Kat in Zombieland

by Gena Showalter

  I shake my head, my brow furrowed. I've never been taught about guard towers, and yet I now know all about them? I shouldn't--

  I have been taught. Years ago. At the age of five, I attended a mandatory realm-history class. I had...had... Oh, wow, I'm being bathed by drugging warmth, my senses fogging with the most delectable scents: wildflowers, fruit trees and newly ripened berries. How am I supposed to concentrate? I inhale deeply, savoring.

  "Don't let anyone near her until she's hooked," Killian says, jolting me.

  Hooked?

  "My men and I will keep the area clear as long as we can," Deacon says and rushes off.

  My gaze finds Killian's, and my heart thuds. His eyes are gorgeous, soulful gold with flecks of electric blue. In one, there are five flecks. In the other, three. At our first meeting, I compared those flecks to an octave. The fifth and third notes create the basic foundation for all chords. Whenever he looks at me, my blood sings.

  Today is not an exception.

  A Myriadian soldier breaks through the protective ring created by Deacon and his men. Without disrupting our stare-down, Killian reaches out with a quick jab-jab, a dagger in hand. I gasp. He just killed one of his own. Savagely. Brutally.

  Lifeblood coats the weapon, clear and glittering, a macabre but lovely sight. He closes in on me, menace in every step, but I remain rooted in place, unafraid. This boy will never harm me.

  "Stop slaying your people on my behalf," I command.

  "I'll protect you however I see fit, lass." He sheathes his dagger and cups my face, his palms calloused from years of combat.

  Those calluses tickle my skin, creating friction--heat. Such delicious heat. Soon the battle is forgotten. I'm basically on fire for him, my blood steaming, tormenting me--thrilling me. All because of an innocent touch!

  I've always reacted to this boy, but never this intensely. Maybe because we've never before experienced skin-to-skin contact, nothing between us. Not flesh, not a Shell. Not life-or-death stakes.

  I lean into his grip like a kitten being petted for the first time.

  Are the sensations this potent with all spirits?

  I close my eyes and breathe him in. Peat smoke and heather. My favorites. My head fogs all over again, and I know he's intoxicating me without even trying.

  "Look at me, lass."

  I obey. He is studying me, as if he's memorizing my features. I study him right back, helpless to do otherwise. Shadows cling to him, but they fail to detract from his otherworldly beauty. Ebony silk hangs over a strong forehead and swoops to one side, creating a roguish frame for equally roguish features. His eyebrows are thick and black, his skin bronzed and poreless, as if his flesh has been painted on. His nose is blade-sharp and leads to a mouth so lush, it could be classified as feminine. His triangular jaw is dusted with sexy stubble.

  "In the coming weeks," he says, agonized, "I need you to trust me, no matter what. Can you do that?"

  Without hesitation, I reply, "Of course." I trace a fingertip over the seam of those lavish lips, acting without thought. He might be firm and muscled everywhere else, but he's soft as rose petals here, and I shiver.

  His pupils dilate, a sign his awareness of me is deepening. "There's no of course about it. The situation will be bleak, but you must trust that I will always have your best interests at heart." His grip tightens. "Please."

  I want to reassure him, and I totally mean to do so until a burst of wind blows a strand of hair in my eyes. I frown as I hold a lock up to the light. Cobalt blue? What the what? Before I died, my hair was black.

  "I don't understand," I say.

  "You should see the other changes." Killian's hand brushes mine as he sifts the strands between his fingers.

  A sharp lance of pain sends me stumbling back, a cry parting my lips.

  Was I just...stabbed?

  "You're tense." Killian catches me, latching on to my wrists and holding me steady. "Relax." His obey me or die tone is usually reserved for everyone but me.

  I bristle. "You relax! I--" Agony claws at my insides, and it's too much, far too much. "I don't know what's... I can't... I'm..." Dying for the second and final time? So soon?

  "You're being hooked to your realm's Grid."

  Grid? "I think something's wrong with the connection." I manage to push the words past the barbed lump growing in my throat.

  "Nothing's wrong." He draws me against him, caresses the ridges of my spine, offering comfort. "Everyone goes through this. Even Myriadians."

  I rest my head on his shoulder, breathing in and out with purpose. Despite our efforts, I feel as if I'm trapped inside a never-ending pit, falling into one sword after another while taking an endless rain of bullets to the brain and torso.

  Kill me! Let me die.

  But...the pain is fading just as swiftly as it began.

  Warmth envelops me, sinks into me and shines...shines so brightly that emotions I'd hidden in dark corners long ago are suddenly exposed. Those emotions scramble in every direction like tiny bugs. Hatred for my father. Rage for circumstances beyond my control. Sorrow over the loss of my mother and little brother.

  Nothing can hide. I hiss and sob in unison. The sound a wounded animal must make.

  "You're strong. You're brave," Killian tells me. "You've got this, lass."

  As the warmth gathers in three distinct places--both hands and an arm--I squeeze him so tightly, I'm sure I bruise him. He never once complains. The warmth...it burns now. I think I'm being...marked?

  In the center of each palm, a circle with three leaves appears. The Troikan symbol. They are pale at first but gradually darken. Along my right arm, three sets of numbers emerge.

  "Spiritual brands," Killian says, passing his thumb over one of the symbols without actually touching me. "An outward sign of your inward loyalty."

  Finally, blessedly, the remaining pain subsides, and I whimper with relief.

  "A Key." Killian moves his attention--and his phantom-touch--to the numbers. "I'd heard rumors Troika forces their new recruits to work for their rewards, but no one has confirmed or denied."

  "A Key?" When his thumb strokes my skin, I'm hit with a punch of cold. My jaw clenches, and my teeth chatter.

  Fury contorts his features, startling me as much as the punch. He releases me and steps back, increasing the distance between us.

  I'm not yet ready to part with him. Lifting my chin, I step toward him and flatten my hand over his precious heart. Another blast of cold hits, this one stronger, unbearable.

  "Zero!" My favorite curse escapes, and I jump back. In a blink, the horrible cold vanishes.

  "I tried to warn you," he grates.

  As I gaze into his siren-eyes, the truth becomes clear. Physically, our bodies will forever reject each other. Darkness and Light cannot coexist. One will always chase the other away.

  By siding with Troika, I doomed our relationship.

  Tears well. "Killian," I say. He did try to warn me. I convinced myself we'd find a way to be together, not yet comprehending the obstacles we'd have to face.

  "What's done is done." He gives an almost imperceptible shake of his head as he backs away from me. "If I fight for you, I help my realm lose the war. If I fight against you, I lose you. There's no middle ground. Not with us. Like you, I have to choose."