The Awakening

by Colleen O'Flaherty-Hilder

  However, they could not completely suppress the Wisdom as every time a woman conceived a child, she automatically reconnected to that crystal memory – no matter how distant – of the love and nurturing of Creation so that valuable knowledge could not be overwritten entirely. But men did their best by brainwashing women into believing that they were vulnerable and therefore reliant on a man for protection. They were even told at one point that they were less intelligent, their brains were smaller and they couldn’t survive without a man. This lead to women developing a deep seated misogyny within themselves and instead of them glorifying in their bodies, minds and natural creative abilities they developed a self loathing with the erroneous and critical magnifying glass of man as their only term of reference. The subjugation of women became entrenched more and more into their memories and, later in history, when science-doctors took over the role of the elder-midwives who had imparted the mysteries of the creative process to every new mother, the very last fragments of the crystal knowledge was finally suppressed in women.

  Man’s fear of women’s knowledge stretched to their being jealous of women’s ability to produce children: to develop a baby inside her body and produce a perfect little miracle of creation – the ability to produce new life. Man knew on a deep level in his memory that all women carried the original genetic coding from the Crystalanders. They were jealous of that quality from which they erroneously felt excluded. In the early days there was no understanding of the physical human body and how new life was formed, so it appeared to be a miraculous achievement that a woman could spontaneously develop a child and deliver it perfectly. The ultimate feat from a survival point of view was the propagation of the species. Without the women there were no future generations. So, whilst it was important to have women, they were contained to just fulfilling certain needs of men.

  Women were used as brood mares. Men lusted after women without control – a throwback to their early days of survival when sexuality was a very basic and one-dimensional instinct that was a predatory act of domination. This insidious programming, unfortunately for women, would endure for centuries. Therefore, man took his pleasure where he wanted, being able to physically overpower women. The creative sexual energy was debased to the point that it was even used as a weapon of war. To secure their supremacy, when Warrior Leaders invaded a village they impregnated the women of the village to guarantee that their fear myth programming was introduced to the next generation, thus securing their power leadership for future generations.

  The Crystalanders introduced women to the many facets of creative sexuality. It was a huge project to undertake as women had become accustomed to being just physical vessels for men. Once women were initiated, they initiated men into the benefits of this aspect of Creation. Creating babies was just one small part of that whole picture. The Crystalanders also gave them the knowledge of carnal perfection and beauty so that the act of creating a child embraced and reflected the beauty of the planet and each child that was born with this programming had an innate understanding of the beauty and perfection of nature.

  This powerful creative energy, when released in the correct form, reconnected with Crystal Wisdom, which rebuilt the fragile cells of the human body. Whenever man used the creative force for the basest reasons, then he reconnected to the base primitive memory of the Shadow, the Crystal memory receded and the Shadow became dominant. And so, with each child conceived in power-lust, the more the fear myths became dominant and each generation grew up more brutal than the last. The inhabitants of Earth were on a roll of destruction – of others, themselves and ultimately the planet.

  Over the many centuries, Orla saw that women were forbidden to express their creative selves or their crystal intelligence. For a woman to survive she believed that she needed the protection and permission of a man – she needed a man to speak for her. Women passed from the control of their father and brothers and then to their husband. They could not own properties in their own right so therefore they could never escape from captivity. Mothers taught their daughters that to find a husband and have children was their one and only duty and, for a girl to find a husband, she had to be compliant. This meant making her husband feel strong, powerful, more intelligent than she, and his word was law. A brutal act of domination came with the mutilation of the most beautiful and vulnerable part of a woman’s body that was directly connected to Crystal memory. This mutilation served to replace the beauty of Creation with brutality and pain, and led to the suppression of the creative force. So eventually, that suppression and submission further eroded the Crystaland memory, the intuition disappeared and the Wisdom was lost. The reprogramming of the predator and the suppression of women’s natural creative urges was complete.

  Orla was shocked to the point of trauma at this piece of history. On Crystal Island they still practiced the laws of Crystaland where women and men shared everything equally, men and women had equal authority with each person respecting the other regardless of gender. A woman could inherit title, lands and choose not to be married if she so wished; and if she did marry, she kept her family name. She was not the property of another person and was independent in her own right. But this was not the case for the rest of the planet. The women had lost their voice and eventually they didn’t even realise that they had ever had a voice. They had become pale imitations of their former Crystal-selves.

  Because they had lost the skill of expressing themselves confidently and assertively, tears became the only form of true emotional expression for women. Women silently wept with frustration, wept in grief for their lost memory, wept for the destruction of their planet, tears of deep sadness flowed readily from the eyes of every woman. Tears were women’s only form of expressing their unconscious feelings of challenge and rebellion. Nevertheless, when a woman cried too much and too loudly, she was told that she was unbalanced and was either locked away or given chemical substances to suppress the tears. The volume of tears produced by women could have filled the oceans many times over.

  Women had no authority over any aspects of their lives. In the newly industrialised workplace, young innocent girls were subjected to the sexual whims and preferences of their overseers and when they married, they were once again subjected to the whims and demands of their husbands. And when the children come along in quick succession, they had no authority over their precious children’s welfare, no influence over how they were conditioned, allowing the perpetuation of that fear-based programming to continue unabated throughout society.

  Eventually women fought hard and suffered terrible privations for more authority over their lives and were eventually given the right to vote in the elections of governments – the first step in a very long and difficult journey that gave women the opportunity to influence what happened in their lives. Eventually they were allowed a degree of authority over the welfare of their children, but this degree of freedom was heavily suppressed by the threat of physical or mental violence from their husbands. Domestic violence was not governed by the law of the land, granting carte blanche to any husband who wished to silence his wife with menace. An important factor which eventually gave women more authority over the bodies and their lives was the ability to control when they became pregnant. Before this, women were pregnant every year of their fertile lives and, as a result, often died young. During those years, there was no time for a woman to express herself: she was worn out, reflecting the exhaustion of the planet.

  There were two great wars in the 20th century where women worked in factories carrying out the work that had previously been the domain of men. This started to break the spell of limit and constraint. In the latter part of the 20th century, women were educated and were given more senior roles in industry, but still they had deep in their memory the programming of being punished for expressing their intelligence, which created inner conflict and confusion. Whenever a woman was confronted by a man expressing the power-leader energy, there would be a ripple o
f fear echo through her survival memory, silently and insidiously catapulting her emotional response to a memory of the actions of the Warrior Leaders, which prompted her to question herself to a lesser or greater degree. This hesitation prevented her from being spontaneous – the very quality that accessed Wisdom. It was as if women were waking up gradually from a long sleep. The problem was that sleep was peppered with nightmares detailing memories of suppression, slavery and debasement at the hands of their captors, the power leaders.

  With more women in the workplace without true role models of female authority, they tried to act like the power leaders, which led to internal conflict, an imbalance in their physical and mental health and a confusion and mistrust amongst the men. Nor was it easy for women to work in industry whilst being mothers. At one period in history women were encouraged to work full time, run a home and bring up children; working right up to the time of birth and then going back to work when the babies were months old. They had been sold the myth that ‘they could have it all’ and therefore could do it all. So, although women were better educated and were doing the same jobs as men, they were mentally and physically exhausted. They were trying to do two jobs and one of them, which was the nurturing of the future generation, being the most important job for the future of the planet. They were being pulled in so many directions that they were physically not functioning well at all, leading to the disruption of the female hormones which pushed their Crystal memory further and further into the recesses of their minds. Women were mirroring how humanity was treating the planet but neither the planet nor women were designed to function this way. The structure of the workplace was a direct replica of the blueprint of the war model, which caused conflict and discord in the memory of women. Women were achieving nothing; they were too exhausted, over stimulated and distracted to make the valuable contribution to society for which they were destined. These were the individuals whose crystal programming could have allowed them to question the power leaders, question the structure of society to harness and direct the full throttle of mankind – if they could but only access their full Crystal programming.

  THE FEAR MYTH OF ADDICTION

  One of the many tragedies to blight mankind was the destructive force of addiction. Man thought that he was a strong warrior and that was the way to express power. But, they still had the crystal memory deep in their understanding and whilst it was not as dominant as it was in women, they still had a sense of abundance and joy trapped within their deep memory. There was no real joy to be found naturally in their daily lives – separation and loneliness was a feeling that was always lurking on the perimeter of their emotions. Therefore they needed to find something to silence that need to reconnect to Crystal Wisdom. The warriors in battle elevated the fear-chemicals in their body to such a high degree to give them false courage but when the fear chemicals wore off they needed something to give them a sense of peace, quickly – this substance was called alcohol.

  Orla watched as addiction started to seed itself into the minds of man. Addiction was the condition that always attracted the attention of Shadow. When man was under the influence of a substance, he was at his most vulnerable. All his crystal barriers receded deeper into the darkness of his memory as the language of the intoxicated mind was alien to Wisdom. This retreat left a gap, a vulnerable space in his emotional memory and that was all it would take for the Shadow to sink its tentacles of hatred into an individual’s memory and another meal ticket had been recruited.

  However, whilst man was plundering, pillaging and generally being brutish, there was a side to him that was crying out for expression. The more he exercised his primitive side the more the crystal side of his memory constantly tapped on the walls that imprisoned that beautiful Wisdom. This created disquiet in his being, a feeling of loneliness and separation, and there was always an underlying depression whenever they came back from a battle. The addiction to alcohol was the first in a long line of addictions that was to both control and destroy the most brilliant minds of men. There would always be that inner yearning, something missing, no matter how many battles they had won, how much gold they collected, there would still be an inner searching to fill a gaping hole in their emotions. This deep yearning was not satisfied by the material conquests of war. The part of their memory that was buried and had become calcified was still pulsing quietly at a profoundly deep level having retreated from the Shadow’s tentacles. The only way to silence the constant inner nagging of the missing piece of the puzzle of their emotions, the feeling of isolation, disconnection and sadness, was to use alcohol to fill that gap. It did the trick, never failed, but the effects only lasted a short while. When those effects wore off the deep yearnings would come back even stronger causing conflict, doubt and guilt, which was often so strong that they needed more and more alcohol to squash those excruciatingly uncomfortable distracting emotions.

  The distillation and fermentation process was given to humans to help them make the optimum use of their plants, using alcohol to release the therapeutic qualities from plants. However, greed was a component of the Warrior Leaders and the distillation produced from some of the grains gave these men such a kick of heat and energy that they used it more and more, which in turn affected their brain chemistry, calcified the crystal memory, increasingly releasing the primitive memory. Then they realised that the kick they got from the alcohol not only helped them celebrate their warrior successes by lifting them into a state of euphoria, but helped them to fight stronger, harder and longer in battle. So, the Warrior Leaders gave their troops alcohol before a battle to ignite their passion and encourage them to fight fearlessly. Even after man had become more sophisticated with his warmongering, using weaponry rather than foot soldiers, the ‘fearless warrior’ programming continued to be prominent in the memory of man and was easily triggered. When men and women drank too much alcohol in their increasing quest to recapture that feeling of Crystal joy and peace, their minds would play tricks on them releasing the ‘fearless warrior’ memory and the result was inappropriately aggressive behaviour towards each other. Examples of this were seen in every town and city of the world. The landscape of the high streets of relatively sophisticated communities changed after dark, young people would fight each other in blind aggression and the streets became primitive tribal war zones. Amazingly, alcohol was sold freely to the public even after it had been proven to ruin the minds and bodies of man. But alcohol was yet another way of controlling the masses, by keeping them slightly out of control on a regular basis, it kept them in an unconscious state during their sober hours. Humans under the influence of any addiction did not have their eyes on the ball. They were either under the influence of the addiction or in a state of recovery. The effects of taking these substances ranged from the destruction of their brain chemistry, to the poisoning of their body’s organs. Both conditions prevented humans from questioning and challenging. Their focus was inward rather than outward looking, isolating them further from the reality of their situation. Their addictions were varied and many – sugar, alcohol, tobacco, and many other substances, both legal and illegal.

  The honeybee, who had been introduced to the planet to show man how to work with nature, was another victim of this epic tragedy. When the faery world had retreated because of the inhospitable environment of Earth, it had fallen solely to the honeybee to pollinate the plants. But man had tasted the honey, and recognised that he got a quick fix from its sugar content, he also discovered the wonderful alcoholic drink that it made. The problem was that the honey nurtured the next generation of bees; without sufficient honey, the young bees did not survive which led to dire consequences for the plant life of the planet. So man set up colonies of bees where daily the hives were ‘milked’ for their honey. The little enslaved worker bees were exhausted trying to keep up with demand, and when the plant life began to diminish because of the planet’s degeneration, the bees had to travel further afield to find plants to collect the pollen, addi
ng to their exhaustion. At that time, man’s thirst for honey was rising as it was regarded as a ‘healthy’ sugar – one of the new addictions. The human body did not need sugar but a whole industry had evolved based on products made from it – another addiction that would lead to never ending physical and mental health problems. The addiction to sugar would eventually become a major contribution to man’s physical undoing.

  At that point, Whale realised that Orla was stunned by the cruelty of the information that she had witnessed and he drew her away from the viewing chamber. Her innocence had been broken and he could see she was grappling with the amount of pain that had been inflicted across the planet over the centuries. Unicorn realised that it was almost too much for her to absorb in one sitting and gently nuzzled her arm, as he felt so protective towards his young innocent charge. But she had to undergo this crash course in man’s destruction of the planet and it had to be conducted in stages as she needed to rest in between. Whale considered his little student and realised that what she was viewing was a sanitised version of the fear myths. Had she been shown the full extent of the depravity that existed on Earth, she would have been completely traumatised. Whale knew that she had been given sufficient information for her level of comprehension at that time. When she returned to Crystal Island, she would be older and would eventually discover the full extent of Earth’s cruel destruction.

  Orla was a little confused with the idea of addictions and asked Whale why humans were so vulnerable to certain substances. Whale explained that, such was the strength of the crystal memory, although it had retreated to the deepest recesses of the human mind, it could never be totally eradicated and this memory was an eternal echo in the cells of every human of the beautiful Wisdom of Creation and that echo caused a deep grieving for its loss. During the Crystaland civilisation humans had been consciously connected to pure Crystal Wisdom at all times filling their emotions with abundance. So it became a constant quest to satiate that thirst, an eternal longing for that Crystal connection. Certain substances accessed that echo of crystal joy, but it was just an echo not the real thing so it only lasted for a short while. Each time they accessed the echo, the echo retreated deeper into the memory not wanting to be exposed to the chaos and so more of the substances had to be taken to chase the echo. Addictions could only provide a temporary bridge to a paler version of that real connection.