The J M Barrie Ladies' Swimming Society

by Barbara Zitwer

  Disclaimer

  Although this book refers to some real events and places, it is entirely fictionalised, and any resemblance to living persons is purely coincidental.

  Dedicated to my mother, Edith,

  who inspired this story

  “To love would be an awfully big adventure.”

  J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

  Contents

  Title Page

  Disclaimer

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Advertisement

  Copyright

  Chapter 1

  Joey Rubin paused and looked up from her drafting table. As she wandered to the windows at the back of her apartment, Tink raised her head from her basket, then flopped back down and closed her eyes. Joey couldn’t see the moon from the rear windows, but its dappled blue-grey light shone on all the neighbouring buildings, casting deep, dramatic shadows.

  It was three am and she suddenly felt bone-tired. She also realised that any more work on tomorrow’s presentation was likely to be counter-productive. Her professor in architecture school had stressed the importance of recognising this moment, when more work on a project, more thought, more ideas might actually damage a concept that was already fully realised. She crossed the space and looked at her illustration – a large watercolour of Stanway House, the historic English building that her firm was developing – and then, reluctantly, turned out the light.

  Street sounds had woken her, a sure sign that she’d been sleeping very lightly. She glanced at the clock on her bedside table – not yet six – then turned her pillow over, and snuggled back down.

  Joey had lived on the top floor of her building on Lexington Avenue, on the Upper East Side of Manhattan, for thirty-three of her thirty-seven years, and only rarely did street sounds other than passing sirens reach her ears. From July to August, when the apartment heated up like a furnace, she’d have the air conditioners in the windows going full blast. But on warm spring evenings, or when the cool autumn winds blew new life into a tired and wilting city, she loved to throw open her windows and climb out onto the fire escape that zigzagged up the front of her building.

  She had always dreamed of doing this, growing up in the apartment with her parents. She had pleaded to be allowed to sleep out there with her best friend Sarah, who lived on the third floor. She imagined them dragging pillows and blankets out of the Rubins’ front room window and settling in under the invisible stars. They would not fall off! They could put a chair across the opening at the top of the stairs so they wouldn’t roll down in their sleep. But Joey’s parents wouldn’t hear of it, no matter how old she and Sarah got, and no matter how hard they begged.

  Fifteen years ago, when Joey’s father had left for Florida with his new wife, Joey had crawled out onto the fire escape with a bottle of champagne left over from the wedding. She wasn’t quite sure what she was celebrating. Her father had given her the deeds and the extra sets of keys as though it were no big deal. That’s when she knew that he and Amy wouldn’t be coming back, and if they ever did, they wouldn’t be coming here. For the first few days, she had felt she was rattling around in the apartment. Much of its furniture was already on its way to Myrtle Beach, and most of what was left she couldn’t wait to replace. But at least the place was officially hers.

  Joey could usually talk herself out of pre-meeting nerves, especially when the real responsibility for a presentation’s success or failure rested with someone else, as it did today. But, as she fixed her coffee and breakfast, she could feel anxiety beginning to build.

  Anxiety, and something else too… Truth be told, Joey was envious that Dave Wilson, her boss, and not she herself, would be going to England to live in the house and supervise its conversion. Stanway was a place dear to her heart; the house where her favourite author, J.M. Barrie, had spent his holidays – and where he had reputedly written Peter Pan. Joey had invested a lot of herself into this project, months of design and renderings, for which – as she knew all too well – Dave was ultimately likely to get the credit.

  Joey had been with the Apex Group for seven years now, and her overall professional strategy – just be better than everyone else, and eventually people will notice – was starting to seem flawed. Anyone who knew her work knew that she could talk materials, calculate load-bearing capacities and draw irreproachable specs with the best of them. Her colleagues competed to have her on their teams, because it was widely appreciated – if never openly acknowledged – that Joey worked harder, later and longer than anyone else. And yet, rather than being singled out for promotions and raises, she found herself the perpetual bridesmaid, always in demand to support the beaming brides. Or in the case of her firm, the grinning grooms.

  To make matters worse, Alex Wilder was going to be sitting in on today’s meeting. She’d run into him just as she was leaving the office on Friday night, and over the weekend she’d spent more time than she cared to think about pressing on the bruise of this annoying development. What was he coming for? He had nothing to do with the Stanway restoration. Didn’t he have enough to do, with that neighbourhood association raising issues about the development of the Canal Street settlement? Why was he poking his nose into International, when they had sixteen projects in various stages of completion in New York City alone, on seven of which he was the principal architect?

  Six months ago, Alex wouldn’t have come near the conference room when Joey was giving a presentation, for fear of fanning the flames of the rumours that were beginning to circulate. After a year of managing to keep their relationship secret, they’d been seen by one of the secretaries, a notorious busybody, having dinner together in a restaurant in the Meatpacking District. For a month before he broke things off, abruptly and with the lamest of excuses, Joey could see curiosity and suspicion in the eyes of her colleagues. At least she didn’t have to deal with that any more.

  Joey glanced over at Tink, who was just finishing up her own breakfast, and wondered for the thousandth time which breeds of dog had contributed the DNA that defined her pet: Tink’s sweet, impatient temper; her love of digging; the ears that flopped over at the halfway point; the legs that seemed too short for her torso; the tail that curled up grandly like an acanthus leaf.

  Tink looked up and gave a little yip.

  “In a minute.”

  Joey poured her coffee into a travel mug, returned to her bedroom and pulled on yoga pants and a jacket. In the hall, she slipped Tink’s leash off the hook beside the door.

  It was freezing when she stepped outside, much colder than it had been for the past few days. Tink grandly led the way, pulling Joey toward the corner of Fifth Avenue, where vans were idling near the entrance of Neue Galerie. Joey had gone there three times to see the exhibition on turn-of-the-century Viennese art and style, lingering before the portraits by Klimt and Kokoschka, but ending up every time
on the third floor, to worship at the altar of one of her idols, the Austrian architect Otto Wagner. Studying the photographs of his buildings, she’d found herself hoping that at least once in her life she would get the chance to design something as structurally austere and yet visually playful as Wagner’s Majolica Haus.

  Tink resisted Joey’s turning onto East 84th. She wanted to go to Central Park and she put every ounce of her twenty-pound frame into the effort to pull her mistress in that direction. But Joey didn’t have time for a leisurely ramble this morning.

  As they passed the gracious brownstones that lined the block on both sides, Joey thought of the people she knew who lived or had lived within their walls: Mrs. Phelps, her mother’s friend, who smelled of cigarettes and expensive perfume and never missed a weekly visit when her mother was sick. She always brought pastry or flowers and hugged Joey too tight when she left.

  A little further along the block was the apartment where for three long years Joey had taken piano lessons from a Hungarian émigré named Frída Szabó – Madame Szabó, as she insisted on being called, who had reminded her each and every week that she had once performed a Mozart piano concerto with the world-famous conductor, János Sándor. The woman spent most of each half hour scolding Joey for not practising more, and when this had no discernible effect, finally told Joey’s parents that they were simply wasting their money. Joey couldn’t have been happier.

  Back at home an hour later, she made her final inspection in the full-length mirror. She looked … fine. No, she looked – good! A little tired, maybe, and pale. But the suit fitted her perfectly, and the Fendi boots always gave her a confidence boost. She took them off for now and folded them into her shoulder bag, to be slipped back on when she’d cleared the muck and puddles of the cross-town trek.

  Tink gave her a pitiful look, as she always did when her mistress was about to leave her alone, but Joey couldn’t think about that right now. She had exactly one hour before she would be standing with Dave in the conference room.

  Chapter 2

  Much later than she would have liked, the cab pulled up in front of an eighty-storey glass skyscraper, its uppermost floors obscured by a layer of cloud. The driver took his time counting out the change. Joey raced to the revolving glass doors, only to have to wait in a line of a dozen people trying to thread their way inside. It struck her yet again that whoever had designed this entranceway was a truly lousy architect, almost as lousy as the genius who decided that only four elevators were needed to transport eighty storeys’ worth of workers.

  Four elevator cars came and went before she was able to squeeze in. Her good mood and her composure had vanished. By the time she stepped out of the elevator car and into the hallway of the fifty-fourth floor, she was frazzled, rumpled, exasperated, sweaty and late.

  Alex Wilder was standing in the entryway as she hurried by.

  “Morning, Joey.”

  “Morning.”

  “I don’t envy you.”

  She stopped in her tracks and turned. “What does that mean?”

  Alex gave her a wry grin. She tried hard not to notice the charming, crinkly lines by his eyes, or his healthy, windswept complexion, a glow no doubt acquired over the weekend on the slopes of Cannon Mountain.

  “You haven’t talked to Antoine?” he went on.

  “No. Why?” Her stomach gave a little swoop. Something was wrong. Something was definitely wrong.

  “You’d better talk to him, ASAP.”

  “What’s going on?”

  “I’ll let him fill you in.”

  Joey sighed and glared at Alex. It was just like him, to dangle something like this in front of her and then refuse to explain. What did she ever see in him? Had he always been like this, or had he just become more evasive and manipulative in the past few months?

  “Thanks,” she said sharply then turned and hurried down the hall to the office of Antoine Weeks, the administrative assistant assigned to the Stanway hotel project. Antoine was standing at his desk, collating what were presumably handouts for the meeting.

  “What’s going on?” Joey asked.

  Antoine looked up and shook his head.

  “Dave had a accident in New Hampshire. He’s in the hospital.”

  “What?”

  Joey walked slowly to the chair beside Antoine’s desk and lowered herself into it.

  “He was rock climbing in the White Mountains, at Huntington’s Ravine. His harness failed and he fell – a hundred and fifty feet or something – into a crevasse. Shattered a kneecap and the opposite leg and dislocated his shoulder. It took them eight hours to get him out.”

  “Oh my God!… Is he going to be okay?”

  “He’s having surgery right now. But yes, okay, I think, eventually.”

  Joey glanced at her watch: it was almost ten. “So who’s running the meeting?”

  Antoine pursed his lips and opened his eyes wide. He blinked a few times.

  “No way,” Joey said.

  “You have to,” Antoine replied. “No one else knows the material.”

  “I can’t,” she whispered. “I really can’t. No way. No. I can do my little bit, but not the whole thing.”

  “Of course you can,” Antoine sniffed. “You’ve done ninety per cent of the work and we both know it!”

  “But I don’t have the files!” Joey said.

  “Everything’s in there, all ready to go. I downloaded the specs and j-pegs and cabled a Mac to the projection system.”

  “Antoine, I’m not prepared! Is Richardson in there – the guy from England? I can’t possibly stand up and do it in front of him! Why didn’t you call me?”

  “I just found out an hour ago!” Antoine said, looking a little hurt. “I figured you were already on your way. I’ve been racing around trying to get everything set up.”

  “I know, I know, I’m sorry. Thank you!”

  Joey felt her heart beginning to race. She concentrated on taking deep breaths then stood up, cleared her throat and walked out into the hallway. Antoine was right: there was no one else who was familiar with the material. She was simply going to have to do it. People would understand if she made mistakes, they wouldn’t expect every detail to be perfect.

  She glanced through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the conference room. There was Alex, installed in the position of power at the end of the massive oval table. He chose just that moment to glance out into the hall and, seeing Joey, to turn on his megawatt smile.

  “Louse!” Joey said, under her breath, returning his smile. She wheeled around and walked back to Antoine’s office. He must have seen signs of the panic she was suddenly feeling because he closed the door and steered her back to the chair beside his desk. He sat down opposite her.

  “This is your big chance, Joey.”

  “But I’m not ready.”

  “You were ready ages ago. You and I both know that and so do half the people in that room.”

  “No. You’re wrong.”

  “Look, sometimes careers are made when the soprano comes down with a sore throat and the understudy gets her chance.”

  “That’s not going to happen.”

  “Well, it should.”

  “Thanks,” Joey said.

  “Now go in there and give it your all.”

  “I guess that’s all I can do,’ she conceded glumly.

  “It’s all anybody can do.”

  Joey nodded. In her own office, moments later, she slipped off her overcoat, slid into her boots and applied a fresh coat of lipstick. She wasn’t ready, by any means, but she was as ready as she was ever going to be. She took a deep breath, walked down to the conference room and closed the door behind her.

  Forty-five minutes later, she was opening the floor up for questions and beginning to breathe easily again. She honestly had no idea how she’d made it through all the material, but somehow, she had. Whether or not it had been enough to convince the English management company was another matter. Michael Richardson, sitting right
in front of her, had given nothing away.

  “I’m curious about the East Tower,” said Preston Kay, one of the founding partners of Apex, who was now holding up a finger. “Remember, this building has ultimately got to work commercially, which means using all the available space.”

  “Of the monks’ dormitory?” Joey asked, locating the image and bringing it up on the screen.

  Kay nodded. “What do you plan to do about that?”

  Joey took a deep breath. “There are no original foundations under its walls, so there’s a real possibility of collapse.”

  “But you’re going to attempt to rebuild it?”

  “We are – attempt being the operative word. We may have to let it go, but we won’t without a fight. It was a beautiful structure, but over the centuries, many of the original stones were stripped, so they could be used in the other outbuildings and the gardens.”

  Joey pointed to the areas she was discussing, blown up on the projector screen. “Ivy growth has pushed out whole areas of the walls, and wild plants that have taken root in the holes have dislodged the crenelation. The weather’s obviously a factor, too.” She smiled and paused. Kay obviously wanted her to go on.

  “We could let the tower collapse if we wanted to, no permits required for that. If we want to rebuild it – which we’d like to at least try to do – there will be a long planning process. But remember the planners are on our side, in a way. They, too, want these old buildings to be useable, not just empty shells that look pretty.”

  “So what do you plan to do?” Kay pressed.

  “Our hope,” Joey went on, “is to use as many of the original stones as we can locate on the property. To stabilise the structure, we’ll be installing stainless steel rods and, of course, working with modern grouts and resins. Once the walls have been repaired, we’ll stage the whole tower, pin it with steel beams, pour a new concrete foundation and seal everything up tight. We plan to install three floors, and of course a new roof. The rooms will be furnished as a couple of bedrooms and a bathroom, with a small reception room – to be available for rent separately from the main part of the hotel.”