed him into my body.
The sweet burn made me feel alive in a way I never thought to ever again. I closed my eyes and opened my senses so that I could feel everything.
He whispered how good I felt in my ear, showed me with his body how much he’d missed me, missed doing this with me. I let go and let him have his way, let him have me as I pushed back into his thrusts.
I shouldn’t have made it this easy for him. I should probably have fought him, made him pay for what he’d done to us. But I too had been missing him. I too had spent many a night since he’d lost his family thinking about what-ifs.
I didn’t have the guts to make the first move, and I was secretly glad that he had. I felt greedy, selfish, almost wicked for enjoying what he was doing to me. In the back of my mind I knew that I was only here now because of his loss. I wasn’t too sure how I should feel about that.
I hadn’t had any part in what had happened, and though way back in the beginning I’d wished any manner of destruction on Dee, I would never have wished for the death of his son.
Now he wants to have a baby with me. Something I’d given up any hope of ever having. Until last night I hadn’t let myself think about all that I had lost. I’d cut myself off from life; I see that now.
Maybe somewhere in the dark recesses of my mind I’d always hoped that he’d come back for me, that we’d one day be together again. Perhaps that’s why I’d only been existing until now.
But now I feel so alive. “Yes, oh Nick.” I lifted to my toes as he dug deep, hitting that place inside me that relaxed all my inhibitions.
I never wanted the feeling to end, never wanted him to stop pounding into my body as if possessed. His hand on the hot flesh of my stomach, right where our child would grow made me hotter and in that moment I wanted that more than anything.
“That’s right baby, you take me so good. Remember how you always had trouble taking all of me like this? How I’d spend hours trying until you could take all of this inside you? And then you’d stay in bed because it hurt to walk? I remember it all.”
He bit into my neck again and my knees grew weak. There was something about what he was doing that made me feel like the most powerful woman in the world. He wanted the world to know that I was his. Was sending a message to every other male that I was claimed, owned. Was there anything sexier than that?
I let him have me without restraint, reaching back to pull his hip harder into me as I pushed back while he slammed forward. His hand left my tummy and found my sensitive breast that was crying out for attention.
How did he know that that’s just what I needed right then? “That’s my girl, take what you need.” I needed no direction. My body was no longer under my control. It moved on its own, racing towards that feeling that took me out of myself.
“I want to cum make me cum. Harder Nicky harder.” I didn’t care that I was begging. I needed it. I too needed to reclaim what I had lost. He was mine again. The feelings shot straight from my heart to the place between my thighs where we were now joined.
I came hard and long and cried out in protest when he pulled out of me. I felt the emptiness and almost broke down in tears. Until I felt his hands grasped my hips and his tongue was there where his magnificent cock had just been.
I cooed as he lapped at me easing the sting from his thrusts. He lifted my leg to the opposite wall, spreading me open vulgarly but I didn’t care. All I cared about was having his cool tongue inside me, sucking the juices from my body.
“I’m cumming again, I’m cumming…” My voice trailed off as my eyes crossed and my legs shook. His tongue was so deep inside me, “feels so good”. My body shook as the most massive orgasm hit me and I felt my juices run out around his tongue.
I’d no sooner felt one orgasm taper off and another begin when I felt my back slam against the wall of the shower and he as on me again.
He drove into me and covered my mouth with his and I went flying again. I didn’t feel the pain of my body slamming into the wall, only the pleasure of him ramming himself home time and again.
“I wish I could stay inside you all day.” His hands tightened roughly on my ass as I felt his cock jump inside me, heralding his climax. I used my inner muscles to massage his flesh and he growled like an animal just before I felt the sweet release of his seed deep inside me.
We stood under the water, our mouths fused together as our hands roamed over each other hungrily. I felt insatiable, like I’d never get enough. I wanted him in me all day, slightly afraid of what would happen once we parted ways to go about our day.
That fear had me digging my nails into him as I tried my best to suck that part of him that brought me so much pleasure deeper into me. “Don’t let me go Nick, please don’t let me go.”
His hand went to my hair and he held my
head back and looked down at me with so much love.
“Never. I’ll never let you go baby.” We ended up on the floor of the shower with his body covering mine, keeping everything else out.
It had been a long time since I’d had that feeling of being protected. And even as my back scarped against the tiled floor I relished it, even as I gloried in the feel of his sex swelling and exploding inside me.
12
Nick
It was like night and day or living in a time warp. After I dropped her off at the office with the promise to pick her up later so we could get her car and head home together, I went to the precinct. I switched from conquering lover to avenger as soon as I cleared the door.
My name rang out as I made my way to my office and I turned to see the captain rushing to catch up. “I hope you’re not on the same bullshit again, it’s too early in the morning.”
I kept going until I was sitting behind my desk and pretended to look through the folders there so he’d get the idea and bounce the fuck out.
“I’m still waiting to hear back from the commissioner on that, no, this is about your family.” I looked up at him as his words tapered off.
“Go ahead, what about my family?” He came farther into the room and ran his hand over his hair. I held steady and waited for the blow, for that sickening feeling that always assailed me whenever mention of them was made.
It was there, but not as sharp, not as debilitating. The night and early morning with my woman, having her back with me had softened the blow.
“The team we have working on it keeps running into walls. They have ideas but each time we tug on a thread there’s another and another and we can’t seem to find the connection.” He looked totally lost and frustrated.
“They’ve gone back five years, scoured all your cases and nothing.” He looked truly perplexed; another reason since this all started that makes me wonder how he ever made captain.
Even the lowest dreg on the street had a pretty good idea who was behind that shit. Either he was being deliberately obtuse, or they were trying to keep me off the scent.
I couldn’t show him my hand though, so I played it cool.
“Okay, and what do you want from me? You won’t let me work the case. I…”
“Sheridan, you know that’s not how it’s done. You know you can’t work the murders of your wife and son. We put the best men on it and I have all the confidence in the world that we’ll get them, it’s just going to take some time.”
I listened to him as though I gave a fuck, but I already knew all I needed to know about who had killed my family and why? I’d had my suspicions all along, but wanting, no needing to be sure had taken some time.
I’d worked back from my first suspect until I found the truth. If I’d had any doubts, the second skell I’d taken down had spilled enough that they were dispelled. Right before I ended his miserable life.
With what I got from him, I was able to connect even more dots until I had what I needed. I wasn’t interested in taking down only the middleman, I wanted from the head on down. That’s why I couldn’t leave it to the law. Not that I would’ve anyway. I’m just not built that way.
He went on and on about what lengths they were going to-to get to the bottom of it. I couldn’t fault them for coming up short. I had a lot of enemies, a lot of men and a handful of women that I’d put away, some for a very long time.
Then they were the family members and loved ones who wanted my head on a platter and hadn’t been too quiet about that shit over the years.
But I didn’t need a laser beam pointing me in the right direction, I knew who it was that had come after me. All they needed to do was look at my case files from the past coupla years to put it together themselves.
I’d been this close to bringing down the biggest cartel in the state when it happened. All the talk was about how much farther I’d gotten than my predecessors in the time I’d taken over.
Unlike them, I wasn’t on the take, and that made me the drug dealers’ biggest threat. They couldn’t buy me off; they had nothing I wanted. The threats had started coming in early on, but as usual I’d brushed them off. I could handle myself, no problem. But I never thought they’d take out my family. I missed a step there.
The captain left my office once he was finished having his say and I got busy getting the boards set up for the day. There was still crime to fight other than my personal shit. Still more messes to clean up.
“Hey Lieutenant, you got a minute?” I looked up to see Rogers, one of my detectives leaning into the room. “Sure come on in.”
“Uh, some of the guys wanted me to come in and you know…” He shrugged and looked back towards the bullpen. “No what?”
“We uh, we just wanted to know if there was anything you needed. We heard the brass was coming down on you about this renegade thing and it hasn’t been that long since your…tragedy. We just wanted to let you know that we’re here if you need anything.”
I would’ve stopped him halfway but let him finish. I wonder why the guys had chosen him to be the messenger, or maybe he’d volunteered. Whatever it was, I didn’t give anything away as I schooled my features.
“You can tell the guys that I’m okay and they don’t need to worry. I’ll be out in a few with your assignments.” I looked him dead on and watched him squirm.
He stalled for a second longer before acknowledging my dismissal with a nod and leaving. I took a few deep breaths, unclenched my fists and let it go. Everything in its time!
I had a sequence of events worked out in my head and wasn’t planning to throw myself off by losing my head now. But that motherfucker’s day was coming.
I went out to the squad room where my team was waiting for their orders. After I’d given them their details for the day they filed out one by one but I noticed the looks being thrown my way. What the fuck? Did I have something stuck in my teeth or some fuck?
Rawlins, one of my best men and the one who I’d been closest to before my life went to shit hung back. “So, it’s good to see you making it back among the living.” He grinned and slapped my shoulder.
No one had touched me in almost a year. They had learned early on to stand back, not to enter my personal space for any reason after the first few attempts had been met with cold distance.
“What are you talking about?” He pointed to a spot on my neck. “Pretty good love bite there buddy who is she?” I clamped my hand over my neck and left him standing there as I headed back to my office.
Rifling through my desk drawer I found the mirror I kept there for emergencies. Like when Dee was getting on my nerves and I left the house without a shave.
“Well, I’ll be damned.” I don’t remember her getting me there. The smile that spread across my face was among the first in a very long time. I picked up the phone and called her. She picked up on the third ring.
“You marked me?” Even this, a simple thing like a phone call meant so much. That I could hear her voice any time I wanted, that I had the right now to search her out whenever the need hit, was something I had been looking forward to for a long time.
“Is that a problem? I figured it works both ways.” She was her old sassy self this morning.
“Baby you do know you have nothing to worry about on that score right.” How could she even think it?
“I thought that thirteen years ago too remember.” There was no real censure in her voice but I got the point.
“Touché, I guess I deserve that. I’ll see you later, maybe we can do lunch if nothing comes up on my end.”
“I’d like that, I gotta go, kinda busy here.”
“Okay sweetheart, I’ll catch you later.” I hung up and took a moment to appreciate the difference in this day and the one that came before. Life truly is a rollercoaster ride.
I went through the files on my desk, going over my guys’ work and making sure all the write-ups were in order from the night before.
I didn’t have any calls so didn�
�t need to be out in the field and two of my best men were bringing in the suspect in my last case. Hopefully, that one would be the last of its kind that they’ll sic me on.
The case had been too cut and dried for my brand of expertise. There were no surprises, no need to figure out who’d done what. But they’d been giving me time to get my feet back in after I came back from leave.
I wouldn’t have accepted leave had I not had my own agenda. What the fuck good was sitting around in my house alone with my thoughts gonna do? But their forced leave gave me the excuse and the time I needed to get what I needed done.
I got lost in work for the next few hours with a few moments of reminiscing in between. Last night and this morning had been beyond anything I could’ve imagined.
I mean I knew our reunion was going to be one for the books, but it surpassed all expectations. I’d expected more fight out of her but didn’t think any less of her for giving into me so easily.
Not that I’d given her much of a choice. But still, I’d expected her to at least slug me one the way I’m sure she’s been fantasizing all these years.
After last night a lot of things had changed for me. It was one thing to imagine a thing and quite another to actually live it. I wasn’t as prepared for the way having her back with me would make me feel. Hadn’t given much thought to the shakeup it would be.
I’d only seen as far as getting her back by any means necessary. Emotion never played a part in my planning. At least, not the ones I was now faced with.
I was tempted to move up my process but knew that if I rushed anything and screwed up there, the life I wanted to share with her would be fucked.
No way would I jeopardize that. It was going to be tough making my midnight trips with her in my bed, but I could always play it off as work. Besides I was right on schedule. I got my woman back and I’d already taken care of three of the players.
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