A Clean Kill in Tokyo (previously published as Rain Fall)

by Barry Eisler

  The early arrival gave me time to shower, sleep for three hours, and enjoy an excellent room service dinner of Paillard of Veal and an ‘82 Mouton from the hotel’s Canal House restaurant. With another hour to kill before I left for the Vanguard, I repaired to the visually spectacular Grand Bar, where the ambience of the high ceilings, warm lighting, and wonderfully symmetrical black glass tables made up for an unimaginative selection of single malts and the annoying house music. Still, there’s no quarreling with a twenty-five-year-old Macallan.

  I walked the mile or so from the hotel to the Vanguard. It was cold, and I was glad for the charcoal gabardine trousers, black cashmere mock turtleneck, and black blazer I was wearing. The charcoal trilby I had pulled low across my forehead also provided some warmth, while obscuring my features.

  I picked up my ticket at 12:35 A.M., then continued walking until almost one o’clock sharp. I didn’t want to take a chance on Midori or anyone else in her trio walking past me at the back of the wedge-shaped room before the set began.

  I passed under the trademark red awning and neon sign and through the mahogany doors, taking a seat at one of the small round tables in back. Midori was already at the piano, wearing black like the first time I had seen her. It felt good to watch her for the moment, unobserved, separated by a sadness I knew she must have shared. She looked beautiful, and it hurt.

  The lights dimmed, the murmur of conversation died away, and Midori brought the piano to life with a vengeance, her fingers ripping into the keys. I watched intently, trying to lock in the memory of the way she moved her hands and swayed her body, the expressions of her face. I knew I’d be listening to her music forever, but this would be the last time I would ever watch her play.

  I had always heard a frustration in her music, and loved the way it would at times be replaced by a deep, accepting sadness. But there was no acceptance in her music tonight. It was raw and angry, sometimes mournful, but never resigned. I watched and listened, feeling the notes and the minutes slipping away from me, trying to find some solace in the thought that perhaps what had passed between us was now part of her music.

  I thought about Tatsu. I knew he had done right in telling Midori I was dead. As he said, she would have figured out the truth eventually, or it would have found its own way of forcing itself into her consciousness.

  He was right, too, about my loss not being a long-term issue for her. She was young, and had a brilliant career just beginning to unfold. When you’ve known someone only briefly, even if intensely, death comes as a shock, but not a particularly long or deep one. After all, there was no time for the person in question to become woven tightly into the fabric of your life. It’s surprising, even a little disillusioning, how quickly you get over it, how quickly the memory of what you might have shared with someone comes to seem distant, improbable, like something that might have happened to someone you know but not to you yourself.

  The set lasted an hour. When it was done, I stood and eased out the back, exiting through the wooden doors, pausing for a moment under a moonless sky. I closed my eyes and inhaled the smells of Manhattan’s night air, at once strange and yet, connected to that long-ago life, still disturbingly familiar.

  “Excuse me,” a woman’s voice came from behind me.

  I turned, thinking Midori. But it was only the coat-check girl. “You left this behind,” she said, holding out the trilby. I had placed it on the seat next to me after the lights had gone down and had then forgotten it.

  I took the hat wordlessly and walked off into the night.

  Midori. There were moments with her when I would forget everything I’ve seen, everything I’ve become. But those moments would never have lasted. I am the product of the things I’ve done, and I knew I would always wake up to this conclusion, no matter how beguiling the reverie that preceded the awakening.

  What I needed to do was not deny what I was, but to find a way to channel it. Maybe, for the first time, into something worthwhile. Maybe something with Tatsu. I’d have to think about that.

  Midori. I still listen to her music. I hang on hard to the notes, trying to keep them from vanishing into the air, but they are elusive and ungraspable and each one dies in the dark around me like a tracer in a treeline.

  Sometimes I catch myself saying her name. I like its texture on my lips, something tenuous but still tangible to give substance to my memories. I say it slowly, several times in succession, like a chant or a prayer.

  Does she ever think of you? I sometimes wonder.

  Probably not, is the inevitable reply.

  It doesn’t matter. It feels good to know she’s out there. I’ll keep listening to her from the shadows. Like it was before. Like it’s always going to be.

  AUTHOR’S NOTE

  With two exceptions, I have depicted the Tokyo in this book as accurately I could. Tokyoites familiar with Shibuya will know there is no Higashimura fruit store midway up Dogenzaka. The real fruit store is at the bottom of the street, closer to the station. And seekers after Bar Satoh in Omotesando, although they will come across a number of fine whisky bars in the area, will find Satoh-san’s establishment only in Miyakojima-ku, Osaka. It is the best whisky bar in Japan and worth the trip.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  To my agent, Nat Sobel, and his wife, Judith, for believing in me all the way back to the first iteration. At times Nat knew John Rain better than I did (this could be a little unsettling), and Rain would never have emerged as the complex character he is without Nat’s insight and guidance.

  To Walter LaFeber of Cornell University, for being a great teacher and friend, and for writing The Clash: A History of U.S. Japan Diplomatic Relations, the definitive study of its subject, which provided some of the historical foundations for the birth of John Rain.

  To my instructors, formal and informal, and randori partners at the Kodokan in Tokyo, the beating heart of world judo, for imparting to me some of the skills that make their home in John Rain’s deadly toolbox.

  To John L. Plaster, for his book SOG: The Secret Wars of America’s Commandos in Vietnam, which provided vital background on Rain’s military experience. The backstory in the novel about a South Vietnamese mole is based on actual SOG experiences as described by Plaster. In the real world, the mole was never found.

  To Mark Baker, for his book Nam: The Vietnam War in the Words of the Men and Women Who Fought There. Rain’s recounting of the massacre at Cu Lai is based on one of the firsthand accounts in Baker’s book.

  To Benjamin Fulford, Forbes Tokyo Bureau Chief, for his courageous and unrelenting reporting of the corruption that plagues Japan—corruption that acts as an underpinning for this story and that should be more widely heeded by the people it most directly affects.

  To Koichiro Fukasawa, a diplomat with the soul of an artist and the most bicultural person I have ever known, for sharing his insights about all things Japanese and for introducing me to so many of the marvels of Tokyo.

  To Dave Lowry, for his sublime Autumn Lightning: The Education of an American Samurai, which influenced my own understanding of shibumi and the warrior arts, and which provided, therefore, part of the education of John Rain.

  To the omnidirectional Carl, veteran of the secret wars, for teaching me to hit first, soon, early, and often, whose very presence got me thinking in the right direction.

  Most of all, to my wife, Laura, for putting up with my writing and other obsessions and for doing so many other things to support and encourage the creation of this book. Through countless discussions on walks and long drives, and sometimes late at night over a single malt, Laura helped me as no one else ever could to find the story, the characters, the words, the will.

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  Barry Eisler spent three years in a covert position with the CIA’s Directorate of Operations, then worked as a technology lawyer and startup executive in Silicon Valley and Japan, earning his black belt at the Kodokan International Judo Center along the way. Eisler’s bestselling thrillers have
won the Barry Award and the Gumshoe Award for Best Thriller of the Year, have been included in numerous “Best Of” lists, and have been translated into nearly twenty languages. Eisler lives in the San Francisco Bay Area and, when not writing novels, he blogs about torture, civil liberties, and the rule of law at www.BarryEisler.com.

  ALSO BY BARRY EISLER

  Novels

  John Rain series

  A Clean Kill in Tokyo (Originally published as Rain Fall)

  A Lonely Resurrection (Originally published as Hard Rain)

  Winner Take All (Originally published as Rain Storm)

  Redemption Games (Originally published as Killing Rain)

  Extremis (Originally published as The Last Assassin)

  The Killer Ascendant (Originally published as Requiem for an Assassin)

  Ben Treven series

  Fault Line

  Inside Out

  Rain/Treven combined

  The Detachment (an Amazon exclusive)

  Novellas

  London Twist (an Amazon exclusive)

  Short Stories

  The Lost Coast

  Paris is a Bitch

  The Khmer Kill (an Amazon exclusive)

  Non-fiction

  The Ass is a Poor Receptacle for the Head: Why Democrats Suck at Communication, and How They Could Improve

  Be the Monkey: A Conversation About The New World of Publishing (with J.A. Konrath)

  Available at Amazon and at Barry’s website store.

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  A CLEAN KILL IN TOKYO

  Copyright © 2002, 2013 by Barry Eisler. All rights reserved. Originally published as RAIN FALL in 2002.

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. All rights reserved. No part of this publication can be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, without permission in writing from the author or publisher.

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  Edition: January 2013