Possession fa-5

by J. R. Ward

  “Do you want some food?” he asked.

  She didn’t answer him, her attention solely on the animal.

  “I’ll go get you some …” Well, probably not eggs, no. But maybe he could get something delivered—it was before midnight. “I’ll be right back.”

  Ducking out, he—

  Ran right into Adrian. The other angel was standing in the second-story foyer, his face grim, his eyes sharp.

  The rise of one of his brows was all the comment that had to be made: Your bedroom. Really.

  “It’s not that,” Jim growled. “For fuck’s sake, she’s a goddamn child.”

  All that got him was the second brow hitting that dark hairline: Uh-huh. Right.

  “Fuck you, Adrian, for real.”

  If that angel wanted to make up shit in his head, there was nothing Jim could do about it. He knew where he stood with Sissy—he’d rescued her, and now he was going to take care of her until the war was over. After that? Hopefully he won, and she could go live in the Manse of Souls, where she belonged.

  That was all there was to it. He might have murdered for a living, might have violated a thousand different laws in the process, might have had sex with whores and prostitutes and women who were capable of cracking skulls and killing blindfolded … but he’d never been with a virgin, and he sure as hell was not starting now.

  And certainly not ever with Sissy.

  God knew, she had already been through enough—

  Dimly, he wondered why he was lecturing himself on the topic. Like any of that sort of thing could ever be a reality.

  “Do you want food?” Jim asked the other angel. When all Ad did was shake his head, Jim shrugged and headed down for the kitchen, where he’d left his phone.

  As he jogged along, it dawned on him that Sissy was going to have a lot of questions.

  If he were smart, he’d start working on the answers now.

  Shit. This was going to be another long night.

  Chapter

  Nine

  Mornings were always the best for working.

  As Cait sat in the sunshine, the light fell across her drafting table from over on the left, the illumination so much better than anything that came from a lamp. In its crystal-clear glow, the red of the little chocolate Lab’s collar was ruby brilliant, and his brown coat seemed made of velvet, and the happy green of the blades of grass under his paws was bright as an emerald.

  No more seasonal affective disorder for her—no matter how bad or long the upstate winter got, since she’d moved in here, she’d been free of the January blues.

  And the light meant warmth, too. Although it was just before seven a.m., and the morning temperature itself was in the mid-forties, the all-season porch she worked out of was tropical-toasty, the three sides of floor-to-ceiling windows giving her a nice view of her shallow backyard with its bushes and budding trees.

  Reaching out blindly, her palm found her stainless-steel mug, and she took yet another deep drink of her coffee. She hadn’t slept much over the course of the night, those two men circling in her head, images of what they’d looked like, and sound bites of what they’d spoken, and close-ups of the way they’d stared at her, going around and around and around. She’d finally given up hope of anything REM-ish at five, and had gotten out of bed to make the first of two pots of coffee. Fortunately, solace had come as soon as she had sat in her padded chair.

  Leaning back into the paper, she completed the finishing, colored ink touches on the puppy’s eye, giving him a lift to his cocoa brow, and tiny dark lashes that flared, and a little flash of silvery white around the edge of his iris.

  Done.

  But she double-checked anyway, capping the pen and returning it to its set before reviewing every inch of the two-foot-by-one-foot drawing. The puppy was in the process of sniffing at a bird, his tail in the air, his triangle ears pricked, his chubby legs ready to rear backward if the robin in front of him turned out to be foe rather than friend. The text was going to be mounted above his back, so she’d left a six-inch square blank space in the pale blue sky for the words.

  “Good,” she said, as if she were her own student.

  Unfastening the four corners, she carefully took the sheet and carried it over to the six-foot-long portable tables she’d set up on the solid-wall side of the room. This was page twelve of the book, and she put it at the end of the lineup.

  Yup, this layout thing was a critical part of her process, she thought. It gave her a far more complete vision of the work—inevitably, she unconsciously reverted back to certain poses, spatial orientations, expressions, nuances. This way of measuring the project as a whole, all at once, helped her avoid repetitions that probably only she noticed, but which were defects nonetheless.

  God … she loved children’s books. The simplicity of the lessons, the clarity of the colors, the rhythms of the words … there was something to be said for a child’s binary grasp of the world. Good was good. Bad was bad. Things that were dangerous were stoves, open flames, and light sockets—all easily avoided. And the bogeyman in your closet was always your summer camp sleeping bag wedged into a corner—never, ever something that could really hurt you.

  From out of the corner of her eye, the messed-up copy of today’s Caldwell Courier Journal loomed even though it was lying flat on her coffee table. She hadn’t gone very far into it to find the information she’d been looking for—the article on Sissy Barten’s funeral was below the fold on the first page. Services were at St. Patrick’s Cathedral, with burial at Pine Grove Cemetery immediately following.

  She’d be there at the mass, of course.

  Pushing her hair behind her ears, she turned back to her workspace … and took a moment to mourn the fact that Sissy would never enjoy another morning like this—and if her parents and family ever did again? It was a good decade away. At least.

  She’d met the mother and father at parents’ weekend back in the fall, when Sissy had brought them to the art department’s facility and showed them her wonderful pencil drawings.

  It was so eerie to think back to when Cait had shaken those hands and smiled and offered sincere praise. In that moment, if someone had told her the girl would be dead six months later? Inconceivable.

  But it had happened.

  When she’d gotten the call, it had been from the department head. He’d told her that Sissy had gone missing the night before, not returning from a quick errand out. Her parents had called her roommates on campus in case she’d gone there instead, and then the police had been brought in. They’d found the car she’d taken to the supermarket, but no trace of her.

  Vanished.

  Until she’d been found in the quarry.

  Cait had been the one to clean out her things from the locker and storage compartments Sissy had used in the art building. The duty had been done after hours, when the only people in the department had been the cleaners and the security guard.

  She had cried so hard that she’d needed to go to the bathroom for paper towels.

  After packing up all the supplies, drawings, and paintings, and then boxing up the sculptural pieces, Cait had taken everything to her own house and called the emergency contact number listed in Sissy’s files—but she’d gotten voice mail and, after leaving a message, had never heard back.

  Then again, that family had so much more to worry about.

  She supposed at some point she was going to have to mail everything to the home address. She’d prefer to hand-deliver it all, but she didn’t want to intrude—and knew for sure she wouldn’t be able to hold herself together if she saw those parents again.

  She couldn’t imagine what they were feeling. Having lost her brother at an early age, she knew something of the pain, but she had to imagine if it was your own child, it would be so much worse.

  Sitting back down at her drafting table, she rearranged her Prismacolor markers, and double-checked the points on her lead pencils, and made sure her watercolor brushes were super-clean.


  Such fragile things, all snappable, the tips easily ruined. In her hand, though, they were powerful instruments, capable of making something out of nothing. Without her guidance? Just inanimate objects collecting dust.

  That was the beauty of life, though. It created purpose and meaning in that which was otherwise void. In its absence, however…

  So strange, the thoughts that occurred to her now. Her knack for making three dimensions out of two had been parlayed into a very nice living for herself. But she had never thought further than paying for her mortgage and her heat and food, had never considered the real implications of not having children … had not, until this instant, confronted the idea that what she left behind on paper might be the extent of her contribution, such as it was, to the human race.

  Not exactly a groundbreaker, was it. Not very lasting, either—because without a doubt, people would eventually stop reading the books she’d illustrated, and her drawings would fade or fall apart, and she would be, as we all were, forgotten by the living and breathing.

  Children were the only immortality mortals got—and even then, two generations later, three at the most, no one knew you in person anymore.

  Strains of that song from last night at the café wound through her mind.

  G.B. might have a point about wanting to live forever.

  It certainly seemed more meaningful than the short time and game-over you got otherwise. And p.s., a seventy-five- or eighty-year-old situation was the best-case scenario.

  It wasn’t what the Bartens were dealing with. It wasn’t the violent, out of sequence, senselessly horrible death of a daughter—who’d been stolen from them by a madman—

  Cait stopped and pulled herself back from the depressing rabbit hole.

  She was going to feel badly about Sissy for a long time, and that was appropriate. But she still had to get her work done.

  Bringing over the next blank sheet, she tacked the drawing paper in place, checked the notes and text the author had provided … and once again put pencil to page in the lovely morning sunlight.

  It was so much better than thinking; it truly was.

  Sissy Barten sat on the porch she’d woken up on the evening before. In front of her, rising through the still-spiny trees of spring, the sun was coming up, its rays gold and peach and potentially warm.

  She’d never expected to see this again.

  Pulling the blanket she’d brought down with her more tightly around her shoulders, she blinked as the light intensified. Behind her, the house was silent, those two men no doubt asleep in whatever beds they’d finally fallen onto. Through the course of the night, she’d heard them walking the floors for hours—either that or there were ghosts in the old place.

  It was when the pair had finally stopped, when there had been no more creaking, no more muttering, no further scent of cigarette smoke, that she had come out of the room she’d been given.

  The only thing on her mind had been seeing her family. And that was still true.

  She just wanted to go home, be home, stay home.

  The trouble was, she didn’t know if she could trust this version of reality—and what if all this was just a cruel joke, a further facet of where she had been for an eternity, an illusion created specifically to increase suffering when it was stripped from her?

  Then screw that. She’d rather not go back to her parents’ house.

  She wasn’t going to give that woman, demon, whatever she was, the satisfaction—

  Sissy glanced over her shoulder. Standing in the open doorway, the man who had rescued her filled the jambs, looking like a harbinger of doom rather than anyone who’d protect somebody. His dark blond hair was standing straight up, as if he’d been pulling at it, and his brows were down so far, she couldn’t see his eyes beneath the overhangs.

  Under other circumstances, she probably would have steered clear of him. But not now. Not here.

  It was a relief to see him.

  “You okay?” he asked.

  She looked back to the sun. “Is this real?” To emphasize the question, she knocked on the floorboards she was sitting on—then had to brush the paint chips off her knuckles. “Is any of this real?”

  “Yeah.”

  “How much of it?”

  “All.”

  For a moment, she wasn’t sure she could trust him. But then images came to mind, the vivid horror of them giving him a credibility that no words or pledges could have ever done.

  “What am I?” she blurted.

  “You’re … you.”

  She shook her head. “I need a better definition than that.”

  There was a long silence. Then she heard his footfalls.

  He sat down beside her, his big, bare arms bunching up as he put his elbows on his knees. “I don’t know what to tell you beyond that.”

  “Am I a ghost?”

  “No.”

  “Are you?”

  “No. Do you need a coat? It’s cold out here.”

  “I have my blanket. Or … yours, I suppose. That’s your bedroom, isn’t it?” When he didn’t answer, she shrugged. “It smells like you. Cigarette smoke and shaving cream.”

  It was a nice scent, actually. The only thing she’d liked about the room.

  Sissy pushed her hair over her shoulder, feeling it shift across the baggy button-down shirt he’d given her. “Is she the devil?”

  When he didn’t answer, she glanced over. His eyes had a killing light in them as he stared out at her sunrise. “Is she?”

  “Yeah.”

  “So that makes you … an angel?”

  “Don’t know about that sometimes. But it’s part of the job description.”

  “You don’t have wings.” When he just shrugged, she felt her eyes well up with tears. “If you’re an angel, you can’t lie, right?”

  “Not to you, at least.”

  “So if this is real, and not an illusion … I want to see my family. Can you take me to them?”

  Without hesitation, he looked at her and nodded. Almost as if that had been part of the plan—get her out, take her home.

  He reached over and brushed a tear from her cheek. “Whenever you want, we go. Besides, I promised your mother I would bring you back to her.”

  “You’ve seen her?” she whispered.

  “I went to her, yeah.”

  “Is she … all right?” Dumb question. None of them were okay. “I mean … so I can live with them? I can go back and—”

  “That I don’t know.”

  Bullshit, she thought. She could tell by the set of those massive shoulders, and the fact that he wasn’t meeting her in the eye anymore—there was no going home in the conventional sense.

  Sissy resumed watching the sunrise, her brief flare of optimism snuffing out. “I feel like I’m losing my mind.”

  “Been there. Done that. This is … hard.”

  The idea that there was somebody who understood a fraction of what she was dealing with helped. But … “Are you sure the devil can’t come after me and take me back.”

  “Over my dead body.” His eyes shot to hers. “You got that?”

  God, she hoped he was as tough as he looked, because that demon from Hell was a nightmare. “If you’re an angel, doesn’t that mean you’ve already died?”

  “You don’t need to worry about that. Just remember—she’s not going to get you.”

  Sissy frowned and rubbed her forehead, wishing, not for the first time, that she hadn’t ended up where she was, sitting on this porch, halfway between the living and the dead, with an enemy she didn’t understand and a savior who clearly wasn’t happy about his job.

  “I can’t remember what happened,” she muttered. “I don’t remember how I got stuck in the down below. Do you know?”

  When he remained quiet, she turned to face him. “Please.”

  Before he could answer, a ten-year-old Honda drove up to the front of the house. From out of the open window, a bagged newspaper went flying—but the aim was of
f. Instead of landing anywhere near Sissy, it went right into the bushes by the side of the house.

  The car screeched to a halt, and as the driver’s-side door got shoved wide, the man beside her stiffened and shifted subtly, one of his hands going to the small of his back.

  There was a weapon there, she thought.

  Except as a sixteen-year-old got out of the car and trudged up the front lawn, Jim relaxed—

  “Chillie!” Sissy jumped up. “Oh, my God, Chillie!”

  Chillie, a.k.a. Charles Brownary, didn’t look over. Or stop in shock. Or … show any response at all. Her best friend’s little brother just kept going over to the scrubby bushes, cursing under his breath, shrugging into his Red Wings hoodie like he was beyond done with winter.

  “Chillie,” she said dully, as he picked up the CCJ and turned to the porch.

  The second attempt worked like a charm. The paper flew right past Sissy, nearly clipping her in the arm.

  “Chillie…?”

  As he turned away and headed back to the car, everything hit her hard: the terror from down below, the confusion and fear up here, the pain of losing her family, the horrible amnesia…

  Sissy opened her mouth and screamed as loud as she could—and she kept screaming, the sound exploding in her head, rising to a concert level, flushing the birds from the trees at both ends of the house.

  Chillie’s feet slowed, then stopped. With a twist of his upper body, he looked behind him—but his eyes were focused on the house, roaming around the windows as if he were expecting to find someone staring out of them. Shuddering like the place had Norman Bates’d him, he scurried for his car and hit the gas as if chased.

  A strong hand grabbed her arm, and that was her only clue that she was listing forward. As her legs buckled out from underneath her, the last thing she remembered was the way Chillie had looked, silhouetted against the gathering light, his short hair pushed back by the cold wind as he had stared right through her.

  And then she lost consciousness.

  Chapter

  Ten

  G.B. rolled over in bed and patted around the cardboard box he used as a table for his phone. He found the TV remote, the base of his garage sale lamp, that dust-covered Nietzsche book—