SEXT ME

by Layla Valentine

This was it. This was when I made the choice, whether to do what everything had been building towards, what would decide it all.

  And yet, as his hands slid over and under my panties, as they slipped them off ever so gently, only then did I understand. That this was a natural following of what came before. That the choice had already been made the moment I agreed to a date with Clark, the moment his lips had met mine. That this had been inevitable from the first moment we had laid eyes on each other.

  Because, with his light, sweet touches, it was clear. For all his bravado, this was a man with a kind, caring heart. A kind heart that cared for me, too.

  And so, now that my white lace panties had merged with the flow of white sheets and dress, the next thing was for Clark to slip in a finger between my legs, then another. He smiled at the wetness between my legs, pressed his mouth to mine and we swirled our tongues together.

  His finger was just as gentle, just as gradual as his other touches. The slowest of slow ins then outs, ins then outs. And it felt wonderful, warm, fuzzy, but my moans were probably telling Clark that already. And when his pace accelerated, when his finger inside of me transitioned from a stroking to a pumping, when warm hot pleasure started spreading through me, what followed it was what had to follow.

  Gently, Clark slipped out his finger and, his whole face flushed with arousal, his eyes under heavy lids, he asked me “Kristin, are you sure?”

  But this question wasn’t for my mind, not even for my mouth. It was for my body, my more-than-ready body, which pressed itself to him for its answer.

  Next he was pressing himself to me, inside of me, and we had done it. We were one. We were one pulsing, sliding, moaning, wonderfully perfect body. We were the in and out, we were the lovers, the feeling. We were free.

  He built his pace gently, kissing and kissing me, until he was sliding into me with force, ramming the pleasure deep within me, and I was moaning, and my whole body was screaming, shaking with a scream of pleasure of its own. Clark’s pleasure flowed into me and then we both collapsed back, into the silky white sheets, spent, whole, and free.

  We lay there, in the dark, cool, beautiful room, still joined, still free. He wrapped me in his arms and my last thought before drifting off, was how perfectly this had all gone, how very lucky I was.

  Chapter Nine

  Kristin

  Waking was a rude stream of light into my eyes. I blinked, rolled to the other side of the pillow, but the stream of light followed me. No, there would be no sleeping now.

  Grudgingly rising, I opened my eyes to see that the curtains were open. Clark must have opened them when he got up, which seemed pretty inconsiderate when I had clearly been trying to sleep. Where was Clark, anyway? I scanned the room, then walked out of the room into the hallway, but there was no sign of him.

  Hearing a far-off voice, I went back to the room to pull on my dress, and then went down the marble stairs in the direction it was coming from. I found Clark in a dark office room, his tense face lit up by the laptop he was furiously typing on. Catching sight of me, he smiled and nodded, before returning to his typing frenzy.

  I stood there for a moment, the heat rushing to my cheeks, wondering what to do.

  “I guess I’ll be going, Clark,” I finally said, turning on my heel to go.

  “Kristin, wait!” Clark said, and I paused.

  “You never gave me your bank account number,” he said.

  I gaped at him, at his crass easy smile, then came to the desk and scrawled it on a piece of paper.

  Putting the pen down, I looked up, only to find him focused on his laptop, typing away.

  “It was great to catch up with you,” he said to his computer.

  I said nothing. I padded upstairs, grabbed my purse, put on my bra and panties, pulled my dress over my head and left.

  As I walked away from the massive wooden house, the light streaming on my dress revealed that it was still pure white and clean. Which was funny, since I felt as dirty as ever. I felt dirty and disgusting and stupid. I felt tricked.

  The sun was beating down on me, burning in the realization that this morning made obvious, shoved in my face in all its undeniable form. Clark didn’t care for me in the slightest. I was just another distraction to keep him occupied when he wasn’t working. I was just a hit of nostalgia to beef up his already considerable ego. That was all.

  As I walked along the road, my phone rang but I didn’t answer it, didn’t even look to see who was calling. Did it matter?

  And here I had thought my humiliation couldn’t get any worse. This, here, now, having slept with a man who didn’t care for me, this was worse.

  By the time I got to the end of the forest road, I called a taxi and waited. I was in no mood for searching out a bus. I just needed to go home now.

  When the taxi pulled up, I threw myself in the passenger side. Avoiding the friendly blue-eyed gaze of the driver, I told the window my address, and then we were off. I held back my tears for the entirety of the ride, imagining the ruckus of paparazzi who would be waiting for me, who would somehow know what had happened already, who would twist the knife in my heart even more.

  It seemed like hours had passed before we finally pulled up to the curb a block down from my building and I paid the driver. I approached the building cautiously, thankful that there was no press outside. I rushed up to my apartment and with a twist of the key I had done it. I was inside my apartment, safe.

  Now that I was alone, the tears came. As I took off my shoes and sat on the floor, they rolled down my face and dribbled onto my stupid white dress.

  Romeo and Juliet, roused from their sleep, trotted up to me to demand food, which, in an unthinking autopilot, I poured out for them. Then, the only thing to do was hurry to my room and throw myself in bed.

  When I woke up it was dark out, and I had three voicemail messages on my phone. The first was from Clark: “Hey, you left without saying goodbye. Anyway, if you check your bank account, you’ll see that I transferred you the money. I had a great time with you Kristin, and I’d like to see you again. Would you be free to go away this weekend? Pack some clothes if you’re up for it!”

  After staring at my phone for a minute, I replayed the message several times, each time trying to see if I was just imagining the eagerness in his voice, the affection.

  Could it be that I had overreacted, that Clark really did care about me after all?

  I opened up my laptop and opened a browser window. In any case, first things first: I had to see if Clark had really kept his word, if that impossible sum—one million dollars—was really in my bank account.

  As soon as the page loaded, my jaw dropped. There it was, the impossible sum. Now, my bank account statement read: $1,000,075, courtesy of the big fat $75 I had had in there before. Clark had kept his word and now, my troubles were over.

  I glanced at my phone and the litany of texts I had yet to respond to, some from work friends and a ton from Veronica. Thanks to Clark’s payment, all my money problems were at least over.

  I stood up and walked over to my window and opened it. The fresh air brought me some clearer thinking, made this whole thing seem more real. Now, however, came the question of if I would take Clark up on the other part of his message—whether I would agree to see him again. He had acted rudely the morning after we had had sex for the first time—the morning after I had had sex for the first time at all—and I was angry about that.

  I replayed his message again and sighed.

  Perhaps Clark had just been unsure what to say that morning, or had had some urgent one-time business to attend to. After all, I had never asked him about what he had been doing, or even given him a chance to explain himself. Yes, that’s what I would do. I would get an explanation on Friday, and then make my decision then.

  So, I texted Clark: Friday we can meet. Where? and then set about taking a shower and getting myself some food. The shower’s hot water was another wake-up boost, the little beads of warmth relaxing me and re
assuring me that, as far as Clark was concerned, I had made and was making the right choice. The food—raisin toast with ample margarine—improved my mood even more. By the time I went back to check my phone, I was in such high spirits, that Clark’s quick response, Great, I’ll pick you up. I’m really glad I get to see you again! had me skipping around my room.

  The next few days were more waiting and avoiding. I paid my outstanding bills and then I set to getting ready. I packed and repacked my suitcase three or four times, splurged on a few new outfits to see me through the weekend, and also tried out different makeup styles on myself. Romeo and Juliet were restless too, and had taken to pacing as I did. Meanwhile, I was still getting the odd call from tabloid reporters and Veronica, none of which I answered. My clients seemed to have accepted that I would be away from work for the considerable future.

  By the time Clark’s red sports car pulled up in front of my building on Friday, I had practically gone stir-crazy from being all cooped up. So, I ran up to it and hopped in. As we took off, Clark turned to me with an easy smile.

  “I have a confession to make.”

  Chapter Ten

  Clark

  “We’re going to Cancun,” I announced, and Kristin’s smile froze in place. I glanced at my phone and continued, “In less than two hours, we’ll be on a plane.”

  Still Kristin’s face was frozen in that unnatural expression.

  “What’s the matter?” I asked and, suddenly, she burst out laughing.

  Turning to me with gleaming eyes, she said, “You can’t be serious!”

  I grinned, put my hand on her arm and squeezed.

  “I sure am. I’ve been meaning to go for ages and when you mentioned that you had always wanted to, well that settled it.” Still Kristin had that silly grin on her face, so I kissed her. When I broke away, she giggled again.

  “It’s like a dream.”

  “Oh yeah?”

  She nodded so hard her honey brown ponytail bobbed behind her.

  “Yes. My life, this, you—everything,” she squeezed my hand tightly. “Thank you, Clark.”

  I squeezed her hand back. “I’m just glad I get to spend more time with you.”

  The rest of the car ride was a sunny sing-along. I cranked up the radio, rolled down the rooftop and we sang our heads off to old rock classics that we only half-knew. By the time we pulled into the airport parking lot, we were grinning stupidly at each other.

  Taking her hand, I led the way through the huge building, which was really just a collection of massive windows laced together with metal.

  “It’s beautiful,” Kristin said, lagging behind.

  “No time,” I said, tugging her along, “We’re a bit late. I should have left earlier, but you know how work is,” I explained. My smile, however, went unreturned.

  By now, we were nearly at the gate. The flight attendant glanced at our tickets, and then shot us a you-had-two-minutes-to-spare glare, though I knew that already. On the plane, when we arrived at our first-class seats, Kristin squeezed my hand once again.

  “Wow… I’ve never travelled first-class before,” she said.

  As I sat down, I smiled at her. The way she delighted in everything, it was almost like a child, like seeing it all myself for the first time. So, this flight, I enjoyed more than any other, as Kristin proceeded to be ecstatic about the sumptuous food, drinks and stellar service.

  “How can you stand it?” she asked me finally.

  “How can I stand what?”

  “Everything being so great and perfect. I’d die of happiness if my life was like this.”

  I nodded, her words dropping at my feet like a dead mouse. I thought of Mom and Eugene, and even ever-frowning Yvonne, too.

  “Everything isn’t great and perfect, no matter how rich you are. Your problems just change.”

  “What do you mean?” she asked.

  I gazed out the window at the wispy clouds. “It’s like, no matter what you are, who you are, there will always be problems, the type just changes. For instance, I don’t always get a lot of time to spend with my family because of the work I do.”

  Kristin nodded, and then said “So you’ve made quite a lot of… sacrifices in your personal life to be professionally successful, is what you mean?”

  “Everything takes sacrifices,” I said, and then closed my eyes. Luckily my phone was on airplane mode, so I wouldn’t have to answer the barrage of texts from Sandra and the others that had been piling up since Wednesday. I should have gotten Carla to respond to them, but for some reason I felt sick every time I was about to tell her to.

  Out of the corner of my eye, I glanced over at Kristin. Now, her eyes were closed, she was sleeping peacefully.

  Yes, this trip should do the trick. I just needed to get Kristin out of my system, have my fill of her, and then I should be good to go. I should be good to go back to my old life, nice and scheduled and predictable. I couldn’t afford to feel how I was feeling now, as I looked at the sleeping woman beside me, the one who was so very beautiful, even as she slept.

  Our plane arrived in Cancun late, but only by a few minutes. Kristin slept through the landing, hardly stirring as the wheels touched down.

  By the time we finally made it off the plane, I was just about ready to pass out. So, I bought a chocolate donut, steered Kristin through the never-ending airport, and, finally, hailed a taxi.

  “The Beloved Playa Mujeres,” I told our smiley driver and he rocketed off.

  As our clunky car drove along palm-tree lined roads, Kristin rested her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. I tried to do the same, but found myself keeping one eye open, on the lookout for anything suspicious. It was ridiculous but I had to make sure that nothing bad happened to this woman.

  The journey was less-than-relaxed for me, and when our cab pulled up to one of the resort’s many tall buildings, I was alert and ready to move. I paid the driver his money, he smiled his broadest smile yet, and I took our bags and led her out of the cab.

  The marble-floored lobby was another gorgeous sight Kristin stopped to take in while I dealt with the front desk staff. They handed over the key as soon as I gave my name. Then, it was a quick walk outside to our own personal villa where we could flop onto the bed and I could finally breathe a sigh of relief. Cancun. We had made it.

  To my surprise, as we lay there, Kristin began kissing me. She gave me soft, sweet thankful sort of kisses, her adoring eyes never leaving my body.

  “I don’t know how to thank you enough, Clark,” she murmured, as her hands moved in synch with her kisses, slipping off my shirt, then my pants.

  Then, with one last shy, affectionate look at me, her kisses started making their way down my bare chest. They paused at my boxers, and she glanced up at me with a worried, frightened look.

  “What is it?” I asked, and she averted her eyes.

  “I want to… I’d like to give you a…” Her gaze flickered to my crotch, and then she shook her head, embarrassed. “But I don’t know how.”

  I nodded, stroked her hair and sat up to kiss her cheek.

  “You don’t have to if you don’t feel comfortable. But if you want to, then I can tell you how.”

  Kristin gave me a small smile.

  “You sure?” I asked, and she nodded.

  Slowly, Kristin resumed her kissing of my chest, while my pulse rocketed up with what was to come. God, her kisses felt so sincere, so hungry. Now, her hand was slipping under my boxers, sliding them down, over my feet and off. And now, this sweet sexy woman, she was crouched between my legs, face to face with my dick.

  Her kisses continued, and I felt myself hardening by the second. When she paused, I stroked her hair, told her, “Kiss it.”

  She followed my instructions, kissing tentatively, then, once she saw that I liked it, longer and harder. She paused and I said, “My balls—kiss them, suck them—gently.”

  And then—oh fuck yes—she kissed and sucked my balls, while I groaned in enjoyment. After
she was done, she paused again so I instructed her, “Lick my dick, every inch of it”, and, as she did so, and I arched my back with the pleasure of it.

  It was so hot, seeing this sweet, sexy girl with my dick inside her cheek. By now, she was getting into it, licking and kissing my dick and rubbing it all over her face, practically moaning herself, but I couldn’t wait any longer. So, I grabbed her head, and hissed “Suck it now.” And then, she did.

  Her lips locked around my dick and she slid down it, as far as it would go in her little mouth. After all the build-up, it felt like my dick was going to explode, but I urged her on. As she sucked I grabbed her breasts over her top, told her “More.” And so, she sucked on and on and soon I was on the edge, but she was pausing, looking at me questioningly.

  “Suck it, suck it as far down as it’ll go,” I commanded, and she took it in her mouth, all the way down and further. I could feel—oh fuck, yes—my dick nudged against the back of her throat.

  And then I was cumming, and she was holding herself there, swallowing it down, my hot delicious orgasm tremoring through both of us.

  Afterwards, she flopped to the side and I kissed her on the cheek. My darling, my dirty surprise, my innocent Kristin.

  “Thank you,” I said.

  “Thank you,” she said, burrowing her head into my chest.

  It was ridiculous; I was about to say, “I love you” for some reason, but I stopped myself just in time.

  Chapter Eleven

  Kristin

  Waking was a rude stream of light into my eyes. Feeling vaguely like I’d had this morning before, I blinked, rolled to the other side of the pillow and found my lips meeting Clark’s. I jerked back and opened my eyes to find him there, smiling at me.

  “Morning, sleepy.”

  I grinned, and then kissed him again.

  “So it wasn’t a dream.”

  Clark shrugged, rose, and strode naked through our luxurious suite.